People prefer to go about their lives living out their ambitions, desires, and wants, and occasionally drop in on God's house to request that these wants be fulfilled. Nobody chooses to live to carry out God's work. They leave it to the priests, clergymen, and monks to speak to god on their behalf and get their blessings. In doing so, some begin to take the opportunity to deceive these folks and manipulate them. They begin to instill fear and apprehension in them. Agathiyar warns us to be careful. He asks that we deal directly with the soul within us that is him, too. The soul is the true guru and shall lead us to our creator. I was telling myself that I should not leave this world without knowing something about our creator and why we came. Apparently, we all shall realize this either while alive, upon death, or in near-death instances. Those who get the answers while alive are Gnanis, while the rest of us tend to find out only upon death. Then there are many who come to know these when they leave their bodies and mind momentarily. But eventually everybody knows. He either realizes the truth by himself and for himself through his experiences or by the touch of a guru, or is told, shown, and revealed by god or his apostles at death or in coma or during near-death. Similarly, one comes to know his purpose in this life while living it or during those moments of leaving the body and the earth.
If I thought that I had failed miserably in getting seekers who came over to my house since 2013 sent to watch and participate in the Siddha puja, to bring these pujas into their homes as desired by Tavayogi and Agathiyar and me too, moving away from the norm that of converging at a home or centre once a week to sing the praise of the Siddhas, a friend pointed out to me the following after I shared my disappointment with him.
Any attempt was never a failure, Uncle. It's either a step towards a better goal or a reflection of identifying the real purpose.