This journey of mine that began with my very first Nadi reading in 2002 and taking up the call to come to the worship of the Siddhas, culminated with the coming of my gurus in physical form who through Kriya helped me reach out to the Siddhas and tap into their energies and through Yoga helped me reach within tapping into the very creative energy in all of us. Today, I see myself and others as light, energy, and vibration, in various degrees of intensity. The Siddhas have made me shed seeing form and image, beginning with themselves and now with others.
This Atma or soul is basically vibration. The intensity of this vibration varies from person to person. Man or Manithan, in working towards dropping his "I" moves to become Punithan, a state that Ramalinga Adigal mentions he attained, and that which Agathiyar recently told me I have reached, too. Man then progressively makes his way up to higher states of being. In doing so, his Atma's state of vibration intensifies. It is said that the whole village could sense the arrival of Gautama Buddha. Such was the intensity of his Atma. When the Siddhas came down to be present with us during our Homam, only Mataji Sarojini Ammaiyar sensed an intense vibration akin to the ground shaking under her seat. She shared this with us, not knowing what it was. Agathiyar confirmed a couple of days later in a Jeeva Nadi reading for a devotee read by Tavayogi that the Siddhas did arrive in our home that day. That vibration was shown and felt only by Mataji. When a devotee asked Agathiyar what his true form was, he questioned her back, asking what she felt during puja and while doing charity. She told him it was a feeling of vibration or Unarvu. Agathiyar acknowledged himself as the very vibration that they felt in chanting his name, the vibration that everything around was emitting.
We come to understand that Life itself is a dance. In the documentary series "Inner Worlds, Outer Worlds - Part 1 - Akasha," we are told that,
"The ancient Vedic teachers taught Nada Brahma, the universe is vibration. The word Nada means sound or vibration. The vibratory field is at the root of all true spiritual experiences and scientific investigations. It is the same field of energy that saints, Buddhas, yogis, mystics, priests, shamans, and seers have observed by looking within themselves. It has been called Akasha, the Primordial Om, .. and a thousand other names throughout history...... In the ancient traditions of the East, it has been understood for thousands of years that all is vibration....You never see anything in its totality because it is made up of layer upon layer of vibration and it is constantly changing, exchanging information with Akasha.... everything is connected to the one vibratory source. ..."
Space resonates. The whole of nature resonates in wonder and beauty and sings a song and a tune, with the breeze blowing gently as in a Bansuri flute, the rustle of the leaves as in tapping a Kanjira, the flowing waters trying to keep up with the tala or rhythmic cycle. Even when it rains, it is the sound of music, with the thunderclaps in the distance adding drum beats to the melodious music of the rain. Temples and places of worship are spaces with a certain resonating vibration. I heard the walls of Agathiyar's sanctum at Agasthiyampalli resonate with the Pranavam AUM as I chanted the mantra. I felt the walls of Dhakshanamurthy's shrine at the top of the flight of small steps at the Big temple in Tanjore resonate as I sat in the tight space before him, chanting the Pranavam AUM. I felt these intense vibrations that overcame me, fell me, leaving me crying in ecstasy at the Dhakshanamurthy shrine in the corridors of the Madurai Meenakshi temple and again at his sannadhi at the Ekambareswarar temple. The woods, forest, and jungles, too, must have resonated to a different tune for the 69-year-old Tavayogi, for it drove him to take big steps and walk ahead as if he was possessed, never turning back to see if I was keeping up. The beat of drums, musical notes, and Kavadi Chindhu songs can bring those who are susceptible to the drum beats and vibrations to dance spontaneously, while in others, its vibrations could open up heaven and bring deities down to vocalize and bless those gathered. Underlying all these are vibrations.
A man seeking spiritual elevation and emancipation would first have to begin to work on dissolving his past karma and build positive merits and virtues to free himself from the grip of the gross and slowly bring his vibration to a state of purity, subtleness, and fineness. Annie Besant, in her talks on "The Laws of the Higher Life", Theosophical Publishing House, 1903, draws two distinct divisions of people and their brains.
The coarser vibrations of the lower world and those adapted to it are one. The others are those who are in the front of evolution and of a subtler nature...The brain has to be changed, refined, improved, its connecting links fashioned and manufactured for the purposes of the expression of the higher consciousness... Here we see a consciousness that shapes bodies according to its needs, gradually refining them and bringing them under the control of the higher. Now making the mind steady, holding quiet the powers of the mind, the mind ceases to vibrate, and it becomes still - able to answer the vibrations coming from above".
It is in stillness that God speaks. It is the stillness that is the ultimate goal.
The many excerpts that I had shared of great authors and spiritual personalities in this blog that were only information learned and picked up from the various sources, until now, after experiencing these words, have given a new life and meaning, and interpretation since then. What were the experiences of my gurus and others that were shown, shared, narrated, and told to me as I traveled holding their hands have now taken a new dimension as I gathered my own experiences walking the journey on my own. As Mahindren told me just moments ago when he came over, it is time we explored the path on our own. Indeed, the Nadi readings have come to a halt; the frequency of Agathiyar coming through devotees is rare and apart. It is now time I told my story. Agathiyar too told me once to halt referring to others and begin to share my experiences henceforth, referring to the changes and transformation that went on internally. I guess this is what and where Ramalinga Adigal arrived at, too, and told his story through the collection of songs that came to be known as the Thiru Arutpa.