AFTER THE SECOND PILGRIMAGE
Further Surprises In The Nadi
19th December 2005 - Ramesh, the nadi reader, told me he had news for me from Sage Agathiyar’s Aasi Kandam. Before I went to India, I was informed in the nadi what to expect. It was unbelievable at that moment. I am still wondering why me? Do I deserve it? Could it be a mistaken identity? Could the nadi be for someone else? So then I leave for India following the directions given in the nadi. Whatever stated in the nadi did take place. Now upon returning back to Malaysia, Sage Agathiyar lays bare all those incidents that took place in India as if to confirm and tell me it was for real. It was truly amazing.
25th December 2005 - Maran, a friend of my nephew Thayalan calls me to say he had just seen Ramesh that morning. Maran tells me my name appeared in his nadi. I was to brief him on my experiences and sights that Sage Agathiyar had given me while on my trip to India recently. I was amazed to hear Sage Agathiyar mention this in Maran’s nadi. I asked Maran to meet me at Thayalan’s home that evening. I told Maran all that I had seen and had been shown and asked him to make the trip too as soon as possible.
27th December 2005 - I called Ramesh stating my surprise that my name had been mentioned in Maran’s nadi. He repeated the reading in Maran’s nadi to me: “I have shown certain sights and visions to my son Shanmugam. You should come. I will show you too”.
More Amazing Moments
I called Tavayogi on the 28th May 2006. The first thing he asked was if Sage Agathiyar came? Tavayogi again assured me Sage Agathiyar was with us. Later I pondered as to why Tavayogi should ask if Sage Agathiyar came unless Sage Agathiyar did actually come! I asked my family members if they saw Sage Agathiyar or dreamt about him. My children didn’t see. Mages replied she could have seen him but quickly added she wasn’t sure. Then she narrated the incident. I was doing the Ammavasai Pooja while Mages was meditating outside the prayer room. Suddenly she saw a light. For a moment she did not hear Praba and me singing hymns in the prayer room. She was lead away to this source of light. When her thoughts deviated from the source it was forcefully brought back and she saw the light again. She thought she saw a figure in the light that she could not make out. Could that be Sage Agathiyar, we asked ourselves? To confirm I called Tavayogi again and Mages spoke to him. She had not even gone into the details when Tavayogi assured her Sage Agathiyar came and she saw him. Blessed is she to have seen Sage Agathiyar.
2nd June 2006 - My family and I were at prayer at 6 pm. We started singing Vinayagar Agaval, Tiru Arutpa Agaval and Kandha Guru Kavasam. Midway through Kandar Guru Kavasam I broke down in tears but managed to complete the song. Later Mages asked us if she had laughed during prayer. We didn’t hear her laugh. She tells me someone was laughing in her. It was a male voice and he was overjoyed. This was just before I stopped the song midway, she says. Sathanandha Swami authored the KANDAR GURU KAVASAM. One of Supramania Swami’s guru was also Sathanandha Swami. Supramania Swami had his father Jayaram Pillai for a guru. Then there was Sri La Sri Pundi Mahan (Atru Swami), Yogi Ramsuratkumar (Visiri Swami), Sathananda Swami and Kolli Malai Swami.
Could they be the same person? Did my guru’s guru author that song?
6th June 2006 - I called Supramania Swami. He was on his way back from Annamalaiyaar temple with his wife. He had performed ‘archana’ for me at the temple. I cried when he said, “You shall be fine”. He asked me not to cry and added, “No harm will befall you. Why should you cry? I am here. You are my child. I prayed to Arunachaleswarer to take care of you. One’s past doings might give problems. I shall not leave you alone to fight this battle”.
Jayaseelan had an appointment with astrologer Dr. Krishnan. He asked that I follow. Krishnan on seeing me asked if Sage Agathiyar came? I replied, “Yes” and thanked him again for the ‘yantra’ and ‘mantra’ that he gave me. He answered, “It was time for you to know him”. He went on to describe Sage Agathiyar. According to him the Sage was not the short hermit that he was portrayed in most paintings. The Sage was of medium height, fair and beautiful. The Sage had taken the form of a short hermit for a mission. The full moon day (Pornami) was auspicious for the worship of the Sage.
Tavayogi too had told me the closest representation of the Sage was in one painting released by the Sage Agathiyar Gnana Peedham. This painting and another of the other siddhars was given to me by Appana and blessed by Tavayogi earlier at the Peedham in Batu Caves. Sage Kunangkudi Masthan has described Sage Agathiyar in a song: Sage Agathiyar of reasonable height, fair adorns a ‘Kridam’ over the head and he wears a garland of flowers. How could Tavayogi and these sidhas describe the Sage unless they had seen HIM?
Tavayogi And Me
19th June 2006 - Tavayogi mentions in a letter to me that among all his disciples, he has a special spot in his heart for me. I am blessed indeed. He also says the website that I created and hosted on the Peedham had attracted the attention of a Canadian. In one of the e-mails to me a Caucasian wrote that he was ill and crippled and was on his way to India seeking treatment. He asked if Tavayogi could help. I replied I have not personally seen Tavayogi heal people but he could try meeting Tavayogi. He could see Supramania Swami too. Otherwise he could meet Swami Nithyananda of Bangalore and I prayed he would be healed. This man eventually turned up at Tavayogi’s Peedham. But Tavayogi later told me he could not help him.
When I read a biography of Yogi Ramsuratkumar in the net recently, I could see the resemblance to the relationship between Tavayogi and me perfectly. The author writes,
‘The master (Swami Ramdas) knew the Truth and the Way and knew as well that there was nothing he could say to provide a short cut for the disciple (Yogi Ramsuratkumar). By the law of occult causation all progress on the path must be won by the individual through personal effort. Thus one who knows the way cannot speak; understanding that the aspirant constructs the path much like the spider spins its web out of its own being. In the relationship established between Yogi Ramsuratkumar and Swami Ramdas, there was little philosophical thought or practical guidance given. The rapport between the master and the disciple was on much subtler levels involving not so much principles of truth as the use of higher forces in bringing about actual transformation.’
Tavayogi did mention I was hasty in my journey to know God. He did not ask that I sit in front of him and lecture me for hours on spiritualism. Neither did I question him on those subjects. What he gave me was practical guidance. He did not preach much but instead got me on the path of the sidhas. I was taken to the jungles of Kangayam, Pothigai, and Courtalam. I had the rare opportunity to visit these spots and stay overnight in some of these caves, which I would not have done if I were touring on my own. I was taken back in time to places where modern means of transport could not reach, where there were no facilities such as in the modern world. This was one experience of going back in time to live in hamlets where there was no water supply and electricity. I realised the rapport between guru and disciple was on a much subtler level indeed, as mentioned by the author of the biography on Yogi Ramsuratkumar, by the use of higher forces, in this case the workings of the sidhas, in bringing about actual transformation.
Swami Nithyananda too says, "No communication will happen here - only a deep communion between you and me". The saints in Nithyananda’s words: "Speak about something which cannot be spoken about".
On the subject of subtle forces, it was said that:
Bhagawan Nithyananda of Ganeshpuri made a similar statement towards the end of his life. It appears that there were many signs of his impending passing but his devotees were mostly unaware of them. One woman devotee properly interpreted some of the signs and was distraught to learn of his plans to depart. He said to her, "Why are you crying? Don't cry. More is possible on the subtle than on the gross"
Tavayogi was living in the dark moving with the aid of hurricane lights, torchlight and the moonlight. Only recently the Peedham was connected with electricity and water.
One had to ease in the bushes although in Kallaru we had a latrine put up especially for foreign devotees-the locals don’t use it preferring to go into the open, bathing in the streams and falls.
Another paragraph in the same biography of the Yogi, describes the exact state I am in:
‘After lifetimes of seeking out worldly experiences, and understanding, a man turns him back to the phenomenal worlds, and begins to search his inmost being in an effort to realize the source of spirit from whence he sprang and to which he must return. Gradually through the constant impact of dull and unadventurous lives he becomes insensitive to the vibrations of the outer physical worlds, within which he is a functioning entity. He becomes aware of the interior spiritual vibrations and proceeds to journey inward to the kingdom of the soul. The outer world loses its desirability whereas the formless spirit nature assumes paramount importance. The individual reoriented himself to the higher mind and thus begins to touch upon greater awareness. Yet with his sensitivity still in but an embryonic state, spiritual struggle, hardships, and merciless trials of endurance assail him. The waters of purification crash down upon him, and threaten to carry him deep beneath the surface of the waves. But with the advent of soul consciousness, he stabilizes himself in spiritual life wherein he is responsive to the vibration of the subtler realms and directed by the purposes of the soul’
Just as it happened to the Yogi, as narrated above I underwent this same emotions too.
‘Ramsuratkumar once explained that some days all was clear to him, and he felt as if he was standing in the highest heaven, and he knew he was a son of god. While at other times he was dragged down from pure ecstasy into the depths of abysmal gloom’
After coming back from my second trip to India I could not fit into society anymore, my family and friends. Suddenly we did not have anything in common. There was hardly any conversation. I tended to stay away from functions, gatherings, and the crowd. I wanted to be alone. I felt miserable that the people should fall further into this chaotic order of the world. I sympathized with them. I prayed that they too should realized there were bigger things in life just as Bharathi had begged of the Divine Mother, “Mother! Please release me from this petty things in life’.
More Guidance Through The Nadi
Ramesh called me on Friday, 11th August 2006 immediately upon his arrival in Malaysia, telling me he had news and he would call later to fix an appointment once he finds a place to rent. He told me, “You shall cry in joy on hearing what Sage Agathiyar has to say in these nadi”.
Finally Ramesh asked me to go over for the nadi reading on Saturday 9th September 2006. The Aasi Kandam was read. Ramesh took some time to make a transcription of the nadi into a notebook in my presence. While I waited I burst weeping as I saw Sage Agathiyar's portrait and Saint Ramalingam’s portrait. Ramesh who was writing stopped writing for a moment and read out the line that he had just copied. To my amazement the Sage was watching me. The Sage revealed my thoughts in the nadi in real time. Now I was convinced even further that the nadi was not written way back in time but was being written even at this very moment. It was truly amazing. I cried further as Ramesh started reading the full text of the nadi. To my amazement again the Sage Agathiyar asked me stop crying, “Cry no more, for if you were to cry further my son, than I too would have to cry”. I stopped crying since then. In the earlier reading the Sage had mentioned that I should ‘walk tall’ so that he too could walk tall. Supramania Swami had mention that I should do ‘tavam’ so that he could gain ‘mukti’.
Guru pooja For Sage Agathiyar
7th January 2007 - I conducted Guru Pooja or Jayanthi for Sage Agathiyar in my home. I had been asking around when was Agathiyar’s Jayanthi since reading the nadi in 2002. But sadly no one could help. Then Tavayogi tells me in 2006 that the Jayanthi will fall on Ahilya Natchathiram in the Tamil month of Margazhi and that was on 6th and 7th January 2007. He wanted to celebrate it in a big way. In January Tavayogi sent me the program of the celebrations in Kallaru. I invited Kathi’s family, Thayalan’s family and Murali’s family. Mages broke down during the prayers. I cried but eventually turned to laughter. Thayalan sang a couple of songs. Tavayogi told me he would conduct the prayers at exactly 8.20 am on the 7th and asked that I start prayers exactly 2 ½ hours later allowing for the time difference. I started at 10.50 am. We then served food.
Reading The Nadi Again
11th January 2007 - I called Ramesh. He had just arrived from India that morning. He told me he has the nadi prediction of Sage Bhrigu and Lord Murugan and asked that I come over on Saturday to have it read out to me. He was surprised to see its contents, he told me, and that I would be overjoyed too.
13th January 2007 - I was with Ramesh. But today it was Sage Bhogar’s Aasi Kaandam that carried the message for me. I realise the messages in the nadi are in a state of fluid, ever evolving such as we are from day to day. In my opinion the nadi is being written there and then in our presence. The sidhas talk about the state of mind at that very moment. It sounds eerie doesn’t it? It is frightening to know there is someone reading over minds right at this moment. The sidhas are around us this very moment. The key word here is to have faith in them. BELIEF!
20th January 2007 - I headed for Ramesh’s place to have my nadi read again as I was instructed to come in every week to have a reading. Each of the sidhars would predict what was in store for me as instructed to them by Sage Agathiyar. Today it was Sage Sugabrahma who blessed me through the nadi.
27th January 2007 - I was sad that I would miss this weeks reading of the nadi because I had to be in Ipoh over the weekend for my nieces wedding. Surprisingly when I called Ramesh to inform him I would not be seeing him, he tells me he was also in Ipoh and asks me to come around. Sage Bhrugu Munivar delivered the nadi .
Subsequently I went to see the nadi a total of 18 times to date (29th August 2007). Besides Sage Agathiyar, Sage Bhogar, Sage Bhrugu Munivar, Sage Kagabujandar, and Sage Tirumular too have blessed me through the nadi. What have I done to deserve THEIR blessings, I still wonder?