MY GURU 2

In stripping me of all my readings, worship, and practices for some 14 years beginning in 1998, in removing all the obstacles in my way beginning in 2001, in having me drop whatever little I held on to in 2005, the Siddhas came to fill me in with their rituals, practice and wisdom. I moved from Sariyai to Kriyai, Yogam, and Gnanam. In bringing even these rituals and practices to a halt in 2019, they left me naked and empty. They have brought me to a state where I can chart and set spiritual goals and see them through. But would I want to do that, adding on to the clutter that already exists in the material, religious, and spiritual?  A friend and I, in a phone conversation, both agreed, as he told me, after he realized the sad state of affairs, that there was an overdose of advice and practice. We all need to declutter, not take on more trash.

In running away from this hectic, materialistic world, we tend to be caught in another web, coming to the religious and spiritual side. More regimes, teachings, advice, practice, etc. We seem to keep on packing more and more stuff into our bag that we brought along, already filled with our past karma, desires, vasanas, wants, likes, etc. We go along picking up tools and methods, stuffing them into the bag, and struggling to carry it with us.  

I see why Agathiyar, after having given me these experiences too, asked that I drop all this luggage and weight. He has set me free. He has set my mind free. I am free to soar the skies. He does not have any tasks for me. Neither does he expect anything from me further. He just let me be. 

It reminds me of the song "Let It Be" by The Beatles.

When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness, she is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
And when the broken-hearted people living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted, there is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be, be
And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light that shines on me
Shinin' until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

(Source: Musixmatch)

It reminds us of Sadhu Om's songs, too.

I shall hold on to my friends and reader's understanding and words.

To interfere too is not wrong for 

Yet even the Pasam, in Saiva Siddhantam, is not ultimately opposed to Shiva. It is the very material through which Shiva works.

Pasu — the bound soul — experiences Dharma and Adharma as lived realities within the 36 Tattwas. 

Niyati and Kaala — Shiva’s instruments of cosmic justice and time — ensure that even the consequences of Adharma are not wasted. 

and that, 

Every stumble, every fall, every wrong turn is quietly, precisely, and compassionately being folded into the curriculum of liberation.

We shall hold to the belief that God loves us.

That even their own failures — their own moments of Adharma, their own darkest hours — were held all along within Shiva’s love, and were never, not for a single moment, outside His grace. 

In Love’s governance — nothing is wasted. No soul is abandoned. No darkness falls outside the reach of His light.

No soul is abandoned. No darkness falls outside the reach of His light.

They break us, and piece it all together. 

..the sincere seeker who — having walked the path of Dharma with full sincerity, full effort, and full surrender — has arrived at a moment of deep stillness, and is now ready to receive the larger truth:

Dharma and Adharma both occur within His being — the way waves both rise and fall within the ocean, without ever disturbing the ocean’s own nature.

It is a revelation about the nature of the One who governs. And it is given — as all the deepest teachings of Saiva Siddhantam are given — not to the intellect, but to the heart that has been sufficiently broken open by sincere practice, genuine love, and the boundless grace of the Guru.

I guess I shall keep watching and say nothing, for all is fine and well, though we might think otherwise and be moved to interfere. Let those who see the need to move or interfere do so. It is also right. As we are told "All is Well," let us just "Let it Be".