Many of the words that were held in high regard in the past, such as Samadhi, Mukti, and Siddhi, have lost their genuineness, with each claiming to have attained these states. I too have followed suit in making such a claim. I wrote in the previous post that Agathiyar worked hard on me, bringing me to realize my Soul or JeevAtma, and bringing me to realize my oneness with him, Agathiyar, the Param, ParamAtma, Sivam, and attain Mukti in this very birth, spending the rest of my days in peace as a Jeevan Muktan. But this was what I was told. Unless Agathiyar was also part of this world of Maya or trickery, I would not know if I was being led on into believing it. Tavayogi, at the onset itself in 2005, had alerted me of Maya. Lord Muruga came to alert me of the divine play of Lord Muruga, Agathiyar, and Lord Indran in 2024.
A Siddha is always associated with and said to possess supernatural abilities known as Siddhis. One can be a Siddha without even having mastered Siddhis or what is commonly seen as magic. Just as when we asked to know his origin and he brushed it off, asking us what good that would be to us, similarly I tend to ask the same regarding Siddhis. Of what good would the act of performing Siddhis be to us in current times? The light is turned on with the flick of a switch. Why would we want to walk on water when we can engage a boatman?
Rather than yearn to learn and perform Siddhis, the greatest Siddhi one can do is to bring this gross body of his to that of the state of Light. I am looking forward to the day when we hear that someone has turned himself into Light. All the rest is a show and for publicity. Looking up to Tavayogi, he told me honestly that he had missed the boat. Agathiyar tells me that Jnana Jothiamma, too, had given up. Then he asked me to share what it takes to reach that state in a memo a day before we at AVM gathered to usher in Guru Purnima of 2024. As it closely followed my journey, I asked myself if he was using me as a role model. If yes, then the question arises whether I would make it there. Only time can tell.
As of now, I am asking how I made it this far, for until today I cannot bring myself to sit in meditation and Dhyana; what's more, to go into a state of Samadhi. I have not traveled out of this body during these times, though Lord Muruga said that he would show me the other worlds while my body remained here and bring me back. Though Agathiyar had revealed much in the Nadi readings, saying I had attained certain states, it is all news to me too. Though I can vaguely deduce after reading up on these states, I cannot ascertain for sure what he means or if this is what he meant.
If Agathiyar said that there are noticeable changes in my speech, walk, and dressing, changes in the voice, youth, aura, and clarity, I am scratching my head if these are true. When he said, "We are delighted to see your Kundalini Sakti arise" in 2007, it was yet another piece of news until the day I fell and slithered like a snake in 2019. It was only after he came to explain that this was the Kundalini moving in me that I could understand. I learned that day that one has to experience it to understand what is told.
When he said that the light from the third eye had emerged, that too was puzzling news. Then he said that the Suzhumunai and the top (of the head) too had opened. This too was news. He went on by saying that he shall draw the seven veils and have me see the Jothi that would make me complete in all manner and aspects and pave the way to attain the Soruba state. All this was unimaginable. I could not figure out what he was saying, although I researched some aspects of the awakening of the Kundalini. I knew again that I had to experience them to know. No amount of reading shall bring on an understanding. He said that I was on the fringe of attaining Gnanam and that the top has opened. He added that the third eye shall shine, and I had seen Sadasiva.
But I eventually came to understand the process, though it was not comprehensible, when I felt the heat, discomfort, pain, misery, and suffering that came as a result of the said opening of the Muladhara and the subsequent awakening of the Kundalini that lodged, stagnated, and pooled at the Svadishtana for some fifteen years. During this time, the most compassionate Agathiyar did not have me cry out in pain and give up. As my wife says, he comes to our call. We are deeply grateful to him. Dhanvanthri came to heal me. Lord Muruga also came to treat me.
Then in 2022, he released the pent-up energy to travel the remaining chakras and settle at the crown of the head, causing the Sahasrara to bloom, opening up its 1000 petals. I cannot comprehend their love, kindness, and compassion shown towards us. What deeply shocked me was when Agathiyar said that he was indebted to me. I wept like a child. I could not comprehend in what way or manner he was indebted to me. It was I who was indebted to him for life and the many lives to come later.
Agathiyar then came in a Nadi reading on 21.2.2026 to sum up my life and the state I was in, which sort of indicated and brought to a close my journey for this birth.