Yesterday, I had a surprise visitor from outstation who was in town and wanted to drop in at AVM. By Agathiyar's grace, the family of four ended up performing their very first homam and returned home contented. We all agreed that it was all Agathiyar's doing. Watching a handful of followers of Fa Lun Chi Kung in the park this morning I addressed their master later as Sifu. He replied he was not a Sifu and that there was only one Sifu, the grand master. It reminded me of Tavayogi showing us to Agathiyar rather than self-proclaiming himself as one. Such humbleness reminds me again of Bhogar who replied to Agathiyar that he knew nothing but only him. When living gurus expect so much of protocols and respect, Agathiyar pops in and out as he pleases. He can come right amid a conversation, either physically through a devotee or through the phone. He surely is making use of all the gadgets and technology available to reach out to us. Just as Velayudham Karthigeyan Aiya of the blog "Sitthan Arul" shared that Agathiyar told him that one's face should be forgotten, similarly, Agathiyar wants me to stay away from the public and remain unknown.
Agathiyar can be loving and compassionate he can also be the strictest dad taking his staff or the cane to reprimand us. But know that he is harsh at times because of his love for us, not wanting us to while away and waste yet another precious human birth. Agathiyar saw it timely to close AVM just months before the pandemic reared its ugly face fearing that when a cancer had spread in another affiliated movement it would spread into AVM too. It was the fate of AVM or Karma. If it was our Karma that was the reason for this birth and sufferings and pleasures as revealed in the Karma Kaandam of the Nadi reading, coming to worship and travel with him, Agathiyar later tells me that for want of certain experiences and learning he had cleverly executed the chess pieces and checkmate us, taking responsibility partially. Now he tells us everything, good and bad, is his doing taking the blame solely and entirely. Which guru would do that? Agathiyar does. It is like in Jesus taking on our sins God himself takes our place. Tavayogi in asking to ignore the long list of remedies given to my daughter in her Nadi reading, I believe, took on her Karma. When we completely surrender Agathiyar takes on our sins and karma but cautions and warns us not to repeat them again. From living out my Karma, Agathiyar pushed me into undesirable circumstances that we would generally avoid for want of even those experiences, now he says it is entirely all his doing, taking the blame for everything. In other words, he is taking on the Karma that would arise with each action of ours. In telling us to go ahead and that he shall be with us, he has completely wiped out the term Karma and its affliction in our lives. Agathiyar who initially had us walk a round of remedies, then told us to forgive ourselves and others, and that he too shall forgive us, now is taking away the remaining guilt from our hearts to make it pure to receive the grace of Arutperunjothi.
From bringing us into action to recede into inaction and recede further into silence, he has killed the Ego. If I had only read the Bhagavadgita a few pages, Agathiyar brought us to experience the epic in real life. As Krishna tells Arjuna that the Kurukshetra war was all laid out and planned by him, asking what was he wailing about at having killed his flesh and blood, Agathiyar tells us that it was all planned before. We were merely instruments executing them. This reminds us of Sadhu Om's songs based on Bhagawan Ramana's teaching that conveys the same. Karma is real only as long as we think we're in charge. The moment we come to the understanding that it is all his will, Karma, and with it, the "I" or "Doer" disappears. It is only existence after that. Plain existence. We begin to fit the role given and purpose. We shall have no likes or dislikes. We won't plan. There is no ambition. We just exist. When even our names have been written in the Nadi thousands of years ago it makes us wonder and ask what is truly our doing? Balachandran asked me after his first Nadi reading if his name was already mentioned in the Nadi, purportedly said to be written thousands of years ago, how can we claim that his parents named him? In asking me to drop the identification to name and body, he is asking me to drop the identification to our other relationships, seeing another as a wife, husband, child, etc, and instead to see all as a soul, nameless and bodiless. Does the tree judge? Does the bird judge? Only man who has the following faculties outlined by Thomas Suski at https://www.themindguy.net/article/6-faculties-mind, that of perception and imagining, thinking, reasoning and analysis, judging and intuition, and willpower. Besides these man can have beliefs, and opinions, and has experiences, understanding, and learn lessons from them. All techniques and practices are to discipline us. One who is disciplined sails the seas pretty fast and smooth.
Nature is silent. In silence it gives. Just as nature is connected to everything Agathiyar tells me that the silence that prevails beneath all the noise and sounds connects each individual. He asked me to remain silent and in silence connect with all of Prapanjam and tell his story.