Thursday 30 April 2020

PRANA, KARMA & EXPERIENCE PART 3

The impression of experience is the finest remains of karma says Mahesh Yogi. All our experiences are relative to the outside world, carries with it our judgment, opinions, etc but going within these experiences has no comparison for it is just a journey of Being. The mind that disengages with the external transcends all fields of relative experience becoming one with the Being. No longer conscious. It becomes the cosmic mind. When Abhirami Pattar went into this state he did not realize that he had replied to the king that it was a full moon when in actuality it was pitch dark. The cosmic mind spoke then. The divine came and actualize his words bringing a full moon on an amavasai night. The Yogi says this state of attributeless absolute existence lies completely beyond imagination or any intellectual conception or understanding.

The world is a playhouse or a stage and we are all dolls or puppets, driven by karma that carried out by the mind which is fueled by prana, the first expression of cosmic intelligence or cosmic mind. Hence we understand why Agathiyar who spelled out my past karmas, my deeds, and my mistakes was quick to add that it was all his doing so that I could experience those too. So it does not come as a surprise to us now when Ma, Aiya, and Agathiyar have been continuously telling us that we need to experience life. When Agathiyar exposed my past deeds he quickly added that it was to gain experience and learn lessons, consoling me that even that was his doing, removing the guilt from me. The most compassionate father takes ownership of all our faults, not wanting to see us suffer further. And he tells us to surrender all the actions that come our way henceforth to him too. The most compassionate father told me to carry out several remedies that took the form of giving donations and visiting temples and brought me to perform the homa in my home telling me these acts would help counter the karma earned from these deeds. He then came to reside as the bronze statue and later came to reside permanently in this statue. These days he speaks through his devotees. He brought us to Sariyai, Kriyai, Yogam, and recently started us the path to attain Gnanam.

Agathiyar says he is prapanjam and in it, and that the prapanjam is in him. Hence he is this Being in a sense. In Yogi's words, "Nothing is without it. Everything is it." The Yogi states that any process to end karma would result in the state of Being, reveling in the glory of Being. "The life of an individual and that of the cosmos is being created, maintained, and dissolved by the force of karma in the relative field apart from the realm of pure Being." So when karma stops, Being is. When the veil drops, Being is.

The Yogi speaks of a technique of minimizing the activity of experiencing and eventually transcending the subtlest field of activity, arriving at the state of Being. This is what Lord Muruga told Arunagiri. This is what Agathiyar is bringing us to do too. Bringing us to close all the groups he brought us to minimalize all activity in the world, and ask to go within where the activity of a different kind and more subtle shall take place, a solo journey of discovery that vary from person to person. Mahesh Yogi speaks about the techniques of minimizing the force of karma, something that Agathiyar too shares with us in a Nadi reading. The trick here the Yogi says is to engage the mind in the field of action and yet simultaneously live a life of eternal freedom in the bliss consciousness of absolute Being becoming a Jeevan Mukta, thus "bringing together the values of the absolute and relative existence."

As the Yogi says that the expansion of happiness is the purpose of creation, our true nature is bliss. Everything else is false. Everything else is a covering, a veil, a mask that of Maya. The mask is been made of past karma, desires, and ego. We begin to see the world around us through this mask. Others too tend to see only our mask. The true bliss is within hidden in the secret and sacred space deep within the hearts of men. As the wind blows and shifts the curtain to allow the ray of sunlight in, we do get a glimpse of this bliss, by the grace of the guru. The bliss that is eternal or பேரின்பம், in the field of transcendent, and everlasting, is superior to that of momentary joy in the relative field of activity or சிற்றின்பம். Hence we are asks to spend time dwelling into the state of bliss and with repeated practice, we tend to bring this state to the field of relative experience transforming ourselves and all who come in contact. When we get connected to another, be it God, nature, the grass, the green, the sunlight, the wind, a song, the music, the food, the aroma, the lover, the wife, children, or friend, anything might rekindle this feeling of bliss. The moment we meet someone dear to us, a joy of happiness kindles and blooms in us; the moment we open the window and the first breeze of the morning cold air that brings with it the prana rushes in and brushes across your face; the moment the first rays of light is seen emerging from the sun that has just come up over the mountains; the moment you touch the tiny fingers of a newborn child, etc, are truly moments of bliss. 

Drop the veil and the bliss of our true nature is seen. Unfortunately, we are shrouded with this veil that we keep adding on to each day with experiences and outcomes of interaction with people and things; events, happenings, and issues. We should be shedding it rather than add on the tiers. We do not cherish bliss or happiness until we lose them. We do not cherish freedom until we are caught and jailed. Only a Prisoner of War (POW) would know the meaning of freedom. As a resident of a flat in a housing area that came under total lockdown during this time voiced out, “One very good lesson I have learned is never to take freedom for granted. This has been a real eye-opener.” We take for granted all the goodness that we enjoy now. Take it away and we come to realize how dependant we are all on it. We cherish freedom now in these trying times of lockdown that has curbed our movements. Cherish all that you have while you can. It won't be around long. Neither will you and I. 

PRANA, KARMA & EXPERIENCE PART 2

Swami Rajarshi Muni in Yoga" – The Ultimate Attainment, Jaico Publishing House, 2004, describes the blooming and replication of karma into further action and karma.
During each earthly existence, a soul creates innumerable karmas in the form of thoughts, words, and actions. These karmas leave behind corresponding subliminal impressions that are carried forward with the subtle body from one life to the next. When these latent impressions become activated at opportune moments in the present life, or in a future life, they awaken into desires, which then amass volitional energy sufficient to lead the soul to perform new karmas. Thus the karmas of the present life lead to the karmas of future lives. They establish a continuous and unending chain of causes and effects.
Annie Besant, Bhagawan Das and Satguru Sivaya Subramuniyaswami have written about the triple nature of each karmic action as revealed by ancient yogis.

The first is Samcita, the sum total of past karma yet to be resolved. Samcita is the accumulated karma of the past and is partly seen as mans' tendencies: the character, his/her powers, capacities, and weaknesses, that came to be made through his/her many births.

From the midst of the Samcitas is selected a portion, Prarabdha and, at the time of the beginning of the body, time energizes this portion for reaping and which cannot be avoided but must be experienced in the present life. Prarabdha is only exhausted by being experienced. That, which has begun, is actually bearing fruit.

Vartamana or Kriyamana, the third type is karma that which is now being created. That karma is being done. The actual, that which is now being made for the future, or the coming karma.

Although we do not have control of the first two, we definitely can chart the third. But yet the most compassionate father Agathiyar comes to show us the way to manipulate the first two and takes our hand in helping to chart the third. So why does Agathiyar reveal each person's past on the onset of every reading for seekers? Paramahansa Yogananda throws some light. "Knowledge of the law of karma encourages the earnest seeker to find the way of final escape from its bonds." Understanding karma will show us a way not to create further karma. Paramahansa Yogananda in his "Autobiography of a Yogi", Self Realization Fellowship, 1990, writes,
Karma is not a finished thing awaiting us, but a constant becoming, in which the future is not only shaped by the past but is modified by the present.
Who has this knowledge of the past but the Siddhas and some gurus. Ram Das in "Path to God - Living The Bhagavadgita", Harmony Books, 2004, mentions that his guru could see the whole pattern of life evolving.
Maharajji could see the whole pattern evolving. When you’re at that stage, you see in advance the direction the karmic waves are taking, and you know exactly why it’s all happening the way it is.
Association with the Godly men brings us to understand the subtle world that envelopes and surrounds us, although most of us most of the time are not aware of its existence and influence. They through devotion or bhakti are known to modify the effects of karma. Satguru Sivaya Subramuniyaswami attests to how devotion does wonder in the devotee and sadhaka. The grace of the divine that is derived through devotion, melts the karmas, in various stages, and in various chakras finally burning it in the fire of tapas or austerities and meditation.
Planetary changes activate new karmas and close off some of the karmas previously activated. The magnetic pulls and the lack of magnetism are what jyotisha (Vedic astrology) is telling us is happening at every point in time. These karmas then wait in abeyance, accumulating new energy from current actions, to be reactivated at some later time. These karmic packets become more refined, life after life, through sadhana. All of this is summed up by one word, evolution.
Bhakti brings grace, and the sustaining grace melts and blends the karmas in the heart. In the heart chakra the karmas are in a molten state. The throat chakra molds the karmas through sadhana, regular religious practices. The third-eye chakra sees the karmas, past, present and future, as a singular oneness. And the crown chakra absorbs, burns clean, enough of the karmas to open the gate, the door of Brahman, revealing the straight path to merging with Siva. 
Paramahansa Yogananda in his "Autobiography of a Yogi", Self Realization Fellowship, 1990, conveys his master Sri Yukteswar's message on the means to nullify the effects of karma.
By a number of means - by prayer, by will power, by yoga meditation, by consultation with saints, by use of astrological bangles - the adverse effects of past wrongs can be minimized or nullified.
Ram Das in "Path to God - Living The Bhagavad Gita", Harmony Books, 2004, shows that dropping the idea and notion and thought that I am the "doer" does not attach oneself to the results and fruits of his action.
If we want to get done with it all, its clear that the first step in the process is to stop creating new waves. We’re never going to be finished if we keep making new waves for ourselves everyday. Once we’re acting purely out of dharma and not out of any desire, we’re no longer making waves. When you've totally surrendered to your dharma, when you’re no longer trying for anything, that’s your way through."
Dr. Hiroshi Motoyama in "Karma and Reincarnation", Piatkus, 1992 suggests the same.
Dissolving karma through learning detachment - non-action within action i.e. acting out the unfolding of one’s day to day life continuously but without attachment to the results of the action.
Eknath Easwaran in "Dialogue with Death - A Journey Through Consciousness", Jaico Publishing House, 2002, says the same too.
If we can learn not to act on a samskara by severing the connection between stimulus and response, that particular chain of karma will no longer have a hold on us. 
Just as Lao Tze asked that we go with the flow, harnessing the power of nature, and not to oppose but neutralize those that oppose him, Agathiyar teaches us to neutralize karma. Annie Besant and Bhagawan Das in "Sanatana Dharma" by the Theosophical Publishing House, 2000, write the same.
A man who knows the law of nature utilizes those whose forces are going his way and neutralize those which oppose. The laws of nature state conditions under which certain results follow. According to the results desired conditions may be arranged, and, given the conditions, the results will invariably follow. Hence the law of nature does not compel any special action, but only renders all actions possible.
This gives us hope. To substantiate this fact, an excerpt from Sogyal Rinpoche's "The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying", HarperSanFrancisco, 1993,
Karma, then, is not fatalistic or predetermined. Karma means our ability to create and to change. It is creative because we can determine how and why we act. We can change. The future is in our hands, and in the hands of our heart. As everything is impermanent, fluid, and interdependent, how we act and think inevitably change the future. We must realize that every moment in our life, every joy and every sorrow, can be traced to some source within us. There is no one “out there” making it all happen. We make it happen or not happen according to the actions we perform, the attitudes we hold and the thoughts we think. Therefore, by gaining conscious control of our thoughts and attitudes by right action, we can control the flow of karma.
Lama Surya Das in "Awakening the Buddha Within - Tibetan Wisdom For The Western World", Bantam Books, 1997, says,
Every moment we are presented with the possibility of changing the future. By thorough understanding of karmic causation and skillful means we can become free. We change, and our future changes too. This is the truth. This is karma. We are responsible; the lever of our destiny remains in our hands.
Again we are told that the lever is in our hands. Annie Besant and Bhagawan Das in "Sanatana Dharma" by the Theosophical Publishing House, 2000 simplifies the theory.
The main thing to see in karma is not a destiny imposed from without, but a self-made destiny, imposed from within, and therefore a destiny that is continually being remade by its maker.
Dr. Hiroshi Motoyama in "Karma and Reincarnation", Piatkus, 1992 examines karma further.
Karma is basically a result of the spiritual ignorance of the self that mistakenly believes it is an independent entity. As long as the self functions in this state of ignorance it is imprisoned in a continuous process of death and reincarnation within the dimensions of reality that are governed by the law of cause and effect.
Paramahansa Yogananda in the "Bhagavad Gita", Yogada Satsanga Society of India, 2002 says.
Man has the divine gift of free choice, which he can use properly or improperly, to his benefit or harm. Animals, not subject to individual karma, are under the sway of group or mass karma. An animal’s life is predestined; man’s is not.
Satguru Sivaya Subramuniyaswami in "Merging with Siva - Hinduism’s Contemporary Metaphysics", Himalayan Academy, 2005 enlightens us on our purpose in coming.
We bring just a certain portion of our karmas to live through in this life, called prarabdha karmas. Karmas left to be worked out in another life are in seed stage, inactive. So, here we are, with our two suitcases of karma, and the idea is to go through life and come out the other end without the suitcases. Unless we have dharma, which we are committed to and live fully, which has the restraints, we would fill up the suitcases again.
How is this done? How do we shed this karma and walk away leaving the suitcases behind, completely emptied of the baggage we brought along? We look towards Satguru Sivaya Subramuniyaswami to enlighten us further. We go back to what the Swami told us earlier.
When we cause a traumatic disruption within ourselves or within others, the action is imprinted in the memory patterns of the muladhara chakra. The seed has been planted and will remain vibrating in the depths of the mind even though consciously forgotten. We carry it over from life to life, from birth to birth until one day it blossoms into the fruit of our action-reaction. 
There are thousands of things vibrating in the muladhara chakra, and from those memory patterns they are going to bounce up into view one after another, especially if we gain more Prana by breathing and eating correctly. When meditation begins, more karma is released from the first chakra (muladhara chakra). Our individual karma is intensified as the ingrained memory patterns that were established long ago accumulate and are faced, one after another, after another, after another.
In our first four or five years of striving on the path we face the karmic patterns that we would never have faced in this life had we not consciously sought enlightenment. Experiences come faster, closer together. So much happens in the short span of a few months or even a few days, catalyzed by the new energies released in meditation and by our efforts to purify mind and body, it might have taken us two or three lifetimes to face them all. They would not have come up before then, because nothing would have stimulated them."
The Swami metes out three ways that one can handle karma. The first approach would require us to "begin the tedious task of unwinding these multitudinous patterns through performing daily sadhana."
Each next step will become quite obvious to you as you begin to find that you are the writer of your own destiny, the master of your ship through life, and the freedom of your soul is but yours to claim through your accomplishments of your yoga.
The second approach is done "in deep sleep and meditation."
Seeds of karma that have not even expressed themselves can be traced in deep meditation by one who has many years of experience in the within. Having pinpointed the un-manifested karmic seed, the jnani can either dissolve it in intense light or inwardly live through the reaction of his past action. If his meditation is successful, he will be able to throw out the vibrating experiences or desires which are consuming the mind. In doing this, in traveling past the world of desire, he breaks the wheel of karma which binds him to the specific reaction which must follow every action. That experience will never have to happen on the physical plane, for its vibrating power has already been absorbed in his nerve system.
Agathiyar has told me several times to ignore the pain and discomfort that comes along with the numerous practice he and my gurus gave, brushing it off lightly. In fact, at one instant he told me this was bliss.

In the third approach "past actions are re-enacted through the actual intense reactionary experience and working within, conquering inner desires and emotions."
When something happens to you that you put into motion in a past life or earlier in this life, sit down and think it over. Do not strike out. Do not react. Work it out inside yourself. Take the experience within, into the pure energies of the spine and transmute that energy back into its primal source. In doing so, what happens? You change its consistency. It no longer has magnetic power, and awareness flows away from that memory pattern forever. You could remember the experience, but your perspective would be totally detached and objective. This is the most common way karma is resolved, in day-to-day experiences. The full force of the karmic experience comes, but because of his present goodness and previous blessings earned through control of his intellect, he receives the experience as a minor wound. This seed karma is worked through within himself in this way.
This is what saints have been doing. When the Siddha Pattinathar was accused of stealing jewels belonging to a temple, the local king had him tied to a post and whipped, the Siddha took it on him without protest. He accepted it as God's will. When Yogi Ramsuratkumar was set upon by mischief makers and beaten up, he accepted it as God’s will. His constant advice was to remain satisfied with whatever situation one found oneself in, realizing that it was part of the Divine will. He used to say, "In truth, there is only one will at work and that is Father’s will. It is therefore perfect, good for the individual, humanity, and the cosmos." Similarly, when thieves broke into Bhagawan Ramana Maharishi’s ashram and beat him up he received the blows without defending himself. Tavayogi has reminded me not to oppose happenings but to submit to it. Annie Besant and Bhagawan Das describe this quietude on one’s part as merely choices to let past choices have their way, and to go in accordance with them. He simply chooses to do nothing. Again we are reminded of Lao Tzu too to go with the flow.

From Henry Wei in the "Guiding Light of Lao Tzu", Synergy Books International,
So much emphasis does Lao Tzu lay on the most important doctrine in regard to spiritual cultivation known as Wu Wei or non-action which is in the sense of non-interference, that is to say, non-interference with the trend of nature or the flow of Tao.
The Tibetans accept karma as a natural and just process. Karma inspires them to be responsible in whatever they do says Sogyal Rinpoche, hence not accumulating further new and fresh karma. Sogyal Rinpoche beautifully concludes that, "Karma, then, is our best spiritual teacher. We spiritually learn and grow as our actions return to us to be resolved and dissolved." Karma like experience teaches us lessons.

For us the cycle shall never end or so it seems, for karma lies in the ever-changing field of relative existence. To the men who have given themselves to the divine, it seems eternal only if seen in the perspective of the ever-continuing cycle of action experience and impression as explained by Mahesh Yogi. Satguru Sivaya Subramuniyaswami sheds some light on them.
After the realization of the Self, Parasiva, the forces of dharma and previous karma still exist, but through the force of the realization of God, much of the impending impact of karma has dwindled, and it is faced differently, treated differently. Prior to the experience of realization, karmas were dealt with in individual increments. After the realization, the sum total is seen. Spiritual destiny is realized.
Karma that once stood in their way of God-realization is removed. Fresh karma is then dissolved immediately. Karma waiting to germinate is roasted in the fire of their tapas.
One does not have the experience of realizing the Self until all of his karma is in a state of resolve. When this begins to occur in him, he actually sees that man is not man, man is the Self, God, for his karma and the forces of his dharma have begun to become transparent to him. Through the power of his realization, the karma is created and simultaneously dissolved. This occurs for the one who lives in the timeless state of consciousness. If one were to realize the Self each day, he would live his life like writing his karma on the surface of water. The swamis who renounce the world and do tapas are trying to burn the seeds of the karmas that they did not bring with them in this life. They set fire to the whole house. They renounce the world and put restrictions upon themselves that others don’t.
Paramahansa Yogananda says,
In Nirbikalpa Samadhi the yogi dissolves the last vestiges of his material or earthly karma. Nevertheless, he may still have certain astral and causal karma to work out and therefore takes astral and then causal embodiment on high vibration spheres.

PRANA, KARMA & EXPERIENCE PART 1

There is one Being, "the absolute existence of unmanifested nature," says Maharishi Mahesh Yogi in his "Science of Being and Art of Living", a Meridian book, 1995. The Yogi says "its tendency to vibrate and manifest is referred to as prana or in other words, Being vibrates by virtue of prana and manifests." Its expression is prana. All the rests both seen and unseen is then an expression of prana. As the Yogi mentions, "assuming a subjective nature Being becomes mind and assuming an objective nature it becomes matter", prana is seen underlying and driving all of creation. Prana as life force creates, sustains its creation, and rather than take an active hand in destroying its very creation it takes leave, leaving its creation to die, rot, break down and return into its individual elements.

"The one Being without undergoing any change in itself multiplies and diversifies in creation. The absolute being assumes the role of relativity. The unity appears as multiplicity." The irony of creation is that while the creator or the absolute is eternal in its never-changing status, its creation and its relative diversity of its creations is eternal too though in the context of its everchanging nature. From one becomes two. From unity came forth duality. One single cell divides into two identical daughter cells through the process of Mitosis, for the purpose of growth and to replace worn-out cells and through another process called Meiosis, a single cell divides twice to produce four cells containing half the original amount of genetic information as in sperm in males and eggs in females. (Source: https://www.yourgenome.org/facts/what-is-mitosis)

The absolute or unmanifested Being and it's relative or manifested creation both present themselves to us each moment. Both are eternal but in their respective realms, planes or dimensions. The poet Kannadhasan pens a lovely song for the Tamil movie "Thiruvilaiyaadal", giving form and expression to these manifestations.


ஒன்றானவன், உருவில் இரண்டானவன்,
உருவான செந்தமிழில் மூன்றானவன்,
நன்றான வேதத்தில் நான்கானவன்,
நமச்சிவாய என ஐந்தானவன்,
இன்பச் சுவைகளுக்குள் ஆறானவன்,
இன்னிசை ஸ்வரங்களில் ஏழானவன்,
சித்திக்கும் பொருள்களில் எட்டானவன்,
தித்திக்கும் நவரச வித்தானவன்!
பத்தானவன், நெஞ்சில் பற்றானவன்!
பன்னிருகை வேலவனைப் பெற்றானவன்!
முற்றாதவன்! மூல முதலானவன்!
முன்னைக்கும் பின்னைக்கும் நடுவானவன்!
ஆணாகிப் பெண்ணாகி நின்றானவன்!
அவை ஒன்று தான் ஒன்று சொன்னானவன்!
தான் பாதி உமை பாதி கொண்டானவன்!
சரி பாதி பெண்மைக்குத் தந்தானவன்!
காற்றானவன், ஒளியானவன்! நீரானவன் நெருப்பானவன்!
நேற்றாகி இன்றாகி என்றைக்கும் நிலையான
ஊற்றாகி நின்றானவன்! அன்பின் ஒளியாகி நின்றானவன்!

"That cosmic intelligence or creative power which is the nature of Being generates prana out of itself, hence starting the process of creation and evolution", with a purpose, says Mahesh Yogi. He reveals, "Expansion of happiness is the purpose of creation." Nature was happy till man encroached, invaded, raped, plundered, and enslaved her for his selfish needs. We turned into monsters and miserable beings, losing the happiness that we knew once existed in us.

We understand from the Yogi that the absolute Being through creation executes its divine play where the target is towards evolution or expansion of its being-ness. Thus we are products of the absolute Being finding ways to expand back into its majesty and expansiveness. Having initiated its play or creation the Being remains true to itself while watching its expansion take place through its creation. It is like watching the prana expand in us as we inhale the air mindful that the prana that created us and drives us is also traversing and traveling through each pore in the skin and cell in the body, akin to God watching his manifestation in joy, fathers watching their offsprings and lineage make headway in their lives.

P.Karthigayan in his "History of Medical and Spiritual Sciences of Siddhas of Tamil Nadu", Notion Press, 2016, tells us that the soul is the bridge between the spirit and the body. As Mahesh Yogi says that "assuming a subjective nature, Being becomes mind and assuming an objective nature, it becomes matter", could the soul be the innocent consciousness or mana satchi or witness that serves as a link between the subject, the spirit and the object, the physical body? Is the soul an extension of the Being then? Can we then safely assume karma as an expression of prana too?

As to the age-old question as to whether the chicken came first or the egg and whether the tree came first or the seed that is still being debated, the Yogi says "it can only be said that the seed is the cause of the tree and the tree is the cause of the seed. Which started the cycle cannot be ascertained." Then the Yogi puts forth the question of whether karma existed first or the mind existed first. We are told that karma is the machinery that moves the world and all of creation. We also know that prana is the life force that moves the world and all of creation.

The Yogi equates the mind to the waves in the ocean and the prana to the force in the wind that blows across the ocean's surface or the unmanifested absolute Being. "Karma acts as the force of the wind to produce a wave of the mind in the ocean of unmanifested Being." Karma creates the mind and the mind then brings on or about new karma. Since the mind is born of karma, and karma is born of the mind, the mind creates karma and so does karma create the mind. Could the mind be a continuation of the karma of the past life then?

"Karma is inert", the Yogi says. "This inert karma supplemented by the life force prana gives rise to the mind." Through prana it is connected with the unmanifested Being. So our minds and the absolute are connected. So it comes as no surprise when Agathiyar can read our minds and knows us from tip to toe. Prana manifests as mind. "Prana is the first expression of cosmic intelligence or cosmic mind", says the yogi. The mind created karma that necessitated a birth, the mind in the present birth gives rise again to karma. "The instrument is karma, propelled by prana, carried out by the mind."

Satguru Sivaya Subramuniyaswami clearly spells out Karma, its origin, its effects and recommendations to reduce, nay to absolutely rid of karma in his book "Merging with Siva - Hinduism’s Contemporary Meta Physics", Himalayan Academy, 2005,
"Every action, every effect, in the universe has been preceded by a specific cause or set of causes. That cause is in itself an effect of prior causes. The law of karma is the law of cause and effect, or action and reaction. When we cause a traumatic disruption within ourselves or within others, the action is imprinted in the memory patterns of the muladhara chakra. The seed has been planted and will remain vibrating in the depths of the mind even though consciously forgotten. We carry it over from life to life, from birth to birth until one day it blossoms into the fruit of our action-reaction. Since we have forgotten our past life and are only left with the pranic reverberations deep in the memory cells, we don’t know the causes. In fact, there seems to be no cause for many of the things that happen to us in life, no reason or justification. This can be frustrating. However, that is karma."
We sometimes cannot understand why certain events are taking place and they seem to be beyond our control. It is frustrating indeed as the Swami says. This is where the Siddhas come to our aid. As we do not have the ability or capacity to recollect our past, they help us by revealing them to us through the Nadi. The Siddhas are gifted with the Siddhis to look into the past, the present, and the future. This is what the Siddhas reveal too in the General Canto of each person who seeks to know his Nadi, where he is told about his past birth and subsequently his past karma. As for me, upon realizing my mistakes I had regretted and began to do charity and service, which brought on blessings. Hence the reason for taking this birth. But as the curses were brought forward too and continued into this birth, I saw obstacles placed in my path. Similarly, for one who has a yearning towards spiritual realization, he has to first know the obstacles that shall hinder him from achieving his goals. Agathiyar in the Gnana Canto, told me that although I would come to engage myself in worship and prayers, heeding to the agamas, worship Lord Siva and Agathiyar, and engage in practices initiated and blessed by the guru, I shall not excel in my spiritual ventures and practices as my karma shall come on as a stumbling block. Only when the karma is reduced can man approach God. It is an important aspect of the spiritual path.

Sogyal Rinpoche in his book "The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying", HarperSanFrancisco, 1993, mentions,
The results of our actions are often delayed, even into future lifetimes; we cannot pin down one cause, because any event can be an extremely complicated mixture of many karmas ripening together.
Hence I am right in assuming that this birth is a result of a combination of factors and karma that is accumulated over two or more births. If my earlier birth in Kerala impacted my present birth throwing obstacles on my path, the seva I did for Agathiyar while at Papanasam must be bringing me his blessings to counter an otherwise miserable life. If Karma both good and bad, is the catalyst that starts the ball rolling initiating the cycle of life and death, then it looks like my bad karma in my past birth in Kerala and my good karma in another birth in Papanasam had jointly contributed to this birth and this life where I have a good life thrown with some occasional obstacles and disappointments. This explains the occasional upheavals in an otherwise good life of others too.

Eknath Easwaran in his "Dialogue with Death" - A Journey Through Consciousness, Jaico Publishing House, 2002, quoting the Hindu and Buddhist mystics, says that "we have come into this life expressly to fulfill our unfulfilled desires, which as unconscious drives or samskaras, shape everything we do. The slightest thought has consequences, as does the slightest act. Over the years it is the sum of all these consequences, large and small, that shapes our lives. Nothing that he says, thinks or does is without consequences. Thoughts are the very source of our karma, for from our thoughts flows everything: words, actions, desires, decisions, and destiny." He reminds us that "Karma is not imposed by some cosmic lawgiver outside us."

Monday 27 April 2020

KARMA & BIRTH

Only after coming to Agathiyar did I learn about karma. He spoke about it in my very first Nadi reading. Before revealing the Karma or Parikara Santhi Canto, he started with the General Canto. After the formal salutations to Lord Ganapathy, Agathiyar began to reveal the General canto for a son. He described my thumbprint. He charted my horoscope, stating the planetary positions at the time of birth. He went on to confirm details about my family, career, etc. He told me that I was fated to come seeking the Nadi at the age of 44.

He spoke about the fault in the stars and flaws in the positions of the planets during my birth. Today I understand it as the exact date and time of birth is determined and picked so as to align with the planets such that they would either shower their blessings or lay obstacles in our path according to what we deserved. Hence he asked me to engage in doing certain agamas to appease the planets. By doing them, he said it would give rise to spiritual clarity and advancement. The shortcomings will be overcome by the grace of the divine. He envisioned a future that incorporated spiritual thoughts, social service, and temple worship. He predicted that I shall take ill when I am in my sixties, shall succumb to breathing difficulties and faults in the heart. But the dangers shall fade away by engaging in agamas. By his grace, I am moving on to 61 this year. If I sail through this kandam or obstacle unscathed and manage to survive I could live till my eighties.

It is interesting to know that a stranger who was to turn sixty the following day, somehow managed to secure my telephone number and called me on the eve and asked if he could join in our home prayers. I invited him over. Later he told me that Agathiyar in the Nadi reading in February of the year had asked him to participate in a Siddha puja before he turned sixty. He ignored the call for reasons only known to him. He only came in November, a day before his birthday, in desperation and fear I suppose. He had called and contacted many centers aligned with the worship of the Siddhas but none did rituals. He left satisfied and happy after we performed a homa and abhisegam for Agathiyar. A year later he calls me and enquires if I knew a particular Nadi reader in India. I blew my top. I asked him where had he been for the past year and asked if he would only come to Agathiyar when faced with danger. The first time he sought Agathiyar was when his son took ill. He frequented a local peedham associated with Agathiyar hoping his son would recover. After his son recovered, he stopped going over. After two years he turned up at my home. After participating in the puja he went missing only to call me again to ask if I knew any Nadi reader in India. I refused to entertain him. It saddens me to see people use Agathiyar for their needs and dump him after Agathiyar saves them. The least they could do was to thank him by worshipping him at their homes. Most see him as an astrologer. Never seeing him as the divine compassionate Father. Period.

After the General Canto, Agathiyar comes to reveal the reason for this birth in the Karma or Parikara Santhi Canto. Agathiyar reveals my past births that propelled me to take birth again. Having taken birth in Kerala as a priest, I was doing seva in the temple. But I befriended certain bad hats and tortured the poor treating them as slaves. I had altered the ways of the Veda and incurred the wrath of the elders. I earned the wrath of the adiyar or servants of God too by making them suffer. Realizing my mistakes I had regretted and began to do charity and service, which brought on their blessings. Hence the reason for taking this birth. But as the curses were brought forward and continued into this birth, I saw obstacles placed in my path.

To my surprise, in the Jeeva Nadi reading in the possession of Tavayogi and now with Mataji, in 2016, Agathiyar mentions yet another birth of mine at Papanasam and says that my family was together with me then too. We were fruit sellers and used to serve the fruits to Agathiyar there before beginning our daily sales. Hence this birth was given in recognition of us serving Agathiyar daily.

I can only deduce that this birth is a result of a combination of factors and karma that is accumulated over two or more births. If the earlier birth in Kerala impacted my present birth throwing obstacles on my path, the seva I did for Agathiyar while at Papanasam must be bringing me his blessings to counter an otherwise miserable life. If Karma both good and bad, is the catalyst that starts the ball rolling initiating the cycle of life and death, then I can safely say that it looks like my bad karma in my past birth in Kerala and my good karma in another birth in Papanasam had jointly contributed to this birth and this life where I have a good life thrown with some occasional obstacles and disappointments. This would explain the occasional upheavals in an otherwise good life of others too.

But the most compassionate father provides the means and the way to overcome these obstacles too. He lists certain agamas to be carried out. Firstly I was to pay homage to the Nool or Nadi that carried and brought to me this revelation and gave clarity and reason for taking birth. After receiving the grace of its authors, the Siddhas, Agathiyar sends me to pay my respect to Lord Siva, and donate to his servants; pray to Lord Muruga lighting a light; pay my respects to the trinity at Utamar temple, and give handouts to their servants, and finally pay my respects to Lord Siva at Tiruanaikaval, and Saturn at Paalur. These would help ease my karma.

In the Diksa Canto, Agathiyar lists certain parikaram or remedies to help remove the obstacles further. He asks to chant Lord Ganapathy's mantra 108 times for 48 days. By worshipping the Siddhas, and Lord Siva, I could expect a better life, adds Agathiyar.

When Sivabalan who brought Senthilkumar over to Malaysia, initiated me to read my Gnana Canto, mentioning that it was a rare canto, not available for many, I followed his calling. I was one of the lucky ones to locate it and read it. But before reading it Senthilkumar left us to do a prayer before continuing, something that baffled me.

Agathiyar in the Gnana Canto, told me that although I would come to engage myself in worship and prayers, heeding to the agamas, worship Lord Siva and Agathiyar, and engage in practices initiated and blessed by the guru, I shall not excel in my spiritual ventures and practices as my karma shall come on as a stumbling block. But Agathiyar brings relief by pointing me to the worship Lord Siva at 4 of his abodes and ultimately arriving at the final destination the fifth that shall be Tiruvannamalai. I shall need to make sure I was there on a full moon day to circumambulate the holy hill. After worshipping Lord Siva and Lord Muruga at Tiruvannamalai I needed to head to Palani.

Agathiyar did not desert me because of my karma and its strong hold on me to the extent that it came between me and the divine and robbing me of the blessings waiting to be showered on me. So strong is the hold of karma that even the divine cannot extend its help immediately to his devotee. Even after having pacified the planets and its lords, the gods and goddesses, doing charity and parting with a small portion of our earnings, yet the karma holds a tight grip on us.

But before this was possible, I needed to engage in Deha Suddhi or cleansing the body, internally, through the practice of Vaasi or Pranayama. Agathiyar goes on to explain how it is done. "Chose the hour of Brahma or Brahma Velai, 2 hours before sunrise to practice the sadhana. Ensure both the Ida and Pingala are flowing freely, clearing the passages by doing Nadi Suddhi. The practice of Nadi Suddhi aids to clear the blocked passage. Then begin to worship the breath, bringing it to settle naturally. With Diksa from the guru, you shall excel further in this practice." Agathiyar reveals that I shall meet my guru unexpectedly. He arranged for me to meet my very first guru Supramania Swami at Tiruvannamalai fulfilling his prophesy that I shall meet him unexpectedly. Agathiyar consoles me saying that the guru's upadesam that shall come along my way will help rid all the karma that stands in my way as obstacles on my spiritual path. Besides his upadesa Agathiyar shall come through the Nadi too to guide. He asks to chant the names of the 18 Siddhas. He says all the answers that bring clarity to life's mysteries are within him. We only need to connect with him to receive the answers to all these mysteries.

Now he comes to speak about my mission that of helping and assisting others in building temples and finally build one for him. Agathiyar asks to engage in service towards the public which will bring an upliftment. He asks that I carry out the practices mentioned and that he shall see me in two years' time.

When I met Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal in 2005 who came to Malaysia to officiate a local chapter of his peedham in Kallar, I told him that it was time I saw the Nadi again as Agathiyar had instructed. Tavayogi pointed me to Nadi Nool Aasan T.Ramesh. Hence began a beautiful relationship between the spiritual guru and disciple and also the Nadi guru and his client.

I had complete faith and belief in the Siddhas and their word. There were many interesting revelations on the aspects of life that prompted me to research deeply their teachings. The subject of Karma was one of them. Much has been written about it in these posts,

https://agathiyarvanam.blogspot.com/2014/05/if-one-were-to-follow-episodes-posted.html
https://agathiyarvanam.blogspot.com/2014/05/karma-part-2.html
https://agathiyarvanam.blogspot.com/2014/05/karma-part-3.html
https://agathiyarvanam.blogspot.com/2014/05/karma-part-4.html

But one question was never answered till now? If birth is the result of our cumulative past actions or karma, what was the first action we did that necessitated us to be born?

Isaignani Ilaiyaraja penned a song questioning how he got separated from Lord Siva from his abode and suggests that he took birth here due to a desire and was now finding his way back home.



We have seen such episodes portrayed on the silver screen when Devas and other higher beings, for instance, sighting a beautiful maiden on earth break their vows and are forced to come down to the earth to live an earthly life before returning to their abode in the heavens etc. Was this how it could have started?

Ramalinga Adigal though lists an extensive list of possible acts that could have brought about birth in his Manumurai Kanda Vaasagam at http://www.vallalar.org/Tamil/V000000076B



'மாதாபிதாக்கள் செய்தது மக்களுக்கு' என்னும் பெரியோர் வார்த்தையின்படி நான் செய்த தீவினையே என் புத்திரனுக்க நேரிட்ட தென்று நினைத்து என்னை வெறுத்துக்கொள்ள வேண்டுமென்றாலும், இந்தப் பிறப்பில் என் புத்தியறிந்து ஒரு தீங்குஞ் செய்ததில்லையே! இந்தப் பிறப்பில் இல்லாவிட்டாலும் முற்பிறப்பிலே

நல்லோர் மனத்தை நடுங்கச் செய்தேனோ!
வலிய வழக்கிட்டு மானங் கெடுத்தேனோ!
தானங் கொடுப்போரைத் தடுத்து நின்றேனோ!
கலந்த சினேகரைக் கலகஞ் செய்தேனோ!
மனமொத்த நட்புக்கு வஞ்சகஞ் செய்தேனோ!
குடிவரி யுயர்த்திக் கொள்ளை கொண்டேனோ!
ஏழைகள் வயிறு எரியச் செய்தேனோ!
தருமம் பாராது தண்டஞ் செய்தேனோ!
மண்ணோரம் பேசி வாழ்வழித்தேனோ!
உயிர்க்கொலை செய்வோர்க்க உபகாரஞ் செய்தேனோ!
களவு செய்வோர்க்கு உளவு சொன்னேனோ!
பொருளை இச்சித்துப் பொய் சொன்னேனோ!
ஆசைகாட்டி மோசஞ் செய்தேனோ!
வரவுபோக் கொழிய வழியடைத்தேனோ!
வேலையிட்டுக் கூலி குறைத்தேனோ!
பசித்தோர் முகத்தைப் பாராதிருந்தேனோ!
இரப்போர்க்குப் பிச்சை இல்லையென்றேனோ!
கோள் சொல்லிக் குடும்பங் குலைத்தேனோ!
நட்டாற்றிற் கையை நழுவவிட்டேனோ!
கலங்கி யொளித்தோரைக் காட்டிக்கொடுத்தேனோ!
கற்பழிந்தவளைக் கலந்திருந்தேனோ!
காவல் கொண்டிருந்த கன்னியை அழித்தேனோ!
கணவன்வழி நிற்போரைக் கற்பழித்தேனோ!
கருப்பமழித்துக் களித்திருந்தேனோ!
குருவை வணங்கக் கூசிநின்றேனோ!
குருவின் காணிக்கை கொடுக்க மறந்தேனோ!
கற்றவர் தம்மைக் கடுகடுத்தேனோ!
பெரியோர் பாட்டிற் பிழைசொன்னேனோ!
பக்ஷியைக் கூண்டில் பதைக்க அடைத்தேனோ!
கன்றுக்குப் பாலு‘ட்டாது கட்டிவைத்தேனோ!
ஊன்சுவை யுண்டு உடல் வளர்த்தேனோ!
கல்லும் நெல்லும் கலந்து விற்றேனோ!
அன்புடையவர்க்குத் துன்பஞ் செய்தேனோ!
குடிக்கின்ற நீருள்ள குளந் து‘ர்த்தேனோ!
வெய்யிலுக் கொதுங்கும் விருக்ஷ மழித்தேனோ!
பகைகொண்டு அயலோர் பயிரழித்தேனோ!
பொதுமண்டபத்தைப் போயிடித்தேனோ!
ஆலயக் கதவை அடைத்து வைத்தேனோ!
சிவனடியாரைச் சீறி வைதேனோ!
தவஞ் செய்வோரைத் தாழ்வு சொன்னேனோ!
சுத்த ஞானிகளைத் து‘ஷணஞ் செய்தேனோ!
தந்தைதாய் மொழியைத் தள்ளி நடந்தேனோ!
தெய்வ மிகழ்ந்து செருக்கடைந்தேனோ!
என்ன பாவம் செய்தேனோ! இன்னதென்றறியேனே!

When Agathiyar came once and asked me what I wanted, I pondered for a while. I had everything. I had nothing to ask of him. But I wanted to give him something in return for all his love, kindness, compassion, and care. So I told him that I would want to take many births and come back to serve him. "Is that your wish?" he asked. I was stunned for a moment back then. Did I ask the wrong thing? I then told him I do not know what to ask for fear that it might be wrong? He then called me closer and told me, "You do see what's happening around you, don't you?" I understood what he meant. I then asked him if there was any other way to serve him without taking a birth? He did not reply to my question but left abruptly. 

Then speaking to another devotee over a telephone conversation regarding what to ask, we finally agreed that we should ask for Gnana. Tavayogi always lamented that those who came to him and Agathiyar's Jeeva Nadi always asked for petty things rather than true knowledge or Gnana. The next time Agathiyar came, he surprised me by saying that I had asked for Gnana. He had listened in on my conversation. He went on to explain the means of gaining it. So we nailed it when we asked for Gnana since both Tavayogi and Mataji often quote a saying, பிறந்திடவே ஆகாது, பிறந்தாய் ஆனால் ஞான வித்தை கற்க வேண்டும் that is, one should not be born; but if one were to be born again due to circumstances, then he should ask for Gnana. We come here taking birth multiple times in an attempt to end this cycle of birth and death, and if we fail the consolation would be at least we attempted to gain Gnana.

In days of past, we have heard of our elders say that they were gifted with a child often after great tapas or tavam or தவமாய் தவம் இருந்து பெற்ற குழந்தை. There are many parents wanting a child just as we are told there are many souls waiting to be born to the right parents for reasons known only to them. Agathiyar told a couple who wanted a child badly, having had to abort it several times for medical reasons, to be patient, to wait for the right soul to come along. Eventually they had a lovely child. When a mother lost her newborn baby, she pleaded to Shirdi Sai to revive the child. Baba refused. Later he told his followers that the soul had already taken birth elsewhere. It would not be morally right to revive the dead child and relieve the other couple of their joy. When Agathiyar addressed both my daughters he told them that they had wanted to be born in this family. He added that "Birth is given when asks for. Enjoy what life has to offer. Start charity and seva small. It shall grow. That is your first duty. These little acts shall generate compassion in you. Open your heart. Life shall teach you lessons. Learn."

"நீங்கள் இருவரும் அவர்களுக்கு மகளாய் பிறக்கே வேண்டும் என்று கேட்டு வந்தீர்கள். பிறப்பு கேட்டு வருவது. உலக வாழ்க்கையை அனுபவித்து வாருங்கள். சிறு தொண்டு பெருவெள்ளம். அது வளர வேண்டும். அதுவே முதல் கடமை. அதுமூலம் சன்மார்க்கக் கருணை பூத்து விடும். அது பின்பு வளரும். வழி விடுங்கள். உலக வாழ்க்கை குடும்ப வாழ்க்கை அனைத்தும் படிப்பினை. கற்றுக்கொள்ளுங்கள்."

Birth is a result of one's past karma that needs to see justice served or done. On the other hand, the birth could also be due to a desire of either the soul to be born for a purpose or the desire of the parents in bringing their lives to closure or rather bringing it to completion. Understandably if the bad deeds outweigh the good deeds, he can be born anywhere anytime. But if the soul was oriented to yearn for, seek and search and gather good merits in all its previous lives; and the good deeds outweigh the bad deeds, and having worked hard on gathering the appropriate knowledge and experience towards realizing its self; but unfortunately had fallen short of time to attain it, or had erred or had fallen in disgrace, it has to be carefully placed in the right family and right scenario or surroundings so that the soul can continue the work that was halted at the moment of death.

Just as Agathiyar told my daughters, Avvai too tells us that birth is rare, both tapas or austerities and charity are the key to open the gates of heaven.

அரிது அரிது மானிடராதல் அரிது;
மானிடராயினும் கூன், குருடு, செவிடு, பேடு நீங்கிப் பிறத்தல் அரிது;
பேடு நீங்கிப் பிறந்த காலையும் ஞானமும் கல்வியும் நயத்தல் அரிது;
ஞானமும் கல்வியும் நயந்த காலையும் தானமும் தவமும் தான் செய்தல் அரிது; தானமும் தவமும் தான் செய்வராயின் வானவர் நாடு வழி திறந்திடுமே.

Ilayaraja has penned a beautiful prayer for his album "Guru Ramana Geetam".  The song is composed and sung by him. In this soul-stirring number, he conveys a sudden urgency, reminding us of the need to turn to God for we might not be given another chance. He reminds us not to waste another moment nor postpone but to seek Bhagawan Ramana this very moment. In the small booklet that accompanied the album, the following brief summary is given.
As the days of his life go by, the composer (Ilaiyaraja) realizes that the best day of all would be the one that brings Ramana's grace. That day would give his life true meaning. But there was no time to waste. Why wait for tomorrow, or today? This very moment is the right one, to take refuge at Ramana's feet and redeem the remaining days of his life.
இன்றொரு  நாள் கழிந்தது என் வாழ் நாளில்
நன்றோரு நாள் சென்றது என்றென்று பார்த்தால்
பகவான் ஸ்ரீ ரமணரை ஓர்த்திருந்த அந்நாளே
என்றொரு நாள் எனக்கு வரும்
அவன் அருள் பெறும் அந்நாளே
எனக்கர்த்தமுள்ள நன்னாளே
பிறந்து வந்ததற்கோர் அர்த்தமுள்ள பொன்னாளாம்
இன்றைய நாள் இனிய பரம்பொருளை பாடிகளித்திருந்தேன்
இது பண்டைய நாள் பாடிய அடியார் காலத்திற்கு ஒப்பாமோ
மெய்பொருள் அறிவதும் அதன்மேல் உறுதியும் அத்தனை எளிதோ
கைப்பொருட்க் கலைவதும் பொய்பொருளில் புரள்வதும் விடுவது கடிதோ
இன்னொரு நாள் கிடைப்பது அரிது மனமே
இன்னொரு நாள் கிடைத்தாலும் இப்பிறப்பாய்
பிறத்தல் அரிது அறிவாய்
இப்பிறப்பாய் பிறந்தாலும்
எவ்வுலகில் பிறப்பாயோ
எவ்வுலகில் பிறந்தாலும் இப்படியோர் உலகிருக்குமோ
உலகில் உண்மை உணர அதற்கேற்ற சூழ் நிலை இருக்குமோ
கோவிலும் தெய்வமும் பூஜைக்கோர் மந்திரமும்
மந்திரம் கற்றுத்தரும் குருமாறும்
இப்படியே கிடைத்திடுமோ நாமறியோம்
ஆதலால் நாளை என்றெண்ணாது  இன்றே இப்பொழுதே இக்கணமே
என் இனிய குருரமணனின் தாள் தஞ்சம் என கொள்வாய்
இன்னும்  எஞ்சிவுள்ள வாழ் நாளை மெய்பொருளில் களிப்பாய்
உன்னையும் மெய்போருளில் கரைத்து கலந்திருப்பாய்

(Listen at https://mio.to/album/Ilayaraja/Guru+Ramana+Geetam+%282004%29)

Do not postpone giving thanks to the divine for this birth that is something very rare to come by. If the Vedanti sees the body as a burden and wants to shed it, the Siddhanti, on the other hand, sees the body as a vehicle to reach Godhead. Cherish and love it. Use it as a tool to attain Godhead.

Sunday 26 April 2020

MY JOURNEY

It is almost 18 years since I went for my very first Nadi reading, here in Malaysia itself, a reading that was to change me and my life and that of my family and friends too. Agathiyar in that reading revealed about me, my family, career, and went on to reveal my past birth. He also spoke about the future that was written for me. He gave me remedies to carry out. This he said will flatten the curve. Yes just as researchers are talking about flattening the curve as in the number of incidences and cases reported in the current COVID-19 pandemic, Agathiyar gave us remedies to satisfy the needs of the divine law in place that states we reap what we sow. He came to recommend ways to counter or cushion the effects of our past karma with minimum injury, suffering, misery, and ailment to us. He then threw all the sacred scriptures and books to us and asks that we follow the countless virtues and morals that are ascribed in them This helps dampen the force and velocity of the negative nature in us and propels the positive to greater heights, overshadowing the evil in us.  This accounts for the first two lessons or areas that need our immediate attention, Yama and Niyama, restraints or ethics of behavior, and observances, respectively, as listed in the eight limbs of Patanjali's Ashtanga Yoga. Meanwhile, he had me meet my very first guru in physical form at the end of my maiden pilgrimage to India to carry out the said remedies. Supramania Swami ignited and lighted the lamp of devotion towards the guru, which was a new subject for someone who knew only worship to the deities. 


Agathiyar waited three years to see if I followed his dictates before coming forth with my second Nadi reading. Soon, as said, he came through the Nadi at the exact moment Tavayogi Thangarasan of Kallar Ashram was in town. He told me to take initiation from him. Another journey began that of walking the path of the Siddhas, with Tavayogi literally taking me to the abodes and caves of the Siddhas in the jungles of India. Tavayogi then taught us the third and fourth aspects of Patanjali's Yoga Sutra, Asana, and Praṇayama, physical postures, and control of the prana or breath respectively in 2008, after we cornered him to teach us. 

In 2011 Agathiyar asks to stop doing all forms of practices as it had unleased energies within. With the opening of the chakras and by revitalizing them, the dosas in the body had aggravated and went off-balance. It was a period of partial hibernation for me with only puja and charity going on, as opposed to the full lockdown or hibernation in the years between 1988 and 2001, where for 13 solid years I had abstained from all forms of worship and religious learnings and questioning, a command that came through Lord Siva in a dream. Siva saved the day for otherwise, I would have gone cuckoo then with so many questions and doubts in me and so many inconsistencies between the scriptures and what we saw in reality.
  
Recently Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal came to revive the Asanas and Pranayama that Tavayogi taught earlier and asked to worship the light within. They have brought us to the fifth limb of Patanjali's Yoga Sutras, Pratyahara or withdrawal of the senses and asking us go beyond, by going within, engaging further in the finer and subtle stages of Yoga namely Dharaṇa or concentration; and Dhyana or meditation. The journey traveling the path of Patanjali that is initially an external one working on the body, habits,  character, etc is a forward journey. Patanjali then takes us on a reverse path, or a return journey now moving inwards, from the body towards the soul, that BKS Iyengar terms as the true renunciation, contrary to the common belief and understanding of renouncing the world and all in it. Our thoughts, perspectives, and understanding changes as we journey within. We still live in this world but see things differently. We are not disturbed by all that takes place knowing the world to be a stage and us actors playing a role in it. They sit back and watch the movie that goes by on the big white widescreen of life. Finally, if we manage to enter these stages of inner absorption, Patanjali shows the way to Samadhi or absorption, that of knowing and realizing the seed of consciousness. He shows the way how one can reach the abode of the soul forever so that all the actions he performs in the world, will not create a counter-reaction, hence severing the fine thread of birth and rebirth. Hence the journey ends here says Tavayogi in a phrase he wrote in his book "Andamum Pindamum" when I asked for his autograph: ஆண்டவன் உரைகின்ற இடம் தங்கள் உள்ளம். அதுவே பயணத்தின் தொடக்கமும் முடிவும். God resides within you in your heart. This is both the starting and ending point of the journey. 

The "curve" researchers are talking about refers to the projected number of people who will contract COVID-19 over a period of time. (To be clear, this is not a hard prediction of how many people will definitely be infected, but a theoretical number that's used to model the virus' spread.) (Source: https://www.livescience.com/coronavirus-flatten-the-curve.html)
As is said that "The faster the infection curve rises, the quicker the local health care system gets overloaded beyond its capacity to treat people", similarly the effects of our karma is spaced out over several births so that we are able to shoulder just the right amount in each life without crumbling, breaking apart or burning out. For those who willingly intend and wish to hasten the process, they go through much suffering, willingly without complaint. The Yogis and saints are known to take on major illnesses without treating them. If it looks like we suffer the most, embrace yourself and tell yourself that God loves you and wants you back in his arms.

Thursday 23 April 2020

CONVERSATIONS WITH THE GURU

Tavayogi was a man of few words, except when he takes the stage to address a crowd. He never talked about anything at length. It was always brief statements or observations. Neither did he dictate things except for an occasional directive that comes with a stern note, telling us that there is no two way about it and that we have to follow. But these were rare and spaced apart. I am beginning to understand him well now. If he had listed the do's and don'ts, imagine we would have held on to his words as the Gospel and followed it out of fear that we would offend or go against the word of the guru and bring upon ourselves their curse or harm. He never intimidated us or controlled us but on the contrary, wanted us to explore on our own. He told me that the soul should never be caged but allowed to fly freely. Today I find Agathiyar too adopts the same approach or is it that Tavayogi was adopting Agathiyar's approach? Somehow I feel these Siddhas they all come with a standard script or dialogue just as we parents do, be it of any nationality, we tend to harp 24/7 on the same things to our children. All parents do come with a standard script. I find Agathiyar saying the same things that Tavagogi told me then.

Agathiyar says it is time now to revisit the asanas and pranayama that we learned from Tavayogi and put them into practice immediately. It was Agathiyar who brought a halt to this practice when I hurt my back sometimes back. It is very obvious that he is still living and monitoring our progress even today, contrary to gurus, devotees, and academians pushing him back into the pages of history.

Just as Yogi Ramsuratkumar refused to bless a seeker who had previously got a blessing from a guru before coming over, and just as Rengarajar refused to bless me as I suppose he knew that I was destined to meet my very first guru a couple of days later, Lord Murugan too refused to say anything to me when everybody else was waiting in line to hear his commandment on surrender. When he was asking each and everyone if they had surrendered, he simply told me that Agathiyar shall take care of you, "உன்னை அகத்தியன் பார்த்துப்பான்."

I jokingly told all those who had gathered to listen to Acharya Gurudasan from Bangalore guide us on the finer points of Yoga on Zoom recently, that Agathiyar too has kept his distance adhering to the call to adopt social distancing in the wake of the COVID-19 virus pandemic. Otherwise, he would frequent our home and say a thing or two giving us advice and guidance and commenting on our spiritual progress. He would ask that I stay by his side and listen on to the conversation between him and his devotees. I never did like to listen to others' problems for they were personal. But he replied that he wanted me to learn from its lessons. He wanted me to see and learn what others go through. He wanted me to listen to how he tackles their problems. The solutions he gave will add to my knowledge of the Siddhas and the mysteries of life. Of course, it has. Of course, he knew that whatever he said would be shared by me in this blog, unless he prohibited me. There were certain things he said and went on to explain its subtle meaning but quickly added, telling me not to share them as yet. He will give the green light later.

Some of these timely and wise advise and clarifications and the parting of knowledge are shared below.

Although the Siddhas are beyond time and space but as the divine's creation is subjected to it they talk on matters relating to time, places, and venues, for we can only perceive and understand things relative to time and space. For instance, Agathiyar says sternly that whatever done at the right moment will give the expected results or success, "குறித்த நேரத்தில் செய்யும் யாவும் ஜெயம்." A lot of factors come into play for an event to take place. Hence if Agathiyar asks us to do it, we should get on it. If we contemplate, hesitate, are doubtful, delay it, postpone it to another time or ignore it entirely, the factors change; meantime people move away, businesses close, contacts go missing etc. Hence when Agathiyar says its time to start or launch something, all things are in place for a conducive and successful venture. Any delay will turn otherwise. Similarly, at times he postpones our venture asking us to delay them, for the same reason that it is not conducive to start the venture immediately. Or a delay may occur beyond our means for the reason that the right surgeon to operate on you is not there, the planetary positions are not favorable etc.  

Agathiyar comes to give us more promising and motivating words in the hours of our need. At times he is soft and at other times he comes hard on us to make us realize the severity and seriousness of his sharings.

He says we are bound by ignorance and only when that veil is drawn aside shall we understand who we are and who he is. Agathiyar says that he is used to all that is taking place, meaning he has seen it through the ages. He brings us to understand that indeed he has lived, is living, and shall continue living throughout all the ages. Who could he be then if not the entity that is forever in existence? He is forever in the state of "being."

அனைத்தும் எனக்கு மிகப் பழமையானவை. நான் அறிவேன். நீங்கள் அறிய மாடிர்கள். என்று அந்தத் திரை விலகுதோ அன்று அறிவீர்கள்.

"I am always here. With you and in your hearts. I am about to take all of you to greater heights. I shall come often through many. Listen and carry out as I say. We are gathered here because of our merits. I know you well. I shall not desert you. If we miss the boat in this birth we shall meet up again in the next. I shall be there for you even then."

நான் வேறு எங்குமில்லை. ஒவ்வொரு வினாடியும் உங்கள் உள்ளத்திலும் உங்களுடன் நான் இருக்கிறேன். உங்கள் அனைவறையும் வேர் ஒரு நிலைக்கு எடுத்துச் செல்ல இருக்கிறேன். நான் அடிக்கடி வருவேன் பலபேர் மூலமாக. என் வாக்கைக் கேட்டு அதன்படி நடந்து கொள்ளுங்கள். புண்ணியம் செய்த்ததனால் தான் இன்று கூடி இருக்கின்றோம். நீங்கள் அனைவரையும் யார் என்று நான் அறிவேன். கை விடமாட்டேன். அப்படி இந்த ஜென்மத்தில் கிட்டவில்லை என்றல் மறு ஜென்மம் சந்திப்போம். அப்போதும் நான் வழி நடத்துவேன்.

I only see your soul. Making mistakes is usual for man. But one needs to have remorse for his acts and change his ways. Making the same mistakes over and over again is sheer stupidity. It brings on karma. The day you are remorseful for your acts your karma shall leave you. Each act adds on to your karma. Good acts will give good karma. Bad acts will give its appropriate results. But the moment you realize and change the karma leaves you.

நான் ஆத்மவை தான் அறிவேன். ஆத்மவை தான் பார்ப்பேன். தவறு செய்வது மனித இயல்பு. ஆனால் வருந்தனும். திருந்தனும். அதே தவற்றைச் செய்து கொண்டிருப்பது முட்டாள்தனம். கர்மத்தை சுமக்க கூடும். என்று நீங்கள் வருந்தித் திருந்துகிறீர்களோ அன்றே கூடி இருந்த கர்மா விட்டு விலகும். ஒவ்வொரு செயலும் கர்மாவை கூட்டும். நல்ல செயல் நல்ல பலனை அளிக்கும். தீய செயல் அதன் பலனை அளிக்கும். அனால் உணர்ந்த பின் அப்போதே அந்தக் கர்மம் விட்டு விலகிடும்.

Similarly, Lord Muruga who saves Arunagiri from falling to his death, tells him that he was forgiven the moment he realized his mistakes.



Agathiyar tells us to be focussed on what we came for. Only then shall we reach him. He adds it is a solo journey. The well being of the universe depends on the cumulative karma and the collective efforts in overcoming them.

அவர் அவர் கவனம் அவர் அவர் இலக்கில் இருந்தால் தனித்து என்னோடு இணைவார்கள். கர்மவினைக்கு ஏற்ப அவர் அவர் முயற்சிக்கு ஏற்ப எல்லாம் சுபம்.

Ramalinga Adigal came to ask us to open up our hearts and soul. Even before he came Lord Muruga came to instruct us to do the same. "You are on Agathiyar's path" Adigal acknowledges.

உங்கள் ஆத்மவை திறந்து வையுங்கள், உங்கள் இதயத்தைத் திறந்து  வையுங்கள். நீங்கள்பற்றிய பாதை அகத்தியனின் பாதை. 

What is obvious is that just as we have a  thesis supervisor to whom we are unanswerable, the Siddhas monitor us very closely too. For instance, Lord Murugan takes all of us to task for letting our senses lose; for not been committed enough to the cause etc. For instance, he tells us that whatever we are going through and receiving currently is a result of our past merits. It is we who chose this life and asks for it, without being compelled by others or other forces. But we have forgotten its purpose. He says to a devotee that she had lived this life before, thus it was time she surrendered to the divine and let him work in her. Having explained the circumstances, the most compassionate Lord waits for her to make a decision, again not compelling her in any way. 

நீ காண்பது உன் பிறவி பலன். இவ்வாழ்க்கை நீயே கேட்டுப் பெற்றது. வந்ததின் நோக்கும் மருந்து போயின. இப்போது கூறு. சரணாகதியா? உலக வாழ்க்கையா?

He reminds us that he is always with us. He asked to have faith in all our doings and have complete surrender to the will of the divine. Knowing us to be devotees of Agathiyar, Lord Murugan asked to continue to worship Agathiyan's feet. He tells us that in the face of troubles, understand that it is His test and an opportunity for us to learn a lesson from the incident. All that happens around us serves to educate us. Worldly happenings will teach us lessons. He brings us to understand the reasons for delays since it would not serve its purpose if gifted then, when our life and thoughts are in turmoil. Let it settle first before receiving these divine gifts. Only then would it serve its purpose that is in enhancing our soul.

உன்னோடு இருக்கின்றேன். செய்வதில் நம்பிக்கை வை. முழுமையாய் சரண் அடைய வேண்டும். அகத்தியன் பாதம் பற்ற வேண்டும். வாழ்க்கையில் துன்பம் வந்தால் அது நாங்கள் உனக்கு இட்ட படிப்பினை. உன்னைச் சுற்றி நடப்பவை உனக்குக் கல்வி. உலக வாழ்க்கை உங்களுக்குக் கற்று தரும் பாடம். குடும்ப பாரம் மன சஞ்சலம் இருந்தால் நான் எது தந்தபோதிலும் பயன் இல்லை.

But to another two souls, reminding the same that we are born because we ask for it, he tells them to go ahead and experience all that the world provides. He reminds them to engage in charity. Start small he says. It is a start to bigger things. Compassion will set in later and lead to bigger ventures. Step aside. All relationships with the world around us and its people are lessons for us. Keep on learning.

பிறப்பு கேட்டு வருவது. உலக வாழ்க்கையை அனுபவித்து வாருங்கள். சிறு தொண்டு பெருவெள்ளம். அது வளர வேண்டும். அதுவே முதல் கடமை. அதுமூலம் சன்மார்க்கக் கருணை பூத்து விடும். அது பின்பு வளரும். வழி விடுங்கள். உலக வாழ்க்கை குடும்ப வாழ்க்கை அனைத்தும் படிப்பினை. கற்றுக்கொள்ளுங்கள்.

Lord Muruga reminded another devotee and all of us too, that a guru comes to initiate the student in many ways. This might seem obvious to all. Besides the outward transmission of a mantra, the guru does at the same time initiate subtly the student who has the potential to grow or a sadhaka who is willing to listen, adhere, and follow. This could be by way of activating or giving a push to an otherwise sluggish chakra. The sadhaka then needs to continue the practice that comes with this initiation keeping the chakras performing at optimum. While some are here to make the world a better place for him and others, others are here to work on themselves and their souls. But the Siddhas let him finish and complete his responsibilities to his family and society before taking him away to work on his true mission or tasks.

We have been reminded time and again that we are here to live out the experiences that come about as a result of the fruition of our desires, vasanas, and karma. We need to go through it as it was our asking. We cannot possibly back off while in the midst of facing its results. If someone comes by to assist in lifting this burden, know that it is the invisible hand of the divine. If what we undergo now is a result of our past actions that have been registered as karma, and it needs to manifest again in this life; or if what we undergo now is a result of us not learning a lesson from experiences that came with our past actions and had us tagged as being defiant; and if these two factors are required to fulfill the criteria to take rebirth, we then better live through what we deserve now without any protest and learn from life's lessons to avoid coming back into the cycle. This is what the Siddhas came to know and did, abstaining from all forms of action and sharing the lessons they learned with their followers. Agathiyar has told us many times that he was sharing only what worked for them and expects us to follow suit. At http://agatthiyarjnanam.blogspot.com/2014/01/agatthiyar-meijnana-kaviyam-1.html, we learn that the Siddha marga is an experiential path, not a dry jnana marga.  It is a path where experience and knowledge go together.
When the completely unmanifested Divine took up a manifested form, due to the limitations it imposed on itself, some contradictions emerged.  The Divine corrected these mistakes by providing its experience. Experience is always correct.  When one tries to verbalize an experience, mistakes and shortcomings occur.  These mistakes can be corrected only by re-experiencing the original experience.  This is possible only by Divine grace.  Hence, Agatthiyar says that the Divine corrected the sastras. Also, the various incarnations of the Divine are said to occur to correct the mistakes that had crept in the scriptures and their practices.  Siva's Divine play or Tiruvilaiyadal are episodes that occurred for this purpose.
With Karma and "being defiant" registered and tagged to it, there is a need for the soul to come back into the cycle of birth and death to undo the knot that is left behind. The soul takes a physical body, again, to see through this. Just as "pure (24 karats) gold is usually alloyed with base metals for use in jewelry, altering its hardness and ductility, melting point, color, and other properties", we come with "impurities" that are required to take on a physical and material form. 
"Pure gold melts at 1,948 degrees Fahrenheit while it begins to boil at 5,173 degrees Fahrenheit. But if other alloy metals are present of which copper is the most commonly used base metal, then the temperature required to melt gold will vary. Alloys with lower carat rating, typically 22k, 18k, 14k or 10k, contain higher percentages of copper or other base metals or silver or palladium in the alloy. Gold is the most malleable of all metals. An ounce can be beaten out to 187 square feet. Gold leaf can be beaten thin enough to become transparent." 
The pure soul that is aware of its past karma and its idiocy in not wanting to learn, change and transform when it had the opportunity earlier, takes on new birth and another body that would facilitate its purpose in correcting itself. It selects the family and the surroundings it shall grow in. As a gold leaf is beaten thin enough to become transparent, the physical or material body, that is made of tatwas goes through much beating from the myriad of episodes in the physical world. Determined to learn this time around the soul is witness to a series of transformations that take place concurrently in all the rest of the bodies namely the etheric/electromagnetic body, the astral/emotional body, the mental body, and its very home the causal body. The guru comes to the aid of the one on the true path, bringing on this transformation successfully. His true nature and potential are revealed. He gains the Siddhis to heal himself and heal/aid others. And finally, he learns the technique to transform himself into the light. Is this what the Siddhas are doing to some souls that are ready to take the plunge?

What is the philosophy of the Siddhas? In "Secrets of the Siddhas - Health, Longevity and Enlightenment" post on Fb, R. Kuppusamy goes into the mind of Ramalinga Adigal to get a glimpse of this series of transformations.
Vallalar knew what the Body of the Future Man would be like. He said this impure body with all its excretions through the nine apertures in the body would be transformed into a pure body (Sudha Deham) with no waste matter at all. Instead the pure body will be producing its own food called nectar. It will not rely upon external food or atmospheric air for its breath or on books for its knowledge. This pure body can last for hundreds of thousands of years in an uncorrupt manner. This pure body belongs to a Siddha.
But this is not the final body. This pure body has to be transformed into a lighter body. It is also called Space Body or Pranava Body or Omkara Body or a Mantric Body or a Sound Body. This body belongs to the Gods and Goddesses. It can be seen and heard but not touched, for it has no physical substance. It can be sensed and perceived only by the mind’s eye. It can last for millions of years but even this is not the final body. This too could meet with death.
The deathless body belongs to God alone. It is the purest of the Pure Body. It is made up of pure light - not a physical light but a light emanating from total compassion or grace towards all beings in creation. This body is indestructible. 
Mataji Sarojini Ammaiyar, disciple and student of Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal who now heads the Kallar ashram in the capacity of its Peedaathipati, explains beautifully and briefly regarding the path of the Siddhas in the following interview.



I was always saddened that since its inception in the late nineties, the number of devotees to the old ashram and the recent massive ashram built in 2016 on a 2-acre piece of land that lies on the fringes of the Kallar hill has been disappointing. It was envisioned and built by Tavayogi after going through many obstacles. I had always prayed that devotees should throng this place as we see elsewhere happen, as I fully understood that for an establishment of this scale it needs money to operate, maintain, and provide efficient service. With people coming over so does funding to maintain its existence. When a friend who knew I was planning to go to India the first time heard that I was going to spend a few days in an ashram (the old ashram) she quipped that it is free of charge. I had to make her understand that "Yes, of course, it was free because someone else before us had donated towards the upkeep of the ashram that saw us able to spend a few days having our lodging and food taken care of. Now would not it be the right thing for us to contributed an amount before we leave so that another person may enjoy his stay here, as she saw it "free of charge"? Anyway if we were to put up in a hotel, we would have to dish out some money. Why not pass that buck to the ashram as payment for our duration of stay although they do not charge for our stay? Agathiyar finally answered and told us the significance of Kallar Ashram and its future as Mataji too has mentioned in the above video clip.

அங்கு வருபவர்கள் உண்மைகாக மட்டும் வருபவர்கள். நான் அழைத்து வைக்கிறேன். அங்குக் கூட்டம் சேராது. ஆயினும் அது அழிந்து போகாது. அவை என் முலம் தவயோகி செய்தது.

Agathiyar says that that ashram will not be a crowd puller. Instead, it is only for the true seekers. It is only for those who have a calling from him. Although Tavayogi built it, it was initiated by Agathiyar.

P.Karthigayan writes in his book "History of Medical and Spiritual Sciences of Siddhas of Tamil Nadu", that the Siddhas believed that salvation or reaching the state of immortality was possible through the purification of both mind and body. The Siddhas he says asserted that immortality was two-fold or dual in nature. One needed to attain Atma Siddhi or spiritual immortality and Kaaya siddhi or physical immortality. In Atma Siddhi they preserved their soul with the spirit within and in Kaaya Siddhi, they preserved the body and soul.

While Yogis considered their body as a bag of sin suitable only for worldly life and rejected the same; the Siddhas considered the body as a holy abode of the divine and as a means to achieve exalted spiritual heights and finally immortalizing it by scientific means.

The Siddhas reincarnated their spirit with the soul within their own body by eliminating the worldly substances in it. The death without dying, or சாகாமல் சாகும் கலை, a status attained by the Siddhas is a loss of substances related to earth except for the form of their profile. Substances of perishable nature will get replaced by substances of cosmic nature and thus complete the transformation known as Kaaya Siddhi - retaining one's body forever. The Siddhas held the view that "if one "ate" the cosmic substance for immortality, the body will slowly acquire similar cosmic qualities and their mere touch can turn on miracles." For this purpose, the Siddhas discovered Karpam that was of dual nature, strengthening both the spirit and the body. This science is known in the Siddha circles as attaining Kaaya Siddhi or physical immortality or the deathless physical state which P.Kartigayan explains as "possessing the blood of Gods in a lustrous body. This state is attained by altering the natural physical fabric through science that prevailed then."

Acharya Gurudasan too did mention during our recent Yoga session on Zoom, that the herb Karisalai that Ramalinga Adigal advocates and in fact all the other herbs too have a positive effect both on the physical body and the subtle too. This surprised me for as I could see the effects of the said herb on helping dispel the phlegm from my throat and chest, I had no idea that it worked on the subtle too, although Ruzbeh Bharucha had written that healing the causal body will bring a similar relief in the physical too. This was miraculously shown when Lord Muruga came in the Nadi and through a devotee simultaneously and used the feathers of the peacock to heal my aching back by stroking it. Ruzbeh wrote that the Sufi masters were known to do the same, working on the causal body to heal its copy in the physical plane.

As we rid our body of this phlegm that Ramalinga Adigal says brings death to an otherwise healthy person, coupled with the Yoga asanas and pranayama practices, that we once learned from Tavayogi in 2008 which Agathiyar asked to do now as it was the right moment for engaging in it, the very nerve channels were opened up and all obstructions in its path removed. This brought in the prana in a tremendous quantity, on its own without the need to exercise it. Just bringing the thought to the breath itself and becoming aware of it, engages a sort of a valve to open up and let in all the prana from the surroundings. Even the pores of the skin have begun to breathe in the prana after the act of cleansing the body and its internals through Budha Suddhi with Agathiyar Kuzhambu and coupled with cleansing the nerve channels with the breathing technique Nadi Suddhi.

Karthigayan after explaining the means to attain Kaaya Siddhi now shows us the way of the Siddhas in attaining Atma Siddhi. The means to purify the mind was to meditate on the original abode of the mind, the center of the forehead, called Lalaadam. Concentrating on this spot soon one is led into a thoughtless mental state that of Mounam, says Karthigayan. Prolonging this state is Thavam. Probing the questions in Thavam is Gnanam. He says, "It is believed that such questions will be answered by our own conscience through our spirit's connection to the cosmic library." Agathiyar told us the same. "You had asked for Jnanam. It is not given by me but rather needs to be earned by learning lessons. When one goes within, as the journey brings upon these subtle experiences these shall translate into and become Gnanam. It defers for each person. As such I cannot possibly define it."

நீ என்னிடம் கேட்டது ஞானம். ஞானம் என்பது நான் தருவதல்ல. நீ கற்பது. ஒருவன் தனக்குள் உள்வாங்கி அவனுள் பயணம் துவங்கும் நேரம் அப்பயணம் தரும் பாதிப்பே ஞானம். அவை ஒவ்வொருவருக்கும் மாற்றம் பெரும். ஆகையால் அவை நான் இதுதான் என்று சொல்ல இயலாது.

Ramalinga Adigal says the same that there comes a time in the journey going within where words cannot express the experience. As Geeta Anand wrote, "When one tries to verbalize an experience, mistakes and shortcomings occur", Ramalinga Adigal stops at that and does not venture further to describe those realms of experiences.

Karthigayan refers to Bhogar on how one is slowly groomed on the Siddha path. He starts with the purification of body and mind first, only then is he introduced to the true wisdom distinct from the false that is short-lived.

If a seeker has genuine interest he stays to further himself, otherwise, he proclaims himself as a guru and leaves. For those who stay, the divine knowledge shall be revealed slowly based on their determination and merit. Finally, he is given a divine bead that serves as armor in his journey, writes Karthigayan.

It is amazing how when we heed Agathiyar's call to come to his path, he begins to lay all the groundwork and materials and techniques in front of us, couching us all the way till we excel in these practices that eventually on passing the test makes us a graduate of his school of philosophy.

Wednesday 22 April 2020

Pranayama

ATTAINING SATISFACTION

Bringing us the treasure chest, not in the form of gold coins and gems but something much valuable, he gave us several asanas and pranayama techniques to follow through Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal in 2008. Having put them into practice till 2011, Agathiyar asked to stop doing it after I developed extreme pain in my lower back. All my efforts have brought me to the second chakra Svadistana. As Tavayogi said, our effort is only until Muladhara and Svadishtana, my efforts could only bring me that far. I could not progress further. I began to stagnate there. Agathiyar has been closely monitoring us says that I have stagnated at Svadishtana, just as the flowing water of the stream stagnates into a pond.

நீ செய்தவை யாவும் சரி. இது நாள்வரை நீ கடந்து வந்தது இவ்வுலக வாழ்க்கையின் பயணம். இனி நீ கடக்க போவது உமது உள்பயணம். நீ செய்யக்கூடிய வழிமுறைகளைக் கூறவிருக்கிறோம். நாம் சொல்லும் வழிமுறைகளைச் செய்து வா. இப்பயிற்சியினை முதலில் மேற்கொள். இவை உமக்கு வழி நடத்தும். 

"What you did is all right", he endorses the approach, the practices, and instructions that he gave over time and which we had followed. After mentioning that all these while we have lived the worldly life, Agathiyar tells us that now we have to go within. And he went on to elaborate the ways. He gave more techniques. As Tavayogi said that upon reaching Svadistana on our own effort and perseverance, the Siddhas will give us a hand and lift us up from there, Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal came to give me a lift to the next level, breaking the bund and letting the stream flow again finding its way and creating a new path. Recently Agathiyar asked that I revisit these exercises and practice. Having said that he gave further techniques and directives that included taking his Agathiyar Kuzhambu or a purgative to cleanse the internals and bring the 3 dosas within their ratios. He had me continue a daily intake of a drink that he taught me to prepare and that he reminded me was specific to me and not to share with others, a drink that would do a similar job of that of Agathiyar Kuzhambu but with a milder effect. The pranayama and meditation techniques that he gave has burst the dam. Just as the bund that surrounds the pond is broken to create a ditch to let out the water that has ponded and stagnated over time, the prana that increases multifold by doing forceful inhalation and exhalation or bhastrika or bellows breath as taught by Tavayogi, comes within without effort these days Even the pores of the skin have started to breathe and take in the prana. The senses have been heightened too.

Picking up from the ground in Sariyai, following our ancestors' and parents' customs, traditions, beliefs, faith, and worship we came to carry on these practices and passed them down to our children. Coming to the path of the Siddhas, the guru brought us to Kriyai first and Yogam later. Learning and practicing rituals, mantra japa, yoga, and meditation etc, we were given credit hours to pursue further. In recognition of our efforts and with the coming of the divine, Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia that catered to new seekers hungry for information and knowledge on the Siddhas, took on a new name Agathiyar Tapovanam Malaysia. After having brought the seekers over to this small humble home of ours, Agathiyar brought the heavenly deities to grace our home. Now he is set to bringing us on yet another journey, this time into their world, going within into the deep recesses of the heart.  

Should I share all these personal stuff? Would not it amount to being boastful of one's achievement? Would not others think that I am showing off? Would it build my ego? But imagine if Pandit Gopi Krishna did not share his Kundalini experiences writing his book "Kundalini - Path to Higher Consciousness"; if Paramahansa Yogananda did not write his autobiography; if Ramalinga Adigal had not allowed for the publication of his personal experiences with God in the form of soulful songs compiled as the Thiruarutpa; if Nambi Andar Nambi had not compiled the devotional renderings, plea and praises to Lord Siva of Appar, Sampandhar, and Sundarar as the first seven volumes of the Thirumurai, we would have lost a lot in saving our souls and attaining salvation. These works have kept the flame in us burning, urging us on with the thought that if these saints could do it so can we.

Just as Yogi Maharshi Shuddhanand Bharati writes in his "Yoga For All",
"By so many experiments on myself, I have found out a way to live disease-free. I am obliged to tell you, my dear readers, how I lived in and out free from mental, vital, physical ailments. I do not know if I can conquer death but I can tell you that you too can live an ideal life free from disease and mental worries. I am giving you the science of the body before leasing you to yoga for the body. man can live beyond the present span of life if he knows the secret of the body which houses his eternal spirit - the god in the human", 
I too am obliged to share how Agathiyar came to give me yet another chance after many lifetimes, to come to his path and follow his dictates. Hopefully, one day or in some future birth we might join his ranks. I do not know exactly where Agathiyar is taking us, but we are grateful and satisfied for bringing us this far, grateful for all that he has done for us. The path was gifted to us; he sent two wonderful gurus and several upagurus; and Agathiyar himself has come as a guru bringing Ramalinga Adigal along to guide us further. They have been working on us earnestly and tirelessly. Even if it ends here we are satisfied. We do not have dreams of high achievement. Just like Ramalinga Adigal equates himself to the fly and the dog, we are realistic about it and know where we stand too. We stand with open palms waiting for their grace and handouts. We are beggars too as Yogi Ramsuratkumar called himself, begging for salvation of the soul. If he says "This is sufficient for this birth and let us come back" so be it. As Supramania Swami said we shall keep polishing it till it shines and Tavayogi said we shall come back to complete the mission and become whole, there is no hurry. We are prepared to wait. Buddha after attaining enlightenment or nirvana was shown a thousand faces. When he asked who they were he was told that that was his former births. Tuning the other side he saw yet another thousand faces. When he asked who were they, he received the reply that that was to become his future births. Who can comprehend and understand the divine play?