My friend wrote:
The verse AnDavan aaTchiyil adharmamey illai is therefore a Pati-level statement. It is not addressed to the Pasu navigating the difficult choices of daily life. It is addressed to the sincere seeker who — having walked the path of Dharma with full sincerity, full effort, and full surrender — has arrived at a moment of deep stillness, and is now ready to receive the larger truth: That even their own failures — their own moments of Adharma, their own darkest hours — were held all along within Shiva’s love, and were never, not for a single moment, outside His grace.
I understood that one has to walk the mile and arrive at the state in good time, where all shall be revealed. Just as at ground level, one has a limited vision of things as opposed to one taking a flight, where one takes in a bigger view, the Pasu, which "navigates the difficult choices of daily life," accepting everything, and as Lao Tzu says, "Go with the Flow" is brought to eventually settle in peace, and comes to understand the Pati's or Shiva's love. I believe this is what Agathiyar, after having me come to Advaita, leaving behind all that was taught to me and that I did in Dvaita, meant in asking me to know the Atma or Pasu and come to know Sivam or Pati.
He wrote that this understanding "is given — as all the deepest teachings of Saiva Siddhantam are given — not to the intellect, but to the heart that has been sufficiently broken open by sincere practice, genuine love, and the boundless grace of the Guru."
I now understand the reason for the countless sufferings that the Pasu or souls I knew back then initially went through, seeking to know the reasons for their sufferings. I now understand the reason for the Siddhas to bring on pain and agony after taking their hands, and the countless tests that they put us through, just to break us. As Agathiyar says, he shall bring the "tough nuts to crack" to AVM to crack them open, though Agathiyar's actions might initially appear harsh and unwarranted, just as Agathiyar took the cane and apprehended me, asking me to drop my anger, for otherwise all his efforts and years of work on me would go to waste, one shall eventually come to understand that it was "genuine love and the boundless grace of the Guru" that was behind it all. Though initially I was taken aback seeing the way he handled these gentle folks, I understand now that he was working on their souls rather than their individual personalities.
In walking the Siddha path, we watch with awe and wonder, at least that is what I do, as they paint the wall before us in a multitude of vibrant colors, dazzling us and causing us to freeze in our steps.
After I returned from my maiden pilgrimage to India in 2003, having met my guru, Supramania Swami at Tiruvannamalai, and returned to India again in 2005, Swami brought his guru, Yogi Ramsuratkumar, from his Samadhi to sit and sing his name with us at Swami's kudil. He narrated the story of how the Yogi appeared at his door one night after his Samadhi and passed him a painting of his for a keepsake and disappeared into the night. After his Samadhi, Swami too came in a subtle form, that of the aroma of tobacco, and made me realize his presence when I had a missed call from his number. As I was seeking assurance, I had another missed call a couple of days later as I was sharing the story with my nephew over the phone. Later that weekend, Agathiyar, in a Nadi reading, spoke about a miracle that took place in my home, having me recall this happening. Indeed, if Agathiyar showed me miracles in the presence of Supramania Swami and as I traveled with Tavayogi back then, and showed more miracles after I returned from India in 2005, these miracles continue to this day.
Agathiyar, who initially made a brief stop on his way to either Kailash or Pothigai to take a rest in my home, which later became a garden or Vanam, took on the name Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM) after he arrived as a bronze statue and soon joined us in the rituals. Later, he took charge of these rituals, and had me teach Mahin and had Mahin teach others Yoga, bringing my home to the state of a Tapovanam. Finally, when he began to dispense Gnanam, it became Gnana Kottam. I can only stand back in awe and wonder, seeing this transition from a family home to a temple. If Lord Muruga, in a Nadi reading in 2018, told me that my home was a temple, Agathiyar, in February of this year, through a Nadi reading, spoke about the home being a Virutcham, a wish-fulfilling tree, and his Peedham, Guru Muni Peedham, and a Karunai Illam, a Home of Compassion.
எங்களை தினமும் தொழுது தெளிவு தேற்றம் ஏகாந்த நிலை கண்ட மைந்தன் நீதான். மங்களங்கள் தன் இல்லில் நாளும் கண்டேன். மகத்துவ சக்தி கொண்ட இல்லம் அப்பா. இல்லமதில் என் ஆசி கருணை எல்லாம் ஏற்றமுடன் நீ காண வழி வகுத்தேன். இல்லமதில் எல்லை இல்லா அருளும் ஆசி ஏக்கமில்லா மாந்தர் வாழ கருணைக் கோட்டம். கோட்டத்தில் அடைக்கலம் புகுந்தோம் நாங்கள். ஆட்சியாய் வாசம் செய்வோம் உன் இல்லில் தான். ஆனந்தம் பேரானந்தம் உந்தன் இல்லம். உன் இல்லம் என் இல்லம். வினைப்போக்கும் குருமுனி பீடம். வித்தை எல்லாம் கற்றுவிக்கும் விருட்சம் அப்பா. அப்பனின் அன்னையின் ஆசி நிறைந்து ஆறுமுகன் கருணைப் பார்வை நிறைந்து மூப்பான நிலை அடைய வைக்கும் இல்லம். முக்திக்கும் சித்திக்கும் பஞ்சம் ஏது பஞ்சமில்லா ஞான வேட்கை தணியும் அப்பா.
Its translation is as follows.
"Through your daily worship of the Siddhas, you have gained clarity. We saw joy and bliss prevail daily in your home. It is a powerhouse. I have provided for my blessings and compassion to all who step within your home. Your home is a compassionate home, a Karunai Illam. We have sought refuge and come to stay in your home. Joy and bliss prevail in your home. Your home is my Peedham, Guru Muni Peedham, a Virutcham, a wish-fulfilling tree, and a Karunai Illam, a Home of Compassion. All practices shall be made available here. Lord Siva, Parvathi, and Lord Muruga shall bless all. Mukti and Siddhi shall be in abundance. The hunger and thirst for Gnanam shall be relieved here."
If Supramania Swami had previously brought his guru to chant with us, Yogi Ramsuratkumar came through a devotee, bringing my guru, Supramania Swami, with him, during Sivarathri of 2024. He identified himself as the Beggar. As the songs of Sadhu Om were playing in the background, the Yogi asked to replay these songs as he kept listening to them.
During the following year, the Sivarathri of 2025, held in Mahendran's home, Bhagawan Ramana came when these same songs were played. He identified himself and blessed us all.
This Sivarathri of 2026, if Agathiyar came earlier, as I played Adi Sankara's "Bhaja Govindam", Lord Siva came during the last phase of the Puja, asking me to play a song for him too. He listened and asked me to wake up the kids and others who had dozed off, and blessed us all. This was later confirmed in the Nadi reading.
"Lord Siva has come down here. We played our divine game, and Lila here. Blessed are those who stayed for Sivarathri. They saw miracles and bliss that night."
பரமசிவன் இரங்கி வந்து மகிழ்ந்த இல்லம். கொஞ்சி விளையாடியே மகிழ்ந்தோம் நாங்கள். அங்கு பல அற்புதங்கள் அதிசயங்கள் ஆனந்த நிலை அடைந்தார் சீடர் மாந்தர் பலர். ஓங்கியே சக்தி ஆசி ஓங்கி ஒளியும் ஓங்கி விதவிதமாய் போற்றி பூசை மகிழ்ச்சி.
What can one do except stand back and watch in awe and wonder?
Can awe be measured? Can wonder be calibrated? Dolby says it can.
I guess after they watch me going about, pretty much occupied with enhancing my system, fine-tuning it, and taking a step back to listen, only to tinker with the settings on the amplifier again, and physically change the placement of the speakers and my seat and central listening positions, the Siddhas, gods, and gurus were inspired by the sound and asked me to play songs on my 5.1 sound system each time they come.
On a lighter note, Sir David Attenborough holds to what Kumar Samy Aiya, patron of the Agathiyar temple in Anuvavi, told me when I replied that I was not going places after I caught hold of Agathiyar. He said to me, "Hold on to one, Hold firm, and Hold till the end." Similarly, Sir David Attenborough has spent all his life studying nature and being in their midst. A life well lived. Prapanjam, the Universe has honored him with a long, memorable life.