This post is in response to a friend and devotee who once asked me why the need to praise the Siddhas, and recently asked that I write about the target and goal of the journey, which interestingly starts with singing the praises of the Siddhas, and asked me to list the procedures for attaining the goal. I have to fall back on Agathiyar. Agathiyar reveals both the journey and the goal, telling us that when the Udal or Body takes a form, a composite of the five Tatvas, and again returns to these Tatvas, the Uyir or Breath merges in the Atma or Soul and reaches Agathiyar as Jothi or Light.
உடல் என்பது பஞ்ச பூதங்களில் உரு பெற்று மீண்டும் பஞ்ச பூதங்களிடம் சென்று விட்டால் உயிராகியது ஆன்மா வோடு கலந்து ஜோதிநிலையில் எம்மை வந்து அடையும். உடல் கூறு தத்துவமும் இதையே உமக்கு உணர்த்தும்.
Though it is pretty apparent in the pages or posts of this blog, I shall attempt to bring all these scattered pieces of information and directives from Agathiyar in this single post for easy reading. As for his observation that these posts were too lengthy, I cannot possibly shorten them, for it was a very lengthy process that took years to unfold. Anyway, thank you, Balamurugan, for your constructive comments and requests.
At the very onset of meeting him in 2005, I had told Tavayogi that I wanted to see him become Light, having read that Ramalinga Adigal turned himself into one. But Tavayogi, very humbly, told me that he had missed the boat due to his age. He was 69 then. Then, when Jnana Jothiamma came along in 2011, and as Agathiyar was working on her to attain a body of Light and become Light, I was excited again, hoping to see this feat take place. But again, due to her age and her giving up, as it was a painful process of transformation, I could not see this miracle take place in her either. She too was in her sixties. I knew no one else who was a potential candidate to become Light.
Although Tavayogi very humbly denied he was at the threshold of stepping into that state, after his demise, a devotee from Johannesburg in South Africa, Mrs Kogie Pillai, had a dream where she saw him being ferried across a waterway in a boat by Lord Siva, towards a mountain range where Sages, Siddhas and Rishis went about their work. Dhanvantri later came to us through a devotee and told us that Tavayogi had become Light, just as Tavayogi told me that Agathiyar came before him as Light in the jungles of Kallar, and again, on the night I arrived at his ashram.
Mentioning my aspirations to see someone, anyone, turn into Light before my very eyes to Balamurugan, he asks me, "Why don't you do it?" I had to spill the beans and reveal what Agathiyar told me after literally breaking my back when the Muladhara opened as a result of the Yoga Asanas and Pranayama techniques that Tavayogi showed me, gifted by Agathiyar and regarded as a treasure.
"There is much I need to carry out through you. Enough of my praise. Write about your bodily experiences. Let your writings be about the changes taking place in your body. Let your readers know the changes that take place in the body if they come to worship the Light and seek to merge with it. My wisdom shall be your experience. Experience first, and I shall clarify the experiences later. Experience is knowledge to you. Nothing is beyond experience."
But before we arrive there, we have to recap the journey.
Sariyai
I was born and raised to worship the pantheon of Hindu Gods and Goddesses, often listening to my mother tell me stories from the Puranas. I attended a class in Tevaram with my Ceylonese childhood friends, conducted by an elderly teacher from Ceylon. I would attend class at the Buddhist Vihara or temple in my neighborhood, listening to the stories revolving around the life of Gautama Buddha. I was privileged to attend the chapel at my missionary school. I took up a postal correspondence course, reading the Bible with course materials arriving by post from a church in Singapore. All these were done when I was growing up and studying. Taking on a job in 1980, I would sit in on the prayers conducted by my Muslim colleagues at the office. I was open to all religious faiths. I did not make any distinction between them.
I loved listening to stories back then as a child. Growing up, I began to read these stories. Soon I took up reading about culture and tradition. Then I ventured to read about religion. When an officer in the department, Mr. Segaran, resigned in 1994 to join Paramahansa Yogananda's Ranchi ashram in India, he passed me Paramahansa's book, "Autobiography of a Yogi". I began to read about men who became gods that day. I came to know them as gurus. Agathiyar decided to have me drop in on my very first guru in the physical form, Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai, in 2003. In 2005, he sent Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal to our shores and had me drop in on him. These were the turning points in my life. And fate has me write and share about them through this blog.
Kriyai, Yogam & Gnanam
If my parents brought me to Sariyai and Bakti and temple worship, when Tavayogi stepped on our soil, he fast-tracked us, telling us to come to Gnanam. But to arrive there, we had to go through the other two phases: Kriyai and Yogam. He came to personally take us through worship and rituals in 2005, bridging both worlds - ours and the Siddhas' - and gave us the practice of Pranayama and Asanas in 2007 that bridge both the body and the breath, the mind and consciousness. The Siddhas then came through the Nadi readings, expounding the greatness of rituals, such as Abhisegam or libation and Puja, and the Homam. Agathiyar casually mentioned that they were amazed to see the Kundalini rise in me in my Nadi reading later on 13.10.2007,
உண்டாகும் குண்டலினி சக்தி உனக்கு உயர்வதைக் கண்டு நாங்கள் வியந்தோம் அப்பா.
and Patanjali, on 18.5.2008, said that since the many practices taught and shown and put into practice shall bring on excessive heat within, hence there was the need to take sattvic food that cools the body.
ஒப்பிலா உடல் சூடும் தியானத்தால் உனக்குச் சோர்வு வந்திடும் இக்கணம் தன்னில். தான் நீயும் குளிர்ச்சி தரும் பண்டம் தவறாது ஏற்றிட வேண்டும் அப்பா.
and he lists what to do:
நிலைத்துத் தான் அங்கத் திடம் ஓங்கச் சிறப்பாக வாரம் ஓர் நாள் மட்டும் செயற்கை உணவு மட்டும் ஏற்கா. மட்டிலா செய், கரி, குரு நாள் தன்னில் மகத்தான மருத்துவத்தின் உணவும் ஏற்பாய் கட்டளைதான் உப்பு, புலி, காரம், இனிப்பும் கண்டிப்பாய் ஆகாது ஏற்க வேண்டாம்.
and in revealing his secret to Yoga, he said that the colors of the aura will accentuate further as a result of the Kundalini rising; the Chakras would flourish. This is the second instance the Kundalini is mentioned too.
பதஞ்சலியின் யோக சூட்சம இதுதான் மைந்தா. வளமிருக்கும் வர்ணமும், ஆதாரமும் சித்தி கொண்டதோர் குண்டலினி ஓங்கும் பாரு.
and on 30.9.2008, Agathiyar surprised me by saying that the light from the third eye had emerged in me,
நேர்மையான தவத்தாலே நெற்றிக் கண் ஒளியும், ஒளி அதுவும் உனக்குமே வெளிப்பட்டது இப்போ.
followed by 8.12.2008, when Agathiyar threw in another surprise, saying that due to my Vaasi practice or Pranayama, the Suzhimunai and the crown at the top of my head had opened. He assured me that he would draw all the seven veils aside and have me see the Jothi. He said that he would pave the way to reach the state of fulfillment and completeness that comes with the state of Soruba Nilai.
வாசி பயிற்சியாலே சுழி திறந்து உச்சியும் திறக்கக் கண்டாய். ஏழுதிரை தன்னை நீக்கி வழுவாது சோதிதனை கான வைப்போம். வையகத்தில் பூர்த்தி நிலை அடையச் செய்வோம். சொரூப நிலை யாவும் பெற வழியும் செய்வோம்.
and on 27.8.2009, gives further practice known as Tava Sukmam and spelled out the practice, mentioning that they were sharing the practices that the Siddhas did,
வெற்றி நிலை மிகுந்து காணத் தவ சூச்சமம் தான் விவரிப்பேன். இரு மண்டலம் செய்வாய் நன்றாய். பக்குவமாய் பயிற்சியும் செய்து வரப் பலப்படும் ஞான நிலை பலவாறாக. பலவாறு தெளிவு திடம், சிந்தை கீர்த்தி, பிரபஞ்சம் வசிய நிலை திண்ணம். உலகினிலே நாங்கள் செய்த பயிற்சிதான் உவந்து சொன்னோம் உனக்குமே சூச்சம்.
and on 26.12.2009, Agathiyar tells me that Gnanam has dawned on me. Again, he says that the crown of my head has opened. He says that the third eye shall shine. He says that he wanted to gift me treasures and adds that Tavayogi shall grant me the rest.
ஞானத்தின் திறவுகோல் திறந்த பிள்ளை. உச்சியும் திறந்த பிள்ளை. முக்கண்ணும் பிரகாசிக்கும். தர வேண்டும் போக்கிடங்கள் என்று நினைத்தோம். தவறாது யோகி வழி உனக்குக் கிட்டும்.
and on 12.7.2010, he said I saw Sadashiva,
தரணியிலே சதா சிவதை கண்டவன் நீ.
And when Agathiyar again on 9.8.2010, revealed that the heat from the Tapas or Gnana Kanal had risen,
உண்டான ஞான கனல் மிகுந்த காலம் உயர்வான காலம் இது இந்தக் காலம்.
believe me, I sincerely did not know what they were talking about. Neither did I understand what was said to be taking place. The changes only became obvious much later as I continued on the road. They had me realize the magnitude and majesty of the body and mind that are capable of executing any venture in their prime years. They gave me herbal preparations to consume to keep the Doshas balanced for perfect health and being. Equally, they brought me to experience the Uyir, or breath, which we often take for granted through the practice of Pranayama. The volume of Prana intake increased manifold. It came in through the breath; through the intake of food; when I took a dip in the river and sea or had a bath at home; and through the sun's rays and in the outdoors. Then Agathiyar had to halt my practice in 2011, giving the body some time to heal from the shock of the opening of the Muladhara as a result of these practices. Agathiyar revealed that the Muladhara chakra had gained intense heat, hence shutting my systems down. To add to it, my three Doshas were off balance, or rather not in the ratio that sustains good health. He classified my agony as "Paareesa Peedai", which was external and what I came to know from the net as "superficial, existing or occurring at or on the surface and appearing to be true or real only until examined more closely." He gave me the solution in the form of several Siddha herbs and prayers. He asked that I stop all forms of Tapas and Yoga practices for the time being and that I carry out the Sun salutation and worship Lord Muruga to bring relief.
தரணிதன்னில் எங்கள் வழி மார்க்கத்தில் தப்பாது பூசையும் தவமும் செய்து தான் உயர்வு அடைந்திட்ட பாலகன் உனக்குத் தரணியே உயிர் பிணி ஏது சொல்வோம் உடல் பிணி ஏதுதான் அச்சம்கொள்ள. பாரிச பீடைகளும் வந்து நிற்கும். உற்றதொரு மூலாதார சக்கரமும் உயர் விதமாய் உட்டனங்கள் அடைந்ததனாலே உரைக்க வரும் சோர்வும் தேகம் தன்னில். உரைக்கலாம் முக்கூற்று திருப்பும் இப்போ முறையாகச் சம நிலையில் இல்லாதிருக்க சோதனைகள் வந்து நிற்க்கும் அச்சம் மிதந்து. உரைக்கலாம் முக்கூற்று திருப்பும் இப்போ முறையாகச் சம நிலையில் இல்லாதிருக்க சோதனைகள் வந்து நிற்க்கும் அச்சம் மிதந்து. சிறப்பு தரும் வாகடமும் செப்பலாம். செப்பலாம் தவம் தன்னை நிறுத்திவைக்க. சிறப்பு இருக்கு வழிபாடும் முறையே மாறாது சூரிய வழிபாடும் செய்ய வழிபாடும் வேலவர்க்கும் முறையே செய்யப் பங்கம் ஏதும் வந்திடாது கலக்கம் கொள்ளா.
Though it was neither a pleasant nor a delightful encounter or experience, when Agathiyar told me that this too was bliss, I understood that he wanted us not to look at pain and discomfort indifferently. Amidst the pain and suffering, he did acknowledge the state I was in as a blissful state. The graceful light of Arutjothi had increased in its intensity, he said. He added that by taking the Siddha path, one reaches Siddhantam; one gains higher states.
ஆனந்த நிலை இப்போ அடைந்திருக்கிறாய். அருள் ஜோதி நிலை பெருகி உள்ளத்தப்பா. விளம்பலாம் சித்தாந்தம் மார்க்கம் தொட்டு சுத்தமுடன் சித்தர் வழி சமயம்பற்றி வின்னமில்லா நிலை பலதும் அடைந்துவிட்டாய்.
Agathiyar, who continued to monitor my situation, assured me that all shall be fine. He asked me to continue taking the prescription given earlier for another half a Mandalam, that is, 24 days.
வாகடன்கள் தேகத்திற்கு மட்டும் வளத்துடனே அரை மண்டலாம் எடுத்துக் கொள்ள தேகமத்தில் குறை வாரா.
I had no idea the pain and discomfort that I went through for 2 1/2 years were attributed to the opening of the Muladhara and the subsequent rise in the heat due to my Tapas, until Agathiyar revealed it on 26.11. 2011.
On 15.2.2013, Agathiyar reiterated that my crown Chakra was open and I had gained Mukthi. He asked me to stop the search. He shall come for me, he said.
உச்சி திறந்த மைந்தன் நீ அறிவாய் இன்றோ. சுழி திறந்து முக்தி கண்டாய். தேடிய நாடிய காலமெல்லாம் போதும். தேடி வந்து அருள் செய்வோம் இனித்தான் உனக்கு.
Meanwhile, by bringing youths to watch and participate in our family puja, and later bringing the Siddha puja into the corridors of the temples too, he showed us the importance of carrying out these rituals.
He had us engage in doing charity, first in the children's homes and old folks' homes, and then bringing it to the homeless in the streets, and finally helping the poor and unfortunate by visiting their homes too. In doing so, they worked on our compassion and love.
On 21.9.2014, Agathiyar spoke about the Chakras functioning perfectly. He repeated that the Suzhimunai was opened.
ஆதாரம் முறையாய் விளங்கி நிற்கும். முனை திறந்து இருக்கிறாய் இப்போ.
He asked that I write about the Siddha Marga, telling me that he would move me to write.
தக்கதொரு எழுதிடுவாய் சித்த மார்க்கம் பற்றி. எழுத வைப்போம் சிந்தையிலே கலந்து நாங்கள்.
28.3.2015, Agathiyar told me I had gained his Jothi and had opened the crown chakra. He said my home, which was his Vanam, or Garden, has transited into Gnanakottam. Those arriving at my home shall attain the state of Gnanam, he adds. He shall grant his grace here. They shall receive his Arul, Tavam, and Aasi. He says again that he has opened the crown in me.
நீ உலகில் என் ஜோதியைப் பெற்று விட்டாய். திறந்தோமே உட்சியும் உனக்கும் மைந்தா. இல்லமதும் ஞான கோட்டமாகி இறை ஞான நிலை அடைவார் வருவோர் எல்லாம். அருள் புரிந்தோம் ஞான கோட்டம் தன்னில். அருள் தவம் ஆசி பெற வழிவகுத்தோம்.
He thanked me for bringing others into the path through my writings.
உண்மையான மார்க்கத்தை உலகிற்கு ஓதி உயர் நிலையைப் பலர் அடைய வைத்தவன்.
On 28.8.2015, Agathiyar mentioned further changes that had taken place within me, though it was all news to me. He said that his Jothi has expanded in me and the Suzhimunai had opened.
தேகத்தில் மாற்றங்கள் பெற்று இருக்காய். அகத்துக்குள் அகத்தின் ஜோதி பெருகி தேகத்தில் பல மாற்றம் பல சக்தி கிட்டி முனை திரண்டு இருப்பாயே.
He said my writings have reached many.
கருணையுடன் கருத்துகளை உலகிற்குப் பரப்பிக் கருணையான நிலை தன்னை பலர் அடையச் செய்தாய்.
On 18.11.2017, Agathiyar said I was instrumental in some way in the change others went through. He wanted me to maintain a low profile and remain out of the limelight.
அருள் நிலைகள் பெற்றிருக்கின்றார் பல மாந்தரும். மாற்றங்கள் பலர் அடையக் காரணமாய் இருந்தாய். குவலயத்தில் ஒன்றுமே தெரியாதவன் போல் அமர்ந்திருப்பாய்.
When the pain came back with the same intensity as originally, when a sneeze came over me as I was crossing a street, Agathiyar, in the Nadi reading on 7.10.2018, said that my breath was dislodged and blocked. It happened in my sleep, he said.
உனக்குத்தான் நித்திரை தவ வாசி காலம் வாசியும் சீர் பிசகி முடங்கித் தான் இருக்கு.
But neither he nor Agathiyar abandoned me. As it was extremely intense, Lord Muruga came immediately through a Nadi reading the following day, on 8.10.2018, and at the same time through a devotee to heal me. Lord Muruga said that age had caught up with me. My spine and hips were tense. The inner gel at these joints had dried up. This was the reason for the acute pain I was having. With some treatment done earlier, including Varma therapy that Balamurugan did on me, a quarter of the issue was overcome. He told me why I had to go through the suffering. It was to have me sit in one place and do Tapas.
நின் தேகம் தளருது அப்பா. தேகத்திற்கு முதுமை அது வந்துவிட்டாலும் தெளிந்த ஒரு ஆத்மவுள் இருப்பது யானே. இந்தக் காலம் உன்னுடைய முதுகு எலும்பும் இடுப்பும் சேரும் எலும்பு சந்திப்பெல்லாம் தானே ஒருவித இறுக்கமாய் இருக்குது அப்பா. அங்கே இருந்திட்ட தைலம் அது உலர்ந்து போனது அப்பா. இதுதான் உண்மை. ஆச்சப்பா மின்னல் போன்று வலி தோன்றும் அங்கே. அப்போது தான் துடிதுடித்து நிற்பாய் அப்பா. உனக்கு மருத்துவம் சில செய்ததாலே மாற்றங்கள் கால் பங்கு குணமாகக் கண்டேன். சாற்றனல் இது எதற்கென்று கேள். அகத்தில் நீ அமர்ந்து தவம் தியானம் செய்யச் செப்புகிறேன். அலைச்சலை தவிர்த்துக் கொள்ளு. சில காலம் பனி வேண்டும் என்ன செய்ய. அதற்குத்தான் வர்மா தைலம் வாங்கி அப்பா உன் முதுகு எலும்பில் தடவி தானே வெந்நீரில் ஒத்தடம் தருவாய். சிறப்பாக நரம்புதனை எலும்பு தனை வலுவாகும் லேகியம் இதுவே. இது உன் மேனி திடம் ஆக்குதற்கு சொல்லும் வாக்கு. திறம்படவே நீ நடமாட வேண்டும் அப்பா. தீர்க்கமாய் அதற்குத் தான் நூல் உரைக்க வந்தேன். வந்ததும் சுப்ரமணியன் கட்டளையாக. ஆறுமுகன் சொல்லுகின்றேன் ஷண்முகத்திற்குக் கூறுகின்றேன் உன்னால் எழுந்து நடமாட முடியும். குமரனும் இன்று இரவே அற்புதம் செய்வேன்.
Lord Murugan heaped praises on me for keeping a low profile yet spreading the wisdom of Agathiyar. He said that Agathiyar Vanam will take on a new name: Agathiyar Tapovanam.
இந்தத் தேசத்தில் சத்தமின்றி அகத்தியரைப் பலருக்கு நீ காட்டினாய் அப்பா. உன் தொண்டை மெச்சுகின்றேன். மெள்ள அகத்தியர் வனம் அகத்தியர் தபோவனம் ஆகும். தவம் செய்யும் வனம் அப்பா தபோவனம் ஆகும்.
The next day, 9.10.2018, Lord Muruga explained further in another devotee's Nadi reading what took place the night before.
"I did treat him yesterday. I have removed his pain. I came as his Jeeva and as the Jeeva Nool or Nadi and treated him. I spoke (through the Nadi) and came (through the devotee) at the same time. I removed his pain by stroking his body with the peacock feathers. He shall gain by sitting in meditation."
செய்தித்தேன் மருத்துவம் யான் கூட நேற்று. மெய்யாக அவன் வலியைப் போக்கினேன். ஜீவ நூலாய் ஜீவனாய் இறங்கி பங்காக அவன் உடலைச் சார்ந்திருந்தது அவனுக்குச் சிகிச்சை செய்தோம். ஆறுமுகன் பேசினேன் இறங்கினேன் ஒரு கணத்தில். நன்றாய் மயில் இராகு கொண்டு சண்முகத்தின் தேகத்தை தடவிய அவன் வலியைப் போக்கினேன். மைந்தனவன் தியான வழி சிந்தைகொள்ள அவன் தனக்கு சக்தி பெருகும்.
During this phase, Ramalinga Adigal often came through a devotee to link and connect us to the Prapanjam through the breath. He had us experience the Prapanjam. Unlike in the past, when it was available in some quantities, henceforth, every cell and pore of the body began to absorb the Prana. Agathiyar told us that "All things are only truly known when we connect with it." We understand the state of Agathiyar now when he says that the Prapanjam is in him and he is in the Prapanjam. Agathiyar tells us that the power of the Prapanjam is limitless.
இந்தப் பிரபஞ்ச சக்தி எண்ணில் அடங்காதவை.
After some seventeen years of austerities or Tavam and some nine years of Aram or doing charity, Agathiyar had us wind up in all the activities related to it in 2019. He brought us from learning the external traits in doing rituals and conducting puja and participating in the joy of giving and doing charity, to going within. The changes turned out to be pretty obvious in the days to come. Having me sleep in his puja room, I got up to go to the loo in the middle of the night. I collapsed upon getting up. I picked myself up and walked into the living room where I collapsed again. I picked myself up and walked the flight of stairs and collapsed on the landing just outside the bathroom. I began to slither like a snake. Though in pain, I was laughing away too, as it was equally blissful, as Agathiyar pointed out later on 5.9.2019. Agathiyar came to reveal the reason I fell and lay in front of my bathroom door, crawling or slithering in pain like a snake. Agathiyar said the Kundalini had arisen and had churned up the heat and fire within. He described the slithering as a sign of Kundalini moving. He too acknowledged that it was the bliss of bliss.
மும்மலங்கள் அற்றதொரு தேகம் என்பதாலே, முக்கணும் முறை திறந்து உட்சியும் திறந்து, குண்டலினி உயர்ந்து தான் கனல் எழும்பி, அமிர்தத்தை இடை விடாது உண்டு கொண்டு இருக்கிறாய். குண்டலினி சக்தி எல்லாம் எழும்புவது எல்லாம் குவளையத்தில் பாம்பின் போன்று நெளிய நேரும். ஆனால் ஆனந்தம் ஆனந்தம் அதுதான் என்போம்.
When he mentioned further that the third eye and the crown had opened, and I was partaking of the ambrosia within, it was indeed news to me. I was baffled, as I saw nothing to that manner.
Ramalinga Adigal came on 29.11.2019 and hugged those gathered, inviting us to invite the Light within. "Arutperunjothi has taken possession of you. Open up your Atma. Open up your heart to receive him. The Jothi shall come within and embed in you. We are slaves to this Jothi. I am a slave too."
அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி ... வாரும் ஐயா … அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி ஆட்கொண்டானப்ப ... மற்றவர்களும் வாரும் ... உங்களையும் ஆட்கொண்டானப்ப … உங்கள் ஆத்மவை திறந்து வையுங்கள் ... உங்கள் இதயத்தைத் திறந்து வையுங்கள்... ஜோதியினை உன்னுள் பதிந்தது. ஜோதியினை நீ இணைந்து விடு. ஜோதியினை பிரகாசிக்கச்செய். ஆழ்ந்து போ. அனைவரும் ஜோதிக்கு அடிமை. அடியேனும் அடிமை.
On 24.12.2019, Agathiyar, in this final Nadi reading for me, before the Nadi readers packed their bags and left for India in the wake of the pandemic, revealed what Gnanam was. It was the art of transforming the Asudha Degam into a Sudha Degam and later into the Pranava Degam and finally into the Oli Degam. For this to take place, observe the breath, he said. I needed to know the Tattvas too, he added. Gnanam then is in knowing this art and making the transformation happen.
அசுத்த தேகம் சுத்த தேகமாகி பிரணவ தேகமாகி ஒளி தேகமாகும் வித்தையே ஞானம். அதற்குத் தியானத்தில் வாசியைக் கவனி. உடல் குறு தத்துவங்களை அறிய வேண்டும்.
On 30.1.2020, in the absence of Nadi readings, Agathiyar surprised us by coming through a devotee. Agathiyar said I had stagnated in worldly affairs. He continued, "You cannot possibly break the shackle alone. Hence, follow the practices that I am to give you." He asked me to restart the Vaasi, or breathing practice learned from Tavayogi, which he had asked me to discontinue at the peak of my back pain in 2011. He said that, "All this while you saw to your needs in this world. Now you shall undertake an internal journey. This will reveal your purpose in taking birth. I shall relate what needs to be done to realize your purpose in coming here. Currently, your breath is at the Svadhishthana. It is about time it opened up. This is the right time to start this practice. Sit before me and meditate. During this moment, carry out the cleansing breath as taught by your guru. Just the important ones. You shall sense a coolness within. Remain silent in these moments. Focus on your breath. Your breath shall touch the Suzhimunai and swirl. Travel along your seven chakras. That journey shall awaken your chakras. After traversing these chakras, when it touches the seventh, you shall know your purpose here." He told me that I shall come to know what is right and what went wrong. Both shall be lessons I learn. Whatever is initiated immediately and promptly shall bring success, he added.
நீ உலக வாழ்க்கையில் நீர்தேங்கிறாய். இவ்கடிவாளத்தால் உம்மால் மீண்டு வர இயலாது. ஆகையால் யாம் சொல்லும் வழிமுறைகளைச் செய்து வா. நீ செய்தவையில் எது சரி தவறு என்று நீ கண்டறிவாய். அனைத்தும் உனக்குப் பாடம். குறித்த காலத்தில் நீ செய்த அனைத்தும் உமக்கு நன்மை தந்தது. இது நாள்வரை நீ கடந்து வந்தது இவ்வுலக வாழ்க்கையின் பயணம். இனி நீ கடக்க போவது உமது உள்பயணம். அதாவது நீ பிறந்ததின் நோக்கம் அறிவதற்கு நீ செய்யக்கூடிய வழிமுறைகள் யாம் கூற இருக்கிறோம். இதன் மூலம் உமது பிறவி பலனை அதன் நோக்கம் நீ அறிவாய்.
இத்தருணம் மான் மூச்சு குளத்தில் இருக்கிறது. அவை திறக்கும் தருணம் வந்தது. இப்பொழுதுதான் நீ உமது பயிற்சியினை தொடங்க வேண்டும். இந்நிலையில் அச்சக்கரம் முற்றும் திறந்து விடும். தினமும் காலையில் குளித்து வெறும் வேஷ்டி அணிந்து என் முன் அமர்ந்து தியானம் செய்து வா. தியான முறையின் பொது உமது குரு கூறிய சுவாச சுத்திகரிப்பு பயிற்சியினை செய்து வா. அனைத்தும் வேண்டாம். மூல பயிற்சி மட்டும் போதும். அதை நீ செய்து வர உனக்குள் ஒரு தனி குளிர்ச்சி ஏற்படும். அந்நிலையில் நீ அமைதி கோல். உனது மூச்சில் கவனம் கோல். உமது மூச்சு உமது சுழிமுனை தோட்டு சூழும். உமது ஏழு சக்கரங்களில் பயணம் செய். அப்பயணம் உமது சக்கரங்கள் ஒவ்வொன்றாய் பூர்த்தி செய்யும். மூலாதாரம், ஸ்வாதிஷ்டானம், மணிபூரகம், அனாகதம், விசுத்தி, ஆக்கினையென ஏழாவது சக்கரம் தொடும் நிலையில் நீ உனது பிறவிக்கான பலனை அறிவாய்.
Contrary to the hype that surrounds raising the Kundalini to gain powers or control or Siddhis, I came to understand that it was to lead us to Gnanam, or divine wisdom. Agathiyar reveals that "All this while you have gained external knowledge or Ulaga Gnanam. Now you shall gain Gnanam that is going to serve you." Agathiyar reiterates that "When one starts the journey in going within, the result is Gnanam." Just as no one can predict the path the Kundalini takes, Agathiyar too says that Gnanam that it shall vary among people. "Hence I cannot say exactly what shall take place."
"ஒருவன் தனக்குள் உள்வாங்கி அவனுள் பயணம் துவங்கும் நேரம் அப்பயணம் தரும் பாதிப்பே ஞானம். அவை ஒவ்வொருவருக்கும் மாற்றம் பெரும். ஆகையால் அவை நான் இதுதான் என்று சொல்ல இயலாது. நீ இதுவரையில் கண்ட ஞானம் உலக வாழ்க்கை ஞானம். இனி காணப்போவது உனக்கான ஞானம்."
Ramalinga Adigal, coming through a devotee too, came on 14.5.2020 to explain further. "When you reach my state, energy will come within you without your knowledge. That is Suzhimunai."
"எனது நிலையை நீ தொடும்போது உன்னை அறியாது உன்னை நோக்கி ஒரு சக்தி உன்னுள் இறங்கும். அதுவே சுழிமுனை."
Though I was ignorant of the benefits that quietly and subtly arose within from my years of solitude as directed by Agathiyar, and partly because we were forced to stay indoors due to the pandemic, the years 2019 to 2022 were critical years of transformation in me and my surroundings. When he directed me to go within, I mistook it for meditation and became frustrated as it did not happen. I thought that those years were wasted staying indoors, trying to sit in meditation, which did not come easily for me. In asking us to go within, he had us gain the knowledge of something so close to us and internal - the Udal or Body, Uyir or Breath, and Atma or Soul.
The Body, Breath & Soul
To further educate me on the trio, Body, Breath, and Soul, Agathiyar had Mahindren sit with paper and pen and take notes as he revealed how the basic elements were brought together to compose this material body. Though Agathiyar's memo to us was short and brief, it took me seven posts to place what he had said of the Udal, Uyir, and Atma into its correct perspective, as Agathiyar later came to endorse as right.
"I had revealed to you about the Udal, Uyir, and Atma. I am proud that you have understood it correctly."
எனது படிப்பின் மூலம் உங்களுக்கு உடல் உயிர் ஆத்மா சூட்சமத்தை தந்துள்ளேன். அதைக் கொண்டு உனது புரிதலை நான் மெச்சுகின்றேன்.
Later, Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal asked that I reread Tavayogi's "Andamum Pindamum" to understand the Tatvas and how it is formed and functions.
ஆன்மாவாகியது 5 கூறு தத்துவங்களைக் கொண்டது. அந்த 5 கூறுகளை யாதென்று நீ கற்றுக்கொள்ள வேண்டும். எமது சீடன் தவயோகி ஆன்மஞானத்தில் குறிப்பிட்டிருக்கிறான். நீ அதைக் கற்கும்போது உள்ளிருந்து உனக்கு உணர்தலை யாம் அளிப்போம்.
As the Uyir is known through the Udal and vice versa, we realize the importance of the Udal and begin to treasure it. But the reason we cannot identify the Atma is that it is subtle in nature, as opposed to the gross nature of the Udal that is known through the senses and the Uyir that is known when awareness is brought to the breath. When we are caught in the grip of Maya, or illusion in this world, we never realize the existence of the Atma. As Agathiyar says, Tavayogi also states in his "Atma Thattuvam" that the Atma is a tool that binds both the Uyir and Udal.
உயிர் உடல் இரண்டையும் இணைத்து வைக்கின்ற ஒப்பற்ற கருவியே ஆத்மா எனப்படும்.
The Atma, which is supposed to take hold of the Udal and Uyir, controlling them, is sadly driven into the shadows as we exhibit ego and the "I" in us takes the upper hand. It is only when we surrender the "I" that the Atma returns to reign. Its reign, of course, would then be in line with the divine as opposed to that of the "I" that exercises its superiority. When the Atma comes back to regain control of the Udal and Uyir, it brings on a massive transformation within the body, often effortlessly, besides bringing on the whole of Prapanjam within too.
On 22.8.2022, the blessed day that Agathiyar spoke about earlier on 30.1.2020, I felt an "explosion of energy" in my belly as I woke up at 6:40 a.m. and stretched myself in bed. I felt a pull of a nerve and a tug right below the navel. It brought on a swirling sensation followed by a chill. My whole body became numb right to the tips of my fingers and toes. I felt nauseous and had the urge to pee and urinate. Rising from bed, I collapsed twice on the way to the toilet, picking myself up each time. I was alone then, while my daughter was in her room asleep. Back from the toilet, all was fine. A blissful feeling came over me. Narrating this to my daughter, the next day she called for her mother, who arrived from our grandchildren's home to accompany me.
The next day, Tuesday 23.8.2022, I woke up at 7.20 a.m. to go to the loo, but I could not pee. I fell again. I picked myself up and climbed onto the bed as my wife watched without any inkling of what was going on. Agathiyar had told her in the past to just observe and watch. My body became numb from the shoulders down. I lay like a dead log on my bed. Although I could not move even an inch of my torso, I was able to see, hear, and talk, and was aware of what was happening to me. I had no fear or anxiety. I asked myself if this was what "to be dead" was. Soon the experience went away.
Seeking answers to what had taken place, Agathiyar cleared the air later. He told me not to worry and said that "the stagnated water" was released.
கவலை கொள்ள ஒன்றுமில்லை. தேங்கி இருந்த நீர் வெளி கொண்டது.
Nevertheless, he gives a warning to all of us. When the chakras are activated late in life, it would have some adverse effects on our bodies. When the heat of Tapas increases in our body, blood flow will be less, bringing on numbness. This would result in urinary and excretion problems. He asked that I seek allopathic medicine.
ஆனபோதும் முதிர்ந்த நிலையில் சக்கரங்கள் திறப்பதனால் உதிர வாட்டம் கொண்டுள்ளது. முதிர்ச்சியில் சக்கரங்கள் திறக்கும்போது அவ்வுடல் சில பாதிப்பினை ஏற்றுக்கொள்ளும். உனது உடலில் உஷ்ணம் ஏற ஏற உதிரம் குறையும். உதிரம் குறைந்தால் உடல் மறுத்துப் போகும். உடல் மறுத்துப் போனால் சிறுநீர் கோளாறு கழிவில் கோளாறு. ஆகையால் எண்கள் மேரு பெறும். ஆகையால் மருத்துவம் உனக்குத் தேவை. ஆங்கில மருத்துவம் கொண்டு அதனைச் சுத்தம் செய்து கோல்.
That is when Agathiyar, besides giving me strength and courage, asked that I share my experiences with readers. He asked me to stop writing about my external journey that began in 2002, but instead share the changes and transformations that had been taking place within, beginning in 2007 and peaking in 2022, with readers keen to become Light. I was delighted to know that he was now working on me too. I knew then that I was on the right track. But I was already sixty-two back then. We are told again and again that we need to achieve the state before reaching our sixties. Beyond that, it would be an uphill task for the material body to be transformed into light particles.
He said, "Do not be afraid of death. It is but another door to another journey. One who invites death is a Siddha. There is much I need to carry out through you. Enough of my praise. Write about your bodily experiences. Let your writings be about the changes taking place in your body. Let your readers know the changes that take place in the body if they come to worship the Light and seek to merge with it. My wisdom shall be your experience. Experience first, and I shall clarify the experiences later. Experience is knowledge to you. Nothing is beyond experience."
மரணபயம் வேண்டாம். மரணம் ஒன்றும் அல்ல. மற்றொரு பயணத்தின் கதவு. எவன் ஒருவன் மரணத்தை அன்போடு வரவேற்கின்றானோ அவன் சித்தன் ஆகின்றான். உன்னில் இருந்து நான் காரியங்கள் செய்வதற்கு இன்னும் நிறைய இருக்கிறது. எனது பெருமை போதும். இனி உன் எழுத்துக்கள் உடல் மாற்றங்கள் உடல் அனுபவம் பற்றியதாக இருக்கட்டும். ஜோதியினை வழிபட்டால் அதில் இணைய வேண்டும் என்றால் உடலில் எவ்வித மாற்றங்கள் ஏற்படும் என்று உன் வாசகர்களுக்குத் தெரிய படுத்து. உனது அனுபவம் எனது அறிவு. அனுபவமே உனக்கு அறிவு. அனுபவத்தைத் தாண்டி ஒன்றுமே இல்லை. நீ அனுபவம் கொண்டுவா, பின்னர் உரைக்கிறேன்.
The swirling sensation felt for several weeks in the abdomen just below my navel was regularly felt in the crown of my head, but with a lesser intensity in the days to come. I guess this is what Agathiyar meant when he said I shall feel a magnetic wave arise. A couple of days later, it seemed more like a flowering of petals and was blissful. A chilliness and swirling that is akin to a flowering went on irrespective of my daily activities. It was more intense each time I brought my attention to it. Following the flowering in the crown that went on on its own, I asked Agathiyar what I should do further. His reply was to do nothing and that it shall do its work. Since Agathiyar said the energies will do the rest, we have basically become a dynamo. The breath that is akin to the river turns the turbine machine in our case, the chakras, to produce electricity and energy. A clear nostril is a highway for these energies to hitch on the breath and make their way swiftly to the depot at the top of the head. The body is now a magnet that is attracting the effulgence from beyond. Just as we understand that there is a small amount of electricity that reaches out to it from the earth towards the skies during a thunderstorm, similarly, a small amount of electricity in us meets the larger expanse that is God.
Agathiyar allayed my fear, telling me, "You shall witness many changes taking place within you. Do not fear. Due to the activation of the chakras, your body shall emit a foul smell. You shall have constipation. You shall urinate often. Take lots of warm water. The "Agathiyar Kuzhambu" you took did help in expelling the three Doshas. But there is still more filth that shall be expelled in due time. Carry out the said practice." If having me do nothing, he cleared my mind; Agathiyar had me consume his "Agathiyar Kuzhambu," a herbal preparation earlier that was made available by his devotee and Siddha physician J.Ariwananthen Aiya, to cleanse the filth and trash I carried in my internals.
"உடலில் பல மாற்றங்கள் கண்டறிவாய். பயம் கொள்ள வேண்டாம். இச்சக்கரங்கள் புணர்ச்சியால் உன் உடலில் ஏற்படும் மாற்றங்கள், துர்நாற்றம் வீசும், மல சிக்கல் ஏற்படும், கழிவு ஆகும், சிறுநீர் அதிகம் வெளியேறும். வெந்நீர் அதிகம் அருந்து. அன்று நீ உண்ட குழம்பினாள் உன் உடலிலிருந்து வாத, பித்த, கபம் சற்றே அகன்றது. இன்னும் இருக்கிறது. அவை அகலும். இப்பயிற்சியினை மேற்கோள்."
It all begins with knowing the Siddhas and traveling to their places and abodes, witnessing the miracles, entering the states of bliss, and not forgetting to bring back these feelings and work on them further, nurturing these experiences, and keeping the flame alive and burning by nurturing it in our homes and our hearts. Then Agathiyar says that the Siddha shall come down. If we had gone looking for them earlier, now they come down from their abode into our homes and hearts and lives.
Then Balamurugan initiated the move by inviting Agathiyar over to his newly rented home after the pandemic. As this was followed by others, Agathiyar had me stop bringing him over. Then, after a long break, Agathiyar indicated his intent to move out of my home, which came to be known as Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM), and stated his wish to stay in a handful - to be specific, six devotees' homes for a month each- before returning home to AVM for the Guru Purnima prayers on 21.7.2024. I put out the notice for takers, and the slots were taken up within days. I realized only later that, just as Agathiyar had tested me to see if I was willing to let go of his statue, it was a test for these selected few to see if they would let go of their hold on idol worship too. They each hosted the monthly Pornami puja on 24.2.2024 / 24.3.2024 / 23.4.2024 / 23.5.2024 and 21.6.2024 before sending him off to grace the home of another devotee on 4.7.2024. After some six months, he told the host that he was going to move out on two occasions. But as the couple and their family remained silent, not giving their consent, Agathiyar decided to give them some more time; during which time, the host began to strengthen his hold by purchasing a bronze statue of Lobama too, and carrying out their ThiruKalyanam, or Holy Matrimony. When Agathiyar told them he was leaving, giving them no option this time around, the host had to submit to his wishes.
The idol is only required for as long as we are ignorant of the true nature of the divine that is all around us and, most importantly, in us, and not only in statues. Once we have understood, it is no longer necessary. We are to drop all our coverings and return to the source naked, just as we came naked. In our chase to accumulate and hoard things and possessions, we are continuously reminded to shed them all. The final breaking point comes when eventually we shed this very body of meat, breaking it down into the very components and elements and building blocks that came together to take this form, not as in dying and decomposing in the ground, but while living in flesh and blood.
The soul enlightens us of its inherent nature. We know our true potential and state and take the dive. When we follow their directives or those of the soul, they shall walk with us, holding our hands. Just as Tavayogi told me, "Only now the true journey begins, my son," as we left for the caves and the jungles to explore the Siddhas, now another journey begins: that of exploring within us. This travel shall not be that of an external journey but of an internal journey. Yoga is the key to this travel within.
From Sariyai to Kriyai, they now teach us Yogam. The journey within begins by initially requiring our efforts, but soon the energies inherent in us will take the reins and lead us on. All we need to do is watch, as Agathiyar told me. We shall stand witness to many unexplained mysteries and happenings. We shall encounter and see many things. It would be puzzling to us. It would be new to us too. Continuing this internal journey, we shall arrive at each Chakra and eventually see the cosmic dance of Thillai in Sahasrara, says Agathiyar. A 1000-petaled flower will keep on opening up continuously, as in the ripple in the waters. Arutjothi will come to reside here. The divine energy and its effulgence enter within. Just as the Kundalini, upon awakening and making its way up, traverses each Chakra, purifying them, this effulgence travels down a similar and known path and brings on the shine and luminosity in these Chakras. Jothi Darisanam, or Vision of the Light, as Supramania Swami told me he saw days before his Samadhi, takes place when one sees the Light or Effulgence. The body takes on the same. Intense surges of energy that came to be felt within as a result of Pranayama that brought on excessive Prana within lead to intense vibrations felt as the Higher energies come within, as the vessel is purified by doing Pranayama. The vessel is then connected to the very source of this Prana, the Prapanjam. Electrical surges are felt as we connect with nature around us, the soul in those who give eye contact, give a smile, etc. This vibration then extends beyond the body in ripples extending far and wide. We then connect with other power or energy sources some distance away, staying where we are. We begin to emit these energies that are felt by those tuned to receive them. Eventually we attain the state of a Jeeva Mukta, one who has attained Mukti or Salvation while living in the flesh. Henceforth, as Agathiyar proclaims, "You are me, and I am you"; we are no different from Agathiyar, and Agathiyar is no different from us.
Having tested me to see if I could let go of my attachment to his bronze statue soon Agathiyar had me even let go of him asking for how are we to become One.
"யார் அகத்தியன்? நீ அகத்தியன். நான் அகத்தியன். உண்மை. நாம் எல்லோரும் அகத்தியன். நம் உள் உள்ள ஜோதி அகத்தியன். அவர் அகத்துள் உறையும் தீ அகத்தியன். அவர் ஈசன். அவர் அகத்துள் உறையும் ஈசன். ஏன் நாம் அவரை உணர்வதில்லை? ஏன் நாம் இதனை உணர்வதில்லை? நாம் பக்குவம் அடையவில்லை. நாம் ஆத்மா பக்குவம் அடைந்தால் நாம் இதனை உணர்வோம். நாம் எப்படி பக்குவம் அடைவது? முதலில் இந்த பாதையில் பயணிக்க வேண்டும். சித்தர்கள் வாசம் செய்யும் இடங்களுக்குச் சென்று, பல அற்புதங்களைக் கண்டு மகிழ்ந்து, உணர்ந்து, பின்னர் அவ் உணர்வுடன் இல்லம் திரும்பி, அவர்களை நினைத்து நினைத்து உருகிப் பூஜிக்க வேண்டும். சித்தன் இறங்கி வருவான். பின் அவன் கட்டளைக்கு ஏற்ப நடந்து வந்தால் விரைவில் அவன் உங்கள் கரங்களை பிடித்து கொண்டு பயணிப்பான். இப் பயணம் வெளி பயணம் அன்று உள் பயணம் ஆகும். உள் பயணத்திற்குத் திறவுகோல் யோகம். சரியையிலிருந்து கிரியைக்கு வந்த பின்னர் இப்போது யோகம் பயிற்றுவிப்பான். அப்போது உள் பயணம் ஏற்படும். பல நிகழ்வினை காண்பீர். பலதும் உணர்வீர். புதிராகவும் இருக்கும். புதியதுவாகவும் இருக்கும். இவ் உள் பயணதைத் தொடர்ந்து வந்தால் ஒவ்வொரு சக்கரமாகச் சென்று அடைந்து பின் இறுதியில் சஹஸ்ராரவில் தில்லை நடனத்தைக் காணலாம். எந் நேரமும் அங்கு ஆயிரம் தாழ் மலர் ஒன்று விரிந்து கொண்டே செல்லும். அருட்சோதி அங்கு வந்து உறையும். பின் அதன் பிரகாசம் உள் சென்று எப்படி குண்டலினி ஒவ்வொரு சக்கரமாக மேலே சென்றதோ சென்று கழிவுகளை விளக்கி தூய்மை செய்ததுவோ அதுபோல் அருட்சோதி கீழ்ச்சென்று ஒவ்வொரு சக்கரமும் பிரகாசிக்கச் செய்யும். ஜோதி தரிசனம் கிட்டும். உடல் ஜோதி பிழம்பாக திகழும். உடல் பிரகாசிக்கும். உடலில் இருந்து அதிர்வுகள் நீண்டு உங்களைச் சூழ்ந்து மற்றவர்களைத் தாக்கும். பலர் இதனை உணரக் கூடும். பக்குவம் அடைந்தவர்கள் புரிந்து கொண்டு பின் தொடர்வார். அப்போது நீ ஜீவ முக்தன் ஆகிவிடுவாய். உனது ஜீவன் முக்தி அடைந்து விட்டது. பின் நீ வேறு அகத்தியன் வேறு அல்ல. நீயே நானாய் நானே நீயாய் திகழ்வோம்."
This is the path to becoming Light that Agathiyar extolled in a memo he had me transcribe on the eve of Guru Purnima of 2024, which I read out to the attendees the next day and which I had shared on this blog too. In bringing us his Guru Purnima message, Agathiyar paved the path for us to explore and return to him. He simplified the journey in terms that we could grasp and travel along.
Further to this, when Agathiyar came around asking each of us gathered at AVM what we wanted, and as I had nothing to ask, but since he stood waiting, I thought taking further births and coming back to serve him would be the thing to ask. When he asked me if that was what I desired, I knew at that moment that this was not the ultimate asking.
In my conversation with Mahindren over the phone later, if one should ask for Gnanam, as Tavayogi often reminded us, Agathiyar came to explain that it was not gifted, but we had to work towards it, going within, working on our chakras, and finally, not arriving at being a Gnani or wise one as yet, but just coming to know what Gnanam was.
Later he tells me that to be in his fold, or Tirukuttam, was the ideal thing to ask. Today we understand that Ramalinga Adigal is with him, and so is Tavayogi, doing Agathiyar's work in their realm, while Shirdi Sai is with Lord Muruga. Yogi Ramsuratkumar said at his deathbed that he could do a better job in the subtle realm. All these great saints returned to their fold.
In asking us who Agathiyar was, and replying to his own question, saying that we all are him, we know that he does not sit as a master or Lord presiding over his subjects, dictating and ruling and expecting us to serve him. He wants us all to become him. When Agathiyar said that we all are him, he is implying, as Buddha did, that we are all Buddhas. It is just that we are not aware of our present state, he says further. In telling me that we had known each other for ages, he had stood by in this entire journey of self-discovery, arriving a step closer by taking each step, or rather, taking each birth. Agathiyar then revealed the journey further: the need to discover the Self or Atma, come to know our Soul, or Atma, which is our inner Guru, arriving at Gnanam for ourselves, gained after having us learn from the many experiences during this internal journey, and return to his state, the state of a Siddha, and becoming him, and eventually Sivam, the source. In distinguishing himself as the Light, Jothi, or flame among many other forms, he tells us that we are alive due to his presence in us as the fire, flame, heat, and warmth in us, giving life, mobility, and sustenance, too. In proclaiming himself as Esan or Sivam residing in us, he asserts himself as the indwelling Lord and Param(Atma).
When Agathiyar then asks us, why is it that we do not realize or feel him, he had the answer for that too. It is because we have not attained the state of preparedness or readiness to realize him, he said. Similarly, if we are as close as the nail and flesh, when I was moved to tears seeing others suffer, I was moved to ask, why does he just watch his devotees and children suffer? When I saw people around me suffering as a bachelor in the eighties and began to question it, I was asked to keep my questions to a later date by Lord Siva coming in a dream. I soon learned the reasons for their sufferings were due to their past Karma, when Agathiyar spoke about my Karma too in my Nadi reading some fourteen years later. Though I saw many seek the Nadi and carry our remedies, these remedies did not move the mountain of troubles they had. I then took it that maybe they came to the Siddhas just as we go to the doctors for outpatient treatment, which at times does not give the expected results either unless one is warded and observed, and numerous tests are done and taken to arrive at the root of the cause. And so I believed that one has to tread the path of the Siddhas and not remain a mere observer. But when many who took up the worship of the Siddhas, and came as close as the nail and flesh, too faced continuous troubles, I was puzzled. Why are not the Siddhas lending a hand in moving the mountain for them? Borrowing from the thoughts and philosophies of the Gnanis, we are told that it is all ordained, fated, and destined, and one is asked to accept it all in good faith. If all is ordained and charted, why give us false hope that prayers can do miracles? Where is this play by the divine leading us? When I came through one full cycle and went back to where I started - questioning- Mahindren, who visited me last evening, said jokingly that I would have to wait for Lord Siva to come again in my dream and have me drop these questions for a later date, as he did in 1988. But if he were to give me the answer after some 14 years this time around too, as he did before I am afraid I do not have that much time, as I am already 67 this year. He has to answer me fast. And he sure did answer me immediately after that night, through a video clip from the film, "Charukesi". This play is beautifully described by "God" in coming to a classical singer, bringing him relief from his grief by equating us with a Banana Bajji (Watch from 12.06 mins)
இந்த வாழைக்காய் பஜ்ஜில வாழ்க்கையோட தத்துவமே அடங்கி இருக்கு சார். இந்த வாழைக்காய் இருக்குல்ல சார். இவன் ஒரு மனுஷன். அவன் இந்த அனுபவம்ங்கிற கத்தியில ஒன்னொன்னா வெளிய எடுக்கணும். ஈகோ, தீய எண்ணங்கள், அஞ்ஞானம் எல்லாத்தையும் எடுத்ததுக்கு அப்புறம் இத பாருங்க இப்படி ஃபுல் ஒயிட் ஆயிருவான். அவனை லவகிக வாழ்க்கை அப்படிங்கிற மாவுக்குள்ள அப்படி போட்டு நல்லா பிரட்டு பிரட்டுன்னு பிரட்டணும். பிரட்டி எடுத்ததுக்கு அப்புறம் இவன் ரெடி. அத அப்படியே எண்ணெய் சட்டியில தலைப்பு போல தலை புழன்னு கொதிச்சுக்கிட்டு இருக்கும். யோசிக்கவே கூடாது. இவனை தூக்கி ஜோபக்கட்டேன்னு உள்ள போட்டதுக்கு அப்புறம் குஞ்சோ முறையோன்னு கத்துவான். லபோ திபோன்னு அலறுவான். கடவுளை எல்லாம் திட்டுவான். இப்படி புரளுவான். அப்படி பிரளுவான். கண்டுக்கவே கூடாது. கொஞ்ச நேரம் விட்டுனீங்கன்னு வச்சுக்கங்களேன், அப்படியே அமைதி ஆயிருவான். சைலன்ட் ஆனதுக்கு அப்புறம் இந்த மாதிரி ஒரு டேஸ்டான பஜ்ஜியா மாறிருவான்.
எல்லாமே ஒரு பாயிண்ட் ஆஃப் வியூ சாருகேசி சார். இப்போ கன்னியாகுமரியில போய் பார்த்து நிக்கிறவன் ஐயயோ தமிழ்நாடு இதோட முடிஞ்சு போச்சே அப்படின்னு நினைப்பான். அதே இப்படி திரும்பி நின்னு பார்த்தான்னா டேய் இங்கிருந்துதான்டா தமிழ்நாடு ஆரம்பிக்குது அப்படின்னு சந்தோஷப்படுவான்.
இப்போ எல்லாரும் பிரச்சனை என்கிட்ட வந்துதான் சொல்றாங்க. ஆனா அந்த பிரச்சனையில என்ன பிரச்சனைன்னா தீர்வு அவங்க கையிலதான் இருக்கு.
நீங்க பிரச்சனை பத்தி கவலையே படாம ஆண்டவன் மேல பாரத்தை போட்டு ஓகே ரைட்ன்னு கிளம்பி போயட்டே இருக்கணும்.
Indeed, we are so cooked up in these worldly affairs, either basking in the sun, getting a suntan, or cooked over the fire, or boiled in a pan - either happy or suffering or in pain. Otherwise, we are preoccupied with our desires or wants, or caught or tangled in the web of our own making. Battered and brawled over, torn and shredded, we step outside to find some time to recover.
Agathiyar says that once our soul attains this preparedness, the soul either brings us to a guru in the physical form or turns guru and leads us on. The soul comes to show us the way out of this mess that we created. It charts and paves the path henceforth. Of course, Agathiyar would only show the path he had traveled to attain his present state, just as he told me in the Nadi, in giving me practices and tips, that he was only sharing what they had done, seen, and realized through these practices. It is the path of the Siddhas. Similarly, I can only share my account and experiences that came by way of the Siddhas with readers - nothing further, nothing more, nor nothing less.
Besides writing this blog, watching some videos and movies, listening to some songs, and going on my daily morning and evening walks, I end up "Doing Nothing" most of the time. This is how time flies for me these days. Just as the calling came, to come to his path through my very first Nadi reading in 2002, I await the day the calling comes to leave and follow Agathiyar to his realm, just as he took both Supramania Swami and Tavayogi with him.