In asking me to do nothing, I have come to realize that there is a profound truth in this instruction. As I revisit this blog I discovered that the answers are all there, but since I had yet to arrive at the experience back then it made little sense then. P.Karthigayan wrote in his book "History of Medical and Spiritual Sciences of Siddhas of Tamil Nadu," which I referred to Friday, 13 March 2020, that concentrating on the center of the forehead, called Lalaadam, one is led into a thoughtless mental state that of Mounam. Prolonging this state is Tavam. Probing the questions in Tavam is Gnanam. He says, "It is believed that such questions will be answered by our own conscience through our spirit's connection to the cosmic library."
Agathiyar told me, "Gnanam is not gifted but has to be earned and experienced. When one goes within, as the journey brings upon these subtle experiences these shall translate into and become Gnanam. It defers to each person. As such I cannot possibly define it."
நீ என்னிடம் கேட்டது ஞானம். ஞானம் என்பது நான் தருவதல்ல. நீ கற்பது. ஒருவன் தனக்குள் உள்வாங்கி அவனுள் பயணம் துவங்கும் நேரம் அப்பயணம் தரும் பாதிப்பே ஞானம். அவை ஒவ்வொருவருக்கும் மாற்றம் பெரும். ஆகையால் அவை நான் இதுதான் என்று சொல்ல இயலாது.
Ramalinga Adigal came to affirm the same telling me it needed effort. The effort placed in going within brings new experiences quite unlike what we have seen in our daily lives. Asking me several questions if I was experiencing them, he charted the journey beautifully giving me instructions. He says that an understanding of the structure of the body coupled with an understanding of the subtle experiences that result from bodily changes and an understanding of the inner journey is a much-needed and required prerequisite to an understanding of the inner journey. He asked if I was aware of the breath and its movement and if the breath was driving me or if the breath was flowing in me?" He asked that I continue and remain in this state of bliss and said that finally, the effulgence would become ablaze in me.
உடல் கூறு தத்துவங்களைத் தெரிந்துகொண்டாயா? தேக மாற்றம் உணருகிறாயா? உன் உள் பயணத்தை அறிந்துகொண்டாயா? பிரணவத்தின் சக்தி உணருகிறாயா? உன் பிரணவத்தால் ஊடுகிறாயா? அல்லது பிரணவம் உன்னுள் ஊடுகிறதா? இன்பத்தில் ஆழ்ந்து கொண்டுவா, உன்னுள் ஜோதி எரியும்.
When Agathiyar and Lord Murugan after dismembering the limbs of the house that was built out of our individual self-made purposes, took turns to play their divine game or Lila in our lives, giving us the much-needed experiences that would mold us into a vessel and vehicle now fit for their purpose, and finally arrived at asking if they should make me a guru too and almost immediately brushed that offer aside and instead told me that they shall make me a Siddha instead, it is pretty obvious that Agathiyar is not willing to let me take on the role of a guru for it shall then be only an extension of one's ego. He wants me to stay longer and earn the divine knowledge or Ambrosia that shall come to be revealed in due time. I came across a passage from P.Karthigayan related to the phases in being tuned to become one. One starts with the purification of body and mind first, only then is he introduced to distinguishing between the true wisdom distinct from the false that is short-lived. If he has genuine interest he stays to further himself, otherwise, he proclaims himself as a guru and leaves. For those who stay, the divine knowledge shall be revealed slowly based on his determination and merit. Finally, he is given a divine bead that serves as armor in his journey. It looks like we then graduate from the Siddha school with a major in the Philosophy of the Siddhas.
P. Karthigayan making a distinction between the two paths of, the Yogis and the Siddhas, charts the path and the process till the day of transformation in our state and standing dawns. While Yogis considered their body as a bag of sin suitable only for worldly life and rejected the same; the Siddhas considered the body as a means to achieve exalted spiritual heights and immortalized their body by scientific means. The Siddhas asserted that one needed to attain Atma Siddhi or spiritual immortality and Kaaya Siddhi or physical immortality. In the former they preserved their soul (Atma) with the spirit (Uyir or breath) within and in the latter, they preserved the body (Udal) and soul (and spirit). By eliminating the worldly substances, the Siddhas renewed their body and reincarnated their spirit or breath with the soul within it. The science of achieving death without dying, or Saagaamal Saagum Kalai, which is commonly spoken about as an achievement by the Siddhas, is a loss of substances related to the earth except for the form of their profile.
The vision that Mother Mira Alfassa had seen of the happenings that took place on that memorable Friday night when Ramalinga Adigal attained the Jothi in Sidhi Valagam during her meditation carried in the article "A Vision of Dematerialization of Ramalinga's Living Body" by Gangadharan, a disciple of her on the now-defunct website http://www.ramalinga.com confirms the very state of Saagaamal Saagum Kalai that Ramalinga Adigal entered. Substances of a perishable nature will be replaced by substances of a cosmic nature and complete the transformation known as Kaaya Siddhi - retaining one's body forever.
When he was thus absorbed in deep concentration, an effulgent truth-light of grace broke out from his heart and with its unique heat began to burn his radiant physical body very slowly, as at a snail's speed, and that in an upward direction, from the heart towards the head. The burning of the body may be somewhat likened to that of an incense stick which however burns downwards by its inner heat of fire, forming ash covering but without the falling down of the ash-form. When the upper part of his radiant body was burnt completely from heart to head, there was left in its place a form of pure white substance, which also radiated its light of consciousness. The burnt part, however, showed all its features intact and clearly, and even the burnt hair of his head was seen distinctly as luminous white hair. Then the heat of the pure light of grace descended to burn the lower part.
After the whole body was thus burnt, Vallalar was seen as a bodily form of pure white substance from head to foot, radiating its light. The white form kept intact all the different kinds of cells of his body and all the distinctive features and formations of his interior and exterior body.