This is the phase where sexual urges come on, anger flares and fear arises. Hence all the more reason to stay in solitude and address and win over these temptations and emotions. Just to help us further, we are momentarily removed from family and society. So the need to go into isolation. What awaits after this phase is anyone's guess. But one thing is pretty obvious that is that Agathiyar has been very patient and accommodating with me, giving me the freedom to still make choices although I have surrendered to him. But what is surrender when we still have this "I" thought and identification with ourselves? Only when we lose this will we become another, in this case, him. He wants us to lose ourselves and merge into him. In doing thus, we are one with all too. We lose our individual identity and self. We breathe, see, taste, and touch through him and vice-versa. This is where he is bringing us, to Ramana's teachings as he says. Since he spoke yesterday the fears have subsided. I am clear in my thoughts that we muddied and disturbed earlier. The fear is being replaced by joy and bliss, calm and connectivity.
