A concerned reader and friend from South Africa who follows this blog has been enquiring about my health for some time now. As we spoke over the phone last night, I told her that the acute pain I had in the years beginning in 2010 and 2012 and that reappeared again in 2016 and 2018 is being felt in my back but to a lesser intensity. But when I faced it the very first time I was worried sick if it could be a health issue as I was in my sixties. But the Siddha practitioners and Allopathic physicians too struck out any possible issue. In September of 2019, Agathiyar came in the Nadi reading to clear the air and revealed that it was due to the uprising of once dormant energy activated by my Yogic practices learned from Tavayogi in 2007. He brushed the pain aside telling me that pain itself was bliss. This time, I have learned to accept and live with it. It is indeed blissful as Agathiyar said. Under every pain, discomfort, misery, and suffering lies a subtle state of bliss.
Just a couple of days ago, foreseeing another bout of cleansing in the making Agathiyar mooted a devotee to call me and interrupted our telephone conversation. He revealed that I shall foresee further bodily changes taking place and called me to contact the Pulippani Siddhar Peedham in Palani, telling me that I should begin to take certain herbal preparations beginning now. Since my search and association with associations had stopped many years back after coming to Agathiyar and my fellowship to a tutor and teacher ended with Tavayogi's demise, I voiced my reluctance to begin one yet again, Agathiyar told me that though he was with me certain things had to be done through people. I consented. Though I had stepped into the ashram on one of my pilgrimages to Palani, not knowing anyone in the said Peedham, I looked up on the internet and came across a cell number. I called and introduced myself asking to whom I was speaking. He replied that he was a Siddha doctor. What do you know? I dialed the right number and the right person answered. As he agreed to prepare the preparation, the question arose as to who was to pick up the package as I had no intention to travel. Calling up some friends, a friend, and Siddha practitioner told me that he was leaving for India on 3 March and would do so. What can I ask for further? Agathiyar closed the deal beautifully. What an amazing journey it has been. Agathiyar has never failed to amaze me.
If he had told me of the further changes about to take place in the morning, I went through it in the evening and throughout the night into the next day. The purging of excess Vata (Wind), Kapha (Phlegm), and Pitta (Bile) came on followed by dizziness even as I lay my head down and nausea. But it all cleared in the evening and I am back to my normal self. Why would I want to share these petty things with readers? Am I blowing my own horn? Am I seeking recognition or attention? Am I seeking fame and fortune? I for one was a very timid person since a child keeping to myself and my thoughts. But it all changed after Tavayogi nudged me to take the center stage and speak about the Siddhas whom I hardly knew back then in 2005, and Agathiyar in subsequent Nadi readings asked me to write. This blog has become the voice of Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM) over the years. He in 2022 asked me to stop singing his praise and instead share the transformation and changes taking place within. I guess that is my purpose here.
Someone wrote in saying, "Whether or not someone shares their experiences, if Prabanjam (the universe) wills it, the true seeker will receive all the knowledge they need. In my view, it is our ego (ahangaram) that makes us believe traditions continue because of us, when in reality, they exist beyond individual effort." I guess that is life. You win some (friends) and you lose some.