Yesterday was a beautiful day of kids having fun and sitting in prayer. If my home saw the birth of Siddha puja being carried out by me after Agathiyar called me to worship the Siddhas in a Nadi reading in 2002, and where my family joined me after Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal in 2005 asked me to include my family too, with the coming of several youths sent by Agathiyar to watch and participate in our home puja in 2013, whenceforth my home took on the name Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM), I thought I shall bring the children to carry out the Siddha puja henceforth in 2026. And so they did a splendid job at it. Agathiyar came even before we began. He blessed all who had gathered and gave his blessings for the puja to proceed, adding an extra agenda to what I had planned, knowing pretty well that he would come to change it.
The kids began singing devotional songs that they knew and learned from school. We then had lunch, after which the momentum picked up. Lining the children up, they conducted Abhisegam, or libation, to Agathiyar and Lobama's statue. Agathiyar came in the midst through a devotee and hauled me and my wife to complete the Abhisegam. He expressed his joy in us carrying out the puja and brought an end to my question about whether the day's puja was the last at AVM. It looks like I have to have more puja sessions with the kids in the future.
Agathiyar requested a devotee to sing, which was followed by another, and the rest of the children, to the accompaniment of music that these children played pretty well.
Finally, he had me address questions put forth by a devotee whom he had prepared earlier.
- Just a quick recap so that it would be helpful to the kids. Looking back now, would you say that you came to the path on your own, or did the Siddhas bring you, or was it your parents? What do you think? In the first few years of travel, did you see it as Agathiyar's guidance? Did you see it as a spiritual experience or take a logical stand?
- Is the Siddha path the same for all seekers? Or is it shaped by each person's inner maturity?
- In the initial days of travel, even before the coming of Supramania Swami and Tavayogi, what did you make out of the Siddha path? Was it pure and simple faith, or was there a focus on sadhanas, tapas, and siddhis?
- How does Agathiyar's presence work in life? Do compare the initial days and the present times.
- Was there a moment of switch from belief to certainty?
- Many seekers speak on the techniques of breathing. But Agathiyar speaks of the breath as awareness. Doesn't this then become a form of escapism for many? How does silence work out in these moments?
- We are used to people lamenting about family and work responsibilities, and doubts arise whether it is possible to make progress on the Siddha path. How did you manage it in your life?
- We speak of detachment and unlearning in AVM. Why is this important?
- Do the Siddhas correct us directly? Or do they create the perfect situation, create the perfect environment for the seeker's growth?
- Does suffering bring on spiritual growth, or is it the side effect of resistance? How do we see this happening through the eyes of the Siddha path?
- Many become passive when asked to surrender. How do we know the difference between true surrender and being passive?
- What is the change that has to happen within us? Is it in the habits or perception?
- What was the realization that broke your understanding of spiritualism? Was it painful? Or did you accept them as they took place?
- How are we to know the shift from the outer guru's guidance to the inner guru's shift? Do we need an outer guru? How are we to trust our inner guru?
- After some 20 years of travel, what was simple and what was demanding?
- The following is the highlight of the questionnaires. When mention is made of the Kundalini, there is either fear or fantasy. What is kundalini in your experience? What is most misunderstood about the Kundalini?