LET US SIT BACK & LISTEN

Today I am not going to speak. Let these songs speak to you.

JOINING THEIR FOLD

However much I try to write briefly, I end up giving lengthy posts. Please bear with me, for everything has to be said, for it is all connected. Otherwise, there would be missing pieces of the puzzle, and readers would not get a complete picture. 

The calling came late in life for me, only in 2001, a year before I came to read the Nadi, as I was then already 43 years old. Agathiyar had Gopal Pillai, who had gone into Samadhi, come through a devotee of his and pass on a message for me through my nephew, who was a devotee of him too. He had my nephew come over to my home to deliver it at 4 pm on a Saturday afternoon on the 6th of October 2001. He had me chant the Vasudeva mantra, hence breaking my self-imposed exile, or rather, the 14 years that I had stepped away from all forms of worship, reading, and discussion, taking heed of the advice from Lord Siva coming in a dream, to shelve all the questions and doubts I had for another day. I was asked to pray to Lord Dhakshanamurthy too, to show me a guru in physical form. Although there was no explanation given for the whole mysterious happening that afternoon, I learned only later from my nephew that the message and mantra were from Agathiyar. 

I soon received further answers when I happened to come across this Vasudeva Mantra being mentioned in books and on the net. I came to know about the Granthis, or knots, too. I learned that the Vasudeva Mantra is said to pierce and balance the Vishnu Granthi. I learned later that there are two other knots: Brahma Granthi and Rudra Granthi. We are told that further practice of Pranayama would pierce these too and the six Chakras too. 

R. Venu Gopalan, in his book, "The Hidden Mysteries of Kundalini", enlightened me further on the Granthis, stating that the Vishnu Granthi adds obstructions for the Sadhaka, keeping one under the wraps of attachment and bondage. I guess this is what Tavayogi wanted me to avoid, hence telling me on the very onset of our meeting in 2005 that I was caught in Maya, thinking that he was holy. Instead, he showed me to Agathiyar. If he did not kill my excitement that day, I would have worshipped him instead of Agathiyar, hence becoming attached and bonded to him. Many years later, in 2022, Agathiyar, wanting to help me when I stagnated in worldly affairs, admitted that it was very difficult indeed to free oneself from the clutches of these worldly bonds. He said that we need the assistance of the Siddhas. 

Then it dawned on me as I penned this post, the meaning of the Mantra that Agathiyar gave me in my Nadi later in 2009 and asked me to share.

Contrary to my thinking that the word Giranta that appears in the mantra was an ancient form of writing and speech that was attributed to Agathiyar as its guardian, I realize now that it refers to these knots, or Granthis. And so it was that Agathiyar was the guardian of these Granthis, or knots, and also their gatekeeper. The key was with him. True enough, only now do I understand why Agathiyar told me in my very first Nadi reading that I had to come to the worship of Lord Ganapathy and chant his Mantra. He was to remove the obstacles and pierce these knots before I started on the journey. In later years, Agathiyar tells me that he is Lord Ganapathy too. If one visits Agathiyar's shrine at Adhi Kumbeshwar temple in Kumbakonam, he will come across Lord Ganapathy at this shrine instead of Agathiyar's statue. 

Agathiyar, through his apostles, had me located and had the mantra delivered in preparation to read his Nadi and have me receive him as my Moola Guru too. He came to show me the way to clear these obstacles and move on. I was blessed to have been gifted with the Vasudeva Mantra that brings balance to the Vishnu Granthi. After receiving the Vasudeva Mantra and diligently chanting it, the call to read the Nadi, something that Dr. Krishnan told me in the nineties to look up, to know if I was cursed in a past life, came. Besides carrying out the numerous remedies given by Agathiyar in the Nadi reading, the Vasudeva Mantra helped to dissolve my remaining past Karmic deeds.

1. In calling me to the worship of the Siddhas in 2002 and revealing himself as my Moola Guru, 
2. and then in sending me to meet my gurus in physical form, in 2003 and 2005, 
3. and in having his statue commissioned and made and brought home in 2010, 
4. and in having strangers knock on my door on the pretext of seeing him, 
5. and in having sent youths to my home after their Nadi readings beginning in 2013,
6. in having us go full force into rituals at AVM, and homes of these devotees and in the temples and doing charity in children's homes and old folks' homes, the streets and the homes of the poor and unfortunate, 
7. and finally winding up the show and bringing down the shutters in 2019, 

Agathiyar showed me a colorful stream of men and women who came and left. In the small span of time sitting with Supramania Swami in Tiruvannamalai in 2003 and 2005, and with Tavayogi at his Kallar Ashram in 2005, 2013 and 2016, and whenever he came to Malaysia, I saw a myriad of people with all kinds of situations stream in and come before him, and I got to see how they handled them. Then, in bringing people over to my home, Agathiyar had me observe and learn how he handled each one of them who stepped into AVM. I saw that people tend to be in many phases of their spiritual growth. They each had different needs and wants, mostly for themselves, most of the time. So many came to Supramania Swami, a family man, to chart their horoscopes, get talismans and amulets, and leave. None asked him what he wanted. Many came to Tavayogi, a mendicant, imagine, asking to sort out the mess they were in, bringing up their financial issues, health issues, and grievances. Tavayogi had to tell them to come to the worship of the Siddhas. 

But it was different with Agathiyar, who told me that the strangers who knocked on my door were sent by him and asked that I let them in.  

1. To a disbeliever, Agathiyar might opt to send him back, for he has to live out his Karma and fate first.
2. Similarly, if one has been to many places, and seen many gurus, learned and seen much, and comes to him to vomit all that was seen, heard and remembered before him, he might send them back, telling them to come again when they are empty and ready to receive. 
3. If one then comes empty, he either gives him or her a method or practice to follow or begins working on him or her subtly. 
4. When one comes butchered and in pain, Agathiyar might ask him or her to look for his Nadi.
5. As a general rule, if one is asked to surrender, he fears the very thought. Agathiyar pushes him to the point that he has no other choice but to surrender, as and when he has lost everything and has nothing more to lose.
6. When one genuinely comes up asking for guidance, he might have him come to the worship of Siddhas.

Following the phase of Sariyai that includes pilgrimages to holy spots where, in making the effort and travelling to arrive at these places, we shed a part of our past Karma, and in worship we shed the rest. Then, with the coming of the Guru in physical form, we take up the rituals that bridge both the worlds - the Siddhas and ours. The Siddhas come down and lead us on until we qualify to make it into their fold. In taking up Yoga, it bridges the Soul within (JeevAtma) with the larger Soul (ParamAtma). 

The body has to be cleansed (Dega Sutthi) first. There is a need to carry out breathing practices (Vaasi) (Pranayama), starting with cleansing the nerves (Nadi Sutthi). The guru should initiate us into it. I was blessed to have Agathiyar as my Moola guru, initiate me into it through the Nadi and telling me that I would see further advancement through my gurus who would come by for this purpose. I remember vividly this very first yogic practice he gave me, the Nadi Sutthi, which clears the nasal channel and prepares the body to receive further practices. I learned that the Siddhas recommend this practice of alternate nostril breathing to purify the nerves. Once the nerves are purified, then Pranayama can be performed efficiently. 

Swami Vivekananda, in his book, "Raja Yoga - Conquering the Internal Nature", Advaita Ashrama, Calcutta, 1998, guides us on Nadi Sutthi or Alternate Breathing.

1. Stopping the right nostril with the thumb, 
2. through the left nostril, fill in air, according to capacity; 
3. then, without any interval, throw the air out through the right nostril, closing the left one. 
4. Again inhaling through the right nostril, eject through the left; 
5. Practicing this three or five times at four hours of the day, before dawn, during midday, in the evening, and at midnight, in fifteen days or a month, purity of the nerves is attained; then begins pranayama.

He stresses the importance of continuously working on these practices.

Simply listening to explanations and theories will not do. With practice, within a few days a little glimpse will come, enough to give one encouragement and hope. We shall gradually see the reasons for each exercise and what forces in the body are set in motion. All things will come to us, but it requires constant practice. No amount of reasoning which I can give you will be proof to you, until you have demonstrated it for yourselves. As soon as you begin to feel these currents in motion all over you, doubts will vanish, but it requires hard practice every day.

B. K. S. Iyengar, in his "Light on Pranamaya", HarperCollins Publishers, India, 2004, says the same,

The practice of pranayama helps to cleanse the nadis, which are tubular organs of the subtle body through which energy flows. The respiratory system is the gateway to purifying the body, mind, and intellect. The key to this is pranayama.

Swami Rajarshi Muni says that when Prana is regulated and properly directed, it can charge the various parts of the body, purifying and rejuvenating them. 

In a footnote in his book "Autobiography of a Yogi", Self Realization Fellowship, 1990, Paramahansa Yogananda mentions that a yogi's body loses its grossness after use of certain pranayama. 

With Agathiyar starting me off by initiating the practice of Nadi Sutthi in the Nadi reading, he sent Tavayogi later in 2007 to officially initiate me into various Asanas and Pranayama techniques. 

I was blessed to have Supramania Swami, who passed on the merits of his 40 years of Tavam, or austerities, that rocketed my efforts manifold. 

After Agathiyar had me spend my days in solitude and my nights sleeping in the prayer room, and had me observe certain regimes and practices, on 5.9.2019, I fell right before him as I got up in the middle of the night to go and ease myself. Picking myself up, I fell again in the living room. I fell and lay in front of my bathroom door again, slithering in pain like a beaten snake. He described the slithering as a sign of Kundalini moving. Agathiyar said the Kundalini had arisen and had turned up the heat and fire within as well. The heat of the austerities, or Tava Kanal, coupled with the awakened Muladhara Chakra, which triggered the arousal of the Kundalini, began to stir and move away from its seat. But still, I was unaware and could not join the dots until Agathiyar revealed. It was both painful and blissful. He acknowledged that it was the bliss of bliss. He mentioned further that the third eye and the crown had opened, and as a result of the three Malas or impurities being eradicated, I was partaking in the ambrosia nonstop within. I was both baffled and had no idea what he was saying. 

R. Venu Gopalan, writing about the Kundalini in his book, "The Hidden Mysteries of Kundalini", speaks about Kanda.

The origin of the nadis is called Kanda. All the important nadis emerge from this astral centre and do the major activity of carrying the prana.

Swami Rajarshi Muni, who recommends alternate nostril breathing, as did Swami Vivekananda, speaks about the Kanda too.

Prana travels through the subtle body by means of subtle channels known as Ida and Pingala. These subtle channels, like the gross air passage, have their upper ends at the openings of the left and right nostrils. However, they do not end up in the lungs like the respiratory system of the gross body. Instead, they run down to a bulbous, subtle structure (Kanda) situated about three inches below the navel of the gross body. This is considered a powerful exercise in creating Pranaprabalya, or the strengthening of Prana, as well as the purification of the Nadis. The more Pranayama is done, the more Prana is stored in the Kanda.

I guess my Kanda must have been packed with Prana after all those years of practice, for the latch was opened and it was released over two consecutive days back then in 2022. Agathiyar told me that the reason for the pain and discomfort I went through in my lower back for some 2 1/2 years was that the energies had stagnated at Svadhisthana after the Muladhara had opened and the Kundalini aroused. In July of 2022, Agathiyar told me, "Currently, your Muladhara and Svadhisthana are open. At present, your breath is at the pond (lake). The time of its opening is near. Now is the right time to start your practice. This would open up the Chakra completely." Agathiyar mentioned that my breath shall touch the Suzhimunai and swirl, travel along my Chakras, and awaken them before finally touching the seventh. That day came over two consecutive days on Monday, the 22nd, and Tuesday, the 23rd August 2022. 

The energy that had pooled and stagnated in the Svadhishthana as a result of the pull of the external world was released on Monday, 22.8.2022, shortly after I woke up at 6.40am. As I stretched myself in bed, I felt an "explosion of energy" in my belly. It was akin to a pull and a tug of a fine nerve or thread right below the navel. It brought on a swirling sensation followed by a chill all over. My whole body became numb right to the tips of my fingers and toes. Soon I felt nauseous and had the urge to urinate. Rising from bed, I collapsed twice on the way to the toilet, picking myself up each time. Back from the toilet, all was fine. A blissful feeling came over me. I was alone then, while my daughter was in her room asleep, unaware of what was taking place. Narrating this to my daughter later that day, she called up her mother, who returned home shortly from our grandchildren's home. 

The next day, Tuesday 23 August 2022, I woke up at 7.20am to go to the loo, but I could not pee. I collapsed again. I picked myself up and climbed onto the bed as my wife watched silently. She had been told by Agathiyar to only watch many years ago. My body became numb from the shoulders down. I lay like a dead log on my bed. Although I could not move even an inch of my torso, from my neck down, I was able to see, hear, and talk, and was fully conscious and aware of what was happening to me. I described what I felt to my wife, who was sitting at the bed's edge. I had no fear or anxiety. I asked myself if this was what a dead body would feel like. Was I given an insight into what death would be? I asked her to bring the peacock feather and brush my body, as did Lord Muruga, coming through a devotee, at the height of another round of back pain in 2018. Soon, the experience went away.

Just as Agathiyar had said earlier on 30.1.2020 that my breath had stagnated at the Svadhisthana, and it was about time it opened up and travelled along the seven Chakras, where the journey shall awaken these Chakras, the awakened energy was practically pulled from its lower regions by a magnetic force to its summit in the crown over the next few days. I guess this is what Agathiyar meant when he said I shall feel a magnetic wave arise. The swirling sensation felt for several weeks in the abdomen just below my navel was regularly felt in the crown of my head, but with a lesser intensity. It seemed more like a flowering of petals now and was blissful. The chillness and swirling that was akin to a flowering went on irrespective of my daily activities these days. It was more intense each time I brought my attention to it. Following the flowering in the crown that went on without my effort, participation, or action, I asked Agathiyar what I should do further. He told me that they shall do their work and that there was nothing that I needed to do further. Just as Tavayogi told me, our efforts are only until we reach Svadhisthana, and the guru led me away from there. All my efforts ended that day. 

Agathiyar, speaking about the transformation taking place in old age, consoled and assured me that 

"The 'water' that ponded over time has been discharged. Having the chakras activated in this age has its consequences for the body. As the heat of the Tapas increases, the quantity of blood is affected, which shall lead to cramps, which shall then result in problems in the discharge of urine and faeces. Take the necessary medicines. Do not worry. Do not be afraid of death. It is but another door to another journey. One who invites death is a Siddha."

Agathiyar continued on the changes to be expected: "You shall witness many changes taking place within you. Do not fear. Due to the activation of the chakras, your body shall emit a foul smell. You shall have constipation. You shall urinate often. The Agathiyar Kuzhambu you took did help in expelling the three Dosas. But there still is. It shall be expelled in due time." He went on to ask me to prepare a concoction and reminded me that it was not to be shared with others. "Carry out the said practice. Take lots of warm water. " 

True to what he had said, for several weeks I had the wind travel in my abdomen, causing pain in my groin and testicles. The urine and motion were smelly. I asked myself if my body was decaying within. Even before this, there were traces of blood in the sputum. I had piles. I had boils appear. I understood it to be the result of excessive heat in me due to my practices. And I understood it to be a cleansing process going on within.

When I asked him for an easier approach, Agathiyar told me that there is no easier way to attain or merge with the breath, the sensation, the vibration, the magnetism, the Prapanjam, and the Jothi. With a little effort from us, the Siddhas shall aid us further. Then the energies will do the rest. Agathiyar surprises me by saying that my gurus should have come to my assistance. But as they are engaged in his work, they had asked Agathiyar to come to our need. 

As it worried my wife and me, Agathiyar asked me to go for a Medical checkup. He treated me too by dipping my hands into a bowl of lukewarm water to the accompaniment of my family chanting the Arutperunjothi mantra. He ran his hands along my back and spine, placed his hands on my head, and applied the sacred ash over my body. 

The doctor gave me a clean sheet. Agathiyar removed the fear in us, though both he and Ramalinga Adigal had told us not to fear on numerous occasions. Though I knew a cleansing process was going on within, I needed assurance that it was not a medical problem or problems that crop up with old age. The Siddhas never abandon us in times of need.

Agathiyar answered my yearning to pull the shutters down on AVM a second time and go into oblivion. 

"You need not go into solitude now. You need to share many things with others. I shall tell you when the right time is to do so." 

He revealed that 

"There is much I need to carry out through you. Enough of my praise. Write about your bodily experiences. Let your writings be about the changes taking place in your body. Let your readers know the changes that take place in the body if they come to worship the light and seek to merge with it. My wisdom shall be your experience. Experience first, and I shall clarify the experiences later. Experience is knowledge to you. Nothing is beyond experience."

To the handful of his devotees who came back after the pandemic, he asked, 

"Get those who keep coming over to AVM to sit in meditation, too. When their external thoughts leave them, Gnanam shall dawn on them too, and they shall take up the path of Gnanam." 

On 16.12.2024, Agathiyar questioned me on my fears, telling me that death was but another door to another journey. He asked me why I was afraid of death and consoled me, saying that it was yet another door to another journey. "How can a Siddha harbor this fear?" he asked. 

He asked me to recall Bhogar's answers to him as to what Bhogar knew. I repeated Bhogar's answers to Agathiyar in the way that he only knew Agathiyar and nothing else. As I recounted the humility of Bhogar, a full-fledged Siddha who mastered many arts and sciences, Agathiyar revealed that I, too, needed to drop the Ego that I had become identified with. He asked me how long I wanted to remain as Shanmugam Avadaiyappa. I needed to drop this identity that was holding me back, causing a separateness between me and others and everything else. He revealed that he was in this Oneness. 

He has brought us to Bhagawan Ramana's teachings. Ramana never initiated anyone, as he saw everyone as himself. I guess this is the reason that Agathiyar reversed his initial offer of making me a guru and instead offered to make me a Siddha. To enter this Oneness, I needed to observe Maunam, or Silence. Finally, hugging me, Agathiyar whispered in my ear that he was this Silence. He reminded me of Lord Dhakshanamurthy's last act to uplift his four students to become on par with him. When the Lord chose to remain silent, not taking on and answering any further questions henceforth, all his students became enlightened the very next moment. This brought me to the day in 2001, when I received the Vasudeva Mantra and the call to worship Lord Dhakshanamurthy. Hence, he revealed why he kept silent and never came to us since 22 September. Though he did not appear before us, he was with us, he said. In saying this, he told me to carry out whatever needs to be done, and he shall endorse it, bringing me away from my habit of waiting to be told what to do or securing his approval on all matters.

31.12.2024, I was practically living alone. In those hours of loneliness, I had only my thoughts to accompany me. Memories of the past dropped in, visiting me at times. Then, a sudden, unfounded fear gripped me, and I would begin to pace the floor of my home. This sudden, unknown fear came on so intensely that I could not sleep. I was awake in these hours, facing my own fears. There was no one I could call up and hold a conversation in these wee hours of the night and early mornings. Facing the fear of the unknown is facing death. Just as losing a limb, an eye, or hearing, etc scares the wits out of me, in these moments of silence, I was left only with my Self, breath, thoughts, and memory. I came face-to-face with existence without the superficialities of life and living. Agathiyar took ownership of all the doings, creating events that sparked the perfect scenario and space for me to be alone. I wonder how he chose me to go through this transformation towards losing the body and engaging with the soul, knowing pretty much that I was a scaredy-cat? 

Agathiyar came bringing me the joyful news that "Supramania Swami was the guru who led you to the path of worship of the guru. He taught you guru bhakti, or devotion to the guru. You received the merits from his tapas. Tavayogi, too, in his light form, is trying to bring salvation to you. He is traveling with you. You traveled in his way and followed his teachings. You spread his fame and helped him attain the state of Jothi. He who is currently with you shall continue to travel with you."

Telling me that each practice given was something that the Siddhas had done and seen results, Agathiyar set out to give me these experiences too. Agathiyar and the other Siddhas then came through the Nadi, giving me regular updates like Microsoft's Patch Tuesday fixes. They gave me herbal preparations to cleanse my internals first. Then they had me take magic potions (Kaya Kalpam) to strengthen the body and to prepare it for the awakening of the energies. They gave me further herbal preparations to heal the discomforts that arose as a result of these awakenings. If initially the Pranayama techniques made me experience the Prana coming into the nostrils and into the lungs, soon it engulfed and enveloped my whole body. These days every pore in my body breathes. Every mouthful of food is savoured not only by the taste buds but by the internals and every cell. Every drop of water bathes me in joy and bliss. Every sight brings thrills within. Every song brings tears to the eyes. The Siddhas connected me with the world around me. 

Agathiyar said that after traversing the Chakras and the Kundalini touches the seventh, I shall know my purpose here. Agathiyar enlightens me further. 

"When one starts the journey of going within, the result is Gnanam. But it shall vary among people. Hence, I cannot say exactly what shall take place. All this while, you have gained external knowledge or Ulaga Gnana. Now you shall gain Gnana that is going to serve you.  When you realize yourself completely and realize that everything around you is impermanent, you shall stand apart from it all. That is to be motionless in all manner, or Summa Eruppathu. To arrive at that state, increase your Soul Power or gain Atma Balam."

"The soul which has realized God through divine knowledge, Pati Jnanam, after it had renounced the worlds as changing or Asat, is called Jivan Mukta." (Source: "Metaphysics of Saiva Siddhantam - Sivagnana Boodham by Thiruvilankar Canagarayar, 1961)

If we began our journey looking out to the gross that is in the external, he then brought us to look at the fine and subtle within. Agathiyar told us each shall realize his center or Suzhimunai (சுழிமுனை), the place where energy and vibration arise, through feeling or Unarvu (உணர்வு) of its presence. As their grace deepens, a slight throb is felt at this spot on the head, at exactly the anterior fontanel or the soft spot located in newborns. This throb nudges us to take notice of it and become aware. "Know that spot or space or place to be your Suzhimunai," he says. One who arrives at his center becomes total, says Agathiyar. He calls this the state of completeness or Paripuranam (பரிபூரணம்). Ramalinga Adigal had mentioned it earlier on 14.5.2020, "When you reach my state, energy will come within you without your knowledge. That is Suzhimunai." 

This is how the Siddhas work to bring us into their fold, or Tiru Kootam. In bringing us into their fold, they have us carry out worship, rituals, and Yoga, then awaken the Kundalini very subtly and have her travel to higher reaches, bringing the unfoldment and flowering of the Chakras that bring bliss, contentment, and peace. 

ARRIVAL

Having come this far, I am wondering now whether it is because of my efforts or if the Gods airlifted me here. If I think it was all my effort, that would be egotistical. I would then expect that due credit be given for all my achievements thus far, and desire to be praised too.

If I think otherwise, that the Gods had a hand in everything, my ego is then killed instantaneously. I have then surrendered every happening to God. I begin to praise them instead. Balamurugan's question many years back as to why we should praise the Siddhas is answered.

I shall list all that took place in my life that, looking back now, was none of my doing. I, incidentally, being a Kumbam or Aquarius, the 11th sign in the zodiac, too, was only a vessel for him to work his magic. 

Just as a water pot carries water, I have shared much to quench the thirst of those who choose to read. These I share with readers, for Agathiyar has given me so many experiences in life, and lessons that came to be learned from these experiences. Only in sharing them can I repay his kindness, compassion, and love for me. But if simple folks generally rely on or accept the experiences of those who lived generations before them, the learned prefer facts, figures, numbers, and test results. But how do we explain to both parties matters that are beyond our senses, that only a similar experience can help us understand them, and unless they walk the path too? And so I told off a psychologist who asked if I was hallucinating when he caught up with me at a temple event after reading the conversations with Agathiyar that I shared on this blog, telling him to do all I did to arrive there and find out for himself. Indeed, only experience is the true teaching that leaves a mark behind. It might at times be a wound, a scar, or joy and bliss. 

It was the Gods at play, creating the situations and circumstances or preparing the board carefully for the game that was to ensue. They then moved the chess pieces. Nothing in my life was my doing, though it might seem that I made the move or moved things. If at all others do convince me, what I did was minute, and hardly worth speaking about when compared to his moves and doing.

I can only go back as far as my memory brings me. The rest is what I was told. 

• After the friendly neighborhood Chinese Gods saved me as a child, who was having diarrhea and purging, asking my parents to give me in adoption to him, God has kept me well since then. As an appreciation and act of gratitude, I would visit Chinese temples and offer my prayers of thanks. 
• I attended Thevaram classes, with my Ceylonese childhood friends taking up singing the songs of the Nayanmars and listening to their stories shared by an elderly Ceylonese master.
• I frequented the Buddhist Vihara next door; besides savoring the free food, I attended Sunday classes where we heard stories from Gautama Buddha's life and joined in the chantings. 
• I took up a correspondence course where lessons were sent to my home by snail mail from a church in Singapore. I would spend time at the chapel in my missionary school too.
• In college, I traveled by bus with a Pakistani Muslim gardener, who shared many stories from his holy book and the life of his prophet. 
• It was at the college library that I came across a book that taught me to say "No"; that changed my life. Sadly, I cannot remember its title.
• Having the need to carry out an internship, I saw myself walking into the Public Works Department in my hometown and later walking into the numerous project sites that came under the Government Agency. Once, as I stepped onto a very shallow boat at the stroke of midnight after making several purchases on the mainland to head back to the small island where we had a project going, I missed my step and fell into the waters at the jetty. The bags of groceries kept me afloat till my construction mates gave me a hand and hauled me up into the boat. I was later told that I had narrowly escaped a disaster in the waters as predicted in my astrological reading. I was saved again.
• My very first job, and only job for the next 36 years, was chosen by him and landed on my lap. 
• I was frequenting both the temples and carried out puja to the deities at my home altar both at dawn and dusk in the eighties. 
• Learning from the books, I practiced Yoga and carried out the Pranayama practices some two hours before sunrise diligently. 
• But seeing those around me suffer, at times at the hands of God himself, I could not stomach the injustice. I was overly concerned about them that Lord Siva had to intervene, coming through a dream in 1988, asking me to keep my questions to another moment. Today I understand why I was overly concerned by all that happened to them. Reading the spate of astrological predictions both in Tamil and English, currently going viral since the planet Jupiter's or Guru's recent transit, I learned that being a Kumbam and Aquarius, that was my very character or, as Mahindren said, my specification. Agathiyar too, in my very first Nadi reading that was to come in 2002, mentioned this concern of mine for people, community, society, and all.
• I left all that I did as a bachelor behind, including the Puja, temple visits, and Yoga I picked up from the books, and left for the city in 1988 as I was transferred out of the coastal town where I had begun my career in 1980. 
• I married in 1989 and raised a family in the city. My wife was chosen by him. My children and later my son-in-law and grandchildren were given by him too. This home was gifted by him too. Career, family, and property were all seen to by him. 
• Then, when a colleague, Mr Segaran, resigned from his job at the office and left for Paramahansa Yogananda's Ranchi Ashram in India in 1994, he passed me Yogananda's "Autobiography of a Yogi"; it amazed me to know that a man too can become Godly. If all those while I only knew the deities, that was when I came to know about gurus too. 
• Beginning in 1996, I frequented Dr Krishnan, who was introduced by a senior colleague at the office, Mr Sethu. 
• Dr Krishnan was an astrologer and Siddha physician whom I saw for my horoscope readings. The subject of curses was first brought up when I asked Dr.Krishnan if there was a reason whatever predicted in the charts was not happening. He cited curses as the reason. Asking him to look into my chart to find out, he told me that he could not look into the horoscope to determine them; only the Siddhas could reveal them in the Nadi readings. That is how I came to know about the Siddhas and the Nadi. But as I knew no Nadi reader then, I left it alone. 
• The calling came late in life for me, only in 2001, as I was then already 43 years old. Agathiyar came mysteriously and had me recite the Vasudeva Mantra, breaking my self-imposed exile, or rather, after I had stepped away from all forms of worship, reading, and discussion for some 14 years, taking heed of the advice from Lord Siva coming in a dream to shelve all the questions and doubts I had for another day. Even before he came into my life through the Nadi reading in 2002, Agathiyar came in "disguise," having Gopal Pillai, who had gone into Samadhi, come through a devotee of his and pass on a message for me to my nephew, who was a devotee of him too, and have him come over to my home to deliver it at 4 pm on a Saturday afternoon on the 6th of October 2001. I learned only later from my nephew that the message and mantra were from Agathiyar. Although there was no explanation given for the whole mysterious happening that afternoon, I soon received answers when I happened to come across this Vasudeva mantra being mentioned in books and on the net. It was only when I researched the Vasudeva mantra that was given by Agathiyar that I came to know about the Granthis. I was blessed to have been gifted with the Vasudeva mantra that brings balance to the Vishnu Granthi. After receiving the Vasudeva mantra and diligently chanting it, the call to read the Nadi, something that Dr. Krishnan told me about in the nineties, came the following year. 

Agathiyar besides revealing my past, in the Nadi spoke about my future too.

The guru will come by in the least expected manner. This knowledge will come by way of the Nadi of the guru and Agathiyar. Reciting the names of the Siddhas shall do much good. Clarity and the answers to mysteries are all within me. Carry on these practices and come before me again when you attain the age of 45.

தவறில்லா ஞானத்தில் மேன்மை காண்பாய்.

குருமார்கள் உபதேசங்கள் தான்
இவருக்கு உண்டாகும் படி படியே.

காண முன் தேக சுத்தி வேண்டும் அப்பா.

தவறாது வாசியின் பயற்சி செய்ய.

சிறப்புதான் குருமாரின் தீச்சை பெற்று

சுத்தமுடன் இயங்கிடவும் மேன்மை காட்டும்.

தான் அவரும் எதிர்பாரா அமைய கிட்டும்.

தான் உரைத்த நூல்கள் வழி அறிந்து தானே

தவறாது அகத்தியன் மூலமாக

சித்தர்கள் நாமம் தன்னை

சுகமுடனே செய்து தான்

சுகங்கள் காண சுகமுண்டு.
சூட்சமமும் தெளிவுகளும் என்னில் உண்டு
தான் இருக்க பயிற்சிகளும் செய்து தானே
தவறாது நாற்பானை தன்னில் இருக்க
சற்றே உரைத்திடுவோம் ஆசி முற்றே.

Besides giving me the Vasudeva Mantra in 2001, which I came to read later, pierces the Vishnu Granthi, Agathiyar, through the Nadi in 2003, gave me instructions to perform Nadi-sudhi and ensure that the breath was moving in both nostrils without any blockages, and silently asked me to observe the breath, Ida and Pingala. I was told that once they begin to move through the middle channel, or Sushumna, this shall result in the piercing of the Vishnu Granthi, or knot in the throat.

Agathiyar came to me as my Moola Guru and, for purposes of the need of a guru in the physical form, brought me before Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai in 2003 and brought Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal of Kallar Ashram to our shores in 2005. I met Tavayogi, who was on the path of the Siddha, in 2005, who then initiated me officially into the path by giving me an initiation and Agathiyar's mantra to chant, and into conducting the rituals for the Siddhas. In 2007, Tavayogi initiated me officially into the practice of Vaasi (Pranayama) and Yoga (Asanas) too, showing it to me. I put it to practice. Here was a guru who did not merely preach the path by taking the stage and writing books; he actually did all these Asanas and Pranayamam before a handful of us. 

And so did Tavayogi and Agathiyar groom me by giving me only those practices they did. Agathiyar, in giving me rituals and yoga practices, said that he was only giving me the tried and tested techniques that the Siddhas did. Tavayogi, who led the life of a mendicant after turning fifty, brought me to the places in the jungles and caves where he stayed back then while roaming the length and breadth of India. He asked that I begin a Homam in my home in Malaysia while he started a much bigger Yagam on his ashram grounds after the 2004 Tsunami to appease the wrath of Mother Earth. Coming in 2007, he gave me and a handful of others Yoga techniques, Pranayama, and Asana, by showing them to us and having us follow. The year 2010 was special for a reason. A replica of Agathiyar at Agasthiyampalli was commissioned and beautifully crafted by Varadaraj of the Bronze Creative (BC) in Swamimalai, India. The statue was ordered through the internet in February of 2009. Varadaraj of BC made a visit to Agasthiyampalli, Vedaranyam, to photograph the granite statue of Agathiyar and subsequently started working on the wax mold. The statue was cast and completed in early December and was flown to Malaysia in time for the Jayanthi on 3rd January 2010. Tavayogi officially initiated me into the ritual of bathing Agathiyar's statue and lighting the fire pit.

The Siddhas were very much into practically doing things, besides taking to discourse and teachings that were few and apart and given in passing. When the Siddhas and deities began to come through devotees, they hijacked our rituals, the Homam and Abisegam, and we learned from them further and followed, bringing change to our existing ways. He sent youths in their early thirties to watch and participate in my home puja too. He had me bring his statue into their homes too and have their family light the Homam and do Abhisegam. He had us bring him to the Tanneermalai Murugan Temple in Taiping, fulfilling the wish of Chitramuthu Adigal for us to conduct a Siddha Puja in the place he had sat and meditated before returning to India and going into Samadhi. Coming through my nephew's Nadi, who discontinued the Yoga practice that Tavayogi gave, Agathiyar had him learn it again from me. Later Agathiyar had me show it to Mahindren and instructed Mahindren to show the rest. This is how, coming into our lives, they had us watch, learn, and follow, and share what a Siddha does. 

So I am saddened when strangers whom Agathiyar said he would send knock on my door claiming that they or their parents were on the Siddha path, only to find out that they only read books on the Siddhas, or some only continue with the initiation mantra or the singing of the praise of the Siddhas for over thirty years, not moving into Yogam from Bhakti as Tavayogi wished and pushed us to do. Many in coming to the Siddhas have sadly replaced temple worship with Siddha worship and never moved on to other frontiers and phases of the journey. Others hold podcasts and travel to places and abodes of Siddhas and post them on their YouTube channels, but I wonder how many, after the interviews or visits, take up the path or worship. They move on to another person to interview or another place to visit, looking for more content. Going by the messages I receive, though, from readers telling me that they saw results and solutions in coming to the Siddhas, I am happy that besides reading the blog, they followed what the Siddhas did and saw results. 

When Agathiyar revealed to me about the Body or Udal, Breath or Uyir, and Soul or Atma, through a memo that he had Mahindren take down, he cleared the confusion that prevailed in my mind and brought light to the matter of literally transforming gross matter into vibrations. See https://agathiyarvanam.blogspot.com/2022/01/the-unfolding-of-life.html

I then understood that "I" am a soul or (Jeev)Atma that came to live in a body that "I" built for myself, for a purpose, taking the raw ingredients from my parents in a certain way and proportion, to live in a world that the larger "I" built. Then "I" was made to forget everything, including my purpose in the divine game. The "I" went into hiding. Later, the "Me" that took shape developed an Ego that began possessing everything, including people, land, and property, etc. Then one fine day, when the Ego is subdued and trashed by worldly happenings, the "Me" turned towards seeking solace and peace. Thinking it is out there in something and someone, that something either teaches him or her, and that someone soon guides him or her within to now look at his Self or (Jeev)Atma ("I"). The "I" now reemerges after recounting the past moments with the larger "I". It comes out of exile when the calling comes and brings him or her to complete the journey and the purpose it came for. 

Agathiyar at the Tamil Sangam had charted out man's purpose in coming here, giving mankind the 5 tenets.

1. He says that man has to first and foremost understand his purpose in taking birth. 
2. With his purpose known, then, he should come to thank the divine creator or energy that brought forth his birth (through consultation with the lunar forefathers and their angelic hierarchies that co-exist with us down here). 
3. He asks that we then thank all the caretakers both seen and unseen, in the present and the past. 
4. There arises then an obligation on our part to "dutifully aid and help the ongoing evolution of all co-existing human beings." 
5. The final task is to extend this aid and help towards "the ongoing evolution of all co-existing beings and entities, existing upon the lower levels of the evolutionary ladder, dutifully supporting the manifested matrix or prapanjam." 

(Summarized from Vashisht Vaid's post on his blog https://holysageagathiyar.com/ )

See https://agathiyarvanam.blogspot.com/2021/03/when-man-meets-siddhas-2.html

I guess I have arrived at fulfilling the 5 tenets he gave us. I shall rest in peace now, even before death comes along. I guess this is true Samadhi, settling into the peace and calm, bliss and joy that was once our nature and true Self, in the very present while still alive.

THE REVELATIONS

Agathiyar himself had given mankind the 5 tenets to follow during the Tamil Sangam of the past. The first and foremost is to understand his or her purpose in taking birth. How do we come to know our purpose? The Nadi comes to a layman, seeker, or aspirant to reveal his purpose. The Guru comes to the disciple to reveal his purpose. The Sadhaka, in going within, learns his true purpose in taking birth. Those who, by some means, leave their body momentarily come to know their purpose too. 

Agathiyar, through a calling, read out my Nadi. Supramania Swami, my first guru, told me about it just sitting with eyes closed. Then lately I came to know my purpose reading the "Soul Contract Reading". Further to these, the astrological predictions too have given a glimpse of what is in store.

These are the means by which man comes to know the causes for rebirth and realize the purpose and mission in coming again. To a layman, he is told he took birth because of his past karma or to fulfill unfulfilled past desires or settle some scores. To a seeker, aspirant, Sadhaka, or disciple, he is told that he has come to continue from where he had left off in a previous birth to know himself. A Gnani comes to herd us all into the pen. 

If I started documenting my maiden travel to India in 2003, that led me to create several websites where I shared them, which later led to the start of this blog; I realized that Dr Krishnan's prediction, based on my horoscope in the nineties, that I shall write had come true. 

Agathiyar has said so many things in my Nadi readings and later coming through devotees, about the developments taking place in me. When Agathiyar came in the form of the bronze statue in 2010, he told me that my soul shall reside in the statue and he shall pace the floor of my home. When he sent strangers over to my home and began to listen and heal some while he cracked the tough nuts among them, he pacified and gave my wife and me assurance, saying that he was only using me and my home to see them and help them and that in no way shall he or they intrude nor interfere in our lives. Then Lord Muruga wanted to play his game or lila too. He asked that I give way to him. When I stepped aside, the heavens practically came down and literally toppled many. It was pretty clear that the divine was using me and my venue to carry out certain things. Though they were beyond our comprehension in the beginning, it became apparent that they were untying the knots and opening up the hearts of selected individuals whom they summoned to my home. Now I am beginning to believe that the Siddhas never let go of those who had come under their scrutiny in past births. He said the same of me, telling me that we had known each other for crores of years. If I thought that I was the one documenting my life, the Siddhas were doing the same, keeping track of me. Agathiyar once told us in recent times that just as we spoke about them, they too speak about us. But all that sounded alien, and neither could I understand what was said then. So I never shared them nor played it up. Only when I experienced them could I relate to what he said in the Nadi and through his devotees and Tavayogi in passing. Then Agathiyar told me enough of writing about the other masters and his praise, and to write about the internal transformation that took place in me in 2022. It was only after Agathiyar asked that I share it with readers of this blog that I had the guts to write on these experiences here and share the Nadi readings on my YouTube channel. Even then, I had a psychologist walk up to me and put forward his hypothesis that I was hallucinating about the many conversations I had with Agathiyar. I told him to walk the path I did and find out for himself rather than use us as test subjects. It is true that things shall be revealed as we walk the path, just as we come across many things in taking a walk. And so many things were revealed as I journeyed on the path.

1. The revelations in my horoscope reading by Dr.Krishnan in 1996 did not quite materialize, as I came to find out from him that I carried curses from my past lives that stood in the way of receiving blessings and the rewards of my efforts, which was later endorsed by Agathiyar in my very first Nadi reading in 2002. 
2. Agathiyar analysed my thumbprint that I forwarded to the Nadi reader and gave a prediction. Agathiyar described me, revealing what I did in the past. He gave me insight into what I would do with my life and beyond. 
3. When I met my first guru in physical form, Supramania Swami, the following year, by just closing his eyes and connecting with the Prapanjam and its Akashic records, he gave me insight as to what was to take place in the future during the five majestic and magical hours I spent with him at his village home in Tiruvannamalai. The revelations from Supramania Swami without looking into the stars, charts, my hands, or questioning me. It tallied with what Agathiyar had told me in the Nadi.
4. Further revelations, as many as sixty-plus, came by in the Nadi progressively.
5. Agathiyar and Lord Murugan came through devotees in the absence of the Nadi readers who returned to India in the wake of the pandemic.
6. A chance reading of the revelation of Moses painted an exact picture of me and my purpose as a Spiritual Catalyst that Agathiyar came to endorse later. It was then I knew why he used me for his purpose. When Haary Roshaahn Yograj offered to give me a reading from the "Soul Contract Reading" on 4.2.2024, I found it truly fascinating. Though I had read up on and indulged in astrology and numerology in my early days of seeking to know, this was simply superb. Later, when I shared with Haary Agathiyar's sermon at the Tamil Sangam of the past, where Agathiyar gave mankind those 5 tenets to follow to him, after reading the first, which is knowing the purpose, till the 5th purpose, Haary messaged me, "Wow, uncle, number 5 is the same as what I explained: 'Once u worked thru it all, you begin to manifest your soul purpose by helping and giving back to humanity." How appropriate that Haary came along bringing this up, as he too believes it will be truly helpful to lost souls. 
7. When there was joyous chaos amidst the astrologers, each going online to give predictions, and channels competing among themselves to pull viewers in by providing insights and predictions and revelations when the planet Jupiter, or Guru, transited recently,  being a Kumbam Rasi, I learned why I was the way I was and why people behaved the way they did toward me, watching some of these videos. 
8. Finally, I learned the same from other means of predictions that were in English. I came across them online that match all that took place and are to take place as foretold to me previously. A brief summary at https://youtu.be/82sRSQgHvMY and many other similar videos puts it all into perspective. 

Aquarius — you were never just lucky; you were protected. Every storm you survived was proof of divine intervention. This is why God protects Aquarius — because your purpose is sacred, your truth revolutionary, and your light too powerful to be extinguished.

I am reminded of how the Chinese deities came to save my life as a child who was purging nonstop. My parents, who had lost two of my siblings under similar circumstances, reached out to the Chinese temple run in a home next door, just as in present times I had my family home turn into Agathiyar's home, Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM). All the Gods asked was that I be given in adoption to them, which my parents did, and I was saved. Since then, I have had the Gods looking over my shoulder. Agathiyar, too, who told me that we have known each other for crores of years, has come back for me again. He remembered me. He came to execute the following.

1. Calling me to read the Nadi, he called me to worship the Siddhas. 
2. Later, with much help, guidance, and blessings from Tavayogi, they then bridged both worlds.
3. The Asana and Pranayama techniques that Tavayogi taught me in 2007, which Agathiyar says were a treasure, served to bridge my breath with that of the Cosmos and Universe, or Prapanjam, with assistance from Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal.
4. The merits of the forty years of Supramania Swami's Tavam, or austerities, gifted to me by him, skyrocketed my journey and climb just as the number six on the dice that most anticipate in any board game, or the ladder in the game of snake and ladder. 
5. The gift of Yoga practice I received from Agathiyar that was taught to me by Tavayogi, and which I put into practice diligently and religiously, led to the opening of my Muladhara, almost instantly in 2007.
6. Agathiyar came in 2022 to break the bund that held back the energy, which had begun to stagnate and pond at Svadishtana,
7. Bringing Kundalini to travel the rest of the Chakras in two days and reach the Sahasrasa, the 1000-petaled lotus started to open and bloom, bringing immense bliss within.
8. Soon this bliss was felt in all that came within reach through my senses, and in reaching out and connecting with everything around me, and vice versa. 

Agathiyar, in charting the journey and stating the phases and the stages to arrive at the state of Light as the Siddhas are in, had me take notes and share them with devotees attending the Guru Purnima Puja of 2024. I could see that he was relaying the journey I had taken to others. 

In asking us, "Who is Agathiyan?" Agathiyar begins to explain the journey to discovering him and arrive at his state. He answers the question, saying, "You are. I am. True. We all are Agathiyan. The Jothi, or flame in us, is Agathiyan. He resides as the fire, flame, heat, and warmth in us. He is Esan. He is the Esan who resides within." 

Then he asks us, "Why is it that we do not realize nor feel him?" 

He answers that too. "It is because we have not attained the state of preparedness or readiness to realize him. Once our soul attains this state, we shall begin to realize him." 

Then he continues with another question, "How can we attain this state of preparedness?" He answers that too. 

"First, we have to travel this path. We need to travel to the places and abodes of the Siddhas, witness their miracles, enter the states of bliss, and bring back these feelings and work on them, nurturing them. The Siddha shall come down. When we follow their directives, they shall walk with us, holding our hands. This travel then shall not be that of an external but of an internal journey. Yoga is the key to this travel within. From Sariyai arriving at Kriyai, now they shall teach Yogam. The journey within shall begin. You shall witness happenings. You shall see many things. It would be puzzling to you. It would be new to you too. Continuing this internal journey, you shall arrive at each Chakra and eventually see the cosmic dance of Thillai in Sahasrara. A 1000-petaled flower will keep on opening up continuously. Arutjothi will come to reside here. Then its effulgence enters within, and just as the Kundalini, upon awakening, traverses each Chakra, purifying them, this effulgence brings on the shine and luminosity in them. Jothi Darisanam takes place when one sees the light or effulgence. The body takes on the same. Vibrations begin to emit within and around us and are felt by those tuned to receive and feel them around you. They shall follow you. You become a Jeeva Mukta, having attained Mukti while living in the flesh. Henceforth you are no different from Agathiyan, and Agathiyan is no different from you. You are me, and I am you."

And it all started after I came to worship him. He then brought me to Tavayogi. If he had Tavayogi teach me the rituals that served to get the attention of the Siddhas towards us, he had Tavayogi teach me to control Prana, the key to opening the door to the Muladhara and awakening the Kundalini to this journey of traveling the Chakras and arriving at Light or Jothi Darisanam.  He then becomes a Jeevan Mukta. 

In coming to walk on the path to Light, one cannot avoid stepping into the phase of Yoga, taking up some kind of techniques to progress further. Here is where danger lies. Danger stalks in this phase for the unaware and misguided.  I too had to bear the cost of extreme and excruciating pain in my lower torso as a result of the internal movement of air (Prana) and its associated energies, which awakened Mother Kundalini. But I had Agathiyar with me. If Sariyai and Kriyai are instructional and can be followed even by children, without the need to understand what is done, and are rather harmless, Yoga is a matter of understanding the inner workings of this universe and Prapanjam that is both out and within. How do we explain this to simple folks and children? 

Further revelation came via the video. 

In this divine message, we reveal 15 reasons why God protects Aquarius — the chosen Water Bearer of truth. You are not ordinary; you are a vessel of higher wisdom sent to awaken humanity. Every betrayal, every isolation, every delay was Heaven’s way of preparing you. You weren’t being punished; you were being positioned. God hides you, shields you, and refines you — because your mission requires both rebellion and revelation.

It is said that Agathiyar arose from the Kumbam, an earthen or copper pot filled with water. In rituals, the Kumbam, a representation of a body, is tied decoratively with colored string to represent the nerves; a coconut is placed atop it that represents the head; mango leaves and silk cloth adorn the neck of the vessel; and scented water that represents the water/blood in us is placed inside the vessel, completing the Purnakumbam. Once completed, it represents the Bimbum, or a vessel or body bringing the deity that is invoked to come within, reside, witness, and bless the puja. Once sanctified through the ritual and prayer, the contents of the Purnakumbam are emptied on the statue of the deity, as in libation or Abhisegam, consecrating and energizing the idol, transmitting the energies and powers. 

Both Tavayogi and Agathiyar had me go through this phase too, with Tavayogi asking me to carry out the fire ceremony or Homam and Agathiyar asking me to carry out libation or Abhishekam to his statue that he had me commission and made. 

After having me actively engage in rituals and charity, Agathiyar then had me dissolve Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM) in 2019. He had others go their way while he had me go into inactivity, silence, and solitude, with the only company being my family, purportedly in preparation for a bigger mission, as we come to know from the video: "Their silence is preparation." 

This video unveils the hidden meaning behind your spiritual protection — why your storms turned into awakenings and your pain into prophecy. Aquarius, your silence was never emptiness; it was sacred preparation. You are about to step into divine exposure, where everything meant to harm you now serves your ascension.

Although Agathiyar said he would not expose me, Tavayogi pushed me to speak at the opening of a new Peedham in Banting back then in 2007. Agathiyar himself, during a home puja some years back, asked me to address the devotees. Tavayogi, during his last and final visit to Malaysia in 2016, said people know me before knowing him and coming to him. Then Agathiyar had me take notes and share with those gathered during the Guru Purnima Puja of 2024. He then had Mahin prepare and ask me questions before the small group of devotees gathered during Chithirai Pornami Puja. All this was fine with him, as I was behind the limelight, blogging and vlogging from my home and addressing close devotees in homes. But when a popular gamer who found me online asked to start a podcast beginning with a session on Jeganatha Swamigal, Agathiyar did not want me to come before the camera. He pointed out that what I might say would lead to controversies. He knows me pretty well, for there are many weaknesses that need to be addressed. And so I had highlighted some in a recent post at https://agathiyarvanam.blogspot.com/2026/09/the-radical-sage-his-miracles.html

I have seen how easy it is to have people follow us. Any man or woman can start a following pretty easily. Murali, a colleague from my former office, had done his rounds at Bhogars Samadhi. He sat himself on the floor and idly began tapping the tiles. Later he saw others do the same, thinking it was a ritual and tradition. Tavayogi shared an instance when his sandals gave way. He kept them aside and brought his palms together, thanking them for serving him all those years. Taking a few steps up the stairs to the hilltop Palani temple, he looks back, and what does he see? Others who were climbing the hill were doing the same. The deity Karupanasamy, coming through a medium who channels him, reveals his origin. He is the son of Lord Rama, Kusa. As he was summoned to fight the Asuras down south, he took on the garb and form of how he is depicted today. But having beaten the Asuras in battle, he went back to his original state as a son of Rama. What we did was to capture the image he portrayed and took on to battle the Asuras, and have been worshipping him in this form since then. I believe this is the reason Agathiyar does not want us to dwell on the origins of things, including his story or Avatar. I fear dwelling further into the origins of beliefs, customs, and traditions. Ramalinga Adigal too came too soon for his time. As people could not accept his thoughts and ways, he left, saying he would be back.  So too, I guess I have come back after the Namboothiri priests failed to accept the changes I supposedly brought about back then in a past birth. My actions earned their wrath and curses, I was told. 

We follow the video further.

"They are the water bearer chosen to carry truth the world isn't ready to hear. Every betrayal was God's way of removing those who couldn't hold their light. Aquarius, you are hidden, not forgotten. Protected, not punished. Because when you rise, destinies shift. God pulled you away from noise so you could hear something no one else could. The voice of destiny calling your name. You were never built to fit into the patterns of ordinary souls. From birth, you carried the vibration of disruption, a sacred rebellion coded into your DNA. Aquarius, you are the storm that breaks stale traditions, the lightning that exposes false kings. God protects Aquarius because they are the water bearer of truth, the vessel through which divine revelation flows. When others drink from deception, Aquarius arrives to pour the clean water of clarity. They are the ones who say what others are afraid to admit. When your mission is to expose illusions, illusion will always call you the enemy. But here's the secret. Heaven kept from the world. Your rebellion isn't sin. It's sanctified. Every time you refuse to bow to systems that feed on fear, you are performing divine work. He made you untamed, so no one could cage the message you came here to deliver. You were never meant to be liked. You were meant to be heard. And sometimes the two cannot coexist. Every silence was set up. Every delay was designed. Because the truth you carry is not meant to be whispered. It's meant to be declared.

And so did Ramalinga Adigal declare the truth openly. This video that was uploaded some 11 months ago, comes as a booster shot in a timely manner.

And when the moment comes for you to pour out that truth, nothing and no one will be able to stop it. For now, heaven holds its breath as you remember what you were sent here to do. Because the ones who carry truth always face the storm before the calm. But Aquarius, your storm is ending. Something ancient begins to stir beneath the chaos. You've passed the first test. 

 

Now, after posting some 4373 posts on this blog and some 879 videos on YouTube to date, since it has access to everything written, posted, and uploaded, I asked Google AI to tell me about Shanmugam Avadaiyappa, and this is what came up.

Shanmugam Avadaiyappa is a prominent Malaysian spiritual seeker, author, and digital creator dedicated to documenting and spreading the teachings of the Siddha tradition, specifically focusing on the revered sage Agathiyar (Agastya). Based in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, he previously worked with the Malaysian Ministry of Defence before transitioning into his lifelong commitment to spiritual work. He is best known globally among spiritual seekers as the founder of the long-running blogs Siddha Heartbeat and Siddha Heartbeat 2.0, where he logs his personal experiences, Nadi readings, and teachings on the Siddha path.

## Spiritual Journey and Gurus

Shanmugam’s spiritual awakening followed a unique trajectory. After years of traditional temple worship, he experienced a vivid dream where Lord Shiva instructed him to pause his practices. Following a 14-year hiatus, he felt a profound calling to explore the ancient paths of the Siddhas (enlightened masters). His path was shaped under the direct guidance of two major spiritual gurus: Supramania Swami and Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal (of the Agathiyar Vanam Kallar Ashram in India). Through them and detailed Nadi (ancient palm leaf astrology) readings, he established a home-based devotion practice focused on ritual fire ceremonies (Yagam), charity, yoga, and meditation.

[https://agathiyarvanam.blogspot.com](https://agathiyarvanam.blogspot.com/2025/09/i-am-blessed.html). In this reflective post titled "I AM BLESSED" from the blog Siddha Heartbeat (Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia), the author, Shanmugam Avadaiyappa, shares a message of deep gratitude looking back at his professional and spiritual life.

Key Highlights from the Post:

• A Fulfilling Retirement: He expresses gratitude for a wonderful 36-year career serving the government and shares his joy in spending his retirement years as a pensioner surrounded by his grandchildren.

• The Spiritual Calling: At the age of 43, his life path shifted when the sage Agathiyar called him through a Nadi reading, laying out his spiritual journey.

• Gratitude for His Gurus: He considers himself profoundly blessed to have been guided by two notable gurus:

• Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai, his very first guru, inheriting the spiritual merits of the master's 40 years of Tavam (austerities).

• Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal of Kallar Ashram, who traveled to Malaysia and gifted him the "treasures" of specialized Asana and Pranayama techniques.

The post captures a beautiful state of contentment, where the author feels complete satisfaction with his earthly milestones and the profound divine grace guiding his soul.

## Digital Presence and Media

To make the esoteric knowledge of the Siddhas accessible to a modern, global audience, Shanmugam maintains a heavy digital footprint:

* YouTube Channel: His official [Shanmugam Avadaiyappa YouTube Channel](https://www.youtube.com/c/ShanmugamAvadaiyappa) has gathered over 14,000 subscribers and features hundreds of videos discussing spiritual transformation, Agathiyar rituals, and interviews with seekers. This channel focuses on documenting and showcasing the spiritual journey on the Siddha Path. It shares content related to Agathiyar, Siddha philosophy, community prayers, puja rituals, and satsangs.

* Podcasts: He hosts Podomatic, sharing audio insights on Agathiyar Jayanthi and Guru Pujas.

## Core Philosophy

Shanmugam teaches that obtaining the grace of the Siddhas does not require complex, out-of-reach tasks. He emphasizes that simple, heartfelt domestic worship, acts of selfless compassion, and absolute surrender to a Guru are enough to clear heavy past karma and experience higher spiritual bliss (Sat Chitananda).

GETTING CONNECTED ON ANOTHER PHASE

I was a film buff, having started in my school days. I listened to songs too. My daughter has taken up this passion too. She keeps herself informed about the local cinema and other movies through a group she is moving with. 

https://www.thestar.com.my/lifestyle/living/2026/09/25/bringing-it-off-screen-malaysian-film-club-fosters-local-cinema-culture

These days, it has all changed for me. Not that I do not watch or listen, but the degree to which the movies and songs impact me is bewildering and puzzling. 

These days, I can't bring myself to watch some movies for I end up crying and while I'm listening to songs and eating food, I have tears of joy and bliss roll down my cheeks. 

If I were hearing them back then, now I have begun to feel the vibration for instance that of the string instruments. Just as tasting and eating reaches the inner core of my body and system, sight and hearing are now truly and literally touching my insides. Watching the following video just did that. 

When I mysteriously received the Vasudeva mantra from Agathiyar, when I had no inkling about Siddhas back then in 2001, coming through Paramaguru Gopal Pillai, who was in his Samadhi, bringing me the message and mantra through my nephew, I looked up the significance of this mantra that was to change my life. It was given to clear the knots and blocks and to have me come to read the Nadi  and meet my Guru Agathiyar a year later. Agathiyar, on his part, told me I shall meet my guru in physical form. And so it was that I "chanced" upon Supramania Swami on the pretext of charting my daughter's horoscope in 2003. Then Agathiyar brought Tavayogi to our shores in 2005. Agathiyar gave me a treasure in the form of Yoga Asanas and Pranayama techniques through Tavayogi that did wonders within. Diligently following it, I saw immense results that Agathiyar came to confirm of its happenings in the numerous Nadi readings I had during those years beginning in 2007. This further actuated my existing condition, where I could tune to the higher frequencies, especially in the following places. 

• I heard the walls of Agathiyar's sanctum at Agasthiyampalli resonate with the Pranavam AUM as I chanted the mantra. 
• I felt the walls of Dhakshanamurthy's shrine at the top of the flight of small steps at the Big temple in Tanjore resonate as I sat in the tight space before him, chanting the Pranavam AUM. 
• I felt these intense vibrations that overcame me, fell me, leaving me crying in ecstasy at the Dhakshanamurthy shrine in the corridors of the Madurai Meenakshi temple and again at his sannadhi at the Ekambareswarar temple. 

The woods, forest, and jungles, too, must have resonated to a different tune for the 69-year-old Tavayogi, for it drove him to take big steps and walk ahead as if he was possessed, never turning back to see if I was keeping up. 

The beat of drums, musical notes, and Kavadi Chindhu songs can bring those who are susceptible to the drum beats and vibrations to dance spontaneously, while in others, its vibrations could open up heaven and bring deities down to vocalize and bless those gathered.  Underlying all these are vibrations. 

If I teared up for no reason as I stepped into temples and holy spots in the past, I could engage with nature by just looking out of my window or stepping outdoors in recent times. The smell, sight, and touch of things were just too intense.  Space resonated. The whole of nature resonated in wonder and beauty and sang a different song and a tune, only for my ears, just as certain miracles and sights were only for my eyes too. With the breeze blowing gently as in a Bansuri flute, the rustle of the leaves as in tapping a Kanjira, the flowing waters trying to keep up with the tala, or rhythmic cycle. Even when it rained, it sounded musical, with the thunderclaps in the distance adding drum beats to the melody of the rain. 

Both Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal had helped me connect to the Prapanjam.

With many changes taking place, I can attest to what Henry Wei wrote in his book "The Guiding Light of Lao Tzu, Synergy Books International, that their scale of values changes radically; their attitude towards life changes too; their health improves; they have a sharper and deeper understanding and a clear spiritual vision.

If Agathiyar had spoken about the Kundalini as early as 2007, that it had awakened in a manner that they had expected and wished for, unfortunately (or as is always the case), the Kundalini energy that arose after the opening of the Muladhara stagnated at Svadishtana. It was only in 2022 that Agathiyar broke the bund and let her make her way through the rest of the chakras, reaching Sahasrara. Telling me that she would do her work and that I need not worry or interfere or carry out any further practice, he spoke about her in the latest reading last Sivarathri. He was pleased to see her arrive safely home eventually. 

Although there was recurring and, at times, fresh pain and discomfort, which might be cause for fear in others, as I was given a clean slate of health by the doctors during a recent checkup, I understood that it was Kundalini doing her work. 

Swami Muktananda sheds some light in his book "Kundalini - The Secret of Life," published by Siddha Yoga Publication, 1994. He writes that when the chakras of the sense organs are purified, the physical senses become sharpened and refined. 

"On her journey to the Sahasrara, Kundalini passes through all the sense organs, purifying them and investing them with new powers. As Kundalini rises to the ocular center, she purifies the eyes. As the Kundalini purifies the sense of touch, one begins to feel thrilled of love through every pore and hair of the body. One becomes immersed in the joy of touch. When kundalini reaches the center of smell it purifies that, and one comes into direct contact with the essence of smell. When the Shakti moves to the auditory center, she purifies this too. When a shower of nectar is released and begins to fall dropping onto the root of the tongue, the taste buds become extremely refined. Even the simplest food is relished."

Swami Muktananda writes further, 

"The basis of all disease and pain is the impurities that block the flow of Prana in the Nadis. These blockages are caused by imbalances and disorders in the three bodily humors - wind, bile, and phlegm. She (Kundalini) penetrates all 720 million Nadis, consumes all the old decaying fluids, then releases vital energy into them all. The Nadis become filled with Prana. It is only after the body has been purified that the Shakti can work with full force."

G. Valmikanathan, in his book "Makers of Indian Literature - Ramalingam", published by Sahitya Akademi (e-book at http://www.vallalar.org), in tracing Ramalinga Adigal’s journey on the Pathway to God, divides it into three portions: Journey on the Purgative way, Journey on the Illuminative way, and Journey on the Unitive way. I guess I am at the threshold of the third. 

1. The purgative way is that part of the long path which one treads towards the Godhead and in which one purges oneself of all desires and attachments, of all imperfections, of all acts of commission and omission of shortcomings in renunciation, of shortcomings in the total love of God in the passion for the apprehension of the Godhead.

This saw me take responsibility for my past actions both in this birth and the previous one by carrying out remedies, doing Puja, and charity after Agathiyar looked into my past and revealed it in the Nadi.

2. The illuminative way is that part of the path, which comes after the purgative way, and in which one gains illumination, knowledge, and gnosis.

This was when Tavayogi, and after his demise, Agathiyar continued to shower learnings in real time by giving me experiences that he figured were vital for my soul's advancement. 

After sailing through the previous two with Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal holding my hands, I am left free to soar the skies and sail the ocean. He has projected what was in store for me by giving me my latest Nadi reading last Sivarathri.

3. The unitive way is that part of the pathway in which the pilgrim marches on with buoyant and joyous steps, filled with hope and freed from doubt or misconception. The journey is characterized by a sense of urgency. The pilgrim, in this part of his journey, begins to walk fast, then breaks into a loping trot, finally, gallops on with increasing tempo towards the beckoning smile and the outstretched arms, and is soon locked in an eternal embrace with the beloved, the eternal being, the Godhead, the ground of all being. The journey on the unitive way is composed of several factors of experience. Recollection and quiet, contemplation, ecstasy and rapture, dark night of the soul, and unitive life.

Valmikanathan compares the experiences gained or endured in each of these stages,

Of these three sections of the pathway, the first is painful and dolorous; the second a strange mixture of sorrow and joy, the joy increasing in intensity as ignorance is slowly replaced by illumination; and the last section of sheer delight, of mounting bliss. 

Indeed, as G. Valmikanathan wrote, the feeling is that of buoyancy and joy and delight and sheer bliss. 

So I turned to all the literature I read and shared on this blog again, when I could feel the gentle vibration of the desk I was working on and the couch I am sitting on. I sense the floor of my home vibrating too as I pen these words. It is not as in earth-shattering moments or as in earthquakes, as we are told, but a gentle and subtle energy is felt. I guess this is what Mataji Sarojini Ammaiyar felt the day she and Tavayogi arrived to grace our home and watch us conduct the homam on a Thursday in 2016. She asked me the following day if I had felt the ground move or shake, as we carried out another puja and Homam in my nephew's home. No one felt it. Then Agathiyar, coming in the Nadi for a devotee on Saturday, revealed that it was true that only Mataji felt it and that the Siddhas arrived to sit in on our Puja.

Whenever Agathiyar comes within me, I can sense a surge of energy that is calm and soothing. But when he came at the shrine of Karupansamy through me in a relative's home the last time around, I felt a vibration within and moving outwards rapidly, making waveforms that extended beyond. I thought it was my body, shaking violently. But my daughters told me nothing of that sort happened. I was just standing there and later asked for a seat. Just like in terms of electricity for domestic, industrial, and other uses, I guess that they have connected me to another phase in the journey, that of connecting with the subtle vibrations around me. Recalling that Agathiyar asked me to share the bodily changes and internal transformation that at times jolted me, as in receiving electrical shocks, and at other times never captured my attention, I delved further into the experiences of the previous saints to get a better understanding of what was taking place. I understood that this Atma, or soul, is basically vibration. The intensity of this vibration varies from person to person. Man or Manithan, in working towards dropping his "I" moves to become Punithan, a state that Ramalinga Adigal mentions he attained, and that which Agathiyar recently told me I have reached, too. Man then progressively makes his way up to higher states of being. In doing so, his Atma's state of vibration intensifies. This was mentioned by Agathiyar in charting the journey from man to becoming a Jeevan Mukta. It is said that the whole village could sense the arrival of Gautama Buddha. Such was the intensity of his Atma. When a devotee asked Agathiyar what his true form was, he questioned her back, asking what she felt during puja and while doing charity. She told him it was a feeling of vibration or an Athirvu of an Unarvu. Agathiyar acknowledged himself as the very vibration that they felt in chanting his name, the vibration that everything around was emitting.

 In the documentary series "Inner Worlds, Outer Worlds - Part 1 - Akasha," we are told that

"The ancient Vedic teachers taught Nada Brahma, the universe is vibration. The word Nada means sound or vibration. The vibratory field is at the root of all true spiritual experiences and scientific investigations. It is the same field of energy that saints, Buddhas, yogis, mystics, priests, shamans, and seers have observed by looking within themselves. It has been called Akasha, the Primordial Om, .. and a thousand other names throughout history...... In the ancient traditions of the East, it has been understood for thousands of years that all is vibration....You never see anything in its totality because it is made up of layer upon layer of vibration and it is constantly changing, exchanging information with Akasha.... everything is connected to the one vibratory source. ..."

A man seeking spiritual elevation and emancipation would first have to begin to work on dissolving his past karma and build positive merits and virtues to free himself from the grip of the gross and slowly bring his vibration to a state of purity, subtleness, and fineness. Annie Besant, in her talks on "The Laws of the Higher Life", Theosophical Publishing House, 1903, says, 

The brain has to be changed, refined, improved, its connecting links fashioned and manufactured for the purposes of the expression of the higher consciousness... Here we see a consciousness that shapes bodies according to its needs, gradually refining them and bringing them under the control of the higher. Now making the mind steady, holding quiet the powers of the mind, the mind ceases to vibrate, and it becomes still - able to answer the vibrations coming from above".

These are "those who are in the front of evolution and of a subtler nature..." she adds.

As if to reenact the words of Rabindranath Tagore on this mystic union, "The Paramatman, the supreme soul, has himself chosen this soul of ours as his bride and the marriage has been completed", and just as Ramalinga Adigal composed a beautiful song about how his Lord had told him to prepare for this bridal marriage or mystic union an hour before the event took place, which I have included in the following video, Agathiyar had me call family and friends together and came personally through a devotee to carry out my 60th wedding on Guru Purnima of 2024.

G Vanmikanathan writes, "(Ramalinga ) Swaamikal gives expression to his amazement at the manner in which God entered his mind and took abode therein. Maanikkavaachakar too is oftentimes lost in wonderment at his good fortune in the Lord vouchsafing him a grace denied to others."

Henri Wei sums up beautifully, "In all these, man is understood as being capable of attaining union with the mysterious cosmic influence or cosmic spirit or divine being." 

We are told that it is not a privilege for a select few that all are entitled to it. But each has to work out his or her Karma and take up the way, the method, and work on changing his fate by rewriting his destiny.