When my eldest granddaughter was a child, I used to tease her for watching the same episodes of "Masha and the Bear." I would sit beside her and say I had seen this each time a new episode aired. One fine day, standing in front of the TV, blocking her view, I said the same thing. She got off her couch and walked to me, telling me to live my life and let her live hers. This stunned me, hearing this come from a kid of that age. I immediately asked myself if Agathiyar was telling me to mind my own business. Recently, during a gathering at my home, the message went around, sadly unnoticed, reminding us to only do what we came for in the conversation we had among us post puja. This was apparently told to Sadhu Om, too, by Bhagawan Ramana, to only do what he came for. Read about it at Siddha Heartbeat: WE ARE BEING WATCHED 1
Mother Teresa came to do what she had to do. She looked after the needs of the sick, poor, and unfortunate. Tavayogi came to do what he had to do. He started a Peedham and Ashram to host rituals and preach about the path of the Siddhas. While some have the Nadi read to them where the Siddhas speak about politics and forecast the future, giving predictions on war and natural calamities, Agathiyar and the other Siddhas only spoke about Puja and Yoga to me in all the fifty-plus Nadi readings I had. I guess I am supposed to only do puja. In my very first Nadi reading itself, he had asked that I worship the Siddhas. Taking heed, I went around to existing movements and organizations run in the name of Agathiyar back then in 2002. But while they were doing charity and holding talks, no one was doing Siddha puja. In disappointment, I turn to the books and the net. I began to compile suitable songs that I thought were appropriate to sing during my home puja. Agathiyar then sent Tavayogi over to our shores in 2005, where he showed me rituals, pujas, and Yoga. Coming as a bronze statue that he had me commissioned and made in Swamimalai in 2010, he had me open my doors to others, too. If it was family and friends initially, in 2013, he sent several youths over to my house to watch and participate in the pujas, after their respective Nadi readings. We brought these pujas into the homes of others and the temples too. Just before the pandemic began in 2019, he had me roll down the shutters and go within. It all came to an end, or so we thought. But Agathiyar later told me that it was halted momentarily. Post pandemic, moving to others' homes upon their invitation, he finally decides not to leave my home ever again. He reminded me that even though pujas and charity were halted, not to stop carrying out his annual Puja that falls on Thaipusam day. This year, I told him that I was going to drop that. That is when he began sending a family that came again and again, asking when the next puja was. Agathiyar told me to do it since they had asked. I guess this is my purpose here.
Though many aspired to expand Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM), a name that my home took on, into a Peedham at par with other societies, movements, and organizations, I never wanted it to turn into one. Neither did Tavayogi ask me to. Though Tavayogi went around officiating new Peedhams the moment someone suggested or desired to form one, he never for once planted the idea in me. Although Agathiyar, in my very first Nadi reading in 2002, and later Lord Murugan, in a reading in 2018, asked me to build a temple for them, Tavayogi never did. Even if the Siddhas in the Nadi and Tavayogi showed me Yoga techniques, never did they ask that I teach another. It was for my own consumption.
I guess Agathiyar has made my home a conduit for others to reach out to them through Puja, Homam, and other rituals. My daughter surprised me by telling me that Agathiyar listens through me and does what needs to be done for others. When she shared her friends dilema with me, her friend saw her troubles dissolve. Though Tavayogi never healed another, telling me that he would not want to touch other's' Karma, he showed them the way to shed them by asking them to take up the praise of the Siddhas. He created the venue and provided an avenue for individual families to sit at the fire pit, light the fire, and burn their Karma during the annual Agathiyar Jayanthi festival. Agathiyar, too, had me do the same for a family in dire straits who knocked on his door. It was lovely to see the love and compassion he has for his devotees, especially his long-time devotees. Though he might do a miracle to impress the newcomers, there is no need for such Siddhis when a devotee is hooked to him for life. I saw this in this family for whom he asked me to conduct the Puja.
Today, my home is back to being my home, although Agathiyar recently asked that I hand over all my assets and responsibilities to my wife and children. A will has been made towards that. I can rest in peace, which I am currently doing. Agathiyar had no further chores and task for me. There is no effort on my part these days to attain or achieve something. Prapanjam provides for all my needs. I am content. I stay at home and receive the occasional visitor whom he sends over. What else could a man in his sixties ask for?