If my parents brought me and my siblings into Sariyai, following in the traditions and customs of our forefathers, Agathiyar in the Nadi reading brought me to worship the Siddhas, who then came regularly through these Nadi readings to inform and guide us. Agathiyar, in wanting me to let go of my anger that was holding me back from progressing further, spoke about anger management for close to an hour in the Nadi back in those days, and immediately put me to the test, which I failed miserably. He had asked me to build a temple for him in my very first Nadi reading in 2002, a request that was conveyed later by Lord Muruga, too, in his Nadi reading in 2018. I refused to engage in it further after my initial excitement died down, after I did not receive consent from the temple committees I approached back then in 2002. Finally, they told me that they had tested me and that my home had turned into one. Previously, he had offered to give me a Nadi for my use and to read for others, which I refused. With the coming of several youths, the movement that had grown around my humble home, which took on the name Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM), and which took on pujas at AVM, the homes of other devotees and temples, and charity programs at children homes, old folks homes, homes of the poor and unfortunate and in the streets, drawn up and executed, since 2013, Agathiyar moved me to dissolve this movement thus having me let go of my attachment further. As for me, he had me go within. Post-pandemic, in 2023, saying that he was leaving my home, he asked that his bronze statue be moved to others' homes, which I readily accommodated. He told me that he would bring the Prapanjam down in its place. But he soon returned, having tested me to see if I was willing to let go of my attachment to his statue.
In bringing Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal of Kallar ashram to our shores and having me meet him, they brought me to carrying out rituals as libation of statues and lighting the fire Yagam and its smaller version, the Homam, and topping it up by officially initiating me into Yogam too, which brought numerous changes and transformations within over the years of practice, beginning from 2007 till now. After his demise, during the pandemic and post-pandemic, Agathiyar and the other Siddhas and the Gods and Goddesses began to speak to us and guide us more frequently through devotees.
What Tavayogi the very first day he stepped into my family home in 2005, forewarned me of Maya lurking all around us, that both caught me off guard, and left me totally confused, disturbed, and angry; and which Lord Muruga in 2023, coming to warn me to be aware and not to fall for the divine play of Lord Siva and Agathiyar, who had roped in Lord Indran into the act, that totally confused me again; and which Agathiyar subsequently asked to get further clarification from the Nadi, which confused us all the more, it has all come to a rest now. Just as Adi Sankaracharya spoke about the rope appearing as a snake, all of creation is a product of Maya. As Agathiyar said later, one has to sieve through to separate the truth and the false.
Then he offered to make me into a guru but almost immediately retracted the offer, saying that he would make me a Siddha instead. Recently, he asked that I even let go of him asking me how else we can be one. In thanking him on another day, he asked who I was thanking and for what when we were one. Then he said that I had now to know Sivam and the Atma. If, in letting go of all the above, Agathiyar revealed himself and brought me to know him, in negating all the above and the rest, he has brought me to know Sivam.