After making the call to come to the worship of the Siddhas in the Nadi reading in 2002, in having me carry out the ritual of lighting the fire or Homam in 2005, teaching me certain Asanas and Pranayama techniques in 2007, moving me to carry out libation to his bronze statue in 2010 that he had me commissioned and made in Swamimalai, bringing over several youths to my home beginning in 2013 to join in these puja and carry out charity, he had us wind up the company of others in 2019. He had them go their way, bringing these tools with them to venture on their own. As for me, he had me go within, sleeping in the Puja room, and gave me herbal preparations to start cleansing my body. That phase was challenging. Soon, the internal transformations began reaching their peak in 2022. He had me do nothing further, but instead witness the energies work in me. Finally, he told me to let go of him, asking how else we can become one. Later, in thanking him, he asked who I was thanking and for what when we were one.
After asking me to hand over my responsibilities to my daughter lately, he told me to live life not as Shanmugam but as Agathiyar and to realize Sivam.
தாயாராக இரு. உன்னை நான் அழைத்துக்கொள்வேன். இன்று முதல் நீ புனிதன் ஆனாய். சண்முகமாக அல்ல. அகத்தியனாக வாழ். சிவத்தை உணர். இனி இந்த அடுத்த பயணம் உனக்குச் சவாலாக இருக்கும். உணர்ச்சியைக் கவனி. வாதம்வேண்டாம். பொதுவிடுமுறைஅன்று பூசையைத்தொடங்கு.
Initiating me and having me start carrying out various tasks that he gave me and others, he later asked us to drop them, teaching us to let go. In letting go even of him, and living as Agathiyar, he brought us from Dvaita to Advaita. In asking us to realize Sivam, he is telling us to drop our hold on Maya and its illusions by negating all else. He is bringing us to being the source. This next phase, too, shall be challenging, he added.
If in the past autobiographies and biographies written had to wait to be published later in life, with the Internet and blogging it is possible to share one's stories in real time. If these writings end abruptly without me giving any notice know that I have left.