CHILDRENS @ PLAY & PRAYER 2 - CHITHIRAI PORNAMI PUJA 2026 @ JUNIOR'S AVM

CHILDRENS @ PLAY & PRAYER 1

Yesterday was a beautiful day of kids having fun and sitting in prayer. If my home saw the birth of Siddha puja being carried out by me after Agathiyar called me to worship the Siddhas in a Nadi reading in 2002, and where my family joined me after Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal in 2005 asked me to include my family too, with the coming of several youths sent by Agathiyar to watch and participate in our home puja in 2013, whenceforth my home took on the name Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM), I thought I shall bring the children to carry out the Siddha puja henceforth in 2026. And so they did a splendid job at it. Agathiyar came even before we began. He blessed all who had gathered and gave his blessings for the puja to proceed, adding an extra agenda to what I had planned, knowing pretty well that he would come to change it.

The kids began singing devotional songs that they knew and learned from school. We then had lunch, after which the momentum picked up. Lining the children up, they conducted Abhisegam, or libation, to Agathiyar and Lobama's statue. Agathiyar came in the midst through a devotee and hauled me and my wife to complete the Abhisegam. He expressed his joy in us carrying out the puja and brought an end to my question about whether the day's puja was the last at AVM. It looks like I have to have more puja sessions with the kids in the future. 

Agathiyar requested a devotee to sing, which was followed by another, and the rest of the children, to the accompaniment of music that these children played pretty well. 

Finally, he had me address questions put forth by a devotee whom he had prepared earlier. 

• Just a quick recap so that it would be helpful to the kids. Looking back now, would you say that you came to the path on your own, or did the Siddhas bring you, or was it your parents? What do you think? In the first few years of travel, did you see it as Agathiyar's guidance? Did you see it as a spiritual experience or take a logical stand? 
• Is the Siddha path the same for all seekers? Or is it shaped by each person's inner maturity? 
• In the initial days of travel, even before the coming of Supramania Swami and Tavayogi, what did you make out of the Siddha path? Was it pure and simple faith, or was there a focus on sadhanas, tapas, and siddhis?
• How does Agathiyar's presence work in life? Do compare the initial days and the present times.
• Was there a moment of switch from belief to certainty? 
• Many seekers speak on the techniques of breathing. But Agathiyar speaks of the breath as awareness. Doesn't this then become a form of escapism for many? How does silence work out in these moments? 
• We are used to people lamenting about family and work responsibilities, and doubts arise whether it is possible to make progress on the Siddha path. How did you manage it in your life? 
• We speak of detachment and unlearning in AVM. Why is this important?
• Do the Siddhas correct us directly? Or do they create the perfect situation, create the perfect environment for the seeker's growth?
• Does suffering bring on spiritual growth, or is it the side effect of resistance? How do we see this happening through the eyes of the Siddha path?
• Many become passive when asked to surrender. How do we know the difference between true surrender and being passive?
• What is the change that has to happen within us? Is it in the habits or perception?
• What was the realization that broke your understanding of spiritualism? Was it painful? Or did you accept them as they took place?
• How are we to know the shift from the outer guru's guidance to the inner guru's shift? Do we need an outer guru? How are we to trust our inner guru? 
• After some 20 years of travel, what was simple and what was demanding? 
• The following is the highlight of the questionnaires. When mention is made of the Kundalini, there is either fear or fantasy. What is kundalini in your experience? What is most misunderstood about the Kundalini? 

FOLLOWING IN THE FOOTSTEPS OF THE GURU

As he had traversed the path of the Siddhas for years and arrived at the state of a Tavayogi and Jeevan Mukta, and though he asked me why we were still hooked to the path of Bakti and inquired when we were coming to that of Gnanam upon arriving on our shores, I asked Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal why he needed to build a temple. He replied that it was not for him but for others (the public). He stood out as an exemplary Siddha in public, taking up calls to give talks at temples, offering prayers, and carrying out rituals. Though he knew the truth, he had to bring us to arrive there, beginning with the elementary school. If he were to speak about his experiences of the higher levels and translate them into concepts, we would not understand. Hence, he knew the best way was to show us the way and the means, the method and the practices, and have us experience them for ourselves. Agathiyar, too, had told me that it was only those practices that they did and saw their results that they passed on to us. If Supramania Swami gifted me all the merits that he had gained over the 40 years of his tavam, or austerities, and Tavayogi gifted me what Agathiyar told me was a treasure in showing me certain asanas and pranayama practices, Agathiyar, after both my gurus went into Samadhi, told me to share the internal changes taking place with readers of this blog so that they would know what to expect on this journey heading towards Light. He listed the phases of the journey towards arriving at the state of Light in coming through a Nadi reading in 2025, read by Mataji Sarojini Ammaiyar on her visit to AVM. He assured me that he was there for me to see it through.

We are here to guide you. I know your heart. AVM's children will walk the talk in following your ways. Henceforth, take up the very first Diksha mantra given to you while retaining the breath in Kumbhaka. As you continue, the impure body, or Asudha degam, will become pure, or Sudha degam, and become the body of Prana, or Pranava degam, and eventually the body of Light, or Oli degam. Pay attention to the breath during this practice. You will arrive at gaining the Siddhis, or the ability to do miracles. Before that, take up the study of the Tatvas or Udal Kuru Tatvam that govern this body, which your guru Loga Raasan (Thangarasan) spoke to you about. 

யாம் இருக்கோம் உன்னை வழிநடத்த. உன் மனம் நான் அறிவேன் அப்பா. இல்ல மழலைகளுக்கு நீ காட்டும் வழியைப் பின்பற்றி நடப்பர் தானே. இன்று முதல் என் முதல் தீட்சை மந்திரத்தைக் கும்பகத்தில் நின்று சொல்லித் தியானமது கொள்ள வேண்டும். கொள்ள கொள்ள அசுத்த தேகம் சுத்த தேகமாகி பிரணவ தேகமாகி ஒளி தேகமாகும் வித்தையே ஞானம். அதற்குத் தியானத்தில்  வாசியைக் கவனி. மெல்ல மெல்ல அட்டமா சித்துக்கள் உந்தனுக்கு கூடும் தானே. மகனே, அதற்கு முன் உடல் கூறு தத்துவங்களை நீ அறிய வேண்டும். லோக ராசு  குருவாக உந்தனுக்கு செப்பி உள்ளான் தானே. 

Ramalinga Adigal speaks about this transformation too, as Dr. C. Srinivasan wrote in his "An Introduction to the Philosophy of Ramalinga Swami," published by Ilakkia Nilayam, Tiruchi, 1968. We learn of the state of Guru Sakiram, or Shiva Sakiram, where, perceiving God in the form of Light, the soul is saturated with compassion and love. It experiences divine life, or Uyir Anubhavam, and attains purity of the body that leads to a golden body, or Sudha Degam. The extent of this achievement, though, is dependent on the grace of Arutperunjhoti. 

R. Kuppusamy, in his "Kadavul Vignanam", explains that the object disappears or உருவம் அருவமாகும். Only the seen or காட்சி exists. This Ramalinga Adigal calls Gnana or Uyir Anubhavam (ஞானம், உயிரனுபவம்).

Experiencing Uyir Anubavam in a Sudha Degam, where transformation to a pure body takes place, love incarnates. The universality of love in all fellow beings arises. Oneness in life is achieved. He/she sees the divine in all life forms. They see the smallness of oneself and the greatness of God. They experience the spontaneous flow of God in them. Furthermore, they see divinity in all creatures. They see God in the form they are ready to receive. They enjoy supreme grace, or Arul Anubhavam. 

After coming by the Siddhas and listening to their song, the Siddha Geeta, King Janaka went into deep contemplation, thinking about the impermanence of life and how small a soul he was and how minute his lifespan was compared to the vastness of the universe out there and its age. 

The 'I' that stands witness to the observation and identification of three things that exist initially in coming to Dhyana, the object, the subject, and the seen, is lost, revealing the Atma, or soul, that becomes the watcher without registering the sights, sounds, and thoughts. Thence, Dhyana comes to an end. (ஆன்ம அனுபவம் தியானம் சித்தியானதன் அடையாளம்). The fruition of this state is the gaining of Atma Anubhavam. 

Atma Anubhavam leads one to Atma Tarisanam, or self-realization, or Para Turiyam, or supra-mental perfection, where we taste God and the glory of Arutperunjhoti. The soul is charged with divine grace. 

King Janaka decided, 

"Let me take resolve to rest in my inner chamber. Now I have at last been awakened by this high-souled Siddhas. From now on, I shall heed my soul, follow the Atma, which is the only sure means to attain freedom and supreme bliss. Let me sit alone and withdrawn. I shall win quietude in my own soul and find all my peace and contentment therein." 

Pursuing further, only the experience of Brahman exists. This is Samadhi. 

Rather than lose himself in Samadhi, rather than dissolve in Brahmam, rather than sit lifeless, Agathiyar disrupted Tavayogi's desire to end his journey and go into Samadhi, and instead had him look up a place called Agathiyar Vanam and set up an ashram and preach the path to seekers. Tavayogi had to settle for Sahaja Samadhi instead, something that Tavayogi told me he would attain. This is karma yoga. He became a Jeevan Mukta, a soul free while still living in a body. Thenceforth, he came to our shores and redeemed us, too. 

A Jeevan Mukta, or spiritual catalyst, as described by Teal Swan in an article at https://tealswan.com/resource, is

"a person who precipitates an event or a change on the level of spirit (the essential, incorporeal part of someone or something). Spiritual catalysts, like gurus, have attained a high level of spiritual authority, awareness, and knowledge, which enables them to guide others. Spiritual catalysts, however, do not aim to become “leaders” to their disciples as much as they wish to cause their disciples to question and find answers within themselves. It is the firm belief of a spiritual catalyst that if a person is caused to initiate their own exploration on the level of spirit, that person will then become the conscious leader of their own life. It is also the belief of a spiritual catalyst that if a person becomes the conscious creator and leader of their own life, their life will inevitably become a kind of living enlightenment, thereby allowing that person to live in a continuous state of internal peace and joy."

Tavayogi came to sow the seeds after Agathiyar told him to come to our shores. Agathiyar took it up from there. Similarly, Agathiyar had me commission and make his bronze statue in Swamimalai and bring it over to my home on 2 January 2010, where the next day, he had us give it life and soul by chanting his mantra 100,000 times. He came to reside in it. In 2013, he opened his eyes in this statue just as he did at Agasthiyampalli and Papanasam in 2005. In giving his statue life, or Uyir, we received his grace, or Arul. After he had me send him away to the home of another devotee and eventually returned after several months with LobaMa as a statue too, telling me to drop even him and asking when we are to become one, he told me that it was time I knew the Atma and Sivam. With his grace, we come to know the JeevaAtma and its parent ParamAtma. This is gaining Atma Anubhavam, the fruition of Dhyana. 

When in a state of continuous Dhyana, even in waking hours, whatever is consumed changes its state (தியான மயமானால் பொசிப்பு மாறும்). Now we can understand the story as to why Lord Narayanan sent four to Agathiyar to learn about fasting. Eventually, they came back to the Lord, frustrated, mentioning that Agathiyar kept cooking and feeding people, including himself. Similarly, we understand now that the food taken by Agathiyar was not taken to keep him alive and sustain him, but for the elementals around. Through serving food, he likes to spread himself among the people and thus to adjust any imbalances in the mental, emotional, and physical bodies. He lives in tune with the universal consciousness, and in such a tune-up, the food is given to all the elementals around him, with himself as the channel. (https://blog.good-will.ch/WordPress/2010/10/23/rishi-agastya-a-little-miracle-and-some-stories). I have had a ferocious and frequent hunger come on at times, too. I have felt the food assimilate within as if feeding all the cells within. Furthermore, I felt as if I was eating for the rest of the world too. It was a blissful state. 

When my daughter told Agathiyar that she was not in control of what her children consumed away from home, he told her that he would change it and not to worry. When the divine comes within, all that is consumed by us turns into medicine for the body. As is written in Bhuvaneswari Kavasam, என் உணவெல்லாம் உனக்கேற்ற நைய்வேத்தியம் ஆகுமம்மா, all that we consume is offered as Prasad or Neivaidyam and consumed by the divine. 

Thomas Moore, in his book "Care of the Soul", HarperCollins Publishers, 1992, too says, "Communion, union with divinity, is accomplished by means of food. Taking food into the body is a ritual way of absorbing the god into oneself." 

Just as he resolved to withdraw within, his minister came to announce he had an appointment with some dignitaries. King Janaka pondered for a while. At that moment, he realizes that the soul neither can benefit from action nor beget harm by inaction, as it is pure and immortal. He then decides 

"Let me rise up. Let the body pursue whatever it has been used to. To restrain it all of a sudden will be wrong and damaging. If the mind remains desireless, the results of actions done by the body and its limbs will be taintless." 

King Janaka leaves to meet the arrivals. He stood out as a Jeevan Mukta even while ruling his kingdom. 

Similarly, I have come to understand why Agathiyar did not send me away because of my past sins but took me into his fold instead, for the soul is ever pure and untainted by man's actions. It is only, for want of experience, that we sin, compounding what Agathiyar told me - that it was he who had me lose hold of my senses and lose my way momentarily and err. 

Next in line is that of Atma Darisanam, which Agathiyar had promised my wife and me that he and LobaMa would come before us in the physical form, just as I had asked Tavayogi to see, days after he arrived in Malaysia in 2005. Tavayogi, who told me that due to his age, he had missed the boat in attaining the state of Jothi that our Moola Guru and Parama Guru Agathiyar, Ramalinga Adigal, and Jeganathar attained, said that he had to settle for Sahaja Samadhi and come back again and attempt to reach the state of Light, was elevated to the state of Jothi, according to Dhanvantri, who came before us through a devotee. Later, Agathiyar, in a Nadi reading, told us that he had attained the state of Jothi partly due to our praises of him and tavam and was doing his work in his realm, while Agathiyar came to guide us further. 

TAKE THE LOAD OF YOUR MIND

Going by the definition of a Siddha from the net and the books that define the Siddhas as miracle makers, I have done nothing of that sort, nor have I brought myself to carry out the Siddhis often associated with them. I am just like anybody else. 

Until now, I cannot bring myself to shut out external noises. I cannot bring myself to meditate. I have not done astral travel. Furthermore, I have not seen heaven or earth. I am akin to a fish in a pond, a toad in a well. I am not an acclaimed yoga practitioner. Neither am I a guru nor a teacher. All I did and do is carry out their dictates that come from time to time, either through the Nadi readings or through other devotees. All I have is love for them, though I have not seen them, nor have I had visions of them. All I know is that I sense their presence around me and in me. I, too, have sinned like others. Looking back on the stupid things I did that could have jeopardized my life and asking myself where the courage came to do them, I only have to thank them for saving me from the quandary that I might have put myself in and the disgrace that I might have brought upon myself, if not for their grace.

So I often wonder how it is that I have come to be qualified in their eyes or by their standards as Siddha material. If man has established certain criteria to be fulfilled to either take on a post or position or to be recognized in the physical world, the Siddhas do not place such conditions. They only see the soul. Nothing else matters, for how would they then take me into their fold and tell me that they will make me a Siddha too? 

I guess man has made everything difficult, placing restrictions and hurdles in the path of the genuine and sincere seekers, expecting much from them. We are often told that we have sinned, having us sink into depression and bring on self-hate. We then seek out masters to show us the means and ways to wash the dirt off us. But Agathiyar seemed to see it from a different perspective, telling me that that was his doing too. He wanted me to have those experiences too. He asked me to forgive myself first. 

I had carried a piece in a past post dated 21 October 2020 where Isaikavi Ramanan, in one of his talks, mentions a wise man told him once to drop his frantic search for means to cleanse himself, for in doing so, we are only looking further at ourselves, giving even more prominence and importance to this form, name, and self, bringing them into the spotlight and limelight. He adds that that is the reason we fail in our attempt, as we cannot possibly do it. Instead, we should learn to look towards the divine for salvation. "Do not give importance to these impurities and dirt that you carry with you," continues the wise man. "Exhibiting arrogance on one hand and, on the other, weeping for his grace, both amount to building and strengthening the ego. It is not wrong to want to cleanse yourself, but your approach is wrong," he told Ramanan. It is pointless and is a futile attempt to try to wash it away. "The only way is to throw it into the flames," the wise man says. 

Indeed, that is precisely what Agathiyar told a family who came knocking at my door, seeking salvation that never came in all these years of their worship. Agathiyar made it pretty simple for them to unload the sorrow that they carried in them. He did not point them to a guru. Neither did he send them on a trail of carrying out remedies to please both man and the gods. He simply asked them to take matters into their own hands and throw their worries into the burning flame of the Homam that they lit in my home and have it consume it all. He reminded them not to look back but to move forward henceforth. 

If the path has been made to seem difficult by men and masters who come by, coming to worship the Siddhas brings on the grace that clears all obstacles, hence paving the way for a smoother ride. Agathiyar tells me that all the benefits from practicing Hatha Yoga were made available to me through my puja and tapas. Both Tavayogi and Agathiyar acknowledged that things were made easier and the methods simplified for me to arrive there. Agathiyar had given a long list of benefits in carrying out Puja in the very beginning of my journey that has seen fruition, which Ramalinga Adigal too sings about having attained via Puja. This answers a devotee's question as to why one should praise the Siddhas. Divine grace that comes by with their worship removes our past karma, as Tavayogi says, and lifts us to the state of a Siddha. As Tavayogi often says, we become what we aspire to be. He asks us, rather than choose things and states that are transitional in nature, why don't we choose to become that which is forever? 

I had my first taste of the Arutpa when Mr. Sethu from my office passed me cassettes of the saint's songs that someone had given him. These songs that touched me back then are now songs that touch my soul and have me shed tears of either remorse or bliss. I can connect with the songs of Ramalinga Adigal these days after arriving in the here and now, after experiencing the states that he speaks of. 

Recently, I came across a couple of videos on Isaikavi Ramanan again that are equally enlightening.

GLORY & PRAISES

After moving away from my engineering field and taking up the administrative and secretarial work, for the sake of the conveniece in cutting short my travel time and distance to and fro from my office and home, just as Mr. Segaran, from my former office, gave me a sound advice to take on whatever tasks and jobs are given to me and that come my way, and which I took up and that saw me taking up new skills and making me an indispensable asset at the office, picking up new skills in making slides for presentations and putting together publications for the department personally served me in sharing my travels on my websites, streaming my home Puja, publishing my online books in praise of the Siddhas, making videos and uploading them on the net, and blogging. Similarly, Mahindren, who took up adorning and decorating Goddess Kali at a temple in his neighborhood after the priest went away, saw himself do the same many years later when he came to AVM. Besides all of us at AVM who saw his talent and admired him, most importantly, his detailing and patience in doing "Alangaaram" for Agathiyar, Agathiyar himself came in a Nadi reading for the AVM family in  December of 2019, and was all praises for him.

We have come to understand since then that just as we praise them and sing the glory of the gurus and Siddhas, they, too, speak about us in their realm. This is often conveyed to us through Nadi readings or when they come through devotees.  

KNOW WHEN TO CHANGE ROLES

Speaking to Mrs. Kogie Pillai from South Africa over the phone last night, she was pretty amused and delighted that we have made friends with the Siddhas after I ran through my journey with her, for you hardly come across one who is equally excited and wants to know more of these stories of close encounters with the divine energies. Yes, what was once a close encounter is now a flesh-and-blood reality. We have made contact with the Siddhas, and they have come to live with us, both in our homes and in our hearts, and living within us, just as the many stories, miracles, and memories reside deep within the recesses of our minds as vibration, song, and thoughts.

And it all begins when one begins to listen and follow as told, just as a child does. One has to become a child to begin to learn and experience in awe the astonishing stories that then begin to take shape. In returning to the innocence of a child, one would relish these moments, watching without analyzing, without questioning. As Agathiyar says, if man chooses to believe only after it happens, the Siddhas ask us to believe, and it shall happen. One just needs to believe what is said, seen, and heard to see the flowering of miracles take place.

And so one has to become a child in going over to a Nadi reader, too, and having the Siddhas reveal things about us. Furthermore, one has to sit still and listen in awe and amazement, just as I did at the age of 43, as my story unfolded before me and was revealed by the Siddhas through their medium of a piece of dried palm leaf on which were etched writings in Tamil, purportedly said to be written in the way past.

Mr. Sethu, from an adjacent block, who often came by to my cubicle in the office, passed me several cassettes of Ramalinga Adigal's Arutpa, which sent me reeling to the local musical stores and bookstores, searching for more of his songs. Mr. Sethu used to share his experiences in reading his horoscope, which drove me to see mine too. Sitting in his office waiting area, with others who had come to read their horoscopes too, exchanging small talk with them brought me to ask myself why Dr. Krishnan's predictions, or for that matter, those of a former astrologer who drafted my horoscope in the seventies, did not materialize as the others gave the thumbs up for the doctor. The Siddha physician and astrologer, Dr. Krishnan, answered my question that was veiled: if his predictions had failed to materialize for his clients, as mine never did, and not that it bothered me, but I wanted to know out of curiosity. He told me in the affirmative and told me the reason, too, if one were cursed in the past. Only then did I tell him that none of his predictions materialized for me. Asking if he could look into my chart and tell me, he told me it was not to be found in the charts, but that only the Siddhas know. He asked that I see a Nadi reader. As I did not know one then, and neither did he point me to one, I let it be. 

When, in 2002, a colleague, Muralitharan Saminathan, who was transferred to my place of work, spoke about his experience in reading his Nadi in 2000, it reminded me of Dr. Krishnan, who had spoken about it in the nineties to me, and stirred my interest to see mine too. My friend fixed an appointment for me through the young Sivabalan, who brought in the Nadi reader Senthilkumar of Avinashi, Tamil Nadu. True enough, I was told that, as I was cursed in the past, I was deprived of all the benefits of my venture and efforts placed. I came to know about karma, which brought me to understand why all those people I knew back then as a bachelor in the eighties were suffering and were in hardship. I had questioned whether God was loving and compassionate, as we were told and as we read. As these questions hit the peak, Lord Siva came in the nick of time in a dream and asked that I hold back all these questions and doubts to another date. I followed and let it be. In a rather appropriate manner, I was transferred out of that coastal town of Lumut to the capital city of Malaysia, bringing on a new environment and new friends. The answers came via my first Nadi reading, some 14 years later, in addressing my karma. Agathiyar had me carry out remedies to remove, if not to at least soften, its effects. He sent me on my maiden pilgrimage to India after having me do my rounds locally. Hence began a journey that was mind-boggling and out of this world. As Mrs. Kogie said, I made friends with the Siddhas.

Arriving in Kuala Lumpur at the nick of time to catch up with an officer in the department, Mr. Segaran, who had submitted his resignation to become a monk in Paramahansa Yogananda's Ranchi ashram, before he left, he gave me a painting of Lord Siva, Paramahansa's book "Autobiography of a Yogi", and some sound advice to take on whatever tasks and jobs are given and that come my way, which served to mold me and make me an indispensable asset at the office. As it was administrative and secretarial work, I saw myself move away from my engineering field and picked up new skills in making slides for presentations and putting together publications for the department. These were to serve me later as I began sharing my travels on my websites, streaming my home Puja, publishing my online books in praise of the Siddhas, making videos and uploading them on the net, and blogging.

If one comes as a child before the Nadi reader, one has to come empty, leaving all that was learned and practiced before the guru. Only then can he fill us in with his experience and learnings, practices, and methods, and only then can we take back these tools to work on ourselves. And so it was that I came before my gurus in the physical form who molded me further.

Although Agathiyar often tells me that it was only what the Siddhas did and worked for them, proving efficient, they passed it on to me, too, in mentioning to me that I had come to achieve the results that usually come by way of practicing Hatha Yoga, giving me Puja and Tapas instead, Agathiyar dropped several tough practices, and had simplified the way, the means, and the method. No wonder Tavayogi, too, told me with amazement, asking how I could come thus far, easily, when they had to put in much effort. When I asked Agathiyar later if there was no simpler means to it, he too told me that it was the simplest he could give, as he too had to break his back in arriving there. What made my journey even simpler was the merits of the 40 years of tapas and austerities that Supramania Swami gave me. He who had taken on the hard work of arriving there passed on its fruits to me to enjoy. 

And so it is that so many people come our way and help us, as Mrs. Kogie defines it, join the dots and map out our journey. Just as Neale Donald Walsch wrote in his series of books, "Conversation with God (CWG)", and Agathiyar, in mapping the purpose of mankind, gave us the 5 Tenets, we are all souls who have come by to help, assist, and aid another grow spiritually. I am thankful and grateful to all these souls who came by. Besides our family members and blood relations, so many others from different walks of life come into our lives as a string of events to see to our needs for that moment, or to make us take up a stand, or to lead us on a different path or thought, that makes me rethink if we are actually in charge of our lives, for it seems to me now that every single happening is orchestrated by a bigger and larger being, the hidden hand of the Divine. 

THE GURU DISCIPLE RELATIONSHIP

If we see an influx of seekers standing at the doors of Ashrams, Peedhams, centers, etc., wanting to be enlightened, there is something that most gurus don't tell us: that they need us more than we need them. I was surprised and puzzled when Supramania Swami pointed out that I was not doing Tavam, which I wondered how he knew, as he was in Tiruvannamalai and I was in Kuala Lumpur, and asked that I do it so that he could rise in his stature as a guru. Later in 2016, when Tavayogi came to Malaysia for the last time, he too pointed out that he was grateful to me for praising him and spreading his fame. If Supramania Swami told me that he had seen the Light or Jothi days before his Samadhi, Dhanvantri came and told us that Tavayogi had become Jothi too. Later, Agathiyar tells us that we had a hand in bringing him to this state with our continuous talk and praise of him. I guess this answers a devotee's question some years back as to why we should praise the Siddhas.

Then, in the conversation between Bhogar and Agathiyar, Bhogar was telling Agathiyar, if only he had a student like me. All this was incomprehensible until I figured out that the relationship between a student and a guru was two-way and not one-way, where only the student tends to gain something in the pact. Similarly, I am grateful to all the youths who came by after Bala Chandran brought them over to my home, after Agathiyar, in his Nadi reading in 2013, asked him to watch, participate in the Pornami Puja, and learn about the Siddhas.

We are indeed connected and dependent on one another to progress both in life and spiritually. If Neale Donald Walsch wrote in his books, "The Wisdom of the Universe" and his earlier books in the series "Conversation with God (CWG)" and his children's parable titled "The Little Soul and the Sun", adapted from his book 1 in the series, which drives home the fact, that we have known each other before as souls and have come to aid each other to evolve and progress spiritually, Agathiyar, too, tells me that we have known each other for crores of years and in giving mankind his 5 Tenets, he reveals the same that we are here to help each other evolve.

I suppose that if we are bonded to each other as parents and their children, siblings, life partners, and friends, similarly, we are also bonded with our gurus and vice versa. Agathiyar told me that I had an obligation towards Supramania Swami that was carried forward from a previous birth, hence the reason I met him and came under his wings briefly before Tavayogi came along to teach me to fly. I am indebted to my gurus. 

Similarly, I am indebted to all those who have made my journey here, at least this time around, possible. Two souls who made an impact on my spiritual life need to be mentioned here - Bala Chandran and Mahindren. Both of them came, learned, picked up the tools, and began to conduct Siddha puja in their homes, bringing their family and friends into it too, becoming gurus themselves. I am proud and thankful to them, just as Supramania Swami and Tavayogi thanked me. These videos speak for themselves. 

மஹேந்திரனின் பயணம்

அகத்தியரோடு எனது பயணம்

டிசம்பர் 20, 2013 எனது சரியைக்காணப் பயணத்தின் தொடக்கம்.

அன்று தான் நான் முதல் முறையாக எனது நண்பர்களோடு அகத்தியர் வனம் மலேசியாவுக்குச் சென்றிருந்தேன். அங்கு நான் கண்டது அகத்தியர் உருவில் சிவனை. பின்னர் நான் ஷண்முகம் அண்ணனிடம் என்னைப் பற்றிப் பகிர்ந்து கொண்டேன். அன்று நான் அறியாதது எனது வாழ்க்கையில் பெரிய அளவிலான மாற்றங்கள் வரும் என்றும் அவை அனைத்தும் அகத்தியர் அப்பாவின் செயல் என்றும்.

ஆரம்ப நிலையில் நான் அகத்தியர் வனத்துக்கு மாதத்தில் ஒன்று அல்லது இரண்டு முறை செல்வது வழக்கம். அவை அங்கு நடைபெறும் சித்தர்கள் பூஜையில் கலந்து கொள்வதற்கு. பின்னர் காலப்போக்கில் நான் அகத்தியர் வனம் செல்வதை வாடிக்கையாக்கிக் கொண்டேன். ஏனெனில் அங்கு ஷண்முகம் அண்ணனின் சித்தர்கள்மீது உள்ள ஆர்வம், அவர் சேகரித்து வைத்திருந்த அவரது அனுபவங்கள் எல்லாம் என்னையும் ஒரு புதிய பாதைக்குள் தள்ளியது. அதிசயங்கள் விரும்பாத மனிதன் இல்லை என்பதற்கு ஏற்ப நானும் அங்கு நடந்தேறும் அதிசயங்களைக் கண்டு வியப்புற்றேன். ஒரு ஐம்பொன் சிலை (அகத்தியர் வனம் அகத்தியர் அப்பா) மனிதனைப் போலவே இரு கண்களையும் திறந்து இருப்பதை நான் முதலில் பாலச்சந்திரன் காண்பித்த புகைப்படம் மூலமாகக் கண்டேன். அதே அதிசயம் நாங்கள் அகத்தியர் அப்பாவிற்கு அபிஷேகம் செய்யும்பொழுது கண்டு வியந்து மகிழ்ந்தேன். இந்த அதிசயம் என்னை இன்னும் இப்பாதைக்குள் அதிகமாகவே தள்ளியது.

அங்கு நான் செல்லும் பொது எல்லாம் ஷண்முகம் அண்ணன் அவரது தேடல்களையும், அனுபவங்களையும் பகிர்ந்து கொள்வார். எனக்குள் ஒரு கேள்வி எப்பொழுது நாமும் இவரைப் போலவே இந்தப் பயணத்தின் அனுபவங்களைச் சேகரிப்பது. நான் வாடிக்கையாகச் செல்வதால் பூஜைக்கான தயார்நிலைகளை நான் கற்றுக்கொண்டேன். பின்னர் நானே அவைகளைச் செய்யத் தொடங்கினேன். ஹோமம், அபிஷேகம், அலங்காரம், போற்றி பாடல்கள் என முழுமையான பூஜை முறைகளை நான் அவரிடம் மற்றும் மகேஸ்வரி அம்மாவிடம் இருந்தும் கற்றுக்கொண்டேன். இவர்கள் இருவரிடமிருந்து நான் பல அற்புதமான பாடங்களைக் கற்றுவந்தேன். 

இப்படியே வருடங்கள் புரண்டு ஓட, நான் எனக்குள் பல மாற்றங்களை உணரத் துவங்கினேன். 2013 முதல் 2019 வரையிலும் சரியை கற்றுவந்த நான் 2019 துவக்கத்திலிருந்து கிரியைக்கான பயிற்சியினை அகத்தியர் அப்பாமூலம் ஷண்முகம் அண்ணன் வழிவிட நானும் எனது தோழி மலர்வதியும் தினம்தோறும் அகத்தியர் வனம் சென்று யாகம், அபிஷேகம், அலங்காரம் என அனைத்தையும் நாங்களே செய்யத் தொடங்கினோம். அகத்தியர் அப்பாவை அலங்கரிக்கும் பொறுப்பு என்னிடம் வர நானும் அகத்தியர் அப்பாவின் ஆசியோடு அவரைப் பல விதங்களில் அலங்காரம் செய்து மகிழ்ந்தேன்.

இன்னும் சொல்லப்போனால் 2019 எங்களுக்கு ஒரு அற்புதமான பயணமாகவே அமைந்தது. ஷண்முகம் அண்ணன் கூறிய அவரது அனுபவங்கள் இப்பொழுது எனது அனுபவமாக மாறியது. அவரது பயணத்தில் நாங்கள் இணைந்தது எங்களுக்கு ஒரு பெரிய பலத்தையும் நம்பிக்கையும் தந்தது. அவரது வாலிப வயதில் தொடுத்த கேள்விகளைச் சிவபெருமான் கனவில் வந்து கேள்விகளைப் பின்னர் ஒத்திவைக்கச் சொல்லியதும், இப்பொழுது அதற்கு விடையளிக்கும் பொருட்டு எங்களுக்கு அவை பாடமாக அமைகிறது. அதற்கு நான் சிவபெருமானுக்கு நன்றிகளைச் சொல்லிக்கொள்கிறேன். இவ்வாறு இருக்க நாடிகள் மூலம் எங்களுக்கு வாக்குரைத்த அகத்தியர் அப்பா, தனது பக்தர்கள் மூலமாகவும் எங்களை வழிநடத்த ஆரம்பித்தார். ஷண்முகம் அண்ணனின் இரு குருக்களும் (சுப்பிரமணிய சுவாமி / தவயோகி), பின்னர் எனக்கும் குருவாக அமைந்த தவயோகி, அப்பாவின் மறைவுக்குப் பிறகு எங்களை அகத்தியர் அப்பாவே நேரடி சீடனாக ஏற்றுக்கொண்டார் போல் அவர் எங்களுக்கு அவ்வப்போது தரிசனம் தந்து வழிநடத்தி வருகிறார்.

கிரியை என்பது வெறும் பூஜை என்பது அல்ல, பிறருக்குத் தொண்டுகள் செய்வதும் தானென உணர்த்தி, பாலச்சந்திரன் தலைமையில் நாங்கள் ஆறு பேர் (பாலச்சந்திரன், நான், தயாளன், சுகுமாரன், மலர்வதி, சஹாலினி) சேர்ந்து ஒரு குழு அமைத்து எங்களால் இயன்ற தொண்டினை செய்து வந்தோம். வீதியை இல்லமாய் கொண்டு வாழ்பவர்களுக்கு உணவு கொடுப்பதும், பிள்ளைகளின் அறுவை சிகிச்சைக்குப் பணப் பற்றாக்குறையாக இருப்பவருக்கு முடிந்ததை தருவதும், கல்வியினை தொடங்குவதற்கு மாதம்தோறும் பண உதவியும், முதியோர் இல்லம்/சிறுவர்கள் இல்லம் சென்று உணவு தருவது, விளையாட்டு எனச் சிறிய அளவில் செய்து வந்தோம். அதனைத் தொடர்ந்து ஷண்முகம் அண்ணன் அமுதசுரபியென மற்றொரு குழு தொடங்க, நாங்கள் அவரோடும் இணைந்து எங்களால் முடிந்த சேவைகளை இந்நாள் வரை செய்து வருகிறோம். நான் கடந்து வந்த பாதையில் சிறிய அளவு கசப்பான சம்பவங்கள் எனக்குப் பெரிய அளவில் பார்க்கத் தோன்றியது. என்று நாங்கள் வீதியில் இருப்பவர்கள், அன்றாட வாழ்க்கைக்குப் போராடும் மனிதர்கள், ஒரு வேளை மட்டுமே பிள்ளைகளுக்கு உணவு தரும் குடும்பங்கள் என்ன பலரைக் கண்டபொழுது, நான் கடந்து வந்தது யாவும் வெறும் கானல் நீர் என்று உணர வைத்தார் அகத்தியர் அப்பா. அன்று முதல் ஒரு உத்வேகம் எனக்குள் பிறந்தது, வரும் இன்னல்களைக் கண்டு வருந்துவதை விட, அதனைச் சரிசெய்வதற்கான வழிமுறைகளைக் கண்டறிவதே சரி என்று உணர்த்தினார்.

இவ்வாறு அகத்தியரோடு பயணம் சுமுகமாய் போக, யோகத்தின் பயிற்சி ஆரம்பமானது. இங்குதான் அகத்தியரோடு பயணம் குழுவாக அல்ல தனி மனித பயணம் என உணர்த்த ஆரம்பித்தார். ஆறு வருடமாகக் குழுமுறையில் செய்தவையாகவும் இப்பொழுது தனித்துச் செய்ய வேண்டும். தொண்டுகள் இதில் அடங்காது. தனி மனித பயணம் என்பது தன்னைத் தானே அறிந்துகொள்வது. எவ்வாறு நான் என்னை நானே அறிவது என்ற கேள்விக்கு அகத்தியர் அப்பா சொல்லியது தியான முறை. நம்மை நாம் அறிவதற்குச் சித்தர்கள் சொல்லித்தருவது தியானப் பயிற்சி. நம்மைத் தனிமைப் படுத்தி தினமும் ஒரு முறையாவது இறைவனை நோக்கி மன அமைதியோடு தியானம் செய்து வந்தால், அதன் பலனாக நம் பிறப்பின் நோக்கமும், அதன் பயனும் அறிவோம் என்று உணர்த்தினார். ஆனால் அது அவ்வளவு சுலபம் அல்ல, அதற்கு நம் மனம் பக்குவப் படவே, சரியை, கிரியையென இரண்டு வழிமுறைகளைச் சொல்லிக்கொடுத்து வந்தார். சரியையில் நாம் எவ்வாறு நம்மை ஒழுங்கு படுத்துவது என்றும், கிரியையில் நம்மை எவ்வாறு செயல் பட வேண்டும் என்றும் சொல்லித் தந்தார். அதற்கு ஐந்து கொள்கைகள், ஆறு புலன்களை அடக்குவதும், மும்மலத்தை ஒழிப்பதும் எனக் கற்றுத்தந்தார்.

ஐந்து கொள்கைகள்:

- பிறப்பின் நோக்கம் அறிதல்

- குலதெய்வம், காவல் தெய்வம், குருவிடம் பக்தி செலுத்துதல்

- முன்னோர்கள், பெற்றோர்களை மதித்தல்

- எல்லா உயிரினங்களையும் மற்றும் பொருட்களையும் இறை நிலைக்குக் கொண்டு வருதல்

- தர்மம் செய்தல்

ஆறு புலன்கள்:

- பொறாமை

- காமம்

- பெருமை

- கோவம்

- வெறுப்பு

- பற்று

மும்மலம்:

- ஆணவம்

- கர்மம்

- மாயை

மும்மலம் ஆகிய ஆணவம் கர்மத்தை அழிக்க மாயை என்னும் திரை தானே விலகிப் போகும். அவ்வாறு ஆணவம், கர்மம், மாயை விலகிப் போக நமக்குள் சுழன்று இருக்கும் ஆறு புலன்கள் யாவும் பட்டுப் போகும். மும்மலம் அழித்து, ஆறு புலன்களும் பட்டுப் போக, நம்மால் அகத்தியர் கொடுத்த ஐந்து கொள்கைகளைச் சரிவரச் செய்ய முடியும். இவ்வாறு எவன் ஒருவன் இவை அனைத்தும் தனது கொள்கையாகக் கொண்டு அதற்குச் சக்தி கொடுத்து முழு முயற்சியாகச் செய்து வருகிறானோ அவனுக்குத் தியானத்தில் தெளிவு கிடைத்து, தன்னை அறிவானென எனக்கு அகத்தியர் அப்பாவால் உணர்த்தப்பட்டது. இன்று வரை எனது பயணம் யோகத்தை நோக்கி இருக்கிறது, அகத்தியர் அப்பா ஆசியோடு யோகத்தின் பயிற்சியும் சரிவரச் செய்து முடித்து ஞானத்திற்குச் செல்லும் வழியும் கிடைக்கும் என்ற நம்பிக்கையோடு அகத்தியர் அப்பாக்கு நன்றி சொல்லிக்கொள்கிறேன்.

2014 இல் தொடங்கிய பயணம் இது. தற்போது வயது 34 ஆக இருந்தாலும் சித்தர்களோடு பயணத்தில் நான் இன்னும் பத்து வயது மாணவனே. இந்தப் பயணங்களில் பல ஜாம்பவான்கள் இருக்கையில் நான் என்னுடைய பயண மாற்றங்களையும், அதிலிருந்து நான் கற்றவற்றையும் விட்டவற்றையும் பகிர்வதால் ஏதேனும் பிழைகள் இருந்தால் வாசகர்களைப் பொறுத்தருளக் கேட்டுக்கொள்கிறேன்.

சரியையில் தெய்வத் தொண்டினை நாமே நம் கைப்பட செய்யச் சொன்னார் அகத்தியர் அப்பா. ஹோமம், அவருக்கு அபிஷேகம், அலங்காரம், நெய் வேத்தியம் மற்றும் தீபாராதனையென ஆலய வழிபாட்டினை நடுவராக ஒரு ஆகமம் முறை வந்த குருக்கள் இல்லாது நானே என் கைப்பட செய்ய ஊக்குவித்தார். இதில் எனக்குக் கற்றுத் தந்த பாடம் சித்தர்களோடு இணைவதற்கு நமது உள்ள தூய்மை மட்டும் போதும் என்று.

சித்தர்களோடு இணைந்து விடுகிறோம். சித்தர்களும் நம்மோடு உலவத் தொடங்கிவிடுகிறார்கள். எதற்கு? நாம் அவர்கள்வசம் இருக்கும் அவர்கள் நம்மைக் கண்காணிப்பர்.

கிரியையில் சக மனிதர்களுக்கு உதவிக் கரம் நீட்டக், குழந்தைகள் காப்பகம், முதியோர் இல்லம், வீதியில் வசிப்பவர், பிறகு குடும்பமாக வசித்தாலும் வருமான பற்றாக்குறையால் வாடுவோர் என எல்லா தரப்பு மக்களையும் நேரே கண்டு பசி ஆற்றும் பாக்கியத்தை அளித்தார். இதில் எனக்குக் கற்றுத் தந்த பாடம் எனது வாழ்க்கையில் ஒரு போதும் குறை கூறும் அளவுக்கு உடலாலோ, மனதாலோ, சிந்திக்கும் ஆற்றலில் எவ்வித குறைபாடுகளும் தரவில்லையே பிறகு எதற்கு வாழக்கூடிய வாழ்க்கையைக் குறை கூறிக்கொண்டே வாழ வேண்டும் என்று தான்.

சரியையும் கிரியையும் சித்தர்களோடு நமக்கும் உள்ள உறவினை வலுப்படுத்தவும், கர்ம வினைகளைப் போக்கவும், சிந்தனையை நெறிப்படுத்தவும், இருப்பதைக் கொண்டு நடப்பவற்றை அற்புதமாக மகிழ்ச்சியாகப் பார்க்கப் பழகிக் கொள்வதற்குத் தரப்பட்டவை. இதை நான் அறிந்து உணர்ந்து கொண்டு செயலாக்கம் செய்வதற்கு அகத்தியர் அப்பாவும் மற்ற சித்தர்களும் எடுத்துக்கொண்ட அவகாசம் 5 வருட காலம்.

உணர்ந்த பிறகு அதை மீண்டும் மீண்டும் செய்துகொண்டிருந்தேன். முதலில் பெருமகிழ்ச்சி நம்மை அறியாது நம்மை ஆட்கொண்டு கர்வம் கொள்ளச் செய்யும். அதுவே பிறகு நம்மை யோகத்திற்கும் ஞானத்திற்கும் செல்வதற்குத் தடையாக இருக்கும். எனவே அகத்தியர் உணர்த்திய உடனே என்னைச் சரியை கிரியை இரண்டையும் நிறுத்திப் பயண மாற்றம் செய்தார்.

2019 யோக பயணத்தின் தொடக்கம். தவயோகி அப்பா சொல்லித் தந்த மூச்சுப் பயிற்சி குருவாக ஷண்முகம் அண்ணன் சொல்லித்தர நானும் தவறாது இடைவிடாது செய்துவர உடலில் பலவித மாற்றங்களை உணரத் தொடங்கினேன். வாத பித்த கபம் என்ற மூன்றும் சரிபடும்போது என் உடல் தேக்கிவைத்துக் கொண்டிருந்த கழிவுகள் அகன்று போகக் கண்டேன். இந்தக் காலகட்டங்களில் உடலில் உட்கரிக்கப்பட்ட நோய்களை எல்லாம் வெளியே கொண்டு வந்து அதற்கான சிகிச்சை முறைகளையும் அவ்வப்போது வந்து காண்பித்து, மருத்துவரிடமும் அனுப்பியும் வைத்தார் அகத்தியர் அப்பா. இதில் நான் கற்ற பாடம் உடல் உறுதி பெற்று வலிமையுடன் இருந்தால் வாழ்க்கை சிறக்கும். ஞானத்திற்கான பயணம் எளிதாக இருக்கும்.

யோகமும் ஞானமும் தனிப்பயணம் அல்ல. இரண்டுமே ஒன்று கலந்தே இருக்கும். உடலை வளைக்கும் போதே உள் பயணம் செய்ய வலியுறுத்தினார் அகத்தியர் அப்பா. தியானமே முதல் படி உள் பயணம் கொள்வதற்கு. அதற்கு உடலை வருத்திக்கொண்டு அமரக் கூடாது. எனவே உடல் வளைக்கக்கூடிய பயிற்சிகள் தந்தபிறகு அமரச் செய்யும்போது உடல் இலகுவாக இருக்க மனதைக் கட்டுப்படுத்த மட்டுமே தியானம் இருக்கும். அதற்குச் சுவாசத்தை மட்டுமே கவனம் இருந்தாலும் அலைபாயும் மனதைக் கட்டிப்போட எண்ணத்தை மட்டும் திரும்பத் திரும்பச் சுவாசத்திற்குக் கொண்டு வந்து, கவனம் கொண்டு உணர்த்தலோடு செய்ய வேண்டும். இப்படிச் செய்ய நம்மை அறியாது நமது சிந்தனைகள் காணாமல் போக வெறும் சுவாசம் மட்டுமே நிலைத்திருக்கும். அவ்வப்போது புருவ கூச்சல்கள் வந்தாலும் தள்ளி வைத்து விட்டு மீண்டும் சுவாசத்தையே கண்காணிக்க வேண்டும். இதில் நான் கற்ற பாடம் தன்னை அறிந்தால் இன்புறலாம் மற்றும் அதன் தந்திரத்தையும் உணரலாம்.

சரி இப்போது அகத்தியர் அப்பா என்னை எங்குக் கொண்டு செல்கிறார் என்ற கேள்வி வரலாம். தற்போது யோகத்தையும் ஞானத்தையும் செய்துவர அவ்வப்போது அகத்தியர் அப்பா வாக்கு உரைக்கப் பக்தர்கள்மீது வருவதையும், என்மீது வருவதும் நடைபெற்றுக் கொண்டிருக்க, மும்மலம் ஆகிய ஆணவம், கன்மம், மாயையிலிருந்து விடுபடத் தனது பக்தன் பரிபூரணம் அடைந்தபின் அவர்களுக்குள் வாக்கு உரைக்க வருவதையும் ஒரு மாயையென உரைத்து அதனை அடக்கிக் கொள்ளும் வல்லமை பெறவும், அதற்கு ஆன்மீக பயணத்தைத் துவக்கியுள்ளார்.

ஆரம்பக் கல்வி ஆகவே இதைப் பார்க்கும் வேளையில் இதுவரை நான் பலமுறை நான் நான் என்று என்னை அடையாளப்படுத்திக்கொண்டதை நிறுத்தும் வகையில் ஒரு புதிய அனுபவ பயணம் நடைபெறுகிறது. நான் என்ற ஆணவம் அழியும்போது மாயை என்ற திரை விலகி எப்படி ரமண மகரிஷி நான் வேறு அல்ல நீ (இறைவன், அருட்பெருஞ்ஜோதி, பிரபஞ்சம்) வேறு அல்ல என்ற நிலைக்குக் கொண்டு செல்லும் நிலை தற்போது. கன்மம் மட்டும் சரியை கிரியையில் முற்றிலும் சித்தர்களின் அருளால் போக்கப்பட்டு யோகத்திற்கும் ஞானத்திற்கும் பயணிக்கச் சித்தம் ஆகிறோம்.

சித்த பயணத்தை இருவகைகளாகப் பிரிக்க, ஒன்றாவது மனித நெறி பயணம் இதற்குக் குருவின் தேவை சரியை கிரியையோடு நின்று விடும். பிறகு அந்தச் சீடன் கற்றவற்றை வாழ்க்கையில் கடைப்பிடித்து வந்தாலே போதும். உணவிலோ உடையிலோ மாற்றம் தேவை இருக்காது, மனத்தினையும் ஆசைகளை மட்டும் கையாள வேண்டும். தொடர்ந்து சரியை கிரியை செய்து வரலாம். உலக வாழ்க்கைக்கான ஞானம் கிட்டுமே தவிர ஒளி பயணத்திற்கு வழிவகுக்காது.

இரண்டாவதாக ஞான பயணம்/ஜோதி பயணம். இதற்கு உடல், உள்ளம் தூய்மை பெறுவது அவசியம். புலால் உண்ணுதலை தவிர்க்கும் பட்சத்தில் முதல் உடல் தூய்மை ஆரம்பமாகிறது. பிறகு கடுமையான வைராக்கியம் வேண்டும். சித்தர்கள் கொடுக்கும் பயிற்சிகளை விடாமல் செய்வதும், சொல்லிய பொழுதே செய்வதும், ஏன் என்ற கேள்விகளின்றி நிறுத்தவும் வேண்டும். இது அடுத்தகட்ட தூய்மை. பிறகு, மனத்தூய்மை செய்யத் தியானம் செய்து வர ஆன்மாவோடு பேசத் தொடங்க வேண்டும். இவ்வகை செய்யும்வண்ணம் சிந்தனை தூய்மையும் செய்தாக வேண்டும் எனில் இங்குதான் சித்தர்களும் பூதகணங்களும் தேவலோகர்களும் நம்மோடு மாய விளையாட்டைச் செய்யத் தொடங்குவார்கள். ஆகவே இதற்கு நாம் குருவைத் தேடுவதை விட நாம் செய்யக்கூடிய சரியான கிரியையைக் கண்டு நம்மைக் குருத் தேர்வு செய்வார். அவர் நம்மை அந்த மூலப் பொருளுக்கே கொண்டு செல்லும் வரை வழிநடத்துவார். தான் வழிபடும் மூலத்தையே நமக்கு அடையாளம் காட்டிவிடுவாரே ஒழியத் தன்னை போற்றிட ஒரு போதும் சொல்வதில்லை. இவ்வாறே நம்மைத் தேர்வு செய்த குரு யார் என்று நாம் கண்டு கொள்ளலாம்.

எந்தப் பயணத்தை நாம் தேர்வு செய்கிறோமோ அதன் படியே பயணமும் ஒவ்வொருவருக்கும் வேறுபடும். ஒப்பிடுதல் ஒருபோதும் ஆன்மிக பயணத்தில் இருக்கக் கூடாது. நாம் வாழும் வாழ்க்கையில் ஒவ்வொரு பொழுதிலும் சித்தர்களின் ஞான பாடங்களும் அற்புதங்களும் இருப்பதை உணர்தலே நமது பயணம் சிறப்பு மிக்க பயணமாக அமையும். அதனை நம் சிந்தை கொண்டு தவயோகி அப்பா சொல்லியதுபோல் “மாயையின் விளக்கம் புரிந்து அதை மனதிலே இருந்து ஒடுக்கித் தள்ளித் தத்துவ விசாரத்தால் வெற்றியடைய வேண்டும்”.

குருவின் வழியில் சீடன்

யார் எனது குரு என்ற கேள்விக்குப் பதில் தருவதற்கு முன்பு, நான் எவ்வாறு சித்தர்களைப் பூஜிக்க ஆரம்பித்தேன் என்பதை சொல்லிக்கொள்கிறேன்.

2013 எனது நண்பன் பாலச்சந்திரன் அகத்தியர் நாடி வாசிப்பு கண்டு வர, அவர் என்னையும் மற்ற நண்பர்களையும் அகத்தியர் நாடி பார்க்க வலியுறுத்தினார். அப்பொழுது அகத்தியர் யார் என்று எனக்குத் தெரியாத நிலையில் நான் பாலச்சந்திரனிடம் இப்போது வேண்டாம், பிறகு தக்க தருணம் வரும் நிலையில் பார்த்துக்கொள்கிறேன் என்று சொல்லிவிட்டேன்.

அப்பொழுது நான் சிவன் மற்றும் அம்மன் வழிபாட்டில் (பக்தி வழிபாடு) இருக்க, நாடி பார்க்கும் ஆவல் என்னிடம் இல்லை. அதையும் தாண்டி நாடிகளை வாழ்க்கையில் கஷ்டங்கள் இருப்பவர்கள் மட்டுமே பார்ப்பார்கள் என்ற அசட்டுத்தனமான எண்ணம் இருந்தது.

பக்தி மார்க்கத்தில் இருந்ததால் எனது சிறுவயதில் கோவிலுக்குச் செல்லும் வழக்கம் அதிகமாகவே இருந்தது. அதைத் தொட்டு கோவில் அர்ச்சகர் சிறிது காலம் தன் தாய்நாட்டுக்கு செல்ல, என்னையும் எனது அண்ணனையும் கோவிலில் பூஜை செய்யும் வாய்ப்பு தந்தனர். அப்பொழுது நான் என் அம்மனோடு பேசுவது என ஒரு அம்மா மகன் உறவை வளர்த்துக்கொண்டேன்.

அன்று முதல் நான் எந்தக் காரியம் செய்தலும் அம்மனிடம் உத்தரவு கேட்டுக்கொண்டு செய்வேன். அதைப்போலவே நாடி பார்ப்பதற்கும் அம்மாவின் உத்தரவு என்று கிடைக்கிறதோ அன்று பார்த்துக்கொள்ளலாம் என்றிருந்தேன்.

அதன் பின்னர் பாலச்சந்திரன் எங்களை அகத்தியர் வனம் மலேசியாவிக்கு அறிமுகம் செய்து வைத்தார். அன்று தான் நான் முதல் முறையாக எனது குருவைக் கண்டேன், ஆனால் நான் உணரவில்லை அவர்தான் எனக்குக் குருவாக அமைவார் என்று.

சில மாதங்கள் கடந்துபோக நாடியினை காண வேண்டும் என்ற எண்ணம் வந்தது, அது அம்மனின் அருளாசி என்று கருதி நாடியை காண சென்றேன்.

அகத்தியர் அப்பா எனது முன்ஜென்மத்தில் நான் இலங்கையில் பிறந்ததாகவும், நான் சிறுவயதிலேயே பிரம்மச்சரியம் ஏற்று இறைவனை நோக்கிப் பயணம் செய்ததாகவும், பின்னர் பல குருமார்களிடம் வித்தைகள் கற்றுக்கொண்டு சிந்தை சறுக்கி பல கொடிய செயல்கள் புரிந்து மக்களுக்குக் கஷ்டங்கள் புரிந்திருக்கிறேன். எனது இறுதி காலத்தில் தவறினை உணர்ந்து வருந்தித் திருந்தி நற்செயல்கள் செய்து எனது கர்மத்தினை கழித்ததாகவும் கூறினார். ஆனாலும் கர்மாக்கள் குறைந்த வண்ணம் இல்லை என்று எனக்குச் சில பரிகாரங்கள் சொல்லினார். அதனை அடுத்து நான் தீவிரமாக அகத்தியர் அப்பா சொல்லிய பரிகாரங்களை செய்யத் துவங்கினேன்.

பின்னர் அவர் ஆசியோடு இந்தியாவிற்கு நண்பர்களோடு 14 நவம்பர் 2014 அன்று பரிகாரம் செய்யச் சென்றிருந்தேன். திருச்சி விமான நிலையம் அடைந்த நாங்கள் முதலில் தாய்வீடான கல்லாறு ஆஸ்ரமம் சென்று ஷண்முகம் அண்ணனின் குருவான தவயோகி அப்பாவையும் மாதாஜி அம்மாவையும் கண்டோம். இரவில் அங்கே தங்கிவிட்டு மறுநாள் சித்தர் பூஜையில் கலந்துகொண்ட பின்னர் ஜீவநாடி வாசிப்பு இருக்க நான் தயார் செய்து வைத்திருந்த கேள்விகளைக் கேட்க அப்பொழுதுதான் ஷண்முகம் அண்ணன் எனக்குக் குரு என்று அகத்தியர் அப்பா சொன்னார். அதுமட்டுமல்லாது தவயோகி அப்பாவும் எங்களைச் சீடர்களாக ஏற்றுக்கொண்டார். இரட்டிப்பு மகிழ்ச்சியோடு நான் எனது பரிகார பயணத்தைத் துவங்கினேன்.

பரிகாரங்கள் முடித்து மீண்டும் மலேசியா திரும்பிய நாங்கள் எங்கள் வாழ்க்கையில் ஒரு புதிய மாற்றங்களைக் கண்டோம். பின்னர் ஷண்முகம் அண்ணனோடு எனது உறவினை நான் வலுப்படுத்திக்கொண்டேன். அன்றுமுதல் நான் அவருடைய அனுபவங்களைக் கேட்டுத் தெரிந்துகொள்ள ஆவலாய் இருக்க அவரும் நான் அங்குச் செல்லும் போதெல்லாம் சொல்லிக்கொண்டே இருப்பார். தவயோகி அப்பாவோடு சேர்ந்து அவர் மேற்கொண்ட பயணங்கள் யாவும் கேட்பதற்கு மிக அற்புதமாகவே இருந்தது. அங்கிருந்து நான் பல விஷயங்களைக் கற்றுக்கொண்டு எனது தினசரி வாழ்க்கையில் உபயோகம் செய்து வந்தேன்.

நெருங்கிப் பழகியவராக இருந்தாலும் கடினமாக இருந்தாலும் ஒன்று கேட்கும்போது என்னால் தட்டிக்கழிக்க முடியாது, உடனடியாகச் செய்துதர ஒப்புக்கொள்வேன். ஆனால் ஷண்முகம் அண்ணன் ஒருமுறை "NO" சொல்லக் கற்றுக்கொள்ளுங்கள் அவை உங்களுக்கு எப்போதும் உதவியாக இருக்கும் என்று வலியுறுத்தினார். அப்பொழுது ஒரு தெளிவு பிறக்க என்னால் முடியாத ஒன்றினை நான் ஒப்புக்கொள்வதை நிறுத்திக்கொண்டேன். இப்பழக்கம் எனது தொழிலிலும் மற்றும் மற்ற உறவுகளிலும் எனக்கு மிக உறுதுணையாக இருந்தது.

இப்படியே எங்களின் உரையாடலில் நான் கற்றுக்கொண்டு பின்பற்றி வர எனக்குள் நல்ல மாற்றங்களைக் கண்டேன். உதாரணமாக, வீண் வாதம் செய்வதைக் குறைத்துக்கொண்டேன், கோபத்தைக் குறைத்துக்கொண்டேன், அதிகம் சிந்தித்து செயல்படத் தொடங்கினேன், முக்கியமாக அகத்தியர் அப்பாவோடு பேசக் கற்றுக்கொண்டேன். இறைவனாகப் பார்த்துப் பக்தி செலுத்தித் தூரமாகப் பார்த்த அகத்தியரை அப்பாவாக, அம்மாவாக, நண்பராக எனப் பல உறவுகளில் காண வைத்தவர் எனது குரு.

இவ்வாறு இருக்க, 2016 இல் தவயோகி அப்பா மலேசியாவுக்கு வந்திருக்க, நாங்கள் அனைவரும் அவரோடு அகத்தியர் வனம் மலேசியா நண்பர்கள் இல்லங்களுக்கு அகத்தியர் அப்பாவை அழைத்துச் சென்று பூஜை செய்தோம். அதேபோல் என்னுடைய இல்லத்துக்கு வருகை தந்த தவயோகி அப்பாவைக் கண்டதும் என்னை அறியாது ஓர் ஆனந்தத்தில் அவர் பாதம்பற்றிக் கண்ணீர் வடித்தேன், பிறவிப் பலனை அடைந்ததுபோல் அவ்வளவு ஆனந்தம்.

எனது இரு குருவும் எனக்குக் காட்டியது அவர்களது திறமையை அல்ல. அவர்கள் எனக்கு அகத்தியர் அப்பாவைக் காட்டி இவரைப் பற்றிக்கொள், அதுவே உனக்கு உறுதுணையாக இருக்கும் என்றுதான். அவர்கள் சொல்லியவாறே நானும் இந்நாள்வரை அகத்தியர் அப்பாவைப் பின்பற்றி வருகிறேன் மனநிறைவோடு. இவ்வாறு இரண்டு குருவினைத் தந்தமைக்கு நான் அகத்தியர் அப்பாவிற்கு நன்றி சொல்லிக்கொள்கிறேன்.

DROPPING & LETTING GO

A friend and devotee who was hooked on Nadi readings shared his frustrations when the Nadi reader kept postponing appointments, and opted to go public rather than do individual readings. My friend was so devoted to Agathiyar that he needed his daily dose of assurance from these readings. Frequenting these public readings, he picked up all the remedies given by Agathiyar, only to see himself spend more money on these, but with no results. When I told him to drop reading the Nadi, he realized his flaw and weakness and told me something that made sense and applies to all matters, that we are being overdosed. Indeed, as we look around us, there is an overdose of information, news, advice, practice, talk, preaching, etc. Our mind is stuffed with things that are not our concern. 

We need to wean away from all that is irrelevant in our lives. We need to shed and drop all that we have come to carry with us along the way. We need to clear our home and abode, both the home and the mind. 

I guess this is what Lord Siva did in coming to me in a dream in 1988, asking me to hold my questions to a later date, after all the reading and talk about God being compassionate and loving went contrary to what I saw as a bachelor, and witnessed happening in my circle of family and friends. He had me shed and drop all the learnings for the next 14 years. He had me drop the pain and suffering of seeing others go through it. After 14 years, and coming to read the Nadi, I came to know about Karma and how it affects us all. Agathiyar, in revealing about Karma, explained the reasons for pain and sorrow, which I had carried too, in watching them in pain and suffering back then, before the dream. If the dream brought a halt to it, back then, I regained my peace after the Nadi reading, having come to know the reason. 

On meeting Tavayogi, Tavayogi had me drop my outward show of respect to him, stopping me from falling at his feet, and instead showed me to a pair of sandals symbolizing the Holy Feet of Agathiyar at the Peedham, where I met him for the very first time. 

Tavayogi had me drop my admiration and attraction towards him even before they could grow into a monster and have me begin to worship him instead of Agathiyar, when he accepted my invitation and stepped into my home for the very first time. Instead of admiration and respect for him, he asked that I show it to Agathiyar. 

After coming to read the Nadi and take up the call to worship the Siddhas, armed with a list of names of the Siddhas and Agathiyar's painting, getting initiated officially by Tavayogi, taking up rituals that Tavayogi gave me, picking up Yoga officially from Tavayogi, receiving youths to my home to take up Puja too, bringing these Puja into their homes, and the temples too, and begin charity, Agathiyar brought the shutters down. The time had arrived for me to travel solo. He had me live in solitude in the confines of my family home, and go within, just before the pandemic came on, which forced everyone to follow suit.

With the onset of the pandemic, the Nadi readers returned to India, thereby bringing a halt to the Nadi readings. He broke my attachment to looking towards the Nadi and looking forward to further readings for continuous guidance. He brought a halt to the feedings and the group puja too, which, according to my wife, was making us "high" and getting us addicted. 

It was then each man for himself. It was a solo journey now.

Post pandemic, Agathiyar taught Yoga to those who came by. Deciding to leave my home, he asked that I bring his bronze statue into the home of another devotee. Although he had since then returned home, he taught me to let go of my attachment to him. Finally, he told me to even let go of him, asking for how else can we become one. He told me that the time had arrived to know my Atma and Sivam. 

It is all about dropping and letting go, so that peace can come within us, envelop, and embrace us. Now, only after arriving there, I have come to realize how my father could spend his life living in peace and acceptance back then. In his prime, as he was from the Chettiar clan, wanting to scout and expand his family business of money lending, back then, he left his hometown of Kilasevalpatti in Sivaganga and went to Burma. After a short stint there, he traveled to Ceylon, and later saw himself come to Singapore, and finally settled in Malaya. When a string of bullets fired from a passing Japanese war plane missed him by inches, just as the saint from his clan, Pattinathar, shed all his wealth and took on the robe of a mendicant, the seed was planted in him that day. He began to let go, giving away his cash and properties, becoming a philanthropist. Having settled all the dues here, he left silently for India and spent years in an ashram with a guru. Many years later, the guru called him up and told him to return home, telling him that he had to settle his responsibilities. Though my father never went back, coming to think about it now, he lived the rest of his life in solitude with only us around him. Though his death appeared to be sudden to us, we soon came to figure that he knew it was coming. He asked that my mother iron his shirt and dhoti, and asked for a cup of coffee, things that he usually did himself. When my mother came back with the coffee, he was already seated on the floor in the Padmasana pose in a corner of my brother's house, and not in his usual chair beside the main entrance. When my mother placed her hand on his shoulder, he toppled over onto her lap. Calling for an ambulance, they pronounced him dead. It saddens me that I never got to know the name of his guru.

If my parents left behind their life savings of deeds and merits, my gurus left behind their life savings and treasures too. If Supramania Swami passed on his life's savings in the form of merits gained from his 40 years of Tavam, Tavayogi passed on his life savings, what Agathiyar tells me are treasures in the form of practices and rituals that I took up and adopted and made a part of my life. I guess I am well and fine and have made some headway on this journey, although only taken a few baby steps, because of their contributions. I am deeply grateful to my ancestors and their guardian angels, and my gurus and their lineage, too. 

THE PROMISE 2

I guess I had promised back then in some birth to come back into the path after going astray and lead others too. If I had worshiped the Siddhas with my family coming together too, and later with youths whom Agathiyar sent over to my home, I would be grooming the kids this time around. 

Just as a devotee asked me why we need to praise the Siddhas, many years back, I can give many reasons to do so after arriving there.

For one, in coming to the Siddhas, they would show us our past Karma through the Kaanda Nadi, to begin working on. We could either live it through or take the necessary measures, which the Siddhas would come to show through Nadi readings that are accounts of our past lives and the deeds and sins we did. They would give us further readings through the Aasi Kaandam to follow and adhere to.

They shall then show us to our guru in the physical form, who will then bring us to the practices and adherence of disciplines needed to walk the phases of Kriyai and Yogam, to arrive at Gnanam. 

In carrying out Kriyai, we draw the bridge down for the Siddhas to visit us in our homes and begin the conversations. 

In carrying out Yogam, the inherent energy in us rises to meet that of the Siddhas and merge in the union of the JeevAtma with the ParamAtma. We become Jeevan Muktas or Spiritual Catalysts and turn towards bringing others to this state of bliss. 

With the dawning of Gnanam from within, he too shall become a Siddha.

Hence, the call comes when we are pretty much caught in the affairs of the world. The guru comes when we are ready to relinquish all our desires and wants. The Siddha comes when we are ready to do his work. They take us into their fold. We have a new role and purpose then. The lineage is kept alive. The path sees beings walking it. The flame is kept burning. 

THE PROMISE 1

I am back, readers. I had to summarize the path before I take a break. Since my purpose was to follow the path, live it, and eventually share the goodness, benefits, and reasons with readers to encourage them to take up the path as well, I will provide a brief summary.

Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal was asked to start an Ashram cum temple for Agathiyar and the Siddhas after he came out of his long years of Tavam or austerities and wandering, and was asked to come to Malaysia in 2005, and spread the good word to us too, officiating Peedhams and taking the stage to address the audience. I was one of those who stood before him. When one Mr.Bala asked me the reason for meeting Tavayogi, I had no reason. I was just prompted to meet him after receiving a leaflet from the Nadi reader in 2002, which mentioned Tavayogi's intent to build a temple/ashram for Agathiyar, unlike the many who came to the Siddhas, according to Mr.Bala, with problems. Soon as I frequented the Peedham where he was staying during his duration and stay in Malaysia, and sat in the presence of Tavayogi, I saw the truth in Mr.Bala's words. Many indeed came with problems, some beyond our imagination. Tavayogi would listen patiently when they came before him with problems, some speaking for hours on end, and would point out that it was their past conduct and acts or Vinai or Karma acting on them now, and ask them to worship the Siddhas. 

As if to answer the questions and doubts I had about whether God was truly loving and compassionate, and the reason he had me take a long break, ending my home and temple worship, and all reading for 14 years, Agathiyar, called me to the worship of the Siddhas in my very first Nadi reading itself in 2002. He spoke about Karma and its action on us, enlightening me on why people suffer. He gave me remedies for my past Karma too. Agathiyar had the Nadi reader conduct a Siddha worship, pass me the booklet that carried the names of the Siddhas published by Tavayogi, and a painting of Agathiyar given by Sivabalan, who brought the reader in from India, starting me off on my journey of further discovery. Armed with these, I began my home puja. Agathiyar had me begin my home worship by reciting Lord Ganesha's mantra, and had me worship Lord Siva too, besides the worship of the Siddhas. I did as told. 

Hungry to know more about the Siddha worship, I knocked on the doors of numerous movements, Peedhams, and centers associated with Agathiyar, some existing since the eighties, but returned disappointed as none carried puja or worship, but instead held talks, did charity, and meditation. I turned to books on the Siddhas, which I went around looking for at the book stores. I continued my home puja, gathering more songs from these books and the net. 

Agathiyar then sent Tavayogi to our shores, where I met him in 2005. Although he asked that I frequent the Peedham that he came to officiate, Agathiyar had other plans for me. In a subsequent Nadi reading, Agathiyar asked that I get initiated by Tavayogi again and visit his ashram to learn further. I did as told. Thus, I came under his wings, shadow, and his mentorship. Thus began a wonderful relationship between a guru and a disciple that is still intact even after Tavayogi shed his mortal frame on 3 July 2018.

Then Agathiyar came as a bronze statue, in 2010, originally intending to go to the Sri Raghavendra Mritiga Brindavanam Kinta in Ipoh, which was being constructed, but decided to stay put in my home. He sent many youths to my home in 2013 to watch and participate in our puja at my home, which took on the name Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM). I came to know later, from the "Soul Contract Reading" of mine, that reaffirmed my purpose as that of  a Spiritual Catalyst, for them and others who followed.

In carrying out Puja and charity with these souls, we have come to fulfill Agathiyar's 5 tenets for mankind too, as Vashisht Vaid wrote in his blog at https://holysageagathiyar.com/ 

1. Agathiyar says that man has to first and foremost understand his purpose in taking birth. 

2. With his purpose known then, he should come to thank the divine creator or energy that brought forth his birth (through consultation with the lunar forefathers and their angelic hierarchies that co-exist with us down here). 

3. He asks that we then thank all the caretakers, both seen and unseen, in the present and the past. 

4. There arises then an obligation on our part to "dutifully aid and help, the ongoing evolution of all co-existing human beings." 

5. The final task is to extend this aid and help towards "the ongoing evolution of all co-existing beings and entities, existing upon the lower levels of the evolutionary ladder, dutifully supporting the manifested matrix or prapanjam." 

(Summarized from Vashisht Vaid's post on his blog https://holysageagathiyar.com/ )

Just as I thought, I could now take a break from it all, I remembered that I had called a gathering of children and intend to have them perform the rituals and sing the praise of the Siddhas on 1 May 2026. As I now need to bring these kids to his fold after having brought the youths earlier, so it looks like I shall be around for some time. 

BYE

I guess whatever has to be shared and said has been shared and said in this blog. Maybe it is time to bid farewell - again. My story seems to be akin to the story of the boy who cried wolf, right? Till Agathiyar says otherwise, we shall take a break for now. It has been wonderful sharing so many things on this blog. Take care, everyone. 

THE HOME COMING

At AVM, we focused on the practical application of the teachings of the Siddhas rather than discussing the myths, legends, and stories that surround them. If it might be important to academicians and historians, Agathiyar told us that these were not important to us. Instead, they gave us the practices and methods to take up that one day would bring us to the state of a Siddha and that of Light. Now I understand why Lord Siva came in a dream in 1988 and had me bring the shutters down for some 14 years, on all my reading, home worship, temple worship, and the yoga practice that I picked up from these books, as a bachelor. He had me take on a new chapter in my life, that of a married man, bringing two souls into this world, and shouldering the responsibilities of raising a family. In 2002, coming through a Nadi reading, he had flipped open yet another new chapter in my life. Agathiyar called me to the worship of the Siddhas, which I did. He sent me two wonderful gurus.  Giving me rituals and practices, sending many over to my home that took on the name Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM), he brought down the shutters again in 2019, at the peak and height of our worship and charity drives. Having me let go of it all, and asking me to go within, having me stay in solitary most of the time, and letting me be myself, today, after 24 years walking the path, he has taken me into his fold. He tells me that I am one with them after having me drop even him. He brought me from Dvaita to Advaita, to the teachings of Adi Sankara. And what do you know, we only came to know recently from his Nadi reading that a soul that came as a kid back then and grew up watching and participating in our home puja all these years was Adi Sankara's disciple in a past birth. He is now in college. His parents, who were grazing cattle and goats in a past birth in Kutalam, used to deliver milk and serve Agathiyar. And so are the others who came by, souls who had served Agathiyar back in the past, as revealed in their Nadi readings. Another devotee who was a student of Agathiyar, but had offended the Muni, came back to him, too. Another devotee had ferried Mataji Sarojini Ammaiyar across the Kaveri in a coracle to witness Agathiyar inaugurate the Lingam that he built out of the sands of the river Kaveri at Nattadreewar. My daughter had served the fruits that my wife and I sold on the grounds of his temple at Papanasam to Agathiyar in a past birth. Another couple of devotees and I had been together in ashrams both in India and in Malaysia back in the past. Finally, Agathiyar reveals that we have known each other for crores of years. We have come home to him.

Hold on to One, Hold on Tight, and Hold till the End.

I had wondered why there is a Ganesha Murthi at Agathiyar's Sannadhi at the Kumbeswar temple? When I had mistakenly seen the Hindu Almanac and carried out Ganesha's Chaturthy a day late, Agathiyar in the Nadi praised me for seeing him and Ganesha as one and worshipping him as Ganesha, although a day late. Moments ago, I came across something I had posted earlier on Thursday, 15 February 2024.

Writing on Agathiyar's origin at https://holysageagathiyar.com/, Vashisht Vaid says that he was the very "Vital Radiant Consciousness of Adi Ganesha in a Human Form" that  Adi Param Shiva desired. There you have it.

Just as Tavayogi autographed my copy of his book "Andamum Pindamum," which, when translated, meant, "God lives in your heart, from where the journey starts and ends too," as Ganesha sits in on the start of a journey, or at the entrance of a temple, or is worshipped first before any ritual or undertaking is taken, I think it is sufficient to begin and end the worship with him. But instead, we briefly pay our respect to him and move on hurriedly to the other shrines and return home.

In talking to Mahin when he dropped by on Friday, we agreed among ourselves that it was sufficient to pray at Ganesha's shrine and return. We feel it is all within Ganesha. Saint Avvai and Saint Nakkiran, too, have sought Ganesha to reach that place or state of Gnanam. We are told in the Purana that while Lord Muruga shot off on his peacock seeking Gnanam, Ganesha opted to stay at the feet of their parents, Lord Siva and Parvathi. Muruga went to war later and brought Surapatman to his knees. To redeem his sins, he had to renounce it all and adorn the robe of a mendicant Supramaniar later, to seek Gnanam and Enlightenment and become Light or Jothi. Just as Muruga initially searched out there but Ganesha looked within we too search it out there failing to realize that it is all enclosed within us. But it all has to take place for a certain divine play to take place. 

Just as Dr. Bhani mentioned to us at a talk that a single song of saint Avvai carried three meanings at different stages of his life, first as a song of praise to Ganesha, then when he took up Siddha medicine, it was wholly about about medicine, and finally siiting at the feet of his guru Yogi Ramaiah he came to know that it was a song on Yogam, "The Tamil Guardian" posts at https://www.tamilguardian.com/content/introduction-auvaiyar%E2%80%99s-vinayagar-agaval, carried the following,

"Auvaiyar’s poem is a many-layered experience of philosophical concepts brought to life via devotional poetry. It begins with contemplation of the external form of God ... The Vinayagar Agaval swiftly moves beyond the contemplation of the feet to the adoration of the face and body of God. Auvaiyar now moves away from the contemplation of external form and the material universe into her metaphysical journey. The poetess explains further her experience of the physical yoga tradition, which is first mentioned in the circa 3000-year-old Rig Veda texts. She refers to the energy centers of the body and energy rivers (“Nadis”) such as the Ida and Pingala. She talks of awakening the “Kundalini” energy source... achieved through meditation and physical yoga, signifying spiritual awakening....leading to immortality and miraculous powers."

"The term Siddhanta is also connected to the term “Siddhi”, meaning miraculous gifts and so Siddhanta is the discipline of awakening these gifts. Hence the eight modes are thought to be the eight Siddhis or miraculous powers gained through the awakening of the Kundalini as described in the Tirumantiram text dated circa 500 AD. Auvaiyar’s poem remains in essence devotional, born out of her experience of the divine."

Layne Little too equates the song as above at https://www.alchemywebsite.com/vinayaga.html, 

"At first glance, the work seems conservative enough; as it begins with the traditional contemplation of the god from foot to crown. But it promptly veers off into the domain of the mystic as she invokes Ganesha as the embodiment of Turiya. Turiya, or "the Sleepless Sleep" is a state of deep yogic trance, where the aspirant sleeps to the illusionary and transient realm of gross sense phenomena and wakes to the infinitude of the inner realm."

Avvai too seems to bring us one cycle just like Tavayogi, for Avvai, having moved from Bakti to Yogam, ended the poem by coming back to Bakti, accrediting her advancement to Ganesha. Auvaiyar, throughout her Agaval, considered the wisdom, clarity, bliss, and eternal life she came to attain as gifts of Ganesha rather than admitting that she acquired or earned them. "This Bakti is a total surrender since Avvaiyar dedicates each and every step she passes in Yoga to Ganesha."

In https://truthdiveblog.wordpress.com/category/culturereligion/, we learn that, "Avvaiyar assigned everything to the Lord as if she had done nothing." 

When Kumarsamy Aiya of Anuvavi Ashram asked me if I was going places, I told him my search had ended. He applauded me and told me something that struck me as a statement of wisdom, which, when translated, meant, "Hold on to One, Hold on Tight, and Hold till the End."

If previously, we would jokingly ask, since we prayed to all the deities, which God would come to our aid in times of danger?, when a niece of mine who lost control of her car and landed in a ditch, walked out safe and sound except for some superficial injuries while the car was a total loss, the deity Karupanasamy coming through a devotee reveled that he, Goddess Kali and the soul of her late grandmother had saved her. When my late father, who only knew Lord Muruga, called out to him as a pack of wild dogs circled him while he took a pilgrimage to Palani from his hometown in Kilsevalpatti on foot, a bee circled and went into the ear of one of the dogs and stung it, sending all the rest running away. When Bala, just after a Nadi reading, rode his motorbike into a stationary lorry, Agathiyar, in a later Nadi reading, revealed that he was there to hold him from falling and sustaining injuries. I guess this is why each has an Ista Devata, or a guardian angel, or a favorite deity to whom they turn for all their needs. So stick with it. 

Thavathiru Rengaraja Desigar, in his book, "POTRINAL UNATHU VINAI AGALUM APPA", speaks about Agathiyar and his relationship with his guru Supramaniar (Lord Muruga)

Agathiyar met Supramaniar at Kodaikanal, where Supramaniar made him recall the past just as Mahavatar Babaji, coming to redeem Lahiri Mahasaya, showed him his past belongings, triggering a memory of his forgotten past. As promised in return for all his services in the earlier birth, Supramaniar taught Agathiyar the secrets of attaining the state of God or Erai. Agathiyar began by performing puja to Supramaniar. By way of devotion to Supramaniar, he began to realize that he had had the greatest gift, which was the human birth, which comes by very rarely. Through Supramaniar, he came to know himself and the divinity that resided in the physical body. He understood the very Nature that brought him forth and resided within him. With Supramaniar's guidance and blessings, Agathiyar relished the ambrosia or nectar that came about through his Tapas. This removed the seven veils to reveal the Light or Jhothi in him, hence attaining the body of Light. With this came Bliss, Siddhis, and the state of Deathless-ness. Agathiyar attained the five characteristics or Tanmai of Erai, namely Creation, Sustenance, Destruction, Veiling, and Showering Grace. Ramalinga Adigal, too, in his Arutpa, sings of a similar state that he had arrived at by the grace of his Lord.

I had written on Thursday, 2 April 2020, asking, "What would be Agathiyar's aspirations for us? Would I be wrong to say that he wants us to become a Siddha too? I believe this would be his wish for after calling us to his path, he led us through Sariyai, Kriyai, and in coming to Yogam, dissipated the knowledge and techniques, through gurus and upagurus, besides he and Ramalinga Adigal coming to lead us further on into Pranayama and meditation, refining the technique we had picked up, showing us the means to overcome difficulties and obstacles faced along the way. Ramalinga Adigal brings us hope and assurance, asking us to stick with Agathiyar, who he promises shall remove the curtain or veil that comes between God and us." Bhogar, in coming and seeing my allegiance to Agathiyar, told him that he wished he too had someone like me. Agathiyar, as he summoned Bhogar and Tirumoolar, I took a step backward, seeing these Siddhas converge at AVM. Agathiyar called me to step forward and back into the circle, bringing tears to my eyes, seeing their compassion and love. I am truly grateful to the Siddhas for accepting me into their fold. 

Indeed, he has come by asking me recently, "When are you coming into my fold? When are you to become a Siddha too?" After initially saying that he would make me a guru and immediately pulling back that offer, he told me that he would make me a Siddha instead. He asked further, "When are we to become One?" asking me to even drop my hold on him and let go of him too. 

After becoming a Siddha, Agathiyar spread the teachings. So did Agathiyar send Tavayogi to preach the path. I guess that is my purpose too, through these writings. This is how I can give back to them for all the grace and blessings showered on my family and me, and my friends.