The journey within begins here said Osho referring to a spot that the Japanese call Tanden, some 2 inches below the navel. This is exactly where I felt a sensation recurring over two days and in the subsequent days, where I saw an energy rise rapidly to finally settle at the crown of the head. After this experience, Agathiyar told me to do nothing and said that "IT" shall do its work. He is basically telling me to go with the flow.
Agathiyar spoke about this energy, the Kundalini, even as early as 13.10.2007, just months into carrying out the Yoga practice that Tavayogi taught me and several others. He said that they were pleased to see it rising. The revelation made no sense then. Neither were there any indications, feelings, or experiences toward this end. I was clueless.
உண்டாகும் குண்டலினி சக்தி உனக்கு உயர்வதைக் கண்டு நாங்கள் வியந்தோம் அப்பா.
Patanjali on 18.5.2008 in giving me his Yoga Sukmam, a complete guide to the Satvic way of living and practice, gave me both the good and the bad news. He said the many practices taught and shown and put into practice shall bring on excessive heat within that would taut my muscles and nerves. On the other hand, he said the accentuated colors of the aura and the empowered Chakras will raise the Kundalini further.
பதஞ்சலியின் யோக சூட்சம இதுதான் மைந்தா. ஒப்பிலா உடல் சூடும் தியானத்தால் உனக்குச் சோர்வு வந்திடும் இக்கணம் தன்னில். வளமிருக்கும் வர்ணமும், ஆதாரமும் சித்தி கொண்டதோர் குண்டலினி ஓங்கும் பாரு.
On 27.8.2009 Agathiyar gave me a further practice known as Tava Sukmam for continued success in my endeavor.
வெற்றி நிலை மிகுந்து காணத் தவ சூச்சமம் தான் விவரிப்பேன்.
In 9.8.2010 he mentioned that the Gnana Kanal or Fire of Gnanam was pretty profound then.
உண்டான ஞான கனல் மிகுந்த காலம் உயர்வான காலம் இது இந்தக் காலம்.
By this time I was having extreme back pain, given the sudden pull and thug in my lower back and buttock that came on as I cleared my throat during my morning shower, which went right down to the right leg and toes and affected my mobility, practically crippling me for some 2 1/2 years to come. After the doctors gave me a clean bill of health I consulted the Nadi. Agathiyar on 17.10.2010 gave me the good news and consoled me on the bad too. What is generally achieved through Hatha Yoga is now possible through Tapas and Puja, he said. But he pointed out that my health was declining. He asked to see a physician who could bring it back to its former state. With His grace, I shall recover well he added.
அடையோகம் தன்னில் கிட்டும் சித்தி அவையனைத்தும் தவமொடு வழிபாட்டில் பெறுவாய். ஆனதொரு ஆரோக்கியம் மட்டும் சோடை. ஒளடதமும் பிடகனை அறிந்து ஏற்க்கவே மாற்றங்கள் ஏற்றம் கிட்டும். என் அருளால் பூரணமாய் பரிசுத்தம் காண்பாய்.
Agathiyar who continued to monitor my situation on 16.1.2011 assured me that all would be fine. He asked me to continue taking the prescription for another half a Mandalam (24 days).
வாகடன்கள் தேகத்திற்கு மட்டும் வளத்துடனே அரை மண்டலாம் எடுத்துக் கொள்ள தேகமத்தில் குறை வாரா.
On 9.8.2011 he pointed out the blissful state I was in. The graceful light of Arutjothi had increased in its immensity he said.
ஆனந்த நிலை இப்போ அடைந்திருக்கிறாய். அருள் ஜோதி நிலை பெருகி உள்ளத்தப்பா.
It was only on 26.11. 2011 that Agathiyar revealed that the creative energy, which after doing its work in bringing me into physical existence and being, and which had hibernated at the Muladhara since then, had awakened as a result of me putting into practice the Yoga and Pranayama techniques that Tavayogi taught me and several others in 2007. As a result, the Muladhara Chakra had gained intense heat hence shutting my systems down. To add to it, my three dosas were off balance and not in the ratio that sustains good health.
உற்றதொரு மூலாதார சக்கரமும் உயர் விதமாய் உட்டனங்கள் அடைந்ததனாலே உரைக்க வரும் சோர்வும் தேகம் தன்னில். உரைக்கலாம் முக்கூற்று திருப்பும் இப்போ முறையாகச் சம நிலையில் இல்லாதிருக்க சோதனைகள் வந்து நிற்க்கும் அச்சம் மிதந்து.
He classified my agony and pain which was external and affecting only one side, as Paareesa Peedai, which after looking up the net I found to mean exactly that, உடலின் ஒரு பக்கம் and "superficial, existing or occurring at or on the surface and appearing to be true or real only until examined more closely."
பாரிச பீடைகளும் வந்து நிற்கும்.
On 21.9.2014 Agathiyar repeated again that the Suzhimunai was opened. He said that the chakras shall function perfectly.
ஆதாரம் முறையாய் விளங்கி நிற்கும். முனை திறந்து இருக்கிறாய் இப்போ.
Towards 28. 8. 2015, though I never realized it, Agathiyar mentioned further changes that have taken place within me. I did not sense any changes. He said that his Jothi had expanded in me and the Suzhimunai had opened.
தேகத்தில் மாற்றங்கள் பெற்று இருக்காய். அகத்துக்குள் அகத்தின் ஜோதி பெருகி தேகத்தில் பல மாற்றம் பல சக்தி கிட்டி முனை திரந்து இருப்பாயே.
On 7.10.2018 Agathiyar in the Nadi said that unaware to me my breath had "intertwined" in my sleep and lay dormant. Though I could not understand what he said, this had resulted in a recurrence of the dreaded back pain coming back in the same intensity as originally as I sneezed while crossing a street.
உனக்குத்தான் நித்திரை தவ வாசி காலம் வாசியும் சீர் பிசகி முடங்கித் தான் இருக்கு.
The next day, 8.10.2018, Lord Murugan and Agathiyar who came to heal me through a devotee and simultaneously in the Nadi, in real-time, brought me the bad news too. He told me my body was crumbling. My spine and hips were currently tense. The gel at these joints had dried up. This is the reason for the acute pain I was having. With some treatment done earlier, a quarter of the issue was overcome. But neither he nor Agathiyar abandoned me.
நின் தேகம் தளருகிறது அப்பா. இந்தக் காலம் உன்னுடைய முதுகு எலும்பும் இடுப்பும் தானே ஒரு வித இறுக்கமாய் இருக்குதப்பா. அப்பா அங்கே இருக்கின்ற தைலம் தானே தைலமது உலர்ந்து போச்சு. இதுதான் உண்மை ஆதலால் சேரும் எலும்பு சந்திப்பெல்லாம் அறிவித்தால் ஒருவித இறுக்கம் அச்சு. ஆச்சப்பா மின்னல் போன்ற வலி தோன்றும். அங்கே அப்போது துடி துடித்து நிற்பான் மைந்தன். மைந்தனுக்கு மருத்துவம் சில செய்ததாலே மாற்றங்கள் கால் பங்கு குணமாகக் கண்டேன். திறம்படவே நீ நடமாட வேண்டும் அப்பா. தீர்க்கமாய் அதற்குத் தான் நூல் உரைக்க வந்தேன். தெளிவிக்க அகத்தியரும் புறப்பட்டு விட்டார். குமரனும் இன்று இரவே அற்புதம் செய்வேன். ஆறுமுகன் சொல்லுகின்றேன் ஷண்முகத்திற்குக் கூறுகின்றேன் உன்னால் எழுந்து நடமாட முடியும். தேகத்திற்கு முதுமை அது வந்துவிட்டாலும் தெளிந்த ஒரு ஆத்மவுள் இருப்பது யானே.
He tells me why I had to go through the suffering. It was to have me sit in one place and do Tapas.
சாற்றநல் இது எதற்கென்று கேள். அகத்தில் நீ அமர்ந்து தவம் தியானம் செய்ய.
After Agathiyar had me spend my days in solitude and my nights sleeping in the prayer room and having me carry out certain regimes and practices that he gave, the heat of the austerities or Tava Kanal coupled with the awakened Muladhara Chakra, that triggered the arousal of the Kundalini, it began to stir and move away from its seat. But still, I was unaware and could not join the dots until Agathiyar came in the Nadi again and revealed. As Kundalini began to move, she caused me to collapse thrice and wriggle like a snake on the landing outside the bathroom and toilet, finally showing signs of her, traveling along my spine and body. It was both painful and blissful.
On 5.9. 2019 Agathiyar came to reveal the reason I fell and lay in front of my bathroom door, slithering in pain like a beaten snake. He described the slithering as a sign of Kundalini moving. Agathiyar said the Kundalini had arisen and had turned up the heat and fire within as well. He acknowledged that it was the bliss of bliss. He mentioned further that the third eye and the crown had opened, and as a result of the three Malas or impurities eradicated, I was partaking in the ambrosia nonstop within. I was both baffled and did not understand what he was saying.
குண்டலினி சக்தி எல்லாம் எழும்புவது எல்லாம் குவளையத்தில் பாம்பின் போன்று நெளிய நேரும். ஆனால் ஆனந்தம் ஆனந்தம் அதுதான் என்போம். மும்மலங்கள் அற்றதொரு தேகம் என்பதாலே, முக்கண்ணும் முறை திறந்து உட்சியும் திறந்து, குண்டலினி உயர்ந்து தான் கனல் எழும்பி, அமிர்தத்தை இடை விடாது உண்டு கொண்டு இருக்கிறாய்.
That would be my last Nadi reading for as the pandemic came on the Nadi readers headed back home. In a timely manner, he brought the shutters down on AVM towards the end of 2019. Beyond this, Agathiyar came through devotees and continued to guide me on this journey of internal transformation.
On 30.1. 2020 Agathiyar said I had stagnated in worldly affairs. He asked to reduce my involvement in outside activities. He said, "All this while you saw to your needs in this world. Now you shall undertake an internal journey. This will reveal your purpose in taking birth. I shall relate what needs to be done to realize your purpose in coming here." He continued, "You cannot possibly break the shackle alone. Hence follow the practices that I am to give you." He told me that I shall come to know what is right and what went wrong. Both shall be lessons I learn. "Whatever was initiated and implemented immediately and promptly brought you success". He surprised me by asking me to restart the Vaasi or breathing practice learned from Tavayogi that he had asked to discontinue at the peak of my back pain in 2010/11/12.
நீ உலக வாழ்க்கையில் நீர்தேங்கிறாய். வெளி உலக பயணம் சற்று குறைத்துக் கொள். இது நாள்வரை நீ கடந்து வந்தது இவ்வுலக வாழ்க்கையின் பயணம். இனி நீ கடக்க போவது உமது உள்பயணம். அதாவது நீ பிறந்ததின் நோக்கம் அறிவதற்கு நீ செய்யக்கூடிய வழிமுறைகள் யாம் கூற இருக்கிறோம். இதன் மூலம் உமது பிறவி பலனை அதன் நோக்கம் நீ அறிவாய். இவ்கடிவாளத்தால் உம்மால் மீண்டு வர இயலாது. ஆகையால் யாம் சொல்லும் வழிமுறைகளைச் செய்து வா. நீ செய்தவையில் எது சரி தவறு என்று நீ கண்டறிவாய். அனைத்தும் உனக்குப் பாடம். குறித்த காலத்தில் நீ செய்த அனைத்தும் உமக்கு நன்மை தந்தது.
He went on to explain further. "Currently, your breath is at the Svadhishthana. It is about time it opened up. This is the right time to start this practice. Sit before me and meditate. During this moment carry out the cleansing breath as taught by your guru. Just the important ones. You shall sense a coolness within. Remain silent in these moments. Focus on your breath. Your breath shall touch the Suzhimunai and swirl. Travel along your seven chakras. That journey shall awaken your chakras. After traversing these chakras when it touches the seventh you shall know your purpose here."
"இத்தருணம் மான் மூச்சு குளத்தில் இருக்கிறது. அவை திறக்கும் தருணம் வந்தது. இப்பொழுதுதான் நீ உமது பயிற்சியினை தொடங்க வேண்டும். இந்நிலையில் அச்சக்கரம் முற்றும் திறந்து விடும். தினமும் காலையில் குளித்து வெறும் வேஷ்டி அணிந்து என் முன் அமர்ந்து தியானம் செய்து வா. தியான முறையின் பொது உமது குரு கூறிய சுவாச சுத்திகரிப்பு பயிற்சியினை செய்து வா. அனைத்தும் வேண்டாம். மூல பயிற்சி மட்டும் போதும். அதை நீ செய்து வர உனக்குள் ஒரு தனி குளிர்ச்சி ஏற்படும். அந்நிலையில் நீ அமைதி கோல். உனது மூச்சில் கவனம் கோல். உமது மூச்சு உமது சுழிமுனை தோட்டு சூழும். உமது ஏழு சக்கரங்களில் பயணம் செய். அப்பயணம் உமது சக்கரங்கள் ஒவ்வொன்றாய் பூர்த்தி செய்யும். மூலாதாரம், ஸ்வாதிஷ்டானம், மணிபூரகம், அனாகதம், விசுத்தி, ஆக்கினையென ஏழாவது சக்கரம் தொடும் நிலையில் நீ உனது பிறவிக்கான பலனை அறிவாய்."
Tavayogi had told me back then that our effort would only bring us to reach Svadhishthana. Beyond that, we needed divine help and its grace. Though Agathiyar had guided him through Nadi readings in the beginning too, he too knew his purpose in the hours of meditation.
After taking his Agathiyar Kuzhambu, a herbal preparation, Agathiyar came around on 27 June 2022, to reveal that it did help in expelling the excesses in the three dosas. But there was more that shall be expelled in due time.
அன்று நீ உண்ட குழம்பினாள் உன் உடலிலிருந்து வாத, பித்த, கபம் சற்றே அகன்றது. இன்னும் இருக்கிறது. அவை அகலும்.
The energy that had pooled and stagnated in the Svadhishthana as the result of the pull of the external world, was released on Monday, 22 August 2022 shortly after I woke up at 6.40am. As I stretched myself in bed I felt an "explosion of energy" in my belly. It was akin to a pull and a tug of a fine nerve or tread right below the navel. It brought on a swirling sensation followed by a chill all over. My whole body became numb right to the tips of my fingers and toes. Soon I felt nauseous and had the urge to pee and urine. Rising from bed, I collapsed twice on the way to the toilet picking myself up each time. I was alone then while my daughter was in her room asleep unaware of what was taking place. Back from the toilet, all was fine. A blissful feeling came over me. Narrating this to my daughter later that day she called up her mother who returned home shortly from our grandchildren's home. The tug I came to see as a divine act that came about through divine grace for Ramalinga Adigal had mentioned it earlier on 14.5.2020. He had said "When you reach my state, energy will come within you without your knowledge. That is Suzhimunai."
"எனது நிலையை நீ தொடும்போது உன்னை அறியாது உன்னை நோக்கி ஒரு சக்தி உன்னுள் இறங்கும். அதுவே சுழிமுனை."
The gentle tug also confirmed what Agathiyar had said before, that the breath shall touch the Suzhimunai and swirl.
உமது மூச்சு உமது சுழிமுனை தோட்டு சூழும்.
The next day, Tuesday 23 August 2022, I woke up at 7.20am to go to the loo but I could not piss. I collapsed again. I picked myself up and climbed onto the bed as my wife watched. My body became numb from the shoulders down. I lay like a dead log on my bed. Although I could not move even an inch of my torso, right from my neck down, I was able to see, hear, and talk and was fully conscious and aware of what was happening to me. I had no fear or anxiety. I asked myself if this was what a dead body would feel like. Was I given an insight into how being death would be? Soon the experience went away.
Agathiyar cleared the air later. He told me not to worry and said that the energy that had pooled and stagnated was released.
கவலை கொள்ள ஒன்றுமில்லை. தேங்கி இருந்த நீர் வெளி கொண்டது.
Later Agathiyar came to give me strength and encouragement. He asked me not to be afraid of death. "It is but another door to another journey. One who invites death is a Siddha. There is much I need to carry out through you.
மரணபயம் வேண்டாம். மரணம் ஒன்றும் அல்ல. மற்றொரு பயணத்தின் கதவு. எவன் ஒருவன் மரணத்தை அன்போடு வரவேற்கின்றானோ அவன் சித்தன் ஆகின்றான். உன்னில் இருந்து நான் காரியங்கள் செய்வதற்கு இன்னும் நிறைய இருக்கிறது.
He asked that I share my experiences with readers. "Enough of my praise. Write about your bodily experiences. Let your writings be about the changes and the transformation taking place in your body. Let your readers know the changes that take place in the body if they come to worship the light and seek to merge with it. My wisdom shall be your experience. Nothing is beyond experience. Experience shall become knowledge to you. Experience first and I shall clarify the experiences later."
எனது பெருமை போதும். இனி உன் எழுத்துக்கள் உடல் மாற்றங்கள் உடல் அனுபவம் பற்றியதாக இருக்கட்டும். ஜோதியினை வழிபட்டால் அதில் இணைய வேண்டும் என்றால் உடலில் எவ்வித மாற்றங்கள் ஏற்படும் என்று உன் வாசகர்களுக்குத் தெரிய படுத்து. உனது அனுபவம் எனது அறிவு. அனுபவமே உனக்கு அறிவு. அனுபவத்தைத் தாண்டி ஒன்றுமே இல்லை. நீ அனுபவம் கொண்டுவா, பின்னர் உரைக்கிறேன்.
Just as Agathiyar asked to travel along the seven Chakras earlier where the journey shall awaken these Chakras, the awakened energy was practically pulled from its lower regions by a magnetic force to its summit in the crown over the next few days. I guess this is what Agathiyar meant when he said I shall feel a magnetic wave arise. The swirling sensation felt for several weeks in the abdomen just below my navel was regularly felt in the crown of my head but with a lesser intensity. It seemed more like a flowering of petals now and was blissful. The chillness and swirling that was akin to a flowering went on irrespective of my daily activities these days. It was more intense each time I brought my attention to it. He said that after traversing the Chakras and the Kundalini touches the seventh I shall know my purpose here. Following the flowering in the crown that went on without my effort, participation, or action, I asked Agathiyar what I should do further. His reply was to do nothing and that it shall do its work.
உமது ஏழு சக்கரங்களில் பயணம் செய். அப்பயணம் உமது சக்கரங்கள் ஒவ்வொன்றாய் பூர்த்தி செய்யும். மூலாதாரம், ஸ்வாதிஷ்டானம், மணிபூரகம், அனாகதம், விசுத்தி, ஆக்கினையென ஏழாவது சக்கரம் தொடும் நிலையில் நீ உனது பிறவிக்கான பலனை அறிவாய்."
Looking back now it all falls into place. Now coming to think of it, all the breathing techniques Tavayogi showed us and that we picked up and practiced focused on belly breathing. The focus of Tavayogi's practice was all the while on the Tanden. The practices acted as a bellow blowing hot air and with it the Prana, which fanned the fire of austerity within the Tanden. I could feel an immense amount of Prana enter with each breath and expand throughout the body. It was simply thrilling and made me want to carry on doing it. Indeed we were breathing from the naval and not the lungs.
The Siddha shall come down. When we follow their directives they shall walk with us holding our hands. This travel then shall not be that of an external but of an internal journey. Yoga is the key to this travel within. From Sariyai arriving at Kriyai, now they shall teach Yogam. The journey within shall begin. You shall witness happenings. You shall see many things. It would be puzzling to you. It would be new to you too. Continuing this internal journey, you shall arrive at each Chakra and eventually see the cosmic dance of Thillai in Sahasrara. A 1000-petaled flower will keep on opening up continuously. Arutjothi will come to reside here. Then its effulgence enters within, and just as how the Kundalini upon awakening traverses each Chakra purifying them, this effulgence brings on the shine and luminosity in them. Jothi Darisanam takes place where one sees the light or effulgence. The body takes on the same. Vibrations begin to emit within and around us and are felt by those tuned to receive and feel around us. They shall follow you. You become a Jeeva Mukta, having attained Mukti while living in the flesh. Henceforth you are no different from Agathiyan and Agathiyan is no different from you. You are me and I am you."
After bringing me thus far, Agathiyar often asked if I was enjoying the quiet, silence, and bliss. What can I say? I am grateful to him.