I grew up as a kid, mindless of what took place around me and what others had to say back then in the sixties. I used to play to the tune of others, obliging them always. I was the sweet kid on the block. Then, a chance reading of a book in the library of my college taught me to say "No" and take a stand. Sadly, I cannot remember its title or the author of this book that changed me from someone who accepted everything others said to someone who began to make a stand. If I were bullied by others until then, I learned to stand up for what mattered to me most later. I guess it was because I made a stand that I stand out today among others and am not a follower like them. I guess it is true what Agathiyar revealed in my very first Nadi reading, that I would stand out among others, besides many other revelations. Tavayogi tells us to never follow blindly but to question even the Siddhas. If I had written about others and pointed out their weaknesses, it was not to prove to others that I was way above them, but to keep reminding me not to become them or follow them. This is not arrogance or ego but a true observation of myself.
If I could adapt to people and society, situations, and environments, back then, it was truly a challenge these days. I cannot socialize. We do not have a common topic to hold a conversation with others. I have become the odd one out. Many stay away from me when they come to know that I chose not to speak, for I only speak about Agathiyar. I have no friends who understand me and my state and who are on the same frequency, except for a handful. Hence, as such, I have begun to shun social engagements. I guess I have become a hermit while still living in society.
Just as Supramania Swami was pretty excited, telling me that he wanted to chart my horoscope and find out about me, on my second visit, Roshan too was keen to do so. He had picked up and was reading the "Spiritual Numerology of Moses," or better known as the "Soul Contract Reading." If Supramania Swami looked towards the skies and the stars for the answers, charting my horoscope while sitting outside his village home, in the shade of a makeshift hut to protect and shelter the family from the blazing heat of the day, Roshan did the reading in the comfort of an air-conditioned restaurant over lunch. As he, too, was keen to know about me, he immediately began "exploring" me over the meal. He revealed further about me. The question as to why Agathiyar chose a humble householder who was minding his business, for HIS purpose, and his home to become the epicenter to host HIS divine play came to be answered.
My purpose here I came to know was to assist others. My role was that of a Catalytic Spiritual Teacher, which I realized then, Agathiyar had me do since 2013. Agathiyar came to endorse this reading later and told me that he had now prepared me for the role of a teacher. Maybe it was written in my face that I was to be a teacher, for since the day I moved into my neighbourhood in 1994 until now, ironically, people stop to ask me if I was one, either a school teacher or a Yoga teacher. Roshan and later Agathiyar ask me to come out of my cocoon and take up my purpose as revealed. Agathiyar asked me how he was to depend on one person to do his work. He said that he had to raise everyone to come to the state where they carry out his work. He then told us that Tavayogi was doing Agathiyar's work in their realm.
Curious to know further what a Spiritual Catalyst meant, I looked up the net and came across Teal Swan's articles at https://tealswan.com/resource, which gave a detailed description of the term.
"A Spiritual Catalyst is a person who precipitates an event or a change on the level of spirit (the essential, incorporeal part of someone or something). Spiritual Catalysts, like gurus, have attained a high level of spiritual authority, awareness, and knowledge, which enables them to guide others. Spiritual Catalysts, however, do not aim to become “Leaders” to their disciples as much as they wish to cause their disciples to question and find answers within themselves. It is the firm belief of a Spiritual Catalyst that if a person is caused to initiate their own exploration on the level of spirit, that person will then become the conscious leader of their own life. It is also the belief of a Spiritual Catalyst that if a person becomes the conscious creator and leader of their own life, that their life will inevitably become a kind of living enlightenment; thereby allowing that person to live in a continuous state of internal peace and joy."
And so my humble home turned into an Ashram, Peedham, and school that taught rituals to others, beginning with several youths whom Agathiyar sent my way after their Nadi reading in 2013. And so, true to the definition and aspiration of a Spiritual Catalyst, Agathiyar, who sent others over to watch and learn from my personal home worship, had me show and tell. We came to be known as Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM). We brought the Siddha worship into the homes of others and the temples, too. Agathiyar had us carry out charity, too. Then, in the wake of the pandemic, giving them the tools and the method, he had them go their way to continue the tradition and legacy. I guess I had fulfilled my purpose just as Teal Swan mentioned. True to the definition, "Spiritual Catalysts, however, do not aim to become 'Leaders' to their disciples as much as they wish to cause their disciples to question and find answers within themselves", there were no strings attached. No following nor followers. And no Ashram, Peedham, or school in the traditional sense. My home is back to being a family home. After 24 years of conducting worship to the Siddhas and performing rituals, Agathiyar came to declare openly that it was a temple, in a Nadi reading, in February, something that Lord Muruga had told me earlier in 2018 in a Nadi reading too.
Have I made a stand and left my mark while here? I guess I have attended to life's purpose as detailed by Agathiyar and carried in Vashisht Vaid's post on his blog https://holysageagathiyar.com/ too.
Agathiyar, in listing 5 Tenets for mankind, spoke about humanity's purpose clearly. He says that man has to first and foremost understand his purpose in taking birth. Although Agathiyar did not make my purpose known back then, he had had me engage in several tasks, working my way towards it.
With his purpose made known then, he should come to thank the divine creator or energy that brought forth his birth (through consultation with the lunar forefathers and their angelic hierarchies that co-exist with us down here). Hence, he had us engage in the worship of the Siddhas.
He asks that we then thank all the caretakers, both seen and unseen, in the present and the past.
There arises then an obligation on our part to "dutifully aid and help, the ongoing evolution of all co-existing human beings." He sends the youths over and has my home become AVM.
The final task is to extend this aid and help towards "the ongoing evolution of all co-existing beings and entities, existing upon the lower levels of the evolutionary ladder, dutifully supporting the manifested matrix or Prapanjam." He gets us to engage in doing the Homam to assist Prapanjam to heal and bless us all.
I came to thank "the divine creator or energy that brought forth this birth (through consultation with the lunar forefathers and their angelic hierarchies that co-exist with us down here)" thanks to my gurus and their lineage of masters showing me to them.
I came to thank "all the caretakers, both seen and unseen, in the present and the past."
Tavayogi and Agathiyar set me to carry out my duty in "aiding and helping the ongoing evolution of all co-existing human beings", carrying out charity programs with this wonderful group of youths.
Bringing these activities to a halt later, Ramalinga Adigal connected us with the Prapanjam, hence bringing us to fulfill our final task in extending this aid and help, towards "the ongoing evolution of all co-existing beings and entities, existing upon the lower levels of the evolutionary ladder, dutifully supporting the manifested matrix or Prapanjam."
As I refused the numerous offers that came my way, and was willing to let go of everything that Agathiyar had me start and accomplish, which I came to know later, were tests and baits to lure me further into Maya, and trap me, Agathiyar had them vaporized. I did not fall for the game of Maya that Lord Siva initiated with Agathiyar, having Lord Indra roll the dice, thanks to Lord Murugan, who came to warn me to watch my steps in the nick of time. I saw through the divine game and came out unscathed. Then Agathiyar surprised me, saying that I had desired the role of a guru, and he had to fulfill my desire. I thought that it was a previous Vasana from a previous birth that had to be seen through, when I asked myself when I desire it, knowing that I had no such desire. But as I pen these words, it dawns on me that my soul had desired it and was seeing to it that it materializes. Agathiyar, who prepared me for the role, asked that I accept all the trials and tribulations, the brickbats and scorns that would come my way, and keep my calm and peace.
As to my question, "What should I do further?", wondering if there were any further practices to undertake, after he triggered, aroused, and activated the dormant Kundalini energy in the Muladhara in 2007, and set her free from her captivity having ponded at Svadishtana, to travel beyond the Svadishtana Chakra in 2022, he asked that I do nothing, and that she shall do her work.
These days, nothing remains of the past except fond memories.