LOOKING BACK

As I revisit my earlier Nadi readings, it dawns on me that the path was laid out even as early as when I was an embryo in my mother's womb. As Agathiyar explained to us, the Atma leaves after being with us for a period of time that is 1 to 5 Varaagai. The reason it is veiled was not revealed to us at this juncture. Our actions determine when the Atma resurfaces again. 

ஆன்மா உடலையும் உயிரையும் தனது கட்டுப்பாட்டுக்குள் வைத்துக் கொள்ளும் ஒரு சூச்சமம். இந்தச் சூச்சமத்தை பிறந்த குழந்தைகள் 1  முதல் 5 வரகை வரையிலும் உடன் இருந்து மறையும். மறைத்தலின் காரணம் இன்னதென்று இப்போது உனக்குச் சொல்ல இயலாது. ஆனபோதிலும் ஆன்மா ஒருவரின் செயலைப் பொறுத்தே மீண்டும் அவனை வந்து சேரும்.

Agathiyar stood watch over our (Jeeva)Atma and lent a hand in removing our karma through his Nadi revelation for us. Once the karma was out of the way, the search intensified, and we lost interest in our search for material gains. Now our search is fully centered on reaching Agathiyar. 

ஆன்மாவே உனது கர்ம வினையைச் சரிசெய்வதற்கு உதவி புரியும். கர்மாவை சரி செய்தபின், ஆன்மாவின் தேடல் அதிகமாகி மனிதனின் அன்றாட தேடல் தீர்ந்து போகும். அவன் தேடல் முழு தாய் என்னையே தேடி வர முயற்சி செய்யும்.

When he leads us on the path, Agathiyar is realized as a vibration within. Prolonging these vibes will sustain us in his state. We are then a realized soul. 

ஆன்மா உன்னோடு இருந்து உன்னை ஒரு பாதைக்கு இழுத்துச் செல்லும் அப்போது நீ அதனை உணர்ந்தாள், உன்னில் அதிர்வாய் தோன்றி மறையும். அந்த அதிர்வினை நீ உனக்குள் நீடிக்கப் பழகினால் உன்னால் ஆன்மா என்னும் உனது அதிர்வுகளில் ஊடுருவி என்னுள் (இறை / அகத்தியன்) வந்து சேர ஒரு வழி. 

Traveling along, he came to lead us further, giving practices and encouraging us further, boosting our spirits along. It just needed us to arrive at the moment and after experiencing it to realize the fact that it was all laid out and mentioned earlier. 

Agathiyar some time back asked that I share my knowledge on the Atma with those keen to learn. I was tasked to bring those lagging behind to the forefront. 

இனி இங்கு ஆத்ம ஞானம் மட்டுமே நடக்கும். பின்னனிருப்போர் உந்தி தள்ளிக் கொண்டுவா. மாதத்திற்கு ஒரு முறை எமது பக்தர்களுக்கு அழைப்பிடு. ஆன்மஞானத்தை அறிய விரும்புவோருக்குக் கற்பித்து வா. எனது முழு ஆசியினை பெற்ற சீடனப்பா நீ. இல்வாழ்க்கையில் இருப்பதினாலே உன்னை யாம் தனித்து குருவாக்க விரும்பவில்லை. உன்னில் இருக்கும் ஆன்மாவின் தேடலை மற்றவர்களுக்கும் வரச்செய். அவர் அவர் எண்ணம்போல் உமது போதனை அவர்களை அடையும். போதிப்பது மட்டுமே உனது கடமை. பலன் அவர்களுடையது. 

Recently he asked that I share the changes that are going on within me so that those keen to reach the state of Jothi would know what they have to encounter and face.

இனி உன் எழுத்துக்கள் உடல் மாற்றங்கள் பற்றியதாக இருக்கட்டும். எனது பெருமை போதும். ஜோதியினை வழி பட்டால் அதோடு இணைய வேண்டும் என்றால் உடலில் எவ்வித மாற்றங்கள் ஏற்படும் என்று உன் வாசகர்களுக்குத் தெரியப் படுத்து. உனது அனுபவம் எனது அறிவு. 

I have to then go back and reminiscence what the Siddhas had directed me to do as to arrive at this moment. 

20.1.2007 Reading by Sugabrahma

அறிவிப்பேன் சுகப்ரஹ்மர் ஆசி தன்னை. வினவச் சொன்னார் கும்பமுனி ஞானம் பற்றி. ஞானத்தைப் புகுத்தி அறிவையும் தெளியவைத்தோம் மைந்தா. மைந்தனே நீ உரைக்கும் வார்த்தை எல்லாம் மென்மையாய் நாங்கள் இருந்து அருள்பாலிப்போம். கூசாது குரு தன்னை மகிழ்வித்துத் தான் குறை இல்லா பிழை இல்லா கடமை செய்தாய். கல்லாறு சித்தன் பார்வை, அருள் தந்த சுப்பிரமணியர் ஆசி தீட்சை, மாசில்லா இக்கணமும் துணையாய் இருக்க. உணர உணர அற்புதங்கள் அதிசயங்கள் ஊக்கமுடன் தந்து நாங்கள் தெளிவு அடையச் செய்வோம். எண்ணமெல்லாம் சித்தர் சுவாசம் இழைவதாலே இறப்பில்லை இப்பிறவி ஞான மோட்சம் திண்ணம். திண்ணமாய் வானுலகோர், குமரன் அருள் இருக்க தேவலோக வானுலகோர் ஆசிபழ கிட்டும். உண்மையாக உன் அகத்தில் தேவதைகள் பால்வார் உயர்வாகக் குடி இருக்கக் கண்டேன் யானும். யான் உனக்கு ஞானம் பற்றை தன்னை புகட்டும் முன்னே யோகா சேயாய் உருவெடுத்தாய் பண்டிதன் அருளால். மேலான வாக்கு தான் அடுத்த முனிவர் முற்றே.

27.1.2007 by Bhrigu Muni

சித்தியை முக்தியை நோக்கிப் பூஜை செய்வாய். திண்ணமாய் ஞானத்தை, தவத்தையும் தான் தீர்க்கமாய் நலமாகச் செய்திடத் தான் சிறப்பு மைந்தா. சித்தர் பார்வை, ஆசி, கருணை, கல்லாறு சித்தன் ஆசி இருக்கத் தவம் ஞானம் சித்திக்கும் உனக்கு. நாயகனே காலங்கள் கனியச் சிறப்பு. சிறப்பிற்கு மனைவிக்கும் மக்களுக்கும். சித்தி நிலை முக்தி நிலை யாவருக்கும். அற்புதங்கள் அதிசயங்கள் உன்னைப் போல ஆனந்தம் குடில் மாந்தர் யாவரும் காண்பார். விளையாடுவோம் சித்தர் எல்லாம் உன்னோடு தான் தரணியிலே. உரைக்க உள்ளார் காகபுஜண்டர் வாக்கு உனக்கு முற்றே. 

3.2.2007 by Kagabhujandar

பொதிகை யான் வாக்கு உரைக்கச் சொன்னார் அப்பா. தப்பாது ஞானத்தைப் பெறுவாய் மைந்த. அப்பனே அருள் மிகுந்து இருப்பதானாலே அவ்வுலகில் நல் மோட்சம் பெறுவாய் திண்ணம். ஒப்பில்லா பாக்கியங்கள் பூசையாலே, ஓயாத தவசிந்தையில் பெற்று விட்டாய் புண்ணியங்கள் பலவிதம். நெறியான தவத்தின் வழி பூசையாலே நிலையான அனுபவங்கள் பலதும் பெருகும். பெருகிடும் தான் ஞான வழி சூட்சும உண்மை. மகத்துவங்கள் பொருந்தி உள்ள சித்தன் நீ என்பேன். மகத்துவத்தை நீ உணர மாட்டாய் இப்போது. இப்போதும் உலகு உனக்குப் புரியாது தான். இருக்குதப்பா மாற்றம் பல பின்னே உனக்கு.

10.2.2007

பொறுப்பான குருவை நீ தேர்ந்து எடுத்தாய். புவனத்தில் சமாதி நிலை கண்டது உண்மை. பற்று கொண்டார் சுப்பிரமணியம் உன்னிடம் தான். நன்றான தீட்சையும் உபதேசம் இனி நலமான கல்லாறு சித்தர் வழி உண்டு. வையகத்தில் பலன் இருக்கிறது பூஜைக்குத் தான். முனை திறக்கப் பூஜை பல வழிபாடும் தியானமும் செய்வாய் நன்றாய். முனை திறக்கும் சூழ் ஆண்டு பின்னே உனக்கு (10.2.2010). நலமுடன் ஞானத்தைப் பூர்த்தி கண்டு நானிலத்தில் கரையேற வாய்ப்பு முழுமை உண்டு, முற்றே.

17.2.2007

முக்தியை நோக்கி ஆராய்ச்சி பயிற்சி முறையாக வழிபாடும் பூஜை பல்வாராய் செய்திடுவாய் பிழையும் ஏது. பக்தியில் தெரிகிறது அப்பா முக்தி பூர்த்தி என்று. விளையாட்டு சித்தனைப் போல் இருப்பாய் இப்போது. உன்னுள் உள்ள சக்தி எங்களுக்கு மட்டும் உயர்வாகத் தெரிந்திருக்க அதனால் சொன்னோம் நீ ஒரு தவயோகி. மாந்தர் வியக்க வெளிப்படும் தான் உன் ஞானம் ஒருநாள். ஞானத்தால் அறிவின் வழி தேர்ச்சி தன்னால் நானிலத்தில் நூல் எழுத யோகம் உண்டு. நித்திரை கூட உனக்குத் தவமாய் ஆகும். இருள் ஏது பகல் ஏது உன் சிந்தைக்கு. இரு நேரமும் தவ சிந்தை ஞானத்தோடு பூசையில் இருப்பாய் மகிழ்ச்சி. அதிசயத்தைக் கண்டு கண்டு வியக்கும் வண்ணம் ஒவ்வொரு கடிகையிலும் அற்புதம் உண்டு.

24.2.2007 by Kagabujandar

ஊமைபோல் இருந்து தான் உயர் ஞானம் பெற்று உயர்ந்து உள்ளாய். எல்லை இல்லா சூட்சுமங்கள் அறிந்து நீயும் இவ்வுலகில் அமைதி காப்பாய் முக்தி காண வேண்டி. தவத்தையும் ஞானத்தையும் பார். மகானாக விளங்கி நிற்பாய்.

4.3.2007

அப்பனே எங்களுக்குப் பூசை நீயும் அற்புதமாய் செய்கிறாயே அணுஅணுவாய் களித்தேன். ஊழ் எல்லாம் தவத்தாலே போக்கி நீயும் சுமையெல்லாம் படிப் படியாய் பூசையாலே குறைத்து சுகம் காண்பாய் இக்கணத்தில். தப்பாது தவம் ஞானம் மேன்மேலும் உயர .....

சுந்தரமாய் தேகத் திடம் ஆரோக்கியங்கள் சுருதியாய் தவாத் தேகம் அமையும் தானே. நலிவில்லை ஞானமும் தவமும் தன்னில். தன் நிலையில் மாற்றம் பல மாந்தர் அறிந்து தான் அவர்கள் தவ வாழ்வை பின் பற்றும் வண்ணம் உன் தவமும் சித்திக்கும் உண்மை.

10.3.2007 by Bhrigu Munivar

விண்ணமிலா தவஞானம் பெற்று உள்ளாய். கலக்கமில்லா மேன்மேலும் ஞானம் உயர .......

ஒப்பிலா ஞான கனல் தேகம் தன்னில் உருவாகும் தவஞான பயிற்சி தன்னால். தான் உனக்குள் உட்டினங்கள் அதிகமாகும் தான். அதனால் சாத்வீக உணவே சிறக்கும். தனக்கும் தான் மகாமந்திரம் அருட்பெருஞ்ஜோதியைத் தவறாது ஓதி வணங்கி வர படி படி தேக வழி மாற்றம் ஏற்படும். பொறுப்புடன் பூசைகளும் செய்வாய் இப்போது. வினையெல்லாம் பூசையில் போக்கி தவத்திற்கே உகந்த பிள்ளை ஞானம் பெற ஜனித்த பிள்ளை நீ.

23.4.2007 by Kagabujandar

எங்களைப் பற்றிய சிந்தை மட்டும் சிறு சிறு நொடி போதும் ஓடுகிறது அப்பா. தான் நீயும் எங்களோடு உரையாடுகின்றாய். தவசிந்தை தர்மத்தால் இது புண்ணியம் பெற்றாய். 

8.5.2007 by Tirumular

மைந்தனே சித்தர்களின் ஆலோசனையோடு மகத்துவமாய் பூசைகளும் செய்வாய் நன்றாய்.

12.6.2007

மாசிலா சித்தர்களைக் குடியில் அழைத்து மகத்துவமாய் வாழ வைப்பாய் மைந்தா. மைந்தனே உன் குடும்பம் எங்கள் குடும்பம் மகான் எல்லாம் வாழுகின்ற சித்தர் குடும்பம். சுந்தர முருகனே வாழும் குடி. குடும்பத்தில் நாங்கள் எல்லாம் குடி இருக்கக் குவலயத்தில் ஆசிரம வாழ்வு வேண்டாம் உனக்கு. இல்லத்திலிருந்து நீயும் யோகமெல்லாம் அனுபவிப்பாய் மைந்தா. யோகத்தின் சக்தியை நாங்கள் அறிந்து யோகிகளை இல்லத்திற்கு வரவழைத்தோம் நாங்கள். நாங்களும் இருக்கின்ற குடி தன்னில் நாளும் நாளும் சித்தர்கள் வாசம் மிகுமே. மகிழ்ச்சியும் அளவில்லா எங்களுக்கும் உண்டு. அதன் காரணம் எங்களோடு வருவாய் என்றே. பக்குவங்கள் முறையாக ஆசான் வழியே பலகோடி சூட்சுமங்கள் பெற்று விட்டாய். பெற்ற உண்மை பிறகு உனக்கே தெரிய வரும். தான் பெரும் ஞானம் நீயும் சேர்த்து உள்ளாய் மைந்தா. முக்திக்கு இவை எல்லாம் உதவும் மைந்தா.

24.7.2007

மகத்துவங்கள் பெறுவதற்கே ஜனித்தாய் அப்பா. சூக்குமங்கள் பலவிதமாக விளம்ப நல் ரகசியமும் குரு நூல் வழியே கண்டு கொண்டாய். திட வாழ்வு சுப்ரமணியன் குரு ஆசியாலே. அற்புதங்கள் நிகழும் குடியில்.

23.9.2007 by Tirumular

மாசிலா மகத்துவமாய் பூஜை தன்னை மகன் நீயும் செய்வதனால் மனம் குளிர்ந்தோம் நாங்கள். நாங்கள் எல்லாம் குடி கொண்டோம் உந்தன் இல்லில். வினை அறிந்து வாழ்வை நல் வகுத்து வாழ்வாய். இறவா வரம் பீறவா வரம் உண்டு முற்றே.

13.10.2007

குவலயத்தில் நாங்கள் எல்லாம் ஒளியாய் உள்ளோம். உள்ளதொரு உண்மையை அறிந்து பூஜை உலகத்தில் செய்வதால் தெய்வமாவாய். உடம்பு ஆன்மா ஜோதி தீபம். காலை நீ வைத்து வணங்க மாற்றம் உண்டு. வாசி தன்னை நிலை நிறுத்தி உண்டாகும் குண்டலினி சக்தி உனக்கு உயர்ந்ததைக் கண்டு நாங்கள் வியந்தோம் அப்பா. மண்ணுலகில் பிறவிக்கு அர்த்தம் உண்டு. அர்த்தம் அதைக் கண்டிடவே ஆராய்ச்சிகள் அனுமாரா செய்திடுவாய் யாவும் உண்மை.

23.11 2007

தான் உனக்குள் பல உண்மை ரகசியம் தன்னை தரணியிலே சித்தர் நாங்கள் புதைத்து உள்ளோம். அன்றாடம் ஞானத்தைப் பெற்று அஞ்ஞானம் முழுமையாக விலகக் காண்பாய். அனந்த கண்ணீர் பெருக்கெடுத்து ஓட அன்பின் வழி ஞானத்தைப் புகட்டி உள்ளோம். கள்ளமில்லா நாள் நாளும் சித்தர் பூசை, குருமார்கள் நாமம் அதைச் சொல்லிச் சொல்லி நீ குருவாக அமர்ந்து உள்ளாய் ஜெகத்திலே எங்களுக்கு நிகராகத் தான்.

27.12.2007

அறியும் நாள் சித்தர் நாங்கள் கல்லாறு தன்னில் அமர்ந்து அருள்வாக்கு சொல்வோம் இப்போது. விண் உலகம் திறக்கும் போல் உந்தன் பூஜை அமைந்திடுமே அறிந்துதான் கும்பன் சொல்வேன். ஆண் நீயும் செய்கின்ற பூசை தன்னில் சுமை இல்ல ஆண்டவனும் செவி சாய்த்துக் கேட்பான். வண்ணமுற இல்லமதில் மந்திரம் பல ஓதி வலுத்த தான் சக்தி பல மிகுந்தது இல்லில்.

TAVAYOGI'S DREAM

If Supramania Swami had a dream that he mentioned to me and together we set out to build a temple for Lord Murugan in Tiruvannamalai only to be stopped by divine intervention, Agathiyar had a dream that was conveyed to Tavayogi, upon ending his wanderings and have him build an ashram and settle in a place picked by Agathiyar that went by the name Agathiyar Vanam in the foothills of present-day Kallar. Agathiyar wanted Tavayogi to spread the teachings to our shores. Tavayogi came as a stranger following an Indian citizen working in Kuala Lumpur in 2004 and began his first sojourn spreading the worship and the path of the Siddhas in a temple along Old Klang Road. Subsequently, he came several times on the invitation of those who wanted to start Peedhams and movements and spoke in public forums. The First World Conference of Siddha Philosophy was held here in 2007 under his patronage too. Later Agathiyar coming in the Jeeva Nadi read by Tavayogi while in Malaysia in 2016, conveyed Chitra Muthu Adigal's wish to see us carry out Siddha puja in Lord Muruga's temple in Taiping. 

Lord Muruga recently conveyed Tavayogi's dream and wish to us. Tavayogi wanted each home to become Agathiyar Vanam. Agathiyar came later and asks us to fulfill Tavayogi's dream. If Tavayogi brought the philosophy of the Siddhas to the macro level, Lord Murugan, Agathiyar and Tavayogi now want us to bring it to the micro level, into the homes and individual dwellings. We are honored indeed for having given a new purpose and tasks. I had always desired that devotees instead of gathering at AVM each week as most gather at the centers dedicated to the teachings of the Siddhas, pick up the tools and start the puja in their own homes instead. This way the extended family and their circle of friends too would get to savor the goodness of the Siddha path. It was for this purpose that Tavayogi and Mataji during their visit to Malaysia in 2016 accompanied Agathiyar in the form of the bronze statue at AVM to the homes of devotees who invited them for the Siddha puja. Now we are asked to pursue this further. I am glad that my wish and that of my guru are aligned. I sent our notices to those from the AVM family. 

Let us make each home an Agathiyar Vanam and make Tavayogi's dream come true. Call if interested.

To those who responded, I sent out another message.

Gather family and friends and carry out the Siddha puja regularly in your homes and the homes of others. You can spearhead the puja in these homes for a start.

In turning each home into Agathiyar Vanam, I have to share how my home became Agathiyar Vanam in the first place so that aspirants and new devotees to the Siddha path would get an idea of what needs to be done to get the accreditation of Agathiyar Vanam from Agathiyar and have him come to stay in their homes too.

We continue with more revelations from my past Nadi readings. 

13.1.2007 From Bhogar

அகத்தியன் ஓத சொன்னார் இந்நூல் தன்னை.
தான் இருக்கும் பக்தியும் சக்தியும் கண்டு தலைவனாம் பண்டிதனும் பூரித்து  தான் வினவினார் வாக்கு சொல்ல எங்களுக்கு இப்போ.
விருப்பம்போல் ஞானத்தை பண்டிதன் போல் பெற்று தான் பக்குவம் காண்பாய்.
புத்தியில் நாங்கள் ஆட்சி செய்வதால் புவனத்தில் எங்களைப் போல் நீயும் வாழ்வாய்.
மைந்தனே பிறவி பாவம் இருந்ததாலே
மானுட பிறவியிலே தோன்றி விட்டாய்.

இந்தப் பிறவியிலே செய்த புண்ணியம் ஏதப்பா பிறவி இனி உனக்கு.
நீ பிறவியை வேர் அறுக்க
கடும் தவமும் பூசையும் செய்வாய் அறிந்தேன்.
சித்தனைப் போல் வாழும் யோகம் இருந்ததாலே 

சித்தர் நாங்கள் துணையாக இருப்போம் அப்பா.
சில திங்களில் கல்லாறு சித்தன்
பக்குவங்கள் அவனாலும் உபதேச தீட்சை 

நல் உண்மை பல சேரவைப்போம்.
ஆட்சியாய் ஞானத்தை பெறுவாய் அப்பா.
அற்புதங்கள் அதிசயங்கள் கற்பதற்கே 

இவ்வுலகில் ஜெனித்து உள்ளாய் அப்பா.
சத்திய நெறி மாறாத் தவமும் பூசை
சரியாகச் செய்திடுவாய் மகிழ்ச்சி அப்பா.
சோதனை இல்லாமல் ஞானத்தில் சுகம் 

சுத்தமாகப் போகன் யான் அளிப்பேன் திண்ணம்.
சித்தர் மார்க்கம் தன்னில் இருக்க
தேவர்கள் புகழ்ந்து தான் மகிழ்ச்சி அடைந்தார்.
அகத்திய முனிவர் ஒவ்வொரு சித்தர்களும் வாக்குரைக்க சொல்ல

 சித்தர் நாங்கள் வாக்கு சொல்வோம்.

FURTHER REMINISCENCE

After Agathiyar acknowledged that we are already there it justifies looking back on the events that brought us to where we stand today. We continue further. The reason I am sharing these notes now is to induce others to come to the path as there are those who want to know what benefits they can gain from something before venturing into it, though that should not be the reason to come into the Siddha path. It should be out of love for them and their teachings. But nevertheless, this might entice them to come to the path of the Siddhas and I would be deemed to have carried out Tavayogi's dream and wishes in wanting to see more homes turn into Agathiyar Vanam.

9.9.2006

பக்குவங்கள் பெறுவதற்கே தவயோகி தன்னை

தான் அவனை அறிமுகம் செய்து வைத்தேன்.

தவறாது அவன் ஆசி தீட்சை பெற்று

புண்ணிய பலன் மிகுந்து உள்ளாய்.

உள்ளத்தில் உயிர் மூச்சில் நான் இருக்க

எங்களைப் போல் வாழ்வு உனக்கு உண்டு.

நன்றான சுப்ரமணியன் அருளும் ஆசி 

மென்மையாய் அக்னி தளத்தில் பெற்றாய் மகிழ்ச்சி.

மேன்மை நிலை அடைந்த்தாயே அவனே சாட்சி.

அவன்தானே உன் அறிவை திறந்து வைத்தான்.

அவனுக்கே நன்றி சொல் வாரம் ஒரு நாள்.

தவ வாழ்வு வாழ்ந்திடுவாய் இக்காலம் தன்னில்.

தான் அதற்குச் சுப்ரமணியன் காரணம் என்போம்.

கலியுகத்தில் உண்மை அறிந்து ஞானம் பெற

குருவாம் தங்கராசனை அறிமுகம் செய்தோம்.

குருவாக ஏற்க சொன்னோம் காரணம் கேளு. 

கேளப்பா உலக உண்மை சூக்கும ரகசியம் நீ கண்டு நிலைத்து வாழ விளம்பினோம் குருவாய் ஏற்று தீட்சை பெற சொன்னோம். வையகத்தில் அவன்மூலம் ரகசிய உண்மை பல

உயிர் ஆக்கை பற்றி விளக்கம் உத்தமமாய் படி படியே கிட்டும் உனக்கு.

பண்புடன் முழுமதி நாள்தோறும் மாறாப் 

பண்பாக இல்லத்தில் சித்தர் பூசை சித்தர்களை அழைத்துத் தான் வேண்டுதல்கள் சிறப்புடன் செய்த்திடுவாய் மகிழ்ச்சி அப்பா.

சுத்தமான உன் பூஜை சித்தர்கள் கண்டு சரியாக இல்லத்தில் குடி கொண்டோம் தானே.

எங்கள் சக்தியும் பார்வையும் தான் 

தன்னை சூழ்ந்து மனைவி மக்கள் சூழ்ந்து உள்ளது. 

உன்னைச் சூழ்ந்தும் இல்லம் சூழ்ந்தும் எங்கள் வாசனை இருப்பதனால் வெற்றிகளை ஞானம் வழி உலகில் கண்டு வையகத்தில் நிலைப்பதற்கே செனித்தாய் அப்பா.

வாழ்க்கையிலே என் வாசம் மிகுந்திருக்க 

வளர்ந்திடுமே அறிவின் மேன்மை ஞானமும் உனக்கு.

அழியாத என் மார்க்கம் பற்றி இருக்க 

அதிசயமே கண்டிடுவாய் நாளும் நாளும்.

நாள் நாளும் உன் பூசை வணக்கம் கண்டு 

ஞானி, சித்தர், மகன்களும் பூரித்து போவார்.

அன்றாடம் தியான பயிற்சி ஆகையின் பொருட்டும் செய்திடுவாய் மைந்தா.

எண்ணம்போல் பயற்சி எல்லாம் சித்தி கண்டு

எங்களைப் போல் உண்மை அறிய வழிகள் தருவேன்.

கடுமையான தவங்கள் பூஜை செய்தாய்.

பூசையில் கர்மத்தை போக்கியவான் நீ தான்.

SAVING LIVES

When someone does the extraordinary or a miracle, she or he is placed on the table to be studied. They end up being a specimen. The press wants a story. The religious authorities begin to monitor for any possibility to decree it as a hoax or a miracle. The person and those close to him are accused of making money out of his feats. A medical officer who read my blog walked up to me and asked if I could be hallucinating after reading the stories that I posted. I told him to walk the path I did and find out for himself. When there are some who would see miracles in everything there are yet others who find it difficult to believe in it. Why do men of science need to prove the authenticity of religions and spiritualism, I wonder? Men professing the latter, and steeped in tradition, don't explore the former and are quite contented in believing and practicing what has been handed to them for ages. Why do the former want to shake the faith of the latter and prove them as hoaxes and frauds? Agathiyar chooses to let things be though he knows the truth. He never jeopardizes the lives of people for the sake of truth. Hence many truths are buried to this day. 

Would surrendering to the divine on the onset result in us not making any effort as in feeding that some claim would encourage them to drop all efforts to make a living? In the movie "Wonder" a journalist wanting a story lays the questions to a nurse engaged and paid to watch the miracle girl who has not eaten for some four months. A nun too is employed to watch her, but both the nurse and nun are not to exchange notes. The movie raises the question if we should intervene and if yes, when, or settle for prayers to save a life. 

Nurse: Love requires some action, some intervention at some point not just standing by.

Journalist: His (the father of the child) faith, his prayer is his action.

Nurse: This isn't some philosophical point that we can debate. This is a child's life.

The journalist helps the nurse move the child and escape eventually saving her from the impending death that was a result of her fast, and avoidance of solids. 

A humane person would try his level best to help another first. Only if all our attempts fail do we turn to the Almighty and wait for a miracle to happen. This reminds me of a story often told about a man caught in the rising floodwaters. Help comes his way in many forms but he rejects them. He adamantly wants God to come directly and save him. He eventually drowns in the floodwaters. Standing before God now he blames God for not saving his life. God answers that first he sent a boat but the man refused to board it. Then he sends a helicopter but still refused to board it. So how else was he to help he asked. 

Knowing the reasons behind continuous birth and rebirth, Ramalinga Adigal cries his heart out, asking if he had done any of the following that warranted a rebirth. Reading through his list gives us shivers. We end up asking if we too had done them. 

KNOW THY PURPOSE

I had just finished watching the movie "Yatra" a biographical film on the events leading to and the Padayatra undertaken by Y. S. Rajasekhara Reddy who came to become the Chief Minister of Andhra Pradesh from May 2004 to June 2009. Here is a story of a man to be adored for his principles. He came for a purpose and saw it done. If I had thought that once we enter politics we have to let fly our principles here is one man who proved me wrong. What his father told him, that much good could be done if he entered politics resonates with what I told several "caring" citizens back then in 1994. When I was posted from a coastal village having served some eight years, to the capital city, I frequented a stall opposite my office building for my breakfast and lunch. A group would gather daily and review the day's news often picking on politicians and the state of affairs in the country. These negative reviews would have me finish my meal and leave immediately as I could not stomach the talk. I could not avoid this daily torment as I had no other option for a vegetarian meal except that which was served with love by the Muslim mother who saw and treated us as her own. After a short stint of eight months here, I was posted to a project site some 56 km away. After five years I came back to the HQ. The same group of people was there, having aged a bit. Some were missing but were replaced by new faces. But the reviews continued. I was shocked beyond belief. How could people be stuck in a time warp for years, vomiting the same opinions and views? Don't they change? Don't they move on? I walked up to them and told them that if they were truly interested in bringing a change in the country then they should enter politics and fight it out in parliament and not debate at a tea stall. I left the place in disgust. 

It saddens me to see people caught in their own opinions, holding on to them till their very last days. Instead holding on to a principle would very much be welcomed. Even we who undertook this journey walking the Siddha path have made remarkable progress having learned and later drop our opinions, views, theory, and practices as we met new experiences that often ran down those that we held to previously. That is growing up spiritually. We are not here to implement a set of programs like the machines do. We are here to grow into wonderful creatures. Just as each leaf on the branch shall fall after seeing daylight, and grow anew, on a new branch, similarly seeing through the tasks and evaluating them we move on to better perform in the next tasks given. Though perfection is a far cry, at least we have tried to deliver our best. 

Each soul is here for a purpose. We need to know our purpose and life, figuring out and charting what to do. The Siddha's Nadi, a wandering Siddha, a guru, or sitting in meditation could all bring us to know our own purpose here. In knowing our purpose we shall then work in tandem with the energies prevalent around us, roping them in our time of need. Their agenda would be for the greater good instead of the good of an individual self. When Tavayogi's daughter could not accept the fact that her father had taken a resolve to become a mendicant, Agathiyar came to console her in a Nadi reading. He told her if he was to stay he would only be a father to her and her siblings. But if he was to leave he would become a father to many. Tavayogi chose to follow Agathiyar's wish and dream and left home. After his wanderings, he was asked to stay put in a place that Agathiyar pointed out to him as Agathiyar Vanam. Tavayogi located the place at present-day Kallar and set up an ashram. Agathiyar then told him to go to Malaysia in 2004 which he did, to speak on the Siddhas. The following year saw numerous Peedhams, centers, and movements affiliated with him mushroom throughout the country. Agathiyar's dream was fulfilled by Tavayogi. When Tavayogi made his last rounds visiting devotees' homes to witness the Siddha puja in 2016, Agathiyar through the Jeeva Nadi in the possession of Tavayogi conveyed a message from Tavayogi's guru, Chitamuthu Adigal who wanted us to carry out a Siddha puja in the Thanneermalai Sri Thandayuthapani Alayam, in Taiping. His guru had been here and in many parts of Malaya then. We did as told. The Siddhas recently conveyed a message from Tavayogi to me asking me to turn each home into an Agathiyar Vanam just like my home had become. I am told that it is Tavayogi's dream. The ball is in my court and I have to figure out how I am going to go about fulfilling my guru's dream. 

MAKING THE TRANSITION

If the task we undertake out of our desires brings us glory, and fame and finds us a place in history, doing Agathiyar's task shall place us in his story, in the pages of the Siddhas. We gain recognition in the eyes of the divine for we are doing his divine work. Agathiyar has a dream for each one of us just like our parents had a dream that we achieved. Now is the time to live out his dream. He has come to our level to convey his dream. He has come into our homes to convey his dreams. He has knocked on our doors. Should not we open the doors and let him in and hear him out? 

Let us live for him. Let us take up his tasks. Let us bring pride and fame to him. But even the last wish he shot down asking me how can anyone possibly bring fame to someone without form. He said, "As Agathiyan is a vibration who can bring fame to him?" "Put to work whatever he says", was his reply.

அகத்தியனுக்கு பெருமை சேர்க்கவேண்டும். 

"நிலை அற்றவன் அகத்தியன். உணர்வே அகத்தியன். எவரால் அவனுக்கு பெருமை சேர்க்கமுடியும். செயலினால் அவன் கூறுவதை செய்து வாருங்கள்"

It seems following their directives is sufficient in this era of confusion, fraud, misappropriation, wrongdoings, and many more. Agathiyar had made it pretty simple for us to board his bandwagon and make progress in good time bringing us to the kingdom of Lord Siva. He has taken in and embraced the children too. For instance, my 2-year-old granddaughter travels with the book of hymns "Kandhar Sasthi Kavacham" asking any adult near her to read the song. She would ask her mother to read it to her before she goes to bed. When she comes over to my home she would pick a book from my bookshelf at random and ask me to read to her. The last she picked was "The Creation" by E.O. Wilson. Amazing right.

If we had seen the days of coming together to sing the praise of the Siddhas and the divine since 2002 ....

... these days we get the children to carry out the rituals and sing the praise of the Lord.

If the transition has taken place externally in our approach and methods to propagate the path of the Siddhas, Agathiyar has brought about subtle transitions within us too I realize. He has taught me to pardon others too. By pardoning me of my mistakes and flaws he has opened my eyes too. I have begun to understand that man shall err for he is learning too through experience. If Agathiyar could pardon me should not I pardon others?

DIVINE GRACE

Today I had a schoolmate who opted for early retirement (ASP) from the Royal Malaysian Police force to join the United Nations visit me. My wife, daughter, and I sat in awe listening to his stories while abroad trying to enable the delivery of the UN’s mandate and the delivery of development & humanitarian aid serving in high-risk environments such as Cambodia, Kosovo, Sudan, Pakistan, Afghanistan, and Somalia. 

Besides the numerous misses to his life and sicknesses, he made it through, to tell his tale. And I thought I had stories to tell. My stories pale before his and I told him that the only reason he was alive to tell his story is because of the numerous guardian angels safeguarding him from dangers way. How else could he have survived I asked myself. He too was grateful to the divine for standing by him. He opted to leave the local police force to join the United Nations because he wanted to educate his three children with the best education. If I knew of a father who was my colleague in the office back then take the bus to and fro traveling some 214kms daily so that he could send his son to tuition each night, this police officer dad placed his life in God’s hand and faced numerous risks to achieve his intended objective. I feel small before them.

There are many similar parents who make sacrifices for their children. It is my hope that these children do not desert them in their old age. The coming of old age is something that saddens us as our mobility becomes limited, and our senses lose their abilities too. Memory fails us too. Many sit and while their time waiting for death. But the Siddhas say that death can be avoided by transforming the physical body and its gross nature back into the subtle form from whence it arose once upon a time. But we have yet to see this happen or take place before our eyes. Even the masters tend to leave behind their mortal frame in samadhis created for them. Rare is it to find someone like Ramalinga Adigal who never left any trace of his physical body telling us that he had recycled it back into nature. When my mother passed away recently at the ripe age of 95, the priests who conducted the rituals right from the beginning, mentioned during the last ceremony we conducted at the riverside that my mother was not dead but was in the water that gushed passed us, in the soil of the riverbank where we stood on, in the morning breeze that brushed our faces and the air that we inhaled, in the heat of the morning sun that peeked over the skies, and in the very space that we stood in. My mother was one with nature. She had returned home to reassemble another form and take rebirth again. We too shall come back to take another shot at attempting to break the chain or cycle of death and rebirth. As Supramania Swami and Tavayogi told me we shall keep trying till we succeed. One day the divine shall mellow down and lift us up seeing the numerous attempts we placed. 

Divine grace is essentially in sailing this river of life, across the rapids and currents. Divine grace is essential in sheltering us from the storm that threatens to wreck our lives. Divine grace is essential to protect us from the scorching heat of the fire that could burn the house down. Divine grace is essential to protect us from the avalanche or landslides that could sweep us of the very terrain that we claim as home. Divine grace is essential to protect us from suffocating inhaling the very air that keeps us alive.

The Siddhas drop us a line that if we hold on tight enough and begin to climb shall bring us ashore to the promised land. In taking a human birth half the battle is won. Next, we have to train our guns on the goal. With their grace, we shall see results. 

GRADUATION DAY

When Agathiyar came recently I asked that we should attain his state to which he surprised us by telling us that we were already there and just that we were not aware and did not realize it. How was that possible I asked myself. Going by the definitions given of a Siddha in books and by the public, we were nowhere close to it. Even trying to place us on the numerous rungs of spiritual development laid out by Ramalinga Adigal we stood way down below. How was it that Agathiyar could place us in his team of players? We know pretty well that we do not qualify. We hardly did things worthy of carrying the tag. We know the number of disastrous things we have done in life. It warrants us to be thrown into the dungeons and burned in the fire pit. But yet the most compassionate Agathiyar took us under his arms and later under his wings grooming and nurturing us and now places us in a standing equivalent to them. It just doesn't add up. But Agathiyar would not lie. If it was indeed true then Siddhahood is not what has been written and spoken about by many authors and the general public. Agathiyar tears down the veil that was placed by humans. A Siddha then need not perform the feats that are always associated with them. A Siddha need not necessarily own a Nadi or their manuscripts. A Siddha need not treat people for their illnesses. A Siddha need not be a teacher to others. A Siddha need not perform miracles or magic as claimed by many. So who then is a Siddha? 

I guess he is one who has learned to drop all desires and wants and needs for it is these that warrant a rebirth if unfulfilled or unaccomplished in this birth. He is one who has learned to give himself up to the cause of the divine rather than living out his ambitions and his plans. He begins to undertake the plans that the divine draws for him instead. He does not rush things. He goes with the flow of the divine will. He is but an instrument and a tool in the hands of the divine. With these characteristics does he then qualify for the status? 

I guess not as yet as these are merely physical, material, and gross in nature. He has to engage with the subtle forces around him especially the Siddhas who are waiting to assist. By worshipping them we earn their attention and respect. They then come to rid us of the past karma that stands as a stumbling block preventing us from receiving the best in life. Once the karma is swept aside the path is clear for us to tread and journey further into the mystical, mysterious, and subtle worlds out there. We gain access to their worlds by letting them into our lives, our homes, and our hearts. Does this then qualify for the status? 

I guess not as yet as he has to begin the transformation both within and without by changing his diet to that of satvic in nature and consuming certain herbal preparations that help cleanse and rid of the toxin accumulated within his flesh and tissues, bones and marrow, cells and elementals, in his current Asudha Deham. He is reborn anew when he attains the Sudha Deham by taking in further, herbal preparations that renew and strengthen his physical body. Does he then qualify for the status? 

I guess not as yet as he needs to use the tool of Yoga, especially the control of breath or Pranayama and Asanas now to enhance the vital energies within by bringing in those that are in abundance in the Prapanjam. He needs to bring in more Prana within that literally lifts his pure physical body or Suddha Deham to that of Pranava Deham. He is shown the means to tap into the Prapanjam further. Just as in a flash of lightning where a spark rises up from the earth to meet the bolt of lightning from the skies, the inherent energies that were awakened by the process of Yoga travel to meet these divine energies and an explosion of sort happens within and a fusion takes place. Is this union that happens when the Prapanjam comes within as torrents of energies which is desired by the Siddhas? Does he then qualify for the status? I guess he does now. 

When the energies begin to travel through the energy centers or chakras and eventually settle in the crown of the head, the flowering of divine knowledge takes place within. If initially the problems that brought on miseries in our lives before coming to the Siddhas were said to be placed on our path to enable us to work out our karma then, the problems faced after coming to worship them are said to strengthen the soul on the journey leading to the state of Gnana. The situation faced might be the same but its purpose has changed since we embarked on finding our soul. If the former was overcome by carrying out Agamas or rituals and remedies, the latter has to be battled by the mind. When the mind becomes the victor it is a sign that we have reached the state of Gnanam. 

If prior to coming to the Siddhas we were wholely governed by the movements of the planets that bring on the respective gains or losses, happiness or sufferings, etc, in coming under the shadows of the Siddhas their influence on us is a thing of the past.

If prior to coming to the Siddhas we were wholely governed by the forces of nature, in achieving the state of the Siddha one is said to have control over them.

The Siddhas then trend in him or her, literally walking the face of the earth, having him or her carry out further tasks that they deem as required or necessary. On completion of the tasks, they then end their lives chapter here by leading them to their realm or world to further continue the tasks laid out for them there. 

So after hearing Agathiyar acknowledge our status I look back to the many revelations that he gave through his numerous Nadi readings since the beginning of this journey to find that indeed he had mentioned this subtle progress, though it was not obvious to us back then. 

If I was a Namboothiri priest from Kerala in my past birth and had tempered with the scriptures then and earned the wrath of the community that was a reason to be born again, in following the Siddha path I was given full freedom to experiment and modify the worship to my heart's content with the Siddhas often endorsing these moves. What came as a surprise was that Lord Muruga in asking me to build him a temple too told me that I shall do it differently. I guess this is what Agathiyar meant as there was no right or wrong. It is the society that determines what is right and what is wrong and differentiates and further creates partitions.  

Giving me a history of my bleak past in my Nadi reading at the onset, Agathiyar throws in some hope for the future. But before it could come my way I had to go on a pilgrimage of temples to sweat it out ridding my karma. I was given remedies in the form of puja and charity to wipe the slate clean further. I was given breathing practices to cleanse the body and bring about Dega Suddhi, just as we cleansed the Self of the past karma. The practice would bring us to realize and become aware and touch the Prana within and regulate it. Agathiyar said that the guru shall come by in an unexpected way to help me further my practice. Even after having carried out the remedies that stood as a stumbling block preventing me from reaping the benefits of my practice, I needed the guru's touch to remove the veil completely. Only then shall I reap the goodness that was awaiting me he added. 

14.12.2002

தவறில்லா ஞானத்தில் மேன்மை காண்பாய். 

குருமார்கள் உபதேசங்கள் தான் 

இவருக்கு உண்டாகும் படிப்படியே.

காண முன் தேக சுத்தி வேண்டும் அப்பா. 

தவறாது வாசியின் பயிற்சி செய்ய.

சிறப்புதான் குருமாரின் தீட்சை பெற்று

சுத்தமுடன் இயங்கிடவும் மேன்மை காட்டும்.

தான் அவரும் எதிர்பாரா அமைய கிட்டும். 

தான் உரைத்த நூல்கள் வழி அறிந்து தானே 

தவறாது அகத்தியன் மூலமாக. 

சித்தர்கள் நாமம் தன்னை 

சுகமுடனே செய்து தான் 

சுகங்கள் காண சுகம் உண்டு. 

சூட்சமமும் தெளிவுகளும் என்னில் உண்டு.

தான் இருக்க பயிற்சிகளும் செய்து தானே 

தவறாது நாற்பானை தன்னில் இருக்க 

சற்றே உரைத்திடுவோம் ஆசி முற்றே. 

When the next reading which came some three years later on 15.8.2005 was mysteriously erased after I had my second initiation from Tavayogi as instructed by Agathiyar, a rereading on 8.8.2005 explained it all.

இவ்வுலகில் பெரும் ஞானம் பெற்று வாழ ஆசி. 

அகத்திலே நாங்கள் குடியிருக்க

அற்புதங்கள் அதிசயங்கள் காண்பாய். 

அறியாத சூட்சுமங்கள் புலப்படும் உனக்கு. 

நானிலத்தில் புதைந்து உள்ள சூட்சுமங்கள் 

நன்றாக அறிந்திடுவாய் ஆசியோடு. 

ஆசியோடு அறிய வைப்போம் உனக்காகத் தான். 

ஆன் உன்னைக் காப்பதோடு துணை இருப்பேன். 

மண்ணுலகில் வள்ளல் ஆசி குமரன் ஆசி 

ஆசியும் ஆண்டு பல முன்பே கிட்டி 

அவர்கள் அருள் கருணையும் நிறைந்திருக்க 

பெருமையுடன் இவ்வுலகில் நீயும் வாழ்ந்தால் 

பெருமையுடன் நான் வாழ முடியும் அப்பா. 

அத்தனாய், அன்னையாய், ஆசானாக

அனுதினமும் துணை இருந்து காத்து கொள்வேன். 

ஒப்பில்லா உன் வாழ்வை நீயே கண்டு 

உணர உணர உணர்த்துவோம் உனக்குத் தானே. 

தான் உனக்கு அஞ்ஞானம் முற்றும் விலகி

தெளிவோடு மெய் ஞானம் காண ஆசி. 

ஞானம் பெற்று மகானாகும் தகுதியும் உண்டு.

ஆசியோடு, அருள், கருணை, சக்தியும் தான் 

அன்னையின் கருவிலே பெற்றதனால்  

எல்லை இல்லாத அதிசயங்கள் நாளும் காண்பாய். 

உண்டுதான் உனக்குள்ளே எங்கள் சக்தி. 

உருவத்தில் நாங்களும் இருப்பதனால் 

என் மார்க்கம் தனிலே உந்தன் வாழ்வு. 

வாழ்வுதான் கடைநாளும் நிலைத்து நிற்கும். 

ஆண் நீயும் அழியாத மார்க்கம் தன்னில் தாழ்வில்லா இருப்பதனால் என் மைந்த என்னைப் போல் வாழ்வு உனக்கு இவ்வுலகில் காத்திருக்கு அனுபவிப்பாய் திண்ணம். 

கல்லாறு ஆசிரமம் தன்னில் நீயும் இரு மூன்று நாட்கள் தங்கி தியானங்கள் பூஜையும் ராசனோடு தான் அழகாய் உண்மைகளும் அறிந்திட வேண்டும்.

தாரணியில் தவயோகி தங்கராசன் உண்மையான குரு உனக்கு என்போம்.

தான் அவனால் மாற்ற நிலை பலவாறு உண்டு. 

தங்கராசன் எங்கள் சக்தி, அருளும் பெற்றோன். தரணியிலே அவன் மட்டும் குரு என்போம். 

குரு தீட்சை ஆசியும் இன்று இரவே குறித்தபடி பெருமையுடன் பெற்று விட்டால் மாற்றம் பல்வார்.

பெரும் ஞானம் தெளிவுகளும் காண்பாய் அப்பா. 

நீ அறிய அதிசயங்கள் பால்வார் நடக்கும். 

அறிந்திடுவாய் பல மாந்தர், மகான்கள் நட்பும், ஆசியோடு உபதேசமும், மென்மையான நூல் பலவும், உனக்குக் கிட்டி மிக்கதொரு ஞானிகளே வழி நடத்தி மேன்மை பெற துணை இருப்பார் மகிழும் வண்ணம்.

வழிபாடு, வாசி பூஜை தீர்க்கமாய் செய்து வரச் சிறப்பு.

 

19.8.2005

வள்ளல்போல் வாழ்வு உனக்கு உண்டு.

 

20.12.2005

நாள் நாளும் சித்தர்களை வணங்கித் தானே நலமோடு பூசைகளும் செய்வாய் மகிழ்ந்தோம். 

முறையாக நீ செய்யும் பூசையும் தான் மென்மையாய் நாங்களும் ஏற்று கொண்டோம். 

அகம் முழுதும் பரிபூரணமாய் நிறைந்திருக்கேன். 

அற்புதங்கள் அதிசயங்கள் காட்சி பல்வார் 

அகிலத்தில் உனக்காகப் பலதும் படைப்பேன். 

உலகத்தைப் பற்றி நீ இருந்த இடத்தில் அறிய மூன்றாவது கண்ணைத் திறந்து வைப்பேன் பின்பு.

முக்காலும் நீ அறிய நான் துணை இருப்பேன். 

உன் முன்னே வந்து பல விளக்கம் சொல்வேன். 

ஆன் உனக்குக் கள்ளர் சித்தன் மூலம் உண்மையான விளக்கத்தை அறிய வைப்பேன். 

உனக்குள்ளே நான் இருந்து பலவித சூட்சுமம் உன்னுளே எழச் செய்வேன் நீயே உணர்வாய்.

நீ நன்றாக எங்களைப் போன்று சித்தனாக நிறைவான வாழ்வையும் அமைத்துத் தருவேன்.

Looking back at these Nadi readings made me realize that all that was said or predicted had happened just because I had adhered to their instructions and carried them out. It looks like the Siddhas too have lifted the rules to accommodate and take us into their circle.

THE SIDDHAS TOUCH

Ramalinga Adigal could not find the words. I too cannot find the words. There are just no words to describe the compassion of the Siddhas. They were all along with us. It was just that we did not know nor could sense their presence. It was at certain junctures in our lives that they came to reveal that they were traveling with us on this gross worldly journey. Upon revealing themselves we, in turn, have started traveling with them on the subtle journey of light, sound, and vibrations. 

In the foreword to “An Introduction to the Philosophy of Saint Ramalingam” by Dr. C. Srinivasan, Rao Saheb K. Kothandapani Pillai BA wrote,

"When the transformation of that very subtle part of the being has been given fully to the divine, the individual becomes literally a beacon of bliss-light."

Even now Agathiyar says that we are not aware of our actual state telling us that we have passed the test. As we are dressed in the same tattvas we cannot see our present state. But the Siddhas know. Hence they keep driving us forward.

Looking back at my life, I have to bury my face in the sand out of shame for what I did. Yet they come before us addressing us. They tell us to let the past be and tell us it was all a lesson and experience that we needed to grow into. Agathiyar like Lord Krishna, even took on the blame, telling me it was all his doing for want of the experience for myself. There is nothing right nor wrong he often says. All these shall add up to our experiences he says. While the experiences are for us he only sees the soul he adds. He tells us that he was with us from birth, nay even when we were in the womb of our mothers. Each time we messed up our lives he was there to get us out of the mess. Each time we encountered danger he was there to save us. 

I guess each man has numerous paths, journeys and travels laid before him. He chooses which way to go. Undecided at times he consults the family, friends, the elders, an astrologer, or the Siddhas Nadi. If all the previous could go wrong Siddha's advice would be the best bet for they know the past, present, and future. Yet at times the Siddhas predictions too do not happen or can court more trouble or so it seems. I guess there is much juggling and remapping of our lives once we come under the purview of the Siddhas. It must be tougher for them I guess but their love for us supersedes everything else. Just as we have heard of the Midas Touch, the Siddhas touch can do wonders but not in the ability to make money in all our ventures as in the former but in the ability to change the body into something much more precious. Speaking to Siddha physician and astrologer Thiru Arivananthan he pointed out a song that outwardly seemed to describe the means to make gold. But in actual fact, it was a means to change the body into one. Dr. C. Srinivasan in "An Introduction to the Philosophy of Ramalinga Swami" published by Ilakkia Nilayam, Tiruchi, 1968, wrote,

"In many verses (of the Thiru Arutpa) Ramalinga Adigal sings of how his ‘impure body’ of ‘impure elements’ was transformed into a pure body of pure elements, called a golden body of immeasurable carats (Swarna Deham). He sings that one has to think incessantly until he feels and melts with love for god. In such a melting mood one burst into tears and sings the praise of god and soothing warmth is produced in the aspirant. When this universal love and sacred warmth develop, the body, as well as the soul, became prepared for the descent of grace, in the form of light. When this occurs, the material body of impure elements is transformed into a ‘body of pure light’, emitting a golden hue. The ultimate and greatest transformation in human evolution: a transmutation into the godhead, which he referred to as merging with the body of supreme wisdom - the body of god supreme (Gnana Deham).

Swami Saravanananda in his English transliteration of Ramalinga Adigal’s “Arutperunjhoti Agaval” published by Ramalinga Mission, Madras wrote, 

"With the descent of sufficient Divine Light, the psychic head begins to emerge. According to Vallalar, this psychic head (a crown or diadem of light) is made up of a special and highly refined type of brain called Omkar brain. As soon as it emerges, it draws more cosmic light; the more the light the greater the growth of the psychic head. With the advent of the psychic head, more and more changes take place in the already purified body. The cells and thence the whole body begins to transcend the limits imposed on them by impure Maya (the grosser principle of nature) and try to break one more of its veils. The cells undergo alternate condensation and expansion for an unspecified period and the body slowly emerges out of its bondage and begins to grow. This expanding and ever-prospering body is called the subtle body or the body of the Omkar or Pranava body. "

"With the functioning of the third eye, the transformation of the light body or Pranava Deham is completed and the next and final stage of transformation into the Gnostic body or Gnana Deham starts. The transformation of the Pranava body into a Gnostic body begins with the functioning of the third eye."

In speaking to Arivananthan about the current changes taking place within he says that the state of Sahaja Yoga would have us refrain from doing anything but instead have the divine energies do their work just as Agathiyar had said earlier when I enquired if there were more practices to be carried out. 

When our initial work is done having placed efforts in carrying out the many practices given, the inner energies enhanced by these practices that have a direct link with the outer energies gather within and without churning the elementals and vital energies to rise and flower.

"These transformations eliminate the worldly substances in the body. What is retained is the form of their profile. All else is replaced. Substances of perishable nature will get replaced by substances of cosmic nature by altering the natural physical fabric through the science that prevailed then known as Kaaya Siddhi. On completion of the transformation, their body is retained forever."

THE SIDDHA

There is too much hype surrounding the Siddhas. They have been made to become out of reach creating a big gap between the common man and them. Look up the Siddhas in books written by the learned or articles on the internet or videos on YouTube the first thing we come across is that they are all desperately trying to give a definition of them. They tend to define the Siddhas as men with superpowers and beyond our reach. We come across the following definitions;

• A Siddha is "one who is accomplished." It refers to perfected masters who have achieved a high degree of physical as well as spiritual perfection or enlightenment. Siddha may also refer to one who has attained siddhi, paranormal capabilities.
• The Siddhar (Tamil: சித்தர் cittar, from Sanskrit: Siddha) in Tamil tradition is a perfected individual, who has attained spiritual powers named siddhi. 
• Siddhas possesses several superhuman powers called siddhis. These are anima, garima, mahima, laghima, prapti, prakamya, isitvam and vasitvam. A person who has acquired any of these siddhis is called a Siddha.
• They are said to have attained the realization of siddhis (psychic abilities and powers) through their many lifetimes of spiritual practice. Their alleged magical powers are claimed to arise from the efficacy of their spiritual practice.
• Siddhi is a Sanskrit word that literally means "accomplishment," "attainment," or "success." It is also used as a term for spiritual power (or psychic ability) in Hinduism and Tantric Buddhism. These spiritual powers supposedly vary from relatively simple forms of clairvoyance to being able to levitate, bilocate, become as small as an atom, materialize objects, have access to memories from past lives, and more,

and many more. By defining them we are placing a limitation on their abilities, capabilities, and strength for one. But is performing Siddhis really important to the common man? Even the spiritually enlightened Siddhas do not use these Siddhis unless called for, especially not to impress people or put on a show. Yet many chose to write about them. At times we read the same things mentioned across the numerous articles or books or talks on YouTube.  Here is why I prefer to read the autobiographies of the masters and gurus who share their personal experiences with Godhead and biographies of those close to them with whom they shared these experiences. These would be an authentic account of the state and mind of a Siddha. It helps us reach into the mind of these Siddhas. 

Swami Chidvilasananda in writing on our scriptures in "Inner Treasures", a Siddha Yoga Publication, 1995, could not have described it better.

"What you are reading in the scriptures is the personal record, the experience of seekers who went across the sea of ignorance. They became known as the Siddhas, the knower of the truth, the great ones, and the elevated ones. You are reading the wisdom that came from all their effort, inspiration, and sacrifice. These verses are what they heard when they reached the most profound states of meditation. So, when you study the scriptures, what you are really doing is spending time in the company of these great souls."

Carl Sagan in an excerpt from the 11th episode of his legendary 1980s Cosmos series, titled “The Persistence of Memory” in referring to the book says that "One glance at it and you’re inside the mind of another person, maybe somebody dead for thousands of years. Across the millennia, an author speaks clearly and silently inside your head, directly to you. Writing is perhaps the greatest of human inventions, binding together people who never knew each other, citizens of distant epochs. Books break the shackles of time." More so an autobiography or biography of someone.

I was happily going about my family life and career when Agathiyar figured that it was time I came to know about them. Prior to that, I was in Sariyai then, engrossed in temple worship and doing puja at home that I picked up from my parents. The Siddhas brought me to Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai and sent Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal of Kallar Ashram to our shores, the latter bringing me to step into Kriyai by introducing me officially to the worship of the Siddhas and bringing us into carrying out charity. Though I had picked it up from books earlier, Tavayogi officially taught me Yoga. Finally, after the passing on of my gurus, Agathiyar and the Siddhas began to pass on their divine knowledge or Gnanam to us educating us as we went along and experiencing a new facet of life beyond imagination. Indeed when the handful of us gather we cannot but pay tribute and gratitude to the Siddhas for bringing on so many changes in our lives. But all these changes were not apparent to us and neither to the others. Neither did the Siddhas lift us to the state of superhumans as was publicized. We were basically the same person minding our business as usual. But all the changes were taking place internally. Our perspective and hold on all things material changed. We dropped our wants and instead our priorities were now aligned with those of the Siddhas. We were continually given tasks to carry out by them. We were given practices to carry out. We were told to return to and carry out rituals as and when it was required or instructed. A feeling of completeness or Puranam settled within. Though the turmoil that was going on all around us does upset us at times, satisfaction, inner peace, and calm prevailed at other times. We began to realize the futility of trying to change the world but instead realize the potential to bring changes within oneself. Toeing the line that the Siddhas dropped us back in 2002, we saw much progress both material and spiritual over the years. Though we enjoyed every moment of what has showered on us the attachment to it was severed. We were ready to let go if the need arises. As we travel with them we are trying to comprehend life and its purpose. Once we get to know our purpose here which is of course set by them as opposed to living out our dreams, wishes, and desires, our mission in coming here shall be accomplished and we can leave telling ourselves that we have done our part and leave the rest to others to continue. We can then begin another chapter of our lives elsewhere in another realm or plane or dimension that is spoken about. 

LET US INVITE IN THE SIDDHAS

Most of the time we do not know our true value or potential until we are either told or tested. The guru lays some tests to see and ascertain our self-worthiness. That is what Agathiyar had been doing I guess all these years and coming a day before when I asked that we should attain his Neri or path, he said some promising things to my wife and me. It lifted our spirits though it was unbelievable. Immediately our thoughts went to self-access and asking if we deserve the recognition. If in calling me to his worship in my Nadi reading, and Tavayogi in asking my wife and children to join me, and as we invited Agathiyar and the Siddhas in into our homes and our hearts, and in accepting and coming to our home he named it as his Vanam or garden, later taking up the rituals and Yoga Lord Murugan renamed the home as Agathiyar Tapovanam. Appropriate to the Gnana or divine wisdom he was to dispense and deliver later Agathiyar rebranded the home as Gnanakottam much earlier. This is how intimate they come within our reach when we take a few steps in their direction. Even the day before when a devotee saw him seated in our prayer room called my wife and me in, and as I asked that he stays put though it was selfish of me to ask that, he as usual like Tavayogi questioned me back whether I wanted him in my home or my heart. He made us extremely happy by saying that my home was his home too. I guess that is the reason Lord Murugan wanted me to turn each devotee's home into an Agathiyar Vanam. 

A guru, like a beacon, keeps tabs on us and keeps us away from dangers way. What is needed is trust in him. If we doubt him we will tend to revise his plans for us. We then have to answer for our own doing. If we surrender to him he is answerable for our lives. He shall come to save us. I had completely surrendered to my gurus though I do question them when in need of clarification or to clear a doubt at times. I have turned down several offers and gifts of theirs too. I had refused to go places and meet other gurus that he suggested for the sole reason that I had reached his worship and feet. As he was my entire world just as we are the world to our young children I told him in the event he wanted to reward me let that happen in my home within the four walls. Today to our amazement it is all taking place in that small tiny room or Sittivalagam in AVM. They come to carry out their lilas, create chaos and lift us off our feet, heal us, dance with us, sing with us. In short, we are having a gala of a time. But there were times that they came down on us hard when we tended to gaze elsewhere and do not follow their asking. Asking him the day before if we had erred in traveling the path, and he replied it is all a lesson and an experience. He asked that we just follow all his directives.

Surrendering is a vital component or element in a guru-disciple relationship. It can make or break the relationship. Most people want the Siddhas' help but are only partially open to them. The Siddhas too go along with our game and eventually have us bring it out into the open. Nevertheless, they fail to realize that they are an open book. The Siddhas know us inside out. 

As we neither know the Self nor our purpose here, the guru comes to help us find these answers. Sadly many pass away without even once inquiring about these matters. These are people who come to solely fulfill their cravings, desires, and wants says Tavayogi. Let them be he says. As their day begins with chores and errands to run and making a living to bring food to the table, these questions hardly come to their mind. But when it does arise, the search begins and the wanderings start. He begins to knock on doors and when he is told to look elsewhere, many give up in disappointment. If only we continue, someone someday might let us in into their home, where it shall all be known. Ramalinga Adigal knocked on Lord Siva's door continuously till it opened. Then he saw the wonder of wonders that he says only the Lord knows.

Once we surrender to him, he gives himself to us. He comes down from his throne that of Erai as a guru to bring us back to his palace. He becomes a friend and eventually becomes part of the family and takes up a dwelling in our homes and our hearts. We are then one with him. Our thoughts, speech, and actions are then all his. No karma gets attached further. Hence the cycle is broken.

REVISITING KUNDALINI

Kundalini is not something that we can manage by ourselves as a friend and devotee told me. We need a guru in the physical form or the Siddhas to monitor its movement in us so that it does no harm. I had no inkling that it had arisen in me as early as 2007 after putting into practice the Vaasi and Asana practices given by Tavayogi earlier that year. As such, I had nothing to tell my guru Tavayogi about it during his subsequent visits in 2008 and 2010. Agathiyar casually mentioned that they were amazed to see it rise in me in my Nadi reading later on 13.10.2007.

உண்டாகும் குண்டலினி சக்தி உனக்கு உயர்வதைக் கண்டு நாங்கள் வியந்தோம் அப்பா. 

I did not give thought to it nor did I investigate further or researched it then. I was fit as a fiddle going about my career and family affairs without the least worry or fear. 

On 9.8.2010 Agathiyar revealed  that the heat from the tapas or Gnana Kanal had risen.

உண்டான ஞான கனல் மிகுந்த காலம் உயர்வான காலம் இது இந்தக் காலம். 

It was later in 2010 that an excruciating pain struck my lower back and crippled me momentarily while in the shower. After the doctors gave me a clean bill of health I consulted the Nadi on 26.11. 2011. Agathiyar revealed that the Muladhara chakra had gained intense heat hence shutting my systems down. To add to it my three dosas were off balance or rather not in the ratio that sustains good health. 

உற்றதொரு மூலாதார சக்கரமும் உயர் விதமாய் உட்டனங்கள் அடைந்ததனாலே உரைக்க வரும் சோர்வும் தேகம் தன்னில். உரைக்கலாம் முக்கூற்று திருப்பும் இப்போ முறையாகச் சம நிலையில் இல்லாதிருக்க சோதனைகள் வந்து நிற்க்கும் அச்சம் மிதந்து. 

By the time I left for Kallar Ashram to meet Tavayogi with my family in 2013, the pain had left my mind and body and so the subject was not brought up to him. 

On 28. 8. 2015 Agathiyar mentioned further changes that have taken place within me though it was all news to me. He said that his Jothi has expanded in me and the Suzhimunai had opened. 

தேகத்தில் மாற்றங்கள் பெற்று இருக்காய். அகத்துக்குள் அகத்தின் ஜோதி பெருகி தேகத்தில் பல மாற்றம் பல சக்தி கிட்டி முனை திரண்டு இருப்பாயே. 

When Tavayogi was here for my daughter's wedding in June of 2016 I had the pain come back but rather mild. Mentioning the pain to him he gave me a herbal pill that he takes too. As the pain went away unnoticed and as I was fit to travel to India and his ashram later that year it did necessitate bringing it up to him. 

The pain came back in the same intensity as originally when a sneeze came over me as I was crossing a street. On 7.10.2018 Agathiyar in the Nadi says that my breath was dislodged and blocked. It happened in my sleep, he said. 

உனக்குத்தான் நித்திரை தவ வாசி காலம் வாசியும் சீர் பிசகி முடங்கித் தான் இருக்கு. 

As Tavayogi had passed on earlier that year, he came through me to greet and address his friend and Nadi reader who was visiting me as he had heard that I was in pain. The energy with which he came aggravated my existing pain. As it was extremely intense Lord Muruga came immediately through a Nadi reading read by his friend and through another devotee to heal me. 

Lord Murugan said that age had caught up with me. My spine and hips were tensed. The inner gel at these joints had dried up. This was the reason for the acute pain I was having. With some treatment done earlier, a quarter of the issue was overcome. He told me why I had to go through the suffering. It was to have me sit in one place and do tapas. But neither he nor Agathiyar abandoned me.

நின் தேகம் தளருது அப்பா. இந்தக் காலம் உன்னுடைய முதுகு எலும்பும் இடுப்பும் சேரும் எலும்பு சந்திப்பெல்லாம் தானே ஒருவித இறுக்கமாய் இருக்குது அப்பா. அங்கே இருந்திட்ட தைலம் அது உலர்ந்து போனது அப்பா. இதுதான் உண்மை. ஆச்சப்பா மின்னல் போன்று வலி தோன்றும் அங்கே. அப்போது தான் துடிதுடித்து நிற்பாய் அப்பா. உனக்கு மருத்துவம் சில செய்ததாலே மாற்றங்கள் கால் பங்கு குணமாகக் கண்டேன். சாற்றனல் இது எதற்கென்று கேள். அகத்தில் நீ அமர்ந்து தவம் தியானம் செய்யச் செப்புகிறேன். அலைச்சலை தவிர்த்துக் கொள்ளு. சில காலம் பனி வேண்டும் என்ன செய்ய. அதற்குத்தான் வர்மா தைலம் வாங்கி அப்பா உன் முதுகு எலும்பில் தடவி தானே வெந்நீரில் ஒத்தடம் தருவாய். சிறப்பாக நரம்புதனை எலும்பு தனை வலுவாகும் லேகியம் இதுவே. இது உன் மேனி திடம் ஆக்குதற்கு சொல்லும் வாக்கு. திறம்படவே நீ நடமாட வேண்டும் அப்பா. தீர்க்கமாய் அதற்குத் தான் நூல் உரைக்க வந்தேன். வந்ததும் சுப்ரமணியன் கட்டளையாக. 

This was about the time Agathiyar had me stop all external activities and go within. We brought an end to the puja held at my home Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM) and the charity programs we carried out under our charity arm Amudha Surabhi (AS). Besides the puja and charity that brought on the grace of the Siddhas and rid our karma, these had a hidden hand in raising the Kundalini further I guess for when Ram Dass asked his guru to raise his kundalini, he told him, "feed people." 

On 5.9. 2019 Agathiyar came to reveal the reason I fell and lay in front of my bathroom door, crawling or slithering in pain like a snake. But it was blissful at the same time. Agathiyar said the Kundalini had arisen and had churned up the heat and fire within. He described the slithering as a sign of Kundalini moving. He too acknowledge that it was the bliss of bliss. If he mentioned further that the third eye and the crown had opened, and I was partaking the ambrosia within, it was indeed news to me. I was baffled as I knew nothing and there were no signs of it. 

மும்மலங்கள் அற்றதொரு தேகம் என்பதாலே, முக்கணும் முறை திறந்து உட்சியும் திறந்து, குண்டலினி உயர்ந்து தான் கனல் எழும்பி, அமிர்தத்தை இடை விடாது உண்டு கொண்டு இருக்கிறாய். குண்டலினி சக்தி எல்லாம் எழும்புவது எல்லாம் குவளையத்தில் பாம்பின் போன்று நெளிய நேரும். ஆனால் ஆனந்தம் ஆனந்தம் அதுதான் என்போம்.

On 30.1. 2020 Agathiyar surprised me by asking me to restart the Vaasi practice learned from Tavayogi that he had asked to discontinue at the peak of my back pain in 2010. 

"Currently, your breath is at the Svadhishthana. It is about time it opened up. This is the right time to start this practice. Sit before me and meditate. During this moment carry out the cleansing breath as taught by your guru. Just the important ones. You shall sense a coolness within. Remain silent in these moments. Focus on your breath. Your breath shall touch the Suzhimunai and swirl. Travel along your seven chakras. That journey shall awaken your chakras. After traversing these chakras when it touches the seventh you shall know your purpose here." 

"இத்தருணம் மான் மூச்சு குளத்தில் இருக்கிறது. அவை திறக்கும் தருணம் வந்தது. இப்பொழுதுதான் நீ உமது பயிற்சியினை தொடங்க வேண்டும். இந்நிலையில் அச்சக்கரம் முற்றும் திறந்து விடும். தினமும் காலையில் குளித்து வெறும் வேஷ்டி அணிந்து என் முன் அமர்ந்து தியானம் செய்து வா. தியான முறையின் பொது உமது குரு கூறிய சுவாச சுத்திகரிப்பு பயிற்சியினை செய்து வா. அனைத்தும் வேண்டாம். மூல பயிற்சி மட்டும் போதும். அதை நீ செய்து வர உனக்குள் ஒரு தனி குளிர்ச்சி ஏற்படும். அந்நிலையில் நீ அமைதி கோல். உனது மூச்சில் கவனம் கோல். உமது மூச்சு உமது சுழிமுனை தோட்டு சூழும். உமது ஏழு சக்கரங்களில் பயணம் செய். அப்பயணம் உமது சக்கரங்கள் ஒவ்வொன்றாய் பூர்த்தி செய்யும். மூலாதாரம், ஸ்வாதிஷ்டானம், மணிபூரகம், அனாகதம், விசுத்தி, ஆக்கினையென ஏழாவது சக்கரம் தொடும் நிலையில் நீ உனது பிறவிக்கான பலனை அறிவாய்."

Ramalinga Adigal came on 14.5.2020 to explain further. "When you reach my state, energy will come within you without your knowledge. That is Suzhimunai."

"எனது நிலையை நீ தொடும்போது உன்னை அறியாது உன்னை நோக்கி ஒரு சக்தி உன்னுள் இறங்கும். அதுவே சுழிமுனை."

A translation of a song from Supramaniar Gnaanam 200 reveals more.

"Receiving the Vel from Valabai in return for her worship, and attaining a body of light akin to the moonlight, the Vel brought on a swirling within which brought me to witness the flowering of the 1008 petals. I remained in samadhi. The music within was heard (as Agathiyar too told me to listen to). The Manam was chained. I melted in the Karumunai or His abode. (If the journey within starts with the swirling of the Suzhimunai it ends in the Karumunai.) I was tied forever to the Peroli or Light that knew no bounds and boundaries."

On 22 August 2022, Agathiyar allayed my fear telling me "You shall witness many changes taking place within you. Do not fear. Due to the activation of the chakras your body shall emit a foul smell. You shall have constipation. You shall urinate often. Take lots of warm water.  The Agathiyar Kuzhambu you took did help in expelling the three dosas. But there is still more filth that shall be expelled in due time. Carry out the said practice." 

"உடலில் பல மாற்றங்கள் கண்டறிவாய். பயம் கொள்ள வேண்டாம். இச்சக்கரங்கள் புணர்ச்சியால் உன் உடலில் ஏற்படும் மாற்றங்கள், துர்நாற்றம் வீசும், மல சிக்கல் ஏற்படும், கழிவு ஆகும், சிறுநீர் அதிகம் வெளியேறும். வெந்நீர் அதிகம் அருந்து. அன்று நீ உண்ட குழம்பினாள் உன் உடலிலிருந்து வாத, பித்த, கபம் சற்றே அகன்றது. இன்னும் இருக்கிறது. அவை அகலும். இப்பயிற்சியினை மேற்கோள்."

Shortly after, upon waking up and stretching myself in bed at 6.40am  I felt a pull of a nerve and a tug right below the navel. It brought on a swirling sensation followed by a chillness. My whole body became numb right to the tips. Soon I felt nauseous and had the urge come on to pee and urine. I collapsed twice on the way to the toilet picking myself up each time. Back from the toilet, all was fine. It was blissful. 

The next day, I woke up at 7.20am, to go to the loo but I could not piss. I fell again. I picked myself up and climbed onto the bed. My body became numb from the shoulders down. I lay like a dead log on my bed. Although I could not move even an inch of my torso I was able to see, hear and talk and was aware of what was happening to me. I asked myself if this was what a dead body would feel like. Soon the experience went away. 

Seeking answers to what had taken place, Agathiyar cleared the air later. He told me not to worry and said that the stagnated water was released. Nevertheless, he gives a warning to all of us. When the chakras are activated late in life it would have some adverse results on our bodies. When the heat of tapas increases in our body, blood flow will be less bringing on numbness. This would result in urinary and excretion problems. 

கவலை கொள்ள ஒன்றுமில்லை. தேங்கி இருந்த நீர் வெளி கொண்டது. ஆனபோதும் முதிர்ந்த நிலையில் சக்கரங்கள் திறப்பதனால் உதிர வாட்டம் கொண்டுள்ளது. ஆகையால் எண்கள் மேரு பெறும். ஆங்கில மருத்துவம் கொண்டு அதனைச் சுத்தம் செய்து கோல். முதிர்ச்சியில் சக்கரங்கள் திறக்கும்போது அவ்வுடல் சில பாதிப்பினை ஏற்றுக்கொள்ளும். ஆகையால் மருத்துவம் உனக்குத் தேவை. உனது உடலில் உஷ்ணம் ஏற ஏற உதிரம் குறையும். உதிரம் குறைந்தால் உடல் மறுத்துப் போகும். உடல் மறுத்துப் போனால் சிறுநீர் கோளாறு கழிவில் கோளாறு. மருத்துவம் கொண்டு அதைச் சீர் படுத்திக் கொள்.

The swirling sensation felt for several weeks in the abdomen just below my navel was regularly felt in the crown of my head but with a lesser intensity. I guess this is what Agathiyar meant when he said I shall feel a magnetic wave arise. A couple of days later, it seemed more like a flowering of petals and was blissful. 

On 19 October 2022 as I lay on my sofa in the living room with my eyes close, my finger that was touching the crown of my head could feel a pulse. This is usually observed in small children. Modern science brushes this off as "feeling a pulse in the fingertip. It refutes that "there is no way that our fingers would be able to detect any blood flow given the condition that between the finger and the scalp and the arteries of our brain is the skull." It was there for some time.

The pain similar to that which I had endured in the years between 2010 and 2012 in my lower back originally over time moved to the groin, at times the left and other times the right, and the testes, and later to the chest and then the left of my neck and the back of my head. It resulted in pain in the left ear too. The pain and discomfort after holding base at those places mentioned would leave after several days on its own accord for the next campsite. Excessive wind would be expelled from the body during these times. It left me completely eventualy. A chillness and swirling that is akin to a flowering goes on irrespective of my daily activities these days. It is more intense each time I bring my attention to it. Following the flowering in the crown that goes on without my participation or action, I asked Agathiyar what I should do further. His reply was to do nothing and that it shall do its work. Since Agathiyar said the energies will do the rest, we have basically become a dynamo.The breath that is akin to the river turns the turbine machine in our case the chakras to produce electricity and energy.  A clear nostril is a highway for these energies to hitch on the breath and make their way swiftly to the depo at the top of the head. The body is now a magnet that is attracting the effulgence from beyond. We understand that while we see lightning appear in the skies and strike things on the ground, there is a small amount of electricity that reaches out to it from the earth. The small amount of electricity meets the larger expanse that is God.  

What can I say of the Siddhas? If Tavayogi in bringing me to the abodes of the Siddhas in the jungles pointed to the skies and told me the Siddhas were showering us with flower petals then, and Agathiyar said the same, in going within the flowering happens in the sky of our torso, the crown. If Agathiyar told me back then that the skies had opened up both in Kallar and AVM during his Jayanthi puja, during the recent Sivarathri he said that the Prapanjam had split opened and was showering its goodness to those who tap it. 

Contrary to the hype that surrounds raising the Kundalini to gain powers or control or Siddhis, I came to understand that it was to lead us to Gnanam or divine wisdom. Agathiyar reveals that "All this while you have gained external knowledge or Ulaga Gnanam. Now you shall gain Gnanam that is going to serve you." Agathiyar reiterates that "When one starts the journey in going within, the result is Gnanam." Just as no one can predict the path the Kundalini takes, Agathiyar too says that of Gnanam that it shall vary among people. "Hence I cannot say exactly what shall take place." 

"ஒருவன் தனக்குள் உள்வாங்கி அவனுள் பயணம் துவங்கும் நேரம் அப்பயணம் தரும் பாதிப்பே ஞானம். அவை ஒவ்வொருவருக்கும் மாற்றம் பெரும். ஆகையால் அவை நான் இதுதான் என்று சொல்ல இயலாது. நீ இதுவரையில் கண்ட ஞானம் உலக வாழ்க்கை ஞானம். இனி காணப்போவது உனக்கான ஞானம்."

AN ATTEMPT TO REACH THE STATE OF JOTHI

As we dwell on spiritualism and prod it going deeper and deeper, we think we have found answers and understood. But an equal number of new questions and doubts keep popping up. For instance, if this world we live in and all of creation is considered by the saints and learned as Maya then how is it that the Siddhas have gone into the intricacies of creation and written and sang about them to the minutest detail? Ramalinga Adigal speaks about the many worlds beyond our earth. If the entire material creation that we see around us is a manifestation of Prakriti or Maya, why did the Siddhas give so much reverence for it? If all was Maya why did Ramalinga Adigal speak about the directions where one seeking specific benefits should turn to and sit in meditation. If this body was a work of Maya why did they go to the extent of discovering all about it and took measures to maintain it in top form? If everything was temporary in nature why did our ancestors leave behind sastras as in the erection of temples and its agamas to follow? Why did they gift us the gift of astrology and the Nadi? Why did they gift us Siddha and Ayurveda medicines and methods of treatment? Why did the Siddhas "perform all the spiritual, medical, and scientific marvels", if it was all an illusion. Why did so much work go into all these if only to have the floodwaters wash it away? It is said that most of Arunagiri's works were swallowed by the sea. What remains is only some 3,000 songs from his estimated 16,000. When some saints shed the body telling us it is but a bag filled with air and sought to know the soul instead, why did the Siddhas treat the Dosas and have us consume Kayakalpas to strengthen it? They can always nip us in the bud telling us it is all Maya and have us dwell in the Spirit and Atma at the onset. Why did fellow Siddhas condemn certain practices that were given to mankind by their own kind? Did they arrive at the truth?

P.Karthigayan sheds some light on this in his book "History of Medical and Spiritual Sciences of Siddhas of Tamil Nadu", Notion Press, 2016. He differentiates these two preferences and ideals, adding that the Siddhas preferred physical immortality to spiritual immortality. The author tabulates his findings, the gist of it is given as follows. While spiritual immortality is attained through means of yoga, physical immortality was possible by consuming karpam or elixirs. One who attained physical immortality was considered a Siddha and one at par with Erai, while spiritual immortality brings one to the stage of a Deva or Gandarva. The Siddha who has attained physical immortality remains in the midst of people striving for their betterment while the spiritually immortal disassociates themselves from worldly affairs. The next comparison is interesting since the author mentions that physical immortality is attained by avoiding the causes of death while spiritual immortality is attained by erasing these same causes. While spiritual immortality preserves the soul and spirit, physical immortality is gained by preserving the body, soul, and spirit hence arising the need to care for the body. Physical immortality would mean no death while spiritual immortality suggests postponing birth. Interesting. The next factor in comparison is interesting too. While the one who has attained spiritual immortality abandons the body in Samadhi, the body is reinstated through several transformations in physical immortality. While the spiritually immortal lives longer with an aged body, the physically immortal lives longer with a youthful body. I suppose we can safely say that the spiritually immortal is a Gnani and Yogi while the physically immortal is a Siddha. 

What are time and space then? We come to know that the gregorian calender we follow now "went into effect in October 1582 by Pope Gregory XIII as a modification of, and replacement for, the Julian calendar which itself was a reform of the earlier Roman calendar. (https://en.wikipedia.org/). The then Prime Minister of Malaysia who came to power in 1981 standardized the time and "declared that people in Peninsular Malaysia would adjust their clocks ahead by 30 minutes to match the time in use in East Malaysia (UTC+08:00) on 31 December 1981." What about over almanacs then? Agathiyar drafts a horoscope when I went for my Nadi reading that was opposed to what I had with me since day one. Hence the reason what was stated before coming to the Nadi did not materialize. How do I explain this? 

Neale Donald Walsch wrote in "The Little Soul and the Sun", a children's parable adapted from "Conversations with God", Hampton Roads Publishing Company Ins, 1998, 

"The Little Soul knew itself to be the Light but it wanted to experience itself as Light. And God said that if it wanted to know the Light it must also know the Darkness. For how else can one know Up without Down, Hot without Cold, Fast without Slow? Then the Little Soul understood that in getting to know Who It Really Is, it would have to know the opposite. And so the Little Soul embarked upon an adventure very much like that we all share on Earth."

I guess as God said to know the light one has to know the darkness, similarly, we must dwell in Maya or illusion first, see through the veil and only then come to know the truth. To know the truth one needs to travel far. To travel far he needs his body to stay fit. If the lessons gained from the numerous encounters and experiences walking the earth transform him, a walk within oneself shall bring on a transformation of an entirely different level. It is one of walking away from the gross to the subtle. 

Just as many great civilizations ate the dust and were wiped out from the surface of the earth, just as many relationships only remain a mere memory in us, Agathiyar had me deactivate all the previous accounts on YouTube and the many websites where I uploaded and hosted pages of my indianheartbeat. He had me dissolve the very institution he created by bringing youths to my home that flowered and flourished to become his Vanam or garden. He had me accidentally erase my entire digital library of Nadi reading and Arul Valkku or conversations with the Siddhas. It reminds us of how the Buddhist monks purposely created Mandalas only to destroy them after they worship them. This was to instill in us the message that all is but an illusion and temporary and to seek that which was permanent. So what is permanent? Even my wish to bring fame to Agathiyar was shot down yesterday when he questioned me how can one add fame to someone who was devoid of malas or malam, pure in nature, and who was the very vibration itself? 

If the Siddhas guided us on the macro level, their teachings catering to each sector and division of mankind according to the stages of their soul transformation, a greater feat was what they did on the micro level where their teachings were catered and customized to each individual soul. True enough, Agathiyar in asking me to tone down the words used in my draft of a recent post, that according to him would bring on fear and keep away potential aspirants from his path, added that he would deal with each in his own way according to the temperament and understanding of the soul. Hence he asked to rewrite the general statement that I made that the Siddhas tend to take the cane when dealing with the hardcore and disobedient. 

Coming back to the vibration or unarvu that Tavayogi equates to life, the friend who was taught to recognize these vibrations in each chakra and progress to higher chakras through its visualization and Agathiyar telling us that he was the vibration that is realized in all spiritual undertakings including puja and charity, Agathiyar asks us to become aware of the vibration that rises within and follow it. Later he asked to dwell in the magnetic waves that arose. He asks to connect with the Prapanjam. It would then obey us. Work in tandem with us. Merging with it the vibrations arising in us will cleanse it.

பிரபஞ்சத்தை உள்ளுக்குள் செலுத்துங்கள். பிரபஞ்சம் உங்களுக்குக் கட்டுப் படும். துணை வரும். பிரபஞ்சத்தோடு இணையும்பொழுது உங்களில் ஏற்படும் அதிர்வுகள் அணுவாய் மாறிப் பிரபஞ்சத்தைத் தூய்மை செய்யும். 

TR Thulasiram in his "Arutpaavil Varna Tiraigalum Manigalum" published by Sakti Stores, Pondicheri in referring to Ramalinga Adigal, Sri Aurobindo, and Mother, writes that when one goes within, he shall have the darshan of his Atma or soul and know it and rests in it. In following either the vibration and going deep within or following the breath and ascending, he shall come across veils of ignorance at every stage. The vibration entering us or rising up (in Yoga) brings us to the state of Siddhi or accomplishment or Paripuranam or completeness. As we follow the vibration a veil of tattvas keeps coming up blocking our view of the other tattvas from us. The body veils the Pranan. The Pranan veils the Manam. The Manam in turn veils the Uyir. The Atma is of the nature of God. It stays hidden as the Paramatma in the Sahasrara and as the Jeevatma in Ajna. It keeps to itself and keeps one in ignorance. The divine presence, the soul's existence, and the consciousness of the soul though veiled in the darkness of ignorance, ever prevails and pervades. This is the black veil that both Ramalinga Adigal and Sri Aurobindo speak about. We need to cross, pierce and shred these veils. He says that by drawing the veils aside and entering one can meet his God in the temple within him. Once we reach the white veil that veils the Atma and enter we come face to face with our Atma. That is Atma Darisanam. Passing through these six veils he comes to meet his Atma. But this is only the start. Before we realize it another veil comes up as an obstacle. This is the seventh veil. It is a mix of all colors. After we traverse the sixth and arrive at the seventh the internal and external states are revealed. We need to purify and change these tattvas to shine. After purifying and transforming them the Uyir reaches the abode of the Atma that is Agni Peedham, enters, and merges with the Atma. Reaching soul realization the Gnanaperuvili shows itself. Ramalinga Adigal too receives Atma Kaatchi or soul realization or Atma Darisanam. This too dissolves before he steps into the Gnanaperuveli. Hence in purifying the states of the tattvas and states of vibrations and step by step transforming its gross state to that of light and divine vibration a transformation takes place. Only then can we cross this state and move into the Gnanaperuveli. This is true evolution.

"ஒருவன் உணர்வினால் உள்முகமாகச் சென்றாலும், மேல் நோக்கி ஏறிச் சென்றாலும், ஒவ்வொரு கட்டத்திலும் அஞ்ஞான திரைகலை சந்திப்பான். உள்ளே ஒருவன் உள் நோக்கிச் சென்றால் அதன் ஆழத்தில் தன் சொந்த உண்மையான இருப்பு நிலையை (ஆன்மாவை) தரிசிக்கலாம், அறிந்து அதில் நிலைபெறலாம். நம் உணர்வு உள்முகமாகப் புகுவதும், மேல் வெளிக்கு ஏறி அடைவதும் சித்தி  ஆகும். நம் உணர்வு உள்முகமாகப் புகும் கிரமத்தில் ஒரு திரையின் தத்துவம் அதற்கும் உள்ளே இருக்கும் இன்னொரு தத்துவத்தை மறைக்கும். உடல் (சிவப்புத் திரை), பிராணனையும் (பச்சை திரை), பிராணன் மனதையும் (நீல திரை), மனது ஆருயிரையும் மறைக்கும். அவற்றைக் கடக்க வேண்டும். அல்லது ஊடுருவிப் பின்பு நீக்கவும் வேண்டும். திரைகளாகிய வர்ணங்கள் படி படியாக நீக்கி அல்லது ஊடுருவி உள்ளே இருக்கும் ஆண்டவனை (மேய்ப்பதியை, ஆன்மாவை) தரிசிக்கும் கோவில் மனிதனிடம் உள்ளது. பேர் ஆண்டவனின் அம்சமே ஆத்மா. இந்த ஆன்மா தலையின் உச்சியில் சகஸ்ராரத்தில் பரமாத்மாவாகவும் புருவ மத்தியின் ஆழத்தில் ஜீவாத்மாவாகவும் மறைவாகப் பின்னால் நின்று அஞ்ஞானத்தில் வழிகாட்டி நடத்தி வளர்த்துத் தானும் தனித்த ஆன்மா உருவாக வளர்ந்து செயல்பட்டு கொண்டு இருக்கும். ஆண்டவனின் சாநித்தியமும், ஆன்மாவின் இருப்பும், உணர்வும் முழு ஜட இருளிலும் கூட நிலைபெற்று நிலைத்தும் ஆனால் அதே சமயம் மறைபட்டும் உள்ளன. இதுவே கருப்பு திரை ஆகும். ஆன்மாவை மறைக்கின்ற ஆறாவதாகிய வெள்ளை திரை அது கடந்தால் ஆன்மாவைத் தரிசிக்கலாம். ஆறு திரைகளைக் கடந்து அவனுடைய உயிர் தன் சொந்த ஆத்மாவை தரிசனம் செய்கிறது. இது ஆரம்ப படித்தான். அதற்குள் ஒரு திரை வந்து தடை செய்து மறைகிறது. இதுவே ஏழாவதுவாகிய கலப்பு திரை. ஆறு திரைகள் கடந்து ஆன்மாவைத் தரிசித்து விட்டால் உள் நிலைகளும் புற நிலைகளும் ரகசியமாகத் திறந்து கொள்ளும். இதனைத் தூய்மை படுத்தி இணைத்து ஒளிமயமான தத்துவங்களாக மாற்றி அமைக்க வேண்டும். தூய்மை படுத்தி உருமாற்றம் செய்துவித்தால் ஆருயிர் தன் ஆன்மாவின் இருப்பிடமாகிய அக்கினி பீடத்தை அடைந்து அதில் நுழைந்து பின் ஆன்மாவுடன் ஒன்றாகி அதிலேயே நிலைத்து விடும். ஆன்ம அனுபவம் நிலையாக ஏற்பட்டதும் அதில் ஞானப்பெருவெளியின் காட்சி ஏற்படும். வள்ளலாரும் ஞானப்பெருவெளியின் காட்சியை முதலில் ஆன்மக்காட்சியாகப் பெறுகிறார். இக்காட்சியும் மறைகிறது. பின்பு அவ்வெலிக்கு நேரடியாக ஏறி அடைந்து சித்தி பெறுகிறார். ஆகவே எல்லா தத்துவங்களையும் உணர்வு நிலைகளையும் தூய்மை படுத்தியும் இணைத்து ஒழுங்கு படுத்தியும் அவற்றில் படிப்படியாக ஒளியும் தெய்வீக உணர்வும் நிரம்பும்படி உருமாற்றம் செய்ய வேண்டும். அப்போதுதான் இத்திரை கடந்து ஞானப் பெருவெளி முடிவாக ஏறமுடியும். இதுவே முறையான கிரமமான பரிணாமம் ஆகும்." 

Agathiyar tells us that though we are kept in ignorance, that is a part of the play of the divine or divine lila, and one of its attributes is to veil, besides the other four that of creation, sustenance, destroying, and showering its grace, the Atma comes to the fore depending on our actions and direction. Steeped in ignorance the guru's touch is needed to bring an awareness of the presence of the Atma in us. It steps out of its ignorance and takes the hand of the guru. As the awareness of the Atma grows in us, and it gains soul power or Atma Balam the resulting vibration reaches the state that Agathiyar is in. And so Agathiyar is indeed the vibration that is spoken of. Agathiyar says that, once the body separates back into the respective tattvas, the Uyir or breath merges in the Atma and reaches Agathiyar as the Jothi. Hence the reason we are asked to use our breath to fan the Atma or Jothi within. 

ஆன்மாவாகியது 5 கூறு தத்துவங்களைக் கொண்டது. ஆன்மா உடலையும் உயிரையும் தனது கட்டுப்பாட்டுக்குள் வைத்துக் கொள்ளும் ஒரு சூச்சமம். இந்தச் சூச்சமத்தை பிறந்த குழந்தைகள் 1  முதல் 5 வராகை வரையிலும் உடன் இருந்து மறையும். மறைத்தலின் காரணம் இன்னதென்று இப்போது உனக்குச் சொல்ல இயலாது. ஆனபோதிலும் ஆன்ம ஒருவரின் செயலைப் பொறுத்தே மீண்டும் அவனை வந்து சேரும். ஆன்மா உன்னோடு இருந்து உன்னை ஒரு பாதைக்கு இழுத்து செல்லும். அப்போது நீ அதனை உணர்ந்தாள், உன்னில் அதிர்வாய் தோன்றி மறையும். அந்த அதிர்வினை நீ உனக்குள் நீடிக்கப் பழகினால் உன்னால் ஆன்மா என்னும் உனது அதிர்வுகளில் ஊடுருவி என்னுள் (இறை / அகத்தியன்) வந்து சேர ஒரு வழி. உடல் என்பது பஞ்ச பூதங்களில் உரு பெற்று மீண்டும் பஞ்ச பூதங்களிடம் சென்று விட்டால் உயிராகியது ஆன்மா வோடு கலந்து ஜோதிநிலையில் எம்மை வந்து அடையும். 

P.Karthigayan in his translation of selected verses from Supramaniar Gnaanam 200, writes that Kumaran was a warrior turned saint who went by the name Supramaniar after the war. He joined Siva's Nandhi monastery and learned to drop his ego and pride; observed severe penances or tapas; mastered his senses; picked up yoga. Subsequently, he mastered his breath and attained the highest state of omniscient. He went through the painful process of transformation of his body into that of "air like", a death-defying, life-prolonging, and ever-youthful feat after consuming the ambrosia, attained through the science of the Siddhas, following which he went into the state of mounam and thus came to be addressed as Muruga. Muruga in turn taught Siva this secret and was henceforth called Swami Naathan. Siva too attained a luminous body. 

Verses from Supramaniar Gnaanam 200

A translation of a couple of verses from Supramaniar Gnaanam 200 is given with whatever limited knowledge and experience I have.

"Receiving the Vel from Valabai in return for her worship, and attaining a body of light akin to the moonlight, the Vel brought on a swirling within which brought me to witness the flowering of the 1008 petals. I remained in samadhi. The music within was heard (as Agathiyar too told me to listen to). The Manam was chained. I melted in the Karumunai or His abode. (If the journey within starts with the swirling of the Suzhimunai it ends in the Karumunai.) I was tied forever with the Peroli or Light that knew no bounds and boundaries."

"I stood as all of creation. The Manam stood in stillness. The Moon and Sun in unison. Taking the peacock that is the breath I stood where there was neither inhalation nor exhalation. Hence I came to be known as Murugan."

To physically go from temple to temple combating the many tests that are placed in our path and taking in the ambiance and beauty of these deities is a way to salvation. To believers, these idols come alive. To visualize a deity and meditate on him in the comfort of our home is another way. The deity then moves within. Yet another would be to take on chanting or meditating on a mantra and moving within slowly. All the mantras create sound waves that are known to move and rearrange the waves according to our wishes and desires. Many times Lord Murugan, and Agathiyar have asked us to place a glass of water and chant the Maha Mantra and drink the purified and energized water. Sound is known to move water. Curses pronounced are believed to change one's life bringing suffering that goes beyond several births. Another way would be to visualize the chakras and their colors and syllable and walk within. The Siddhas though suggest taking the breath as a vehicle and moving within. If all the previous ways were a method or means created by man and our forefathers to bridge both worlds, the Siddhas knowing that these too are impermanent ask us to use the breath that has been with us since day one. It never fails us until the count is exhausted. In telling us to achieve the state spoken by the Siddhas, they remind us to do it before we attain the age of 60. I guess the breath given to us and that sustains us shall exhaust itself after that or accordingly to the extent of our activities whichever applies. By slowing down we might add a few years to the count. With the aid of Vaasi Yoga (Pranayama) and Asanas one might manage to add to this count and hence extend his life span and live longer. But most of us drop short of our target. We never make it to the finish line. That is the price we pay for chasing after material advancement, courting development, and modern-day technologies that have "enhanced" our lives at the cost of losing out on our spiritual ventures. If many welcome this intrusion, Yogi Ramsuratkumar has mentioned that it is tough to achieve the intended progress in this age of multiple waves trespassing and surrounding us. Even Agathiyar told me I have to pay the price of living in the suburbs of the city when I complained that it was nonconducive for going within. Then he tells me even if I were to escape into the jungles I shall face problems too in other forms. But they still insist that we place effort to go within mounting on and riding the Vel or elephant or horse or peacock that is the vaasi or breath. 

The Siddhas went beyond race, language, religion, and form. They only saw the soul that dwells within this body of matter. They always addressed this soul. Their concern was for this soul to develop and advance further or rather see through the veil and have us drop everything returning the soul to its pristine nature of purity and vibration. Their intention was to help this Jiva(n) Atma to merge with the Para(m) Atma from whence it came hence leading it and bringing it back to its home or origin. In the event one fails to achieve this during this birth, his soul leaves the body to live in "other parallel worlds" momentarily before making another attempt. This and here is the only place that we can place a concerted effort and attempt at achieving this transformation, as a physical body is required to house the soul and strengthen the soul to gain Atma Balam. Hence the reason for engaging in tapas, charity, spiritual learning, performing rituals, etc. Thus the reason even the Gods take Avatars and Siddhas take birth as our kind. Ramalinga Adigal went a step further to provide a venue the Satya Gnana Sabai for all the devas to come down to learn but somehow his intention did not materialize for reasons only known to the divine. It is said that many souls are waiting in line to be given a chance and an opportunity to attempt to break this cycle of birth and death. Passing through as a human he takes up the task, mission, and target of attaining this state of no return. Otherwise, he hovers and lingers beyond sight yearning to be given another chance at it. We have been given a chance, let us do it as we have already come this far in having our souls evolved to the state of attaining a human birth and body.