When my parents lost two of my older siblings to diarrhea back then, when they were toddlers, and when I succumbed to it too, they rushed me not to the hospital this time, but to our Chinese neighbor, who went into a trance and saved me, asking only that I be given in adoption to the gods. I now had a Godfather and a Guardian Angel assigned to me. This was in the early sixties.
Later, as a bachelor, when those around me suffered sometimes in the hands of the very gods and goddesses whom they worshipped, I was confused and angry, for I was told that God was loving, kind, and compassionate, but it did not seem that way. I needed answers. Lord Siva, coming through a dream, asks that I keep my questions for another day, bringing me instant relief from my grief in seeing others suffer. I took a long break of approximately 14 years, equivalent to Sri Rama's Vanavasam, or his exodus into the forests after leaving his palace. The eighties then saw me drop my home worship and temple visits and focus on my new career and start a new family.
The 1990s saw me develop an interest in reading about the Hindu religion, its culture, traditions, and practices in society. I also took a keen interest in learning about palmistry, astrology, and numerology, as well as the practice of Yoga asanas, from books that included these subjects. The ground was prepared for me to begin to walk the path of the Siddhas that was to come soon with the turn of the century.
In coming to read the Nadi, Agathiyar came into my life, or so I thought, but he revealed later that apparently we have known each other for crores of years. He took charge of my life, changing my fate and rewriting my destiny, as I listened to his directives that came by way of further Nadi readings, as many as sixty. Agathiyar sheltered me from the storm throughout my life, saving me from drowning in the floodwaters.
Bringing me to Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal in 2005 and traveling the journey with him, Agathiyar showed me the abodes of the Siddhas. In taking up the Yoga Asanas and Pranayama that Agathiyar had Tavayogi show us, gifting me what he calls a treasure, in 2007, I saw the surge of Prana come within, and eventually open the Muladhara. As Tavayogi foretold that our efforts would only bring us to Svadishtana, the Kundalini energy that arose stagnated and pooled at Svadishtana beginning in 2010. As it needed the guru to break the bund and release the pent-up energy to travel further, Agathiyar in 2022 came to my aid. The flowering took place.
How do I repay him?
Thinking Seva or service to him in all future births would be the right thing to ask, but he questions if that was what I wanted, bringing me to rethink my wish. Thinking that Gnana was the appropriate thing to ask, he tells me that it was not gifted, but I had to earn it, walking the chakras to reach the Sahasrara, where one would then come to know what Gnana was, thus dispelling the common belief that Gnana shall dawn automatically once one reaches this chakra. One now has to travel the return journey, tapping into the Prapanjam and consciousness. He has to fulfill his purpose in coming here.
In having me read my "Soul Contract Reading," also known as the Spiritual Numerology of Moses, "that decodes the Spiritual Map of One's Life", so you can align with it and manifest your soul purpose. He pointed out to me my purpose in coming here as that of a Spiritual Catalyst, a catalytic spiritual teacher.
Teal Swan writes at https://tealswan.com/resource, giving a detailed description of this term.
"A spiritual Catalyst is a person who precipitates an event or a change on the level of spirit (the essential, incorporeal part of someone or something). Spiritual Catalysts, like gurus, have attained a high level of spiritual authority, awareness, and knowledge, which enables them to guide others. Spiritual Catalysts, however, do not aim to become “Leaders” to their disciples as much as they wish to cause their disciples to question and find answers within themselves. It is the firm belief of a Spiritual Catalyst that if a person is caused to initiate their own exploration on the level of spirit, that person will then become the conscious leader of their own life. It is also the belief of a Spiritual Catalyst that if a person becomes the conscious creator and leader of their own life, that their life will inevitably become a kind of living enlightenment; thereby allowing that person to live in a continuous state of internal peace and joy."
Shall I do justice to this purpose? Only time can tell.