This festival of light, Deepavali or Diwali, when many light up oil lamps and usher in good in life, I saw the light at the end of the tunnel- not literally, but I saw that the purpose I came for had come to an end and was fulfilled. I was to be a beacon, a light to others, a Spiritual guru, which I have seen accomplished. When others are said to rest in peace upon dying, I can rest in peace knowing that I had accomplished what I came to do and step back promptly. If I was asked to give thanks to the Siddhas and their Nadi reading, at the turn of my fate and destiny back then in 2002, I give thanks to both my parents, my siblings, my teachers, my colleagues, my family, my gurus in physical form, the many Upgurus who came by, and the Siddhas for helping me see to my purpose in coming done.
When many seek accreditations from others, it suffices to know that Agathiyar is happy with what I did thus far. The last time Agathiyar came, he asked me to carry on doing what I do. There were no further tasks I needed to carry out; I guess it was easy to work on me, for I had no desires nor ambitions. I went with the flow and accepted all that was destined. Thus his desire became mine. He tasked me to do his work here. As a civilian staff member working with the armed forces, I learned to keep time, be punctual, and be disciplined, so when Tavayogi said one needs discipline to come to the Siddha path, I guess it came easy to me, for I could take orders without question. Agathiyar reeled in some thirty youths in their early thirties to carry out charity and puja in homes and temples. He gave me the much-needed experiences to mellow my heart and bring compassion, kindness, and love within. Then he brought it all to a halt.
Indeed, there is no right or wrong; it is all a matter of perspective and action that is purely based on the moment in time. A knife can be used to cut up fruits, vegetables, and meat or intentionally to hurt another. Electricity on a minute scale heals bodily pain, as in undergoing physiotherapy, but was used to roast and kill a convicted person on the electric chair back then. It is what is in the hands and the intention of the holder or beholder that makes the change. What was Adharma then might not be so and is thus accepted now, and vice versa. We are thus judged by our intention. The Gods and Goddesses in the Hindu pantheon can be the most loving and the most dreaded too. There are those deities that move things, receiving directives from the higher beings. At the same time, when appealed to for help, they come to our aid in another form and manifestation, or Avatar.
When many claim Samadhi, one truly has to come back, like Ramalinga Adigal, taking his last known form to tend to the rites of his beloved devotee, Kalpattu Aiya, some 25 years on, on 26th April 1902, after he dematerialized his physical body into their very components. When many claim they are Avatars of previous saints, Ramalinga Adigal truly assured us that we could manifest again in one's previously known form. One now sees through the divine play in all matters and chooses to step aside and watch the play go on.