THE WEB

Watching some recent films including "Maanagaram" and "Kasada Thapara" made me realize the extent we are all connected. If I thought initially that I only knew my parents and relatives, siblings, friends at school and later colleagues at work, those in the neighborhood, and those who came together in prayers to the Siddhas, I realize that we have connected over a larger area and network of people though we never laid eyes on them. For instance, my granddaughters share about their time in their paternal grandmother's home. Similarly, they would have shared about us with them. Of course, we know each other. Then family members would have shared about us to others whom neither of us had met. Similarly, news reaches out to many who neither know them personally nor have met them. Then with the net and social media, our faces are everywhere. These images, their profiles, etc. remain in our memories. We are riddled with such memories and thoughts throughout our lives. When newer instances and events and people come into our lives the earlier memories are shelved into the archives but never lost. 

Here is where Tavayogi told me that in meditation we could know our past birth. Knowing this would connect us with others in the past too. Going further, once we get to know the Atma we can see through all the previous and future connections, events, and happenings. Better still, when we realize that we are the Atma we see everything crystal clear. That is how the Siddhas, Agathiyar and now Tavayogi can tell us what is going to take place, whether to go ahead or pull the breaks in a venture or close a deal or run away from it, etc. In this state, I suppose everything is laid before our eyes. We need only shift through the layers to arrive at the time and moment mentioned and retrieve the needed information. Could this place of storage, like the present-day, servers and cloud where all data is saved, be the Akashic library that is accessible to them? 

So if it now seems like our lives are an open book as the net has much data on us, our preferences, likes, and dislikes, etc the Siddhas back then wrote and kept details of selected individuals in their achieves.

In "Kasada Thapara" though it seems the "lives of a few individuals get impacted, both in good and bad ways, by the actions of others who are hardly connected to them" we are told in reality it is all a Butterfly Effect and Vantage Point theory.

In the opening scene, we are told that "Man is a social animal. We must live in peaceful co-existence, be it the good-hearted or the villain, the rich and poor, the literate or illiterate. We are living in solidarity without our own knowledge. Leading such a life of co-existence, 2 scientific theories hold good in our daily lives. The Vantage Point theory is when an event seen from a certain point will be perceived differently when viewed from a different angle. Hence, the climax of the event will change according to the venue and point of view. The next is the Butterfly Effect, that is, every small single action initiated by us will cause a change in the actions of others too. If you watch closely our lives, we can appreciate these two theories playing out in our lives. "

Whatever information perceived by our senses or told to us might bear a certain amount of inaccuracies. A classic tale was shared on the net and Bala forwarded it to us. A king is wrongly accused by a villager of poisoning his guest when in actuality the venom from a snake that was held in the grips of a hawk that flew over the festive grounds had landed into a pot of broth. Lord Shiva had the royal accountant in his court write the karma on the villager instead of the king.     

The trainer during our class in Neuro-Linguistic Programming made us think out of the box when he showed another possibility. After all of us had presented our drawings of an elephant to the class, he walked up and placed a dot on a large sheet of paper and declared that that was his elephant - seen from space. Indeed, the vantage point does affect our view and perspective of things, and our assumption and opinion of matters. The Siddhas watching from another realm would have a complete picture of events right from its causes that might date back centuries and ages till the present time. Similarly, they can predict the future to a certain extent provided another doesn't move the pieces, which is of course impossible. As the universe is constantly expanding because of our actions, predictions tend to go haywire.    

As for the Butterfly Effect, a classic movie that portrays this theory is "Police Academy" where an apple that is thrown out the window of a police car create havoc in the town. 

While downtown, Fackler throws an apple out of a police car, which hits a man on the back of the head; this triggers a chain reaction of violence which quickly escalates into a general riot. Mahoney, just about to leave, instead joins the other cadets to pacify the crowd. The cadets are accidentally transported to the epicenter of the rioting, and one criminal steals Blankes and Copeland's revolvers, whereupon the two hide out in the Blue Oyster Bar. A rioter gang captures Harris, with their group leader taking him as a hostage. Mahoney attempts to rescue Harris but is also taken hostage. Hightower appears, deceives the madman, and knocks him down a set of stairs, to be arrested by Hooks. (Source: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Police_Academy_(film)

Phew, what a series of unfortunate events! Recently, a couple who had diligently carried out remedies given by Agathiyar until he asked their relative to carry out one too, turned on me and Agathiyar wanting to know what was the logic behind asking someone else to carry out the remedies for their personal problems in life? I told them not to question Agathiyar for he knows best. He reads the past, present, and future. I asked them to read the early postings on "Siththan Arul" where the blog administrator Velayudham Karthigayen Aiya shared the mysteries of the Nadi and how it brought people from afar together because of their previous links in earlier births. I personally was so intrigued by these stories that my hunger to know more made me purchase the full set of 5 books compiled from writings by the famed Nadi reader Hanumathdasan published in several weekly magazines. In a timely manner, Tavayogi comes to tell us that life is a lesson and not a math equation to solve. Live the life he says rather than investigating the causes or trying to understand it. Agathiyar warned a couple not to question the past or look into its causes for they might not like it and cannot accept it.

The series of books and postings in a way encouraged me to write about my Nadi experiences, the Siddhas, and their Lilas or play. I am glad I did take it up, for otherwise, it would all have left my memory as we age. Now when my grandchildren learn to read by themselves they shall have something to read that is left by their grandfather. I am grateful to Agathiyar for initiating this and Tavayogi and readers to keep my spirits up when I had thought of bringing the shutters down on the blog several times in the past. These days they give me the subject and even the words and sentences. I am only the hand that types the keyboard. After posting each post, I go back and read them several times, trying to understand what is written. I guess the idea of having me write is to keep me from going senile and instead alert for my age. Thank you, Papa!

THE MOST COMPASSIONATE GURU

When a friend and devotee of Agathiyar was on the verge of burning himself serving the unfortunate, I told him that he should instead light another candle rather than exhaust himself. When we try to achieve something solely we will burn ourselves out just as a candle does. If we light several other candles around us, the work we do shall be carried on by others instead of dying with us. Watching the movie "99 Songs" last night, I came across a similar metaphor.

உள்ளே இருக்கிற வெளிச்சத்தை  வெளி கொண்டு வரணும். அனைந்து பொய் கிடக்கிறது விளக்குகளை அந்த வெளிச்சத்தை பகிர்ந்துக்கணும். வெளிச்சம் ஒன்று தான் பகிர்ந்துக்கிறபோது பாதி ஆகாமல் இரட்டிப்பாகும்.

What a wonderful reminder. We are told that we need to bring out the light in us and light up those lamps that have died down. It is only light that when shared doesn't split into halves but multiplies. Indeed when we share money or food, we will be left with a smaller portion or amount. But when we share the light its intensity does not diminish in us. Such is the sacrifice of the Siddhas too. 

They are continually reminding us to buck up. They are not satisfied until we take up the call. When we take a step they then work their best on us. They begin to mold us into their form, into becoming another Siddha. At times they let us off the hook for some time to attend to the matters of the world. They let us settle our karma so that we do not take it with us into the future. Once it is out of the way and exhausted by experiencing it, they come to take a stake of us and lead us on their path further. 

The movie goes on to say, the path of truth would most definitely be tough. But that path will surely bring us to our goal. 

உண்மையுடடைய பாதை கடுமையாகத் தான் இருக்கும். ஆனால் அது தான் நாம் நினைக்கிற இலக்குக்கு நம்மைக் கொண்டு சேரும். 

Tavayogi told me after we got to know each other that he had to rough it out after coming to the path. But he was amazed that Agathiyar had made it simple and easy for us to reach the path. Just days ago he told another devotee the same.

நான் காடு மலை திரிந்து அலைந்து பெற்றதெல்லாம் உங்களுக்குப் போராடாமல் கிடைத்து விட்டது எனக்கு மகிழ்ச்சி அம்மா.

Indeed when many scouted and searched for years and finally came to settle on this path, the path practically opened up before us, just as my granddaughter, when she rushed into the room told me that she had dropped from the sky when I asked her whenceforth she came.

The movie reminds us to persistently and with determination walk the path though be it rough terrain. We are told that one who upholds the truth does not need another birth. 

எவ்வளவு கஷ்டமான பயணமாக இருந்தாலும் அதில் தீவரமாக, உறுதியாக இருந்து முடிக்கணும். உண்மையாக வாழ்பவர்களுக்கு இன்னொரு பிறவி என்பது தேவை படாது. 

Lord Muruga, Agathiyar, Ramalinga Adigal, and Tavayogi are bent on making us Siddhas too. We realized this when they started pushing us continuously. Lord Muruga came to ask us to surrender, asking repeatedly if we had. They prepared our body to take on the next phase. They cleansed and cleared the body expelling the impurities (சுத்திகரிப்பு). They worked on our body giving us Yoga Asanas to keep fit and in shape. They have us work on our breath giving us Pranayama. They gave us numerous practices and came to remind us to carry them out. They asked that we do it before them. They came again to give further practice. Such is their concern and compassion to see that we make it to their state. 

Agathiyar asked us to drop Sariyai and Kriyai that were introduced by our parents and the Siddhas themselves respectively. He told us to move on to Yoga and Gnana. If Agathiyar connected us with the breath Ramalinga Adigal connected us with the Prapanjam and Arutperunjothi. 

But sadly many are lost in Maya or illusion. The world out there seems to be more exciting and appealing. Its grip and hold on these devotees is so tight that they find it so difficult to let go of the position, fame, and honor that comes with it. Just as smoking and drinking and drugs keep us addicted, the recognition the world around us has to offer to us and the pleasures of the senses keep us bound and tied to it. Yet Tavayogi and the Siddhas try to help us break our hold on them and move up to greater heights. They come to ask that we drop our petty concerns, desires, and wishes and aim for higher things in life as in the bliss that comes with these higher journeys. In Tavayogi's words, it is moving from Citinbam to Perinbam.

தேடலை உன்னுள் செலுத்து. எல்லாவித காரியங்களிலும் இருந்து விடு பெற்று கொண்டு மௌனத்தில் ஆழ்ந்து போங்கள். .... அதைத்தான் அப்பா அனுபவிக்க சொன்னேன.

If Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal had guided us in the absence of Tavayogi in the physical form after his demise in 2018, Tavayogi has come to guide us again in the subtle form. He took an oath to turn us into Siddhas. He invites us to join him in his present state as a Siddha. But the effort has to come from us. Then they shall shower their grace. He gives a metaphor that of a boat and the need to place the oar in the waters and row in a specific way to reach the destination. If we are afraid to place the oar into the waters, the journey shall never begin and we shall never see the other bank or shore.

உன்னை யாம் சித்தனாய் காண விரும்புகிறோம். என்னோடு என் சீடனாய் சித்த நிலை அடைந்துவிடப்பா. கண்டிப்பாக சித்த ஜனங்களாய் மாற்றி விடுவேன். அதர்க்கு முயற்சி நீங்கள் செய்ய வேண்டும். அவ்வாறு இருக்க அருள் அதற்கு நான் தருவேன். வாழ்கை என்பது படகு. துடுப்பாய் நீங்கள் சரிவரச் செலுத்தினால் ஓடத்தை அடைவீர்கள். துடுப்பை போடுவதற்கு பயந்தால் கரை சேரமாட்டீர்கள்.

Here we see how the most compassionate guru strives to work on his disciples to bring them to the state of a Siddha too. How can we repay their kindness? When they are putting so much effort to uplift us, should we not place an equal effort. Sadly they need to come repeatedly to remind us to place the effort. To those who hesitate or their attention diverted, Tavayogi asks them why did they come to the path? 

நீ சித்த மார்க்கத்திற்கு எதுக்கு வந்தாய்? 

When many tell him that they seek Moksha, Deathlessness, and an end to birth, it is obvious that they do not know what they are asking for. For one who seeks these, Ramalinga Adigal is exemplary of how one should conduct himself and work towards these goals. Are we doing it too? For those unaware of the ways to reach these goals the songs of the saints and Siddhas give us an idea and the Siddhas give us the ways and means. They stay and coach us till we achieve the grades. Though we stand before them with all our flaws and hesitate and are unwilling to give ourselves completely to the cause, the Siddhas never desert us. They may step back to let fate take its course momentarily but are quick to come to redeem us at the right moment. Meanwhile just as we have to run round the field to shed some weight before we are selected into the uniform units or forces, before boarding the tiny vessel that is going to sail us to the other bank, we have to exhaust the remaining karma that stands in our way.

THE MISSING PIECE 3

The first time I heard the word karma was when Agathiyar spoke about mine in my first Kaanda Naadi reading followed by my Shanti Parikaara reading. He gave me remedies to carry out.  I did as told without questioning him. I began to read about it. I adopted what I read too. As we took up the worship of the Siddhas, Tavayogi told me to conduct the Homam or lighting the sacrificial fire at my home. I did as told without questioning him. Agathiyar came in the Aasi Nadi later to tell me that this ritual will relieve us of karma. The Siddhas brought us to carry out charity to balance our account too.  I did as told without questioning him. Tavayogi would advocate carrying out the recitation of the names of the Siddhas as a panacea for all our past karma. Following in the footsteps of Tavayogi we began to administer the cure for one's past karma to others too. We thought we knew the solution to rid one's karma and dispersed that to others who came with problems. It was only when a girl who had to shoulder the responsibilities of caring for her aged parents and sibling stood at our door, told me in response to my "formula" that they had done all that was told in the Nadi and had given their best in charity to the needy and even donated towards the temples, but yet the divine was not kind to them, I was shaken and began to ponder what went wrong with our formula? Many years on another single mother messaged me asking the same question telling me that she was in the worship of the Siddhas but saw no improvement in her life and that of her two teenage daughters. I could not complete the puzzle as there was this missing piece that I was waiting to be given. 

In revealing the truth about the Udal or body, Uyir or breath, and Atma or soul, Agathiyar corrected our wrong perception that the Atma carried the baggage of karma with it. He told us that contrary to this common belief, the Atma in fact aided us to rid our karma. The Atma that is a part of the bigger Paramatma and that took on the name Jeevatma when it came to associate itself with the Udal and Uyir, comes out of hiding at a predetermined age or at a moment in time to draw the curtain and knock some sense into us. Those who become aware of it and take heed of its presence shall then lose their "I" in surrender to the Atma. The Atma then shows the means to rid their Sanchita karma further. The Atma brings them to a path that shall bring them to know their true nature and their source and origin, the Paramatma, bringing on Atma Vidutalai or emancipation. This is what we understood thus far from Agathiyar's revelation of the Atma. But there was still this missing piece of the puzzle. Why do those already in the worship of the Siddha continue to suffer?

On Sunday Tavayogi gave us the answer and the missing piece. It is only in those who totally surrender their "I" and fate to the Siddhas, that their Atma takes charge and drives their "I" into hiding. Those in the worship of the Siddhas but are yet unaware of the presence of the Atma shall have to work out their karma too. Neither the Atma nor the Siddhas would want to lift their hand to assist as long as the "I" in them is in charge. Those who carry desires and urges too are kept under wraps by the "I" in them that makes them think that they are the doer. They have to live it out. Tavayogi says that to stop or divert them would result in prolonging their karma. Here we recall Osho telling us to exhaust all our desires first. Indeed a man with desires has to either exhaust it or surrender it in its entirety. When we are taught to suppress these urges and desires it shall raise its hood later in life as the vasana is a dormant seed waiting for the right moment to spring up or germinate given a conducive environment. Here is where holy men too fall at the prime of their teachings becoming victims to their own hidden desires and urge. 

Another question that bothered us for some time was why do people avoid coming to this path? Those who arrive find it difficult to stay and continue the worship. There is the occasional tourist who gathers during festivities only. They head for the nearest center to participate or watch the proceedings. The above answer applies to them too. It is only those who totally immerse in the worship of the Siddhas taking up the rituals in their own homes daily that the Siddhas come to reside with them. When the Siddhas reside within their homes and within them, they take charge of our responsibilities towards the family and work within us to clear the path for us to gain emancipation. 

THE MISSING PIECE 2

Man is the only creation of the divine who can change his fate and destiny by working on his karma. In short, we can either take it lying down or as the earlier blog mentions "arouse our will to escape from this universal bondage by using our inner spiritual resources which are not subject to planetary pressure." Hence the reason the Siddhas on the onset introduce us to the knowledge and existence of karma and go on to reveal ours in the Nadi. 

THE NADI & ITS POSSIBILITIES

We can choose to listen or ignore claiming the Nadi as a hoax. We could choose to carry out the remedies given by their grace or brush them away as a rip-off. For those who choose to listen, they could go their way after seeing to these remedies and turn up for another reading when faced with trouble later. Then there are others who carry out the remedies and keep a tab on their actions referring to the Siddhas often. They begin worship to the Siddhas too. Among the latter, they might see amazing results and see their lives turn around 360 degrees or no change at all. 

THE LAST PIECE OF THE PUZZLE

Following in the path of Tavayogi, like him we recommended to those who came with problems that they come to the worship of the Siddhas too and they shall see their vinai or karma leave them. But when some ask us why is it that they go through untold misery even after coming to the path of worship to the Siddhas, we too were puzzled earlier. Many told us that they had not found any relief. They still faced obstacles, delays, financial losses, etc. We were lost for words and answers when they told us that though they were in the path, in the worship, and had done extensive remedies too but it was to no avail. We were perplexed and stunned as the very foundation that we stood on and the very formula that we held to crumbled under us. Tavayogi cleared the air and filled the missing piece of the puzzle yesterday. 

The Atma that is a part of the Paramatma joins forces with the Udal and Uyir to become the Jeevatma during the lifetime of an individual. It looks over our shoulder seeing through the conception and development of the embryo right till a time when we become aware of the "I" that arise within us when the Atma then goes behind a veil henceforth to enable our karma to take its course. Though the Atma hides behind the "I" it continually nudges us. For those who have a calling that comes by the grace of the divine to read the Nadi, remedies are dished out. There is momentary relief to their troubles. But trouble brews and sets in later in life. Those who stick to the Siddhas they continuously receive updates of their account, the balance on hand, or new karma credited to their account. Remedies are given regularly. Or they are told to undertake acts that bring on merits and balance their account. For the occasional tourist to the Siddha path, the Siddhas let the karma determine their lives. They ask us not to interfere too. They are expected to live out their karma and exhaust them in good time. Any interception of the course of the karma would delay the results of their karma. They shall have to serve them later as karma is not perishable. Like any energy form, it can only be transformed. But to the one who reaches out to the Siddhas daily seeking solace and peace under their feet, the Siddha gurus go to the extend of taking on their karma. They shall propose the means and the way to burn the vasanas that we carry even before it takes shape or the thoughts appear. What determines whether a Siddha shall intervene or not is the state of the "I". If it seeks pleasures of the world and carries desires the Siddhas see to it that these are exhausted by living it out. They never push their faith on such candidates. Tavayogi says one should gain that single experience that shall bring one to their path. It is not for the curious onlookers, the window shoppers, the tourists, or those fleeting and never find the time.

THE MISSING PIECE 1

THE HUMAN BIRTH & ITS POSSIBILITIES

Agathiyar had explained and bridged the nature of the Udal or physical body, Uyir or the breath, and the Atma or Soul earlier, with the common denominator or factor - karma - that runs across all three and that ascertains the outcome of each. Sanchita karma determines our fate, starting its journey with the planting of the seed the Kutastha, the seed that determines the gender, where, and to whom we are to be born, and the manifestation of all that cannot be changed or altered. A portion of the Sanchita karma known as Prarabdha karma then determines the course of action throughout one's life. These are decided by the individual Atma sitting in discussion with the Paramatma charting the course either for the enhancement and betterment of an individual to evolve speedily or to enrich it with the relevant experiences and learning gained from the desires and pleasures that are in waiting much in advance even before taking birth. The outcome of this meeting determines all the factors that come into play in taking a human birth. 

THE BODY

The 5 elements that form the Pindam or solid matter in the womb upon conception are sourced from both the parents in a unique proportion. If karma or the divine hand intervenes at this juncture it could either upset or enhance this division of growth particles respectively and influence the physical state of the growing embryo. If we are told in the past of stories where the divine comes within the womb of the mother and blesses her with a divine child, Agathiyar says the same for a devotee that "Ramalinga Adigal, and Lord Murugan, had blessed him while in the mother's womb". 

மண்ணுலகில் வள்ளல் ஆசி குமரன் ஆசி ஆசியும் ஆண்டு பல முன்பே கிட்டி அவர்கள் அருள் கருணையும் நிறைந்து இருக்க ஆசியோடு அருள் கருணை சக்தியும் தான் அன்னையின் கருவில் பெற்றதனால் ......

The divine tells us repeatedly that they have taken birth as our children and grandchildren and keep reminding us to take special care of them. I guess a seed is planted in them while in the womb of their mother that germinates with the coming of the guru later in life who brings an awareness of life, reveals their purpose, or revives the past memories in them at the right moment. For some, as in the many stories we have heard, the parents are granted the boon of a divine child after undertaking and carrying out rituals and austerities and having pleased the divine. 

The divine could intervene later in an individual's journey too. Before the coming of the guru, the field is thoroughly rid of weeds as in bad habits, negative practices, false beliefs, etc tilling the soil and plowing it, ready to receive a new seed. The guru plants the seed within them that carries the unmanifested energy of the divine. When the surrounding is conducive and compatible the seed sprouts, under the watchful eyes of the guru, reaching out for the skies. The earlier seed that germinated into our "I" dies a natural death.  This is "Dying while Alive". Breaking the ground and sprouting out of the soil, life and the next course of action in this new journey are detailed and undertaken under the watchful eyes of the divine and the guru. Die-hard habits are knocked off.  A new blueprint is drawn up for him. A new life form emerges and we take on a new birth. A new star is born. He then grows up to make a name for himself bringing salvation for himself and enlightenment for others.

THE ATMA

The Atma, before coming into this body or Udal that is a composite of karma taking the desired form, accepts to work with the individual "I". The individual "I" comes with its baggage of karma, the size determined by his or her willingness to shoulder in this birth. The Atma stays with the individual until the "I" in him or her surfaces. Then the Atma steps aside and backs off behind the veil, watching the individual live out his or her desires and urges. He lives out his karma. The Atma keeps watching over him without interfering. The Atma either reveals itself again when he has exhausted all his vasanas, desires, urges, and wants or "awakens" when the time-space is right or once he surrenders his "I". If we had thought that the Atma carries the baggage with it, Agathiyar corrected us telling us that the Atma does not carry our past karma but helps bring us out of it. For some, the Atma brings them to the Siddha path. The Siddhas might want to convince some to take the leap. But even the Atma and the Siddhas do not intervene and let fate deal with the individual if he or she does not give heed to their advice and warnings after several attempts, says Tavayogi of some individuals.

சில மனிதர்களின் பிறப்பு அவர் இச்சைகாக, ஆசைக்காக. அவன் ஆசைகாகப் பிறந்தான். ஆசையில் திளைத்து விட்டு மூடித்து விடுவான். அவன் போக்கில் விட்டு விடு. இல்லாவிட்டால் வினை தொடர்ந்து கொண்டே வரும். 

THE BREATH

Karma determines if the breath shall remain or leave that instant. For most, phlegm or kapam becomes the death factor. For instance, even if he is hale and healthy the phlegm or kapam appears during the last moments of his worldly life and blocks his nasal passages shutting him down permanently. It is said that we come with a certain number of breaths that once exhausted or used up, will result in our death. Hence the Siddhas are known to increase this store of prana within to extend their lifespan or dwell in the state of samadhi forever.

KARMA & ITS POSSIBILITIES

Karma if seen in its totality causes fear in us and dashes all our hopes of coming out of it. So is there no way out? Yes, there is. We can work on the Agamaya Karma that is taking place right now in this life with our approval. The decisions we make and the actions we take will alter the future, hence determining it in such a way as to attain the desired birth later or take one to repay bad debts or take another to enjoy the pleasures that come along as a result of the good done in this birth. 

The divine gives ways to redo, correct, and come out of the rut we are in because of our past doings. One who despises the life he has to live now can either work against his karma to bring a change, which is often an uphill fight and a battle lost unless he gains the favor and grace of the divine, or accept it and live through this predetermined life with the hope that things shall change for the better in a later birth. In the former, we are given a tool called free will to make a better future for us. In the latter, one takes karma in his or her stride as agreed, and submits to it. Saints either bring on the change and free themselves from the hold of karma and its cycle of birth and death or choose not to alter the divine law and see through its working. 

With the Kutastha and Prarabdha karma determined by the individual Atma and Paramatma, the divine gives us an option in the latter to take tiny bites at a time, an amount that we can handle and shoulder and work on, bit by bit. Or if desired we could see through our entire karma and return back to the source in one birth. In the former, the divine breaks down the Sanchita karma, that is the total sum or cumulative karma that we have accumulated throughout all the earlier births, further, and sanctions only a minute portion in each birth for us to endure and exhaust. Although these would mean that it is going to take a longer time for us to completely exhaust it, having the need to take many more births to unload the entire truckload of baggage completely, it would be a relief off our shoulders, having only to face a portion of the Sanchita karma rather than take on the full load at one go. The individual request to administer the rest of the Sanchita karma in smaller doses that he can stomach is granted. In exercising his free will he opts to extend the duration of paying back for the karma that he faces. One who seeks to end the cycle quickly could ask to hasten the process, mindful that he would have to receive the full blow of the effects of our karma. This request to take it in all its entirety shall have all hell to break loose, coming down on us with all its might as it has to be exhausted in its entirety within the next few years of our remaining mortal life. 

Another option is to plead for the divine to show mercy and leniency and reduce the misery taking it on in a milder form. It is akin to those who have made traffic offenses and are given a discount when they acknowledge their mistakes and vow to never repeat them. Agathiyar and the saints offer options to reduce the past Sanchita karma, that determines our future births. Intense austerities and meditation are a way. As the vasanas that are buried as seeds in us germinate and arise to drive us into activities that would fulfill the cause, we are told that through the fire of intense tavam or austerities or meditation it can be burnt even before it arises. In the former lighting the sacred fire, the Yagna or its smaller version the Homa, helps in eradicating the karma. As karma is a form of energy too, it cannot be written off but can be transformed into other forms. Hence we understand why the Siddhas suggests that we engage in rituals and charities too besides working on ourselves, upholding high virtues, and bringing ourselves to do the divine’s work, serving him and mankind which are all simple means to shed once karma for those like me, who cannot bring themselves to go perform austerities or go into a meditative state and work on their karma.

In the course of our journey, Agathiyar gave us simple tasks like performing rituals like the fire sacrifice and extending aid to the needy, the poor, the hungry, and the homeless, which he assured would burn our karma to ashes too. In alleviating their sufferings, these acts, he says, will help us sail through trying times besides creating good merits for ourselves that make for a better future and better birth. In giving the AVM family these tasks that served to bring on merits to us besides helping others he prepared us to do his asking, instead of working towards accomplishing our own desires and liking. It is then that we realized in doing his work, he took care of us and our family and our needs too. It is then that we realized that in doing his work, the Agamiya karma that attaches itself to work and action, resulting from our activities and that contributes to the overall Sanchita karma that keeps us moving further and further away from our target of achieving deathless-ness and breaking the cycle of birth and death, is now absorbed by the divine. The remaining portion of the Sanchita karma that stood before us as a huge overpowering mountain ready to engulf us in its totality dissolves into an anthill by the grace of the divine and the guru. Although these karmas and their manifestations would not go away in totality, the Siddhas would stand by us in our hour of need and help lessen the force of karma, thus saving our lives, bringing us out of danger, or lessening the impact of the fall. The blog https://www.ananda.org/clarity/2013/03/yogananda-astrology-god-joy/, says it beautifully, 

“The best way, therefore, to improve your lot is deliberately to act in such a way as to counteract the evil effects of past deeds. Especially if this course of action springs from inner attunement with God, or is adopted under the wise guidance of one who knows God, it will serve as an antidote to all baneful actions of the past. Cooperate with His will by offering up to Him all the strength of your human will.” 

Then there is yet another way, a supreme one, that is not for us to decide, choose or pick. It is solely the divine's prerogative. Considering whether we deserve it or not, whether we have understood the might and force of karma and its workings and have initiated or began working towards the eradication of it, the divine through his grace or Arul takes the karma away in its entirety, leaving us as clean as a white sheet. That is the day all our efforts drops and the divine comes as a savior. That is the day of deliverance. That is the day of total emancipation.

TAVAYOGI SPEAKS AGAIN

Yogi Ramsuratkumar and Bhagawan Nithyananda told their followers not to grieve their demise as they could do more from the subtle plane. Like them the masters in the subtle plane, Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal, Bhogar and Dhanvantri, Lord Shiva, Lord Muruga, Goddess Ma, Supramania Swami, and Yogi Ramsuratkumar himself and lately Tavayogi too came to guide us further. After his demise on 3rd July 2018, Tavayogi came and sat among us. He appointed Mahin to teach the yoga asanas and pranayama that he taught us in 2008 to the others. Months earlier Dhanvantri told us that Tavayogi would still guide us though he had attained Jothi. Now I feel that Agathiyar has stepped back and handed us back to Tavayogi. Tavayogi came again last Friday and yesterday and met some of his children reminding them of what they were told. At the end of the day, he told us that he was contented. We felt happy that we had made our guru happy.

If previously we knew Tavayogi as a guru who walked the face of the earth in a physical form, now his energy comes within devotees to convey messages. Though the guru came back for us in a different form his message to us never did change. He still asks us to take hold of Agathiyar's feet and not his. 

என்னைப் பிடித்துக் கொள்ள வேண்டாம். எமது மூலத்தைப் பிடித்துக் கொள்ளு. 

When we thanked him for showing us to Agathiyar, he thanked us instead for being his students. 

உங்களைப் போல் சீடன் கிடைத்ததற்கு நன்றி. 

He thanked us for taking him as our guru.  

என்னை குருவாக ஏற்றத்திற்கு நான் தான் நன்றி சொல்லணும். 

We saw his humbleness further when he asks, "I am a student of Agathiyar just like you too, do not worship me."

நான் என்ன பாக்கியம் செய்தேன்,  உங்களைப்போலவே அவனுக்குச் சீடன். என்னை வணங்க வேண்டாம். 

This is where Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal stands above the rest. 

He tells us that he travels with us just as Dhanvantri told us earlier. 

நான் எப்போதும் உங்களுடன் பயணிக்கிறோன்.

Tavayogi asks us to lose ourselves in silence. 

மௌனத்தில் ஆழ்ந்து போங்கள்.

He says that silence shall teach us.

மௌனத்தில் மட்டுமே உங்களுக்கு விடை கிடைக்கும். 

He tells us to do Satvicharam or Self-inquiry. For instance, What is Moksha? 

மோசம் என்பது யாது? 

How do we bring an end to this cycle of birth and death? 

பிறவி அறுப்பது எப்படி? 

How did we come to be? 

நீ எப்படி உதித்தாய்?

For instance, to the question from whence we came forth, Tavayogi says when the five elements came together man came to be. The day he surrenders these five elements back to the Prapanjam he attains Moksha. This answers the previous two questions too. 

பஞ்சலோகங்கள் அணுக்களில் கூட்டாக சேர்ந்து உதித்தவன் மனிதன். அவன் என்று மீண்டும் பஞ்சபூதங்களின் சரண் அடைகிறேன் அன்று அவன் மோசம் பெறுவான்.

He asks that the search begins within us. The Atma experiences its completeness only when we search within and arrive at the answers. True indeed. No amount of knowledge from the outside be it from living gurus, books, satsangs and discourses, or listening to talks, etc can bring on this completeness and satisfaction.  

தேடலை உன்னுள் செலுத்து. ஆன்ம நிறைவு உங்களை நீங்கள் தேடும்போது மட்டுமே கிட்டும்.  

Tavayogi like Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal before asks that we place the efforts towards it. Then His grace shall be showered on us. 

முயற்சி நீங்கள் செய்ய வேண்டும். அவ்வாறு இருக்க அருள் அதற்கு அவன் தருவேன். 

He gives us a simple way to settle down. He asks that we observe our breath. Moksha shall be attained henceforth. 

எளிதாய் உங்களுடைய சுவாசத்தை மட்டும் கவனித்து வந்தால் நீங்கள் கேட்கும் மோசம் உங்களை நாடும்.

Tavayogi is a living guru like the many Siddhas before him. He foresees the future. He sees the past. He knows the present. We are blessed to be associated with him.

THE VISIBLE & THE INVISIBLE

There are two worlds running parallel. One that is visible and another that is invisible but that can be sensed and felt beyond the sense organs as in the former. It hits the very core in us and brings on an immediate gush of energy and a rush of adrenalin. Tears of joy whelmed from within, without reason. Every cell in the body cries out in joy. At the end of this show of kindness there is only sheer gratefulness in the blessings that one has had. We are currently experiencing these wonderful moments. 

The gurus work in the visible world and continue their work in the invisible world too. In the physical world, they take on a form and a name. Once they go into samadhi, they continue to interact with us without the need of a Sangam or association, a society, or a movement that is apparent with all gurus. In the subtle realm, it is just pure energy. But though in the subtle form their manifestation is seen, heard, touched, tasted, and felt through the five primary elements. Since we are not receptive to these subtle energies and are dependant chiefly on our sense organs, it is perceived as light, sounds, sensations, ambrosia, emotions, feelings, and vibrations. 

Supramania Swami in speaking about his guru Yogi Ramsuratkumar told me that the Yogi knocked on his door at 11pm one day after his samadhi and handed him his painting before disappearing into the darkness that loomed the village. Swami gave chase but found no sign of him. When I was with Swami chanting the Yogi's name I heard a third voice join us in the chant. I wanted to ask Swami who the third voice was but as we raised to leave his prayer room the thought went away mysteriously. After traveling with Tavayogi for a few days and upon returning to Supramania Swami's kudil, as I alighted from the car, Swami asked me, if my guru was fine. I saw his humbleness again. Before leaving I had read out the transcribe of my Nadi reading to Swami where Agathiyar mentioned that Tavayogi was my guru and directed me to spend several days with him. As Swami packed some blankets and placed them in the trunk of the car telling me that I shall need them in the cold weather up in the hills of Kallar and the highlands of Ooty, he asked me to send his regards to Tavayogi too. I have never seen someone with such a magnanimous heart before. I had seen gurus who refrained seekers from visiting other gurus and ashrams. I had seen followers stop seekers from patronizing other institutions. In both cases the guru and followers were possessive of their followers. Here was a man who stole my heart. This was followed by another question if I had heard the third voice? Indeed I had but I had forgotten all about it then. When I asked him who it was he told me it was the Yogi who had joined us in chanting his name. He had come in the subtle form. This miracle took place in 2005. What amazed me was that the Yogi had gone into samadhi on 20 February 2001. 

Similarly, Supramania Swami too dropped in on us after his samadhi. Swami passed away on 7 February 2007. Agathiyar in a Nadi reading on 10 February told me Supramania Swami was a true guru and had indeed gone into samadhi and his samadhi would one day gain fame. The day Swami indicated his presence to us at our home was 17 September 2007. As I sat with my wife in the living room at AVM that day after prayer, unlike the vibhuti aroma that always prevails, for a change there was a distinct smell of tobacco in our home. The thought of Supramania Swami immediately came to my mind, as he smokes tobacco. Was Swami at my home in Malaysia we asked each other? Almost immediately, my handphone rang but stopped after a couple of rings. On picking up the phone there was a miss call from Supramania Swami! I knew that number was no more in use. I called up Swami’s number a few days later. I had to be assured that Swami did actually materialize in my home. A man answered. He asked me who I was and to whom I wanted to speak. I introduced myself and I asked if he had called me a couple of days earlier. He answered that he had not made any calls to Malaysia. Then I asked if Supramania Swami was around. He answered that he did not know of any Supramania Swami. I enquired about his location. He mentions it was Coimbatore. Then I ask if Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal was there. The reply was no and he did not know Tavayogi either. Several days later, I called my nephew who knew Swami too, and explained what had transpired. Upon ending my call, I realized there was a miss call while I was on the phone with him. Again to my amazement, the same number appeared. Not convinced enough, I called Swami’s son, Ramajayam. He confirms that the number his father used had been terminated. Later Agathiyar reveals in the Nadi that the miracle had indeed taken place.

Tavayogi had gone into samadhi on 3rd July 2018.  Dhanvantri came several months later and told us that Tavayogi had attained the state of light and was still guiding us subtly. Yesterday we had the honor to receive Tavayogi at our home. He came through a devotee and spent half an hour with us. He told us he was still monitoring our progress and asked his children to put in more effort. From what was relayed by him, we realized that he had not given up the principles that he held and had us follow when he was in the flesh. Tavayogi mentioned a pertinent point, in this age of questioning. He said not to try to understand life nor try to compute it but to live it. It is not a maths equation to solve he said.

உள் இருந்து அகத்தியன் கேட்டதைத் தயங்காமல் செய்யுங்கள். வாழ்க்கை என்பது பாடம், கணிதம் அல்ல குழப்புவதற்கு. பரிபூரணமாய் இருந்து விட்டால் எதுவும் தடையில்லை. தடை என்பது உங்களுக்கு நீங்கள் இட்டுக் கொள்வது தான்.

In "Inner Worlds & Outer Worlds" we are told how our thoughts have messed up our lives. 

We were truly blessed to have an audience with Tavayogi. A guru pleaded with Agathiyar to save his disciple in her Jeeva Nadi reading. What amazed us was that the guru was together with her in a past birth. We have to understand that the bond between a guru and his disciple transcends over several births. The bond transcends the body and the many births the Atma takes. We are connected through the Atma. The gurus Atma speaks to our Atma. Agathiyar told us that he only sees our Atma and not the sheath or covering that is the body. The Atma that connects with the guru connects with the entire lineage of gurus. We are blessed to have one nay have the whole lineage look over our shoulders.

ARE WE THERE YET?

What is the intelligence that shaped the Pindam or embryo, fetus, and body in a mother's womb? When did the Uyir or first breath come in? When did the Atma or soul come within? When did the mind come into existence? What was the first thought? These and many others are all mysteries so close to us yet we do not ponder and ask. Instead, man looks towards the skies for new worlds and existence. How did the Siddhas know these answers when the present-day man is just piecing them together?

Tavayogi says that studying what is close and on hand can answer the origin and mysteries of things beyond. That is the approach he took in defining, calculating, and answering many questions in his books "Andamum Pindamum" and "Atma Gnanam". These books are available at his Kallar ashram. His successor Mataji Sarojini Ammaiyar is about to release the biography of Tavayogi in conjunction with the annual Guru Puja and Agathiyar Jayanthi on 23 December 2021. These books can be purchased at +91 98425 50987. For those who prefer to read online or download an ebook, I have made it available here.

Though we have read through his books this mind of us never seems to grasp and understand the nuances of the many subjects he explains. Later Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal came along and asked that we read these books again. Giving us the practical aspect of their teachings, taking us on a pilgrimage of a different kind away from the norm that was temple visits, bringing us to their abodes in the jungles and caves, getting us to commission a statue Agathiyar and do rituals, getting us to do charity, getting us to practice yoga, all of which needed efforts on our part, they brought us to read up the theory behind them too.  They asked that we read up on the tattvas too. Knowing the tattvas one shall know the composition of the physical and material body. Through pranayama, one shall know the breath. Then they turned our attention within asking us to sit still and observe the breath. Then they asked us to know the Atma asking us to refer again to Tavayogi's book. I am still trying to comprehend their works. I shall continue to share my understandings in this blog with readers. Just as a child drops her favorite toy as she grows up and has real friends in life, we too need to phase out or grow out of our hold on previous teachings and understanding for a newer understanding of these subjects. This is evolution. P. Thirugnanasambandhan in his "The Concept of Bhakti" published by the University of Madras, 1971, clearly leads us into these stages.

The soul inspired by the highest goal of communion with God passes gradually from one stage of spiritual enlightenment to another. Starting from the first rung of the ladder, as the servant of God, the soul practices Carya (Sariyai), consisting in external duties such as cleaning and lighting God's temples, adorning the images of God with garlands, praising God and attending to the needs of devotees. For these deeds the soul is rewarded with Saloka or dwelling in the region of God.

From being a servant, the soul in the Kriya stage becomes a son of God, and renders more intimate service than before, such as invoking God's presence, serving him with love and praise and other acts of service like Sivapuja, besides attending to the burning of incense, collecting flowers etc. The reward for service of this type is Samipya or dwelling near God.

In the next stage of Yoga, the Sakha Marga, the soul becomes the friend of God and thus is nearer God. Withdrawing its senses from the material objects, it concentrates on the contemplation of Siva. This is rewarded by Sarupya, which is to have the same form as Siva but not the essence.

The soul has to progress further in the Jnana Marga to reach the final goal of Sayujya from where there is no return. Sayujya is a state of union of God and soul, a mysterious union of either, so that God and soul exist with their respective attributes, the former as the source of bliss and the latter as the recipient of the same.

The various paths and stages of spiritual development as explained to us by P. Thirugnanasambandhan are an echo of the "Shiva Gnana Siddhiyar". G. Vanmikanathan details it further and gives the respective stages of Mukti attainable in his "Pathway to God Trod by Saint Ramalingar".

• Sariyai or Taatamaargam, the path of a servant, "Were I to define Taatamaargam, is sweeping the floor of Sankaran’s temple, scrubbing it with cow-dung water, plucking flowers and preparing many garlands and chaplets for the Lord, singing his praises, lighting lamps in the temple, maintaining a flower garden (for supplying flowers for the Lord's worship), and when coming across a person in the holy garb of a devotee of Civan, enquiring of him, “What is the service I can do for you, please command me”, and doing such services." The type of Mukthi gained is "Salokyam which means gaining a Darshan of God, having a vision of him for a certain period, or being in the same world as God, just as a servant lives in a king's palace."

• Kriyai or Sarputramaargam is the path of the good son. "New fragrant flowers, incense, lamp, materials for the bath, offerings, with these in hand go to a suitable place, clean the place by the five processes, place a seat (for the God), install the image of God thereon, meditate on the form of God and the light that is God, invoke him to descend and occupy the image, worship him with great devotion with flower offerings and songs and obeisance, perform with ardor the religious acts associated with the sacrificial fire. Those who do these acts daily will abide by the side of the Lord." The type of Mukthi gained is "Saameepam which means that the devotee gains the privilege of being close to God in his audience chamber for a period."

• Yogam or Sagamaargam is the path of companionship. "Being engaged in the contemplation of the whole effulgence by the process of controlling the (five) senses, obstructing the flow of the two breaths and bringing it to a state of non-motion, gaining knowledge of the six centers (plexus) (in the body) and understanding their deep significance, passing through them to the top, partaking of the ambrosia from the region of the moon (within the human body) and storing it up to the fullest extent in the body, and other acts; in short, going through all the eight phases of Yoga." The type of Mukthi gained is "Saarupam, which means a pada-mukthi, or a graded Mukthi where the devotee gains for a period a similarity of form with God."

• And finally, Jnanam or Sanmaargam. "Learning all the arts, the Puranas, the Vedas, the Sastras, the philosophies, creeds, etcetera, learning the contents of several religions from top to bottom, knowing what is God, what are creatures, what the Malams, seeking the good path which discloses the transcendent Shivam, and gaining the privilege of becoming one with Civan without any trace of the sense of separateness of gnosis (knowledge), the thing to be known (i.e. The Godhead) and the knower." The type of Mukthi gained is Saayutcham, (the merger or union or betrothal). 

Agathiyar brought us through these stages in a systematic way, with Tavayogi showing us the means. Having realized the results we were able to put it into words when we penned the songs for our joint album "Agathiyar Geetham" with Raagawave Productions in 2018.

Ramalinga Adigal identifies the many milestones one has to encounter to move on, continuing the journey that brings one face to face with his creator. (Source: An Introduction to the Philosophy of Ramalinga Swami" by Dr. C Srinivasan, published by Ilakkia Nilayam, Tiruchi, 1968 (Srinivasan).

1. Human beings leading a mundane life without even a thought of its transient nature who are in the stage of Jeeva Sakiram or normal wakefulness initially, 
2. move on to the 2nd stage of Jeeva Sorpanam or normal dreaming and finally, 
3. the 3rd stage of Jeeva Suluthi or Normal ignorance. What follows are the states of the Soul.
4. When he is aware of the momentary nature of life; but is conscious of the world and external objects; and enjoys gross things, he moves into Sutha Sakiram or Perfect Wakefulness the 1st state of the Soul. He steps onto the path of Sariyai. I guess stepping into Sariyai that is a great leap forward having transcended the previous 3 states of the Jeeva.
5. When he seeks to see the Lord and feels inseparable; takes on an untiring search for God; and enjoys subtle things, he moves into Sutha Sorpanam or Perfect Dream or the 2nd state of the Soul. He engages in Kriyai.
6. Now he only wants God; neither dreams nor desires; his soul is temporarily one with Brahman and enjoys bliss. This is Sudha Suluthi or Perfect ignorance, the 3rd state of the Soul. He practices Yogam.
7. When lust and the veil covering the soul for generations are shed one after the other; the soul is cleansed by Arutperunjhoti; he has the spontaneous impulse of love for God; he is in absolute union with Brahman, this is the 4th state of the Soul, Sudha Turiyam or Perfect experience. He is uplifted to the state of Shiva Jnana Nilai. There seem to be only 4 states of the Soul mentioned. Henceforth all efforts drop. I guess from now on the divine works on our Soul. 
8. He gains Para Sakiram or Higher wakefulness, followed by 
9. Para Sorpanam or Higher dream where he enjoys the grace of the Lord and is in ecstasy. What follows are 6 divine paths. 
10. Sithantham and, Sudha Sithantham that is a state of Para Suluthi or Higher ignorance where the shackles are removed by Arutperunjhoti; he gains heavenly experiences. Above this stage, God is un-manifested. 
11. Next are Vethantham and, Sutha Vethantham that confers Bliss or Ananda Nilai. He tastes God; the glory of Arutperunjhoti; realizes self-realization on the soul as an atom brilliant as the sun; the soul is charged with divine grace; he realizes the greatness of God grace and his smallness; he gains self-realization or Atma Tarisanam. 
12. The third divine path is Sutha Nathantham, Guru Sakiram, or Shiva Sakiram. He perceives God in the form of light; the soul is saturated with compassion & love; gains experience of divine life (Uyir Anubhavam); attains purified body or golden body (Sudha Degam); the extent of achievement is dependent on the grace of Arutperunjhoti; sees divinity in all creatures; sees God in the form he is ready to receive; enjoys supreme grace (Arul Anubhavam). The higher stages are heavenly stages and beyond human perception where the mind fails to conceive and all senses cease to function; Uyir Anubavam in Sudha Degam; transformation to the pure body; love incarnate; the universality of love in all fellow beings; oneness in life; he sees the divine in all life forms; he sees smallness of one and greatness of God and has the spontaneous flow of God in him. 
13. The 4th divine path, is Sutha Kalantham, Guru Sorpanam, or Shiva Sorpanam where the divinity descents into the individual. 
14. The 5th divine path, Sutha Bothantham, Guru Suluthi, or Shiva Suzhuthi brings on the Supreme grace and prepares him for the next stage. 
15. The 6th divine path, Samarasa Sutha Sanmaarga that is Guru Turiyam or ShivaTuriyam brings on Periya Shiva Anubhavam where the body transforms into Pranava Deham, or the body of grace and merges with Arutperunjhoti leading to deathlessness or the conquest of death. 
16. There are still higher stages beyond these Sudha Shiva Sakiram namely Absolute supreme consciousness, Sudha Shiva Sorpanam, Sudha Shiva Suluthi, Sudha Shiva Turiyam, and Sudha Shiva Turiyateetam that Ramalinga Adigal hesitates to go into in detail. 

Phew! It is indeed mind-boggling! Can you make some sense out of all these? My feeble mind is struggling to digest them. And where do I stand in these numerous states? If I saw myself right there towards the bottom of the rung at stage 5 back then in 2017, due to his grace we have made some progress in this time. Are we at the 4th state of the Soul, and the 7th of 16 states of spiritual experience? Then again we have a long way to go to achieve the goal or rather as our efforts have stopped we await the grace of the divine to pull us up to the greater heights mentioned.

REMAINING STILL

If the universe is ever-expanding, nothing holds water then, even the predictions of the Siddhas. Looking into the future they predict happenings that take place. These are possible or might not be possible. It might take place or might not. Fate can change. New destinies can be charted. Everything is in a state of flux. Take the words of the Siddhas with good faith and work on that. Even if the expected results do not unfold, you have unfolded into a better being. A change has taken place in us already.

If initially we were brought to participate actively in rituals and charity and place effort in yoga, then we were asked to wind down and let go of all these. Even the intentional practice of focusing and concentrating on controlling the breath, which took much effort on our part, was dropped too. We were asked to just be still. Agathiyar says that the "breath" shall now move within on its own. 

இரு நாசியிலும் சுவாசத்தினை கவனியுங்கள். நீங்களாகவே இழுக்க வேண்டாம். அதுவே செல்லும். கவனியுங்கள்.

When I told him it was a struggle to attempt to go within, போராடி கொண்டிருக்கிறோம் ஈசா பெரிய போராட்டம், he questions me why should it be so? "இது நிரந்தரம் என்று தெரிந்தபின் எதற்கு அப்பா போராட்டம்?"

In the documentary  "Inner Worlds & Outer Worlds" (IW & OW) we are told that "A quiet mind is all you need to realize the nature of the stream. All else will happen once your mind is quiet. In that stillness, inner energies wake up and work without effort on your part."

In IW & OW we are told that "the ancient knowledge is here in our midst hidden in plain view. But we are too preoccupied with our thoughts to recognize them. This forgotten wisdom is the way to restore the balance between the inner and outer, the Ying and Yang, between the spiral of change and the stillness at our core."

We are pulled into the eye of the hurricane I came to understand now, where stillness and calm prevails. In sitting still we are centered at our core. The spiral of change continues to go around us but we are unperturbed by it. We are aware of it but do not participate in it. We become watchers.  "In the state of samadhi one is both the seer and the seen. We are the universe aware of itself."

Gnana arises in this stillness. The workings of the universe unfold before us. Once it is understood we stop participating in it. We become it. We become one with the thought and the action. Ney, we are the very thought and action. We are the dance and the dancer. We move things and move with them. We are the Prapanjam, it is in us and we are in it too. We stop resisting it. We go with the flow. 

We can opt to come out of it and participate or remain impartial and silent. There were many moments when Agathiyar took an active role to mend or change things but at other moments he was pretty silent letting things just be. Today we understand why he chose to be silent. If Agathiyar rushed to our aid initially to bring on the changes that we desired, now he wants us to test our strength and ability in bringing them on instead of looking up towards him. For how long are we to be dependant on him? The energy in us if diverted into the thoughts is capable of felling our enemies, solving problems, clearing the path, and burning one's karma. From a servant, a son, a disciple, a companion now he places his trust in us to walk on our own.

LOOK AROUND YOU

Watching the documentary "Inner Worlds and Outer Worlds" (IW & OW), we are shown that there is a pattern to everything. There is "beauty and symmetry in nature". There is "a dynamic order of pattern in nature". This "dynamic pattern is embodied in all living things". "It's an expression of nature's secret language". 

In "IW & OW", we are shown the seed germinating from the soil. "When you observe a plant growing in time-lapse video, you witness it dancing with the spiral of life." This is what my granddaughter does too. This kid who is alive with energy spins and spins till she gets dizzy. Could they unknowingly be working on their Hara center or Swadhisthana chakra? "It is in the Hara that new life begins." It might seem that these children are celebrating a homecoming or reaching out to the source or their original abode. Life is a dance for a child till someone comes along to halt it.

The world we live in is full of magic. This life is full of magic - if only we care to look at it unbias and without judging. Take some time off from your smartphone or your work or whatever you are tied up with and look at the rain shower and watch the greenery rejoice and dance in these moments. Wake up early at least just for one day and listen to the birds usher a new day. It's only adults who drag themselves out of bed and fear what the day has in store for them. Watch the kids run out of bed the moment they get up to play with their same toys again. I cannot fail but notice that my granddaughters do the same thing day in and out but are never bored. How is that? They see each moment anew. They are not connected with their past at least for that period in time when they are growing up. They are not connected with the future either. They live in the present moment. They cherish what they do at that moment. Next time you put some food into your mouth pay attention to what goes in. Close your eyes and savor the food that you are chewing. Savor the taste and identify the ingredients that went into it. Let it sink into you. Don't just shove them down your throat. Look away from the smartphone and look people in their eyes when they speak to you. Check out their facial expressions as they tell you their story. 

Both the ancient sages and the scientist saw nature at its best and received intuitions and inspiration. The ancient sages observed nature and came up with an understanding of the world around them. They saw animals and followed these postures that became assimilated in Yoga. We learn from "IW & OW" that Kepler discovered that "spiral patterns are observable in the way leaves are arranged on stems of plants or in the petal arrangement of flowers". Flowers are designed such that they can maximize the sunlight and rain and the bees can pollinate them efficiently. Leonardo Da Vinci observed that "the spacing of leaves was often in spiral patterns." If a single cell organism or unicellular organism can reflect the beauty in nature imagine what man, a multicellular creature is capable of expressing. This is why it is said that only man can attain Godhead. He is capable of expressing the bliss that is attainable in going beyond the body or rather within and touching and reaching God. We are always called upon to hold hands and sit in a circle by Agathiyar to reach out to the Prapanjam and tap the energies inherent in all. I guess that is the reason all satellites are in the form of a circular disc too. 

Then there are the branching patterns too. Nature is so innovative and creative. "Nature is an art generating machine or beauty creating engine," says the narrator in the documentary. Moving within the human body, he observes that "You need to refine your tools to look for nadis and chakras as they will not be seen in postmortem examinations." Non-resistance is a must to see results in all our practices just as electricity flowing in wires with less resistance carry more energy. "Equanimity in meditation creates a state of nonresistance". "What happens when you bring your consciousness into the body is that the wires or nadis become stronger. Wherever consciousness is placed chi or prana or energy will begin to flow. Physical connections blossom," he adds. Sitting still in meditation, energy is not lost; the breath is not wasted. We become a powerhouse of energy. How did the ancients know so much when modern science is only beginning to discover, verify, and agreed to endorse them? How do the animals know so much? No animal dies of hunger or waits for handouts to be given. When man breeds them they lose their natural instinct to hunt for food and for survival. But could these be a means of evolution for these household and farm animals? The wolf in the wild for instance has evolved into a pet dog we are told. As in the 5 tenets given by Agathiyar, through association with man, the animals rise the evolutionary ladder. This is depicted in the paintings and sculptures as well of Hindu deities having them at their sides. 

If I had thought that man's life has become pretty much rigid given the thousands of rules thrown in that ties him. The manmade laws for instance are one. Religion too ties us down. Stepping into spiritualism we are surprised to see the same laws apply. If I thought that man had lost his freedom to be free from the grips of both manmade laws and the divine law, we are told in the documentary that man's life is full of choices while animals are rigid. The crow is a scavenger. It can never be something else. A locust will act out its life as a locust. A locust can never be something else. The bee is vital as bee pollination is important ecologically. We can choose to be a bee or a locust or end up a crow - someone beneficial or detrimental or remain a parasite. Man has an added advantage that of becoming divine. Man if he chooses can become a noble person and a divine man. He can become a Siddha, a Rishi, or a Muni. Tavayogi told me once Siddhas cannot be caged up. The Atma needs to be free. Doctrines, codes, and rules cannot hold them back. The Siddhas broke all the rules, both manmade and divine. For instance, the Siddhas are known to have stalled, moved, and modified the movements of the planets. Many such instances of what are miracles to us are written in the documentation of the lives of the Siddhas. It is indeed unbelievable. We can only take pride and joy in reading about them in the texts. We can only talk about it to others, share, vlog, or blog on these. How many have direct experience of these wonders? 

The route to finding the truth is a lonely path. All the guidebooks are good to a certain level. Are the tools that hasten the pilgrim's progress aid to a certain level. All our efforts can only do so much. We need the grace of the divine to reach the goal. Most of us settle for the fruit on the lower branches of the tree and miss the acorn that the squirrel hid up, up, up in the tree. 

MAKE LIFE SIMPLE

Life I believe was simple in the past going by the documentation in writing and existing video footage. Since when did it become complicated? Man hunted only when hungry just as the animals in the wild did. Then he started to farm and breed animals for food. Today with refrigeration we slaughter livestock and stock them into these refrigerators for later consumption. Man has forgotten to live for the day. He seeks security and permanence. When these are taken away from him his whole world collapses. He begins to ask why me? Why not another? I was surprised to watch a documentary where a child who had to stay away from school rushed back upon hearing that the school had caught fire and all her friends and teachers had perished. She cried out asking God, "Why did you spare me?" How many of us would respond similarly in the face of tragedy?

If we tend to complicate matters on one hand, on the other hand, we try to understand everything. When I ask someone to chant a mantra, the recipient would ask immediately "How many times or how long?" What does it matter? What is in numbers? When Agathiyar asked to chant his name 100,000 times upon his arrival as a statue at AVM we only managed 45,000. He accepted it. Even before we start we want to know why we need to chant and what would be the benefits. I had a lady drop by at AVM during our annual puja with her family for the first time taking up an invitation from an AVM family member. She asks me what did I gain from worshipping the Siddhas? A psychologist cornered me at a temple puja after trying to meet me personally several times. He suggested if I could be hallucinating after reading this blog, as I have mentioned that Agathiyar spoke. I told him I would not be a party to his investigation of this phenomenon and instead told him to carry out all that I began with? Was he willing to sit and repeat Agathiyar's name? Was he willing to perform rituals? I knew that instant that he did not come to the temple to worship and pay his respect to Agathiyar but to meet me and prove his hypothesis that I had hallucinations and what I wrote was a hoax.

We want answers to everything. Only when these answers satisfy us do we set out to do what is given. This happens often with seekers and devotees who are told to carry out certain very basic and simple things for their betterment or to remove obstacles and troubles. We do not understand that it is never possible to compute the intelligence out there that has a hold of all things relative to our lives. Live would be much simple if we listen and follow. Live is in cherishing the simplest things. 

Sriinath Raghavan wrote a beautiful piece on Fb,

There are many who ask to be initiated into various occult so called "higher" Sadhanas. As a preliminary exercise, I usually ask them to take up a round of Rāma Nāma Japa at least a crore of time, just to test their receptivity and spiritual maturity. 

With this one suggestion I get a lot of mixed reactions, as many feel I have offended their spiritual sensibilities, by asking them to take up a very "basic" Sadhana. Some openly feel this Sadhana is best suited only for children or for the old and the infirm. 

Alas! What they don't understand is that, this is the fundamental of all Sadhanas, be it Tantric or otherwise, for even the greatest Yogi, Mahadev Himself is an ardent votary of it. Those who understand and have experienced the Name of Rāmā knows that it contains both the powers of Shiva and Shakti. When invoked it creates a heat so powerful that all the Karmic gunk present in us, gets burned in an jiffy, setting us up to receive the unprecedented flow of divine grace. 

There is no other Mantra which creates a "Taranga" of bliss, once the name is deeply embedded into our Consciousness. Remember this loud and clear, the most simplest has the greatest potential and power to reform even the most complex of minds. 

Indeed we expect difficult tasks to be thrown at us in order to attain the state of the gurus and that of the divine energy. Osho too says the same. He speaks about meditation.

"Meditation is simple. Because it is simple, it looks difficult. Your mind is accustomed to dealing with difficult problems. And it has completely forgotten how to respond to simple things in life. The more simple a thing is the more difficult it looks to the mind. Because the mind is very efficient in solving difficult things. It has been trained to tackle difficult things. It does not know how to tackle the simple. Meditation is simple. Your mind is complex."

Osho adds that it is through Vipassana that Buddha became enlightened. Agathiyar in my Nadi giving me the techniques to sit in meditation told me that both Buddha and Lord Vinayagar were exponents in pranayama. Could the long trunk that Lord Vinayagar is depicted with have a hidden message? 

In speaking about the simpleness of Vipasana meditation Osho echoes what Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal told us - to observe the breath. Yes initially they had us practice Nadi Suddhi and alternate breathing, asanas, fixing our gaze on certain points in the head, these days they have asked us to stop putting effort in regulating the breath or pranayama and instead just observe the breath as it moves through on its own without our assistance as previously. 

"Vipassana, which means to see things as they really are, is one of India's most ancient techniques of meditation." (Source: https://www.dhamma.org/)

Agathiyar has brought us to see things as they are. 

I followed what was told. I kept to Lord Shiva's words in a dream I had where he told me to keep all my questions to a later date. Things I read and saw, in reality, did not match nor tally. It began to eat me up. A relative was knocked down and died minutes after she had stepped out of the temple praying. A wife of a devotee who served the Goddess Ma was a zombie for months. She was carrying a child in her womb. The divine owned up to it telling them that it was her doing! How do you digest these? On the verged of being swallowed by the questions, I had then and confused figuring if God was truly compassionate why did he make others suffer, Shiva decides to relieve me of my agony asking me to take a break. This was followed by a 14-year break in all my previous activities. 

Penny Wittbrodt who was angry with God too questioned the creator why he allowed her children to go through heart-breaking moments as a result of their father leaving them when they were just babies. "You say that you are this loving God... and you want the best for your children. I have seen what you allowed my children to go through. What kind of God allows that?", she asks. God replies that she had completely misunderstood her and goes on to run a scene from her future before her where her grandson was older by some 4 years. Her son says to her "Mum, I am going to be the dad to him that I deserved." After Penny came back into her body and a couple of years later he son says the same thing!

Moving forward I started on the second half of my journey. after the long break that Shiva gave me to cool off. During this time I never looked back and tried to understand. I just let things be and carried on with my family and career. I never questioned my nephew who came by my home on a brief visit to pass me the Vasudeva mantra and later a painting of Lord Dhakshanamurthi that started me back on track. 

The following year I carried out the remedies given in the Nadi reading by Agathiyar without question, any hesitation, or doubt. When I landed at the feet of my first guru Supramania Swami of Supramania Swami without knowing that he was to be my guru, I listened without asking questions. Although he was an astrologer too, he went on to reveal my future without asking for my birth details, charting my horoscope, seeing my palms, or asking about me. All that Deva my chauffeur told him was that I was from Malaysia and wanted my daughter's horoscope written. Rather than work on my request he began to speak about me. Only later did he chart my daughter's horoscope asking his son for paper and pen and the past almanacs. 

When I met Tavayogi in Malaysia and frequented the peedham that had brought him over, I never asked him questions either. Traveling on his heels to his ashram in Kallar and taking on an adventure to the Siddha abodes, I never asked him any question. I followed his instructions to me that were rare in coming.

I made my life simple. I believed that if it was meant for me then nothing can stop it from coming to me. Agathiyar surprised me recently when he said the same, since it is meant for you, why fret over it he asked. When I was in pain for some three years, he brushed it off lightly. I now know he saved us a lot of anxiety and worry. This is how he teaches us to make life simple.

WHERE IS THE END?

Looking back at my life, I am amazed at how I have changed. My thoughts, my interest, my goals have all been altered. There has been a paradigm shift in my life with the coming of so many others in my life. There was a time that we only knew our parents and siblings and a few relatives and the neighbors, then we met our teachers and fellow students in school. Starting a job expanded the horizon and the circle of friends. So much was shared. So much was learned. So much was seen and experienced. When at the end of our lives when all those who were with us at one point in time pass over, what is left is memories. 

Then in the afterlife, we are reminded of our birth and purpose and examined if we had achieved the targets set. Otherwise, there comes another round of birth. This has been going on for ages we are told. When shall this cycle end? 

IT IS ALL A MANIFESTATION OF ENERGIES

For those who have more time on their hands, you could watch the full revelation below.

THE HUMAN BIRTH

We have heard our saints tell us that human birth is rare to come by and ask that we cherish it. Sankara lists human birth first among the three rarest gifts obtained through God's grace: human birth; the longing for liberation; and discipleship to an illumined teacher. Just as Sankara mentions yearning and longing for liberation is rare, and the opportunity to become enlightened and break the shackles of birth and death, that comes along as a result of this longing, is very very rare, in “Atma” - “Reincarnation: The Soul’s Secret Journey”, The Bhaktivedanta Book Trust, The International Society For Krishna Consciousness, it is mentioned,

“In one human life, we can create sufficient karma to keep ourselves entangled in the cycle of birth and death for thousands of lives. As human beings we also have the rare opportunity to become spiritually enlightened with transcendental knowledge and the chance to break the endless cycle of reincarnation. It can take many lives, or you can do it in one lifetime.”

In "Karma and Reincarnation - An Inspired Talk by Satguru Sivaya Subramuniyaswami, Satguru explains the reason for taking rebirth.

"Because certain seed karmas can only be resolved in earth consciousness and because the soul’s initial realizations of Absolute Reality are only achieved in a physical body, our soul joyously enters another biological body. At the right time, it is reborn into a flesh body that will best fulfill its karmic pattern."

The grand old lady saint Avvai too regards this birth as very auspicious and rare. She says, "“Rare indeed is to take human birth, rarer than that is to be born with a perfect human form, sight, hearing, and speech. Among them, it is rare to see one who does austerities and charity. When one does austerities and charity the gates to Godhead are opened.”

To be born a human is a gift. Shantideva describes human birth as a rare gift. 

• Shantideva says, “Only as a human can you be devoted to God, the creator.” 
• He explains further, “The human body is the vehicle for longevity, while the spirit is the vehicle for immortality.” 
• Shantideva reminds us not to waste a rare opportunity to devote ourselves to God.  
• He says, “This human leisure, opportunities, and faculties are very rare to obtain and easily lost.” 
• Finally, he questions us, “If one squanders the chance to fulfill the aim of human life, how will such an opportunity arise again?”

The great Saint Sundardas wrote, 

“You have attained this human body through God’s grace. You cannot attain it over and over again. This human body is a priceless jewel. Do not throw it away.” (Source: "Where are you Going? - A Guide to the Spiritual Journey", by Swami Muktananda, Published by Syda Foundation, 1989)

Swami Chidvilasananda echoes the words of these masters,

“The Indian scriptures teach that earth is the place where you come to work out all your karma, the consequences of your actions, both good and bad. This is where you have the opportunity to learn the greatest lessons and ascend to the highest awareness. Even celestial beings want to take birth in this place. It is the work of the saints to awaken people from samsara, the world of the wandering, from this chakra, this wheel, the cycle of birth and death.’’ (Source: "Inner Treasures" by Swami Chidvilasananda, a Siddha Yoga Publication, 1995)

This human birth doesn't come easy. Agathiyar says to be born as a human, one needs sufficient merits or punyam, in the very first place. Simply said, it is as if we have to collect points in our daily activities and redeem them in exchange for another human birth.

Milarepa says of the body,

I have understood this body of mine to be the product of ignorance, composed of flesh and blood and lit up by the perceptive power of consciousness. To those fortunate ones who long for emancipation it may be the great vessel by which they may procure Freedom. But to the unfortunates who only sin, it may be the guide to lower and miserable states of existence. This our life is the boundary mark whence one may take an upward or downward path. Our present time is a most precious time, wherein each of us must decide, in one way or other, for lasting good or lasting ill. - (Source: https://www.ramdass.org/ - Milarepa’s Initial Realizations)

The Siddhas worked to keep their Udal or body, Uyir or breath, and Atma or soul intact by numerous means such as connecting with the earth by taking herbal preparations or Kaya Kapha, connecting to the Prapanjam through pranayama and boosting the life-giving prana, and connecting with the Paramatma gaining Atma Balam or Soul Power. 

Mellan Thomas Benedict who survived death shares his experience.

"What I learned and what I believe to this day is that the physical body that we live in actually gives us the most beautiful vehicle ever imagined to experience time and space and to experience the universe in ways that cannot be experienced by you in spirit."

We have come a long way evolving from the lowest species to taking on a human birth. From “Atma” - “Reincarnation: The Soul’s Secret Journey”, The Bhaktivedanta Book Trust, The International Society For Krishna Consciousness, we gather an idea about the manifestation of the various species.

“All species are manifested in the early stages of cosmic creation, when the living entities (souls) are impregnated within material nature. These indestructible and eternal souls gradually evolve through the different species or types of material bodies, beginning with microbes and amoebas, rising through the fish, plants, insects, reptiles, birds and animals to the human and superhuman (demi Gods) species. So the evolution process is really an evolution of consciousness.”

Manickavasagar lists the numerous births we had to take in the song "Sivapuranam" from his "Tiruvasagam", 

“Having taken all these life forms to achieve his present state vis birth as grass, worm, trees, various animals, stones, rocks and pebbles, various creatures, asuras, and devas, and having exhausted myself in doing so, I found the truth to exist under your feet and thus I entered your home, my Lord.”

Satguru Sivaya Subramuniyaswami says, 

"During our thousands of earth lives, a remarkable variety of life patterns are experienced. We exist as male and female, often switching back and forth from life to life as the nature becomes more harmonized into a person exhibiting both feminine nurturing and masculine intrepid-ness. We come to earth as princesses and presidents, as paupers and pirates, as tribals and scientists, as murderers and healers, as atheists and, ultimately, God-Realized sages. We take bodies of every race and live the many religions, faiths and philosophies as the soul gains more knowledge and evolutionary experience."

Mellan Thomas Benedict too reveals the same,

"Every human today has worked their way up from primordial into being the top of the DNA chain. Our DNA is really the book of life on the planet. Every human being alive today has been everything this planet has been so far. We are the sum total of everything that has happened on this planet and a great creation."

"The human body is so very subtle. no two atoms even touch. We are more spirit than flesh."

We are told that we are connected with the rest of creation. The scriptures and sacred texts speak about this. Mellan Thomas Benedict says, 

"The ancients tried to tell us not to separate from nature and the planet."

The coming of the Siddha era has been a hot topic in the Siddha circles. Mellan Thomas Benedict says,

"We start having true contact not mysterious fuzzy pictures and all that and what we learn from these other civilizations speeds us along so quickly it is astounding what comes to us."

Mellan Thomas Benedict speaks about star seeding that is the talk of the town in some circles. But Agathiyar has not spoken to us about preparing another world for chosen ones to inhabit. He never gathered selected Atmas to come together and seclude themselves as in communes. He is still working on removing the impurities and toxins both in our bodies and thoughts. He has given us Yogic practices and comes often to keep a check. He asked us to do charity that brings the compassion that is veiled in us to the open. He wants us to extend our hand to all those in need. He brings people together whence the love that is veiled in us is brought into the open. He brings the self-knowledge that is veiled in us to the open and has us share it with others. He has no idea to make us turavis or mendicants but instead wants us to propagate the path to the family and its circle too.

To those on the verge of giving up life, Mellan has this to say, "Even the worst day of your life is filled with potential." He gives us hope and paints a good future for us and the world we live in. 

Mellan Thomas Benedict says all souls are pure in the eyes of God. Agathiyar too often says that he only sees our Atma and not the person or our gender, race or faith, and religion. He works on us to elevate our Atma that separated from the Paramatma and teamed up with the Udal and Uyir to care for the child from the day it was conceived to a time when his or her "I" arises. Staying around with the child for some time it goes behind the veil once our "I" begins to reign and rule us. Later in life when the time is right where we have exhausted all the karma that we had brought along it shows itself. For some, it comes to aid in showing us ways and means to rid our karma. It shows us the path to take that would bring on the effulgence and light within us, empowering it with the brilliance, strength, and power at par with the Paramatma. 

We are a body of light. As it is there is electricity in us. We need to charge the cells in us to attain the effulgence and luminosity of Arutpernjothi or the Divine Light. Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal want us to return the sparkle to the cells and ignite it to become an immense flame or a Jothi Udampu or Oli Deham or Light body. We have read that the transformation that Ramalinga Adigal went through involved the actual reversal of the gross particles that make up the physical body eventually transforming into light particles. The Siddhas are in the form of Light we are told. When Swami Jeganathar went into samadhi it was reported that his body emitted light as the light was seen coming out of the samadhi. Mellan Thomas Benedict speaks on this,

"You have heard many people say that they see a light leave when the person dies. Well, that is proven now scientifically. When your cells start dying they give up their biophotons and you are emitting light until every cell in your body has completely deteriorated. So you are giving off a light."

As Milarepa says, man has to decide his fate, "This our life is the boundary mark whence one may take an upward or downward path. Our present time is a most precious time, wherein each of us must decide, in one way or other, for lasting good or lasting ill", Mellan Thomas too speaks on the present moment, "The only time you have is now the ever-expanding now." We have chosen to freeze time into distinctive divisions, as the past, present, and future forgetting that the universe is ever-expanding. The present quickly moves back into the past. The future is equally quick to move into the present. We have to keep up with time.

The body is a necessary and great vessel to attain emancipation. Do it misuse it. Let go of our ideas for the body and instead take on the purpose that the Divine gave us this wonderful body. 

TO SIR, WITH LOVE

In the movie "The Lucky One" the lead character in the opening scene walks us through his journey in life.

"You know the smallest thing can change your life. In the blink of an eye, something happens by chance when you least expect it. It sets you on a course that you never planned, into a future you never imagined. Where will it take you? That is the journey of our lives. Our search for the light. But sometimes finding the light means you must pass through the deepest darkness, at least that is how it was for me" and in closing at the end of the movie he says, "Everyone has their own destiny. Not everyone makes the choice to follow it and I am lucky I did."

So am I. I am happy I took heed of Lord Shiva's words in a dream. I am happy I took up the mantra passed on by my nephew's lineage of gurus. I am happy I took heed of the "calling" in me to see the Nadi. I am happy I took up the calling to come to the worship of the Siddhas by Agathiyar in the Nadi. I am happy I listened and carried out the remedies given. I am happy I made my maiden journey to India. I am happy that my wife as she bid me farewell at the door asked me to chart our daughter's horoscope in India. I am happy the tour agent switched the driver and had Deva come pick me up instead. I am happy that Deva's brother-in-law read horoscopes. I am happy it brought me to him, my guru Supramania Swami. 

I am happy Nadi Nool Aasan handed me a pamphlet asking for donations. I am happy I kept it with me. I am happy that four years later I recalled seeing the name of the visiting Swami Thangarasan Adigal on the pamphlet. I am happy Mr. Appana Nagappan invited Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal to Malaysia. I am happy he allowed me an audience with Tavayogi. I am happy Tavayogi took me under his wings.

I am happy Agathiyar had orchestrated all these happenings. It is like watching a movie. Everything fell into place as I took them in my stride without questioning and without making any changes to their plan. As Lao Tzu said so did I go with the flow. It has been a wonderful journey indeed. My family was supportive of my venture and adventure. They joined me later. I am happy that we got to be together again in this birth too after our last at Papanasam. I am happy Agathiyar sent the young seekers to my home to join me in the Pornami puja. The family grew and became Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM). Today armed with the tools, charity, and puja they lead their lives with the Siddhas keeping them company. As we saw in the movie, "Everyone has their own destiny. Not everyone makes the choice to follow it ... ", I am happy for those who still journey with Agathiyar. 

As for me, I have journeyed far with Agathiyar. How could I repay his kindness, his compassion, and his love? Here we are in love with someone whom we have not met in person. He is in the paintings, he is in the murti or statue at AVM, he is present in our pujas, he stands by us, he walks with us, he lives in us, he breaths in us,  he takes the food through us, he is in our thoughts and the thoughts are his too, he speaks through us, he writes through us, and he keeps watch even after we have retired to bed. He keeps us alive and breathing. He keeps our bodies warm. He keeps us hale and healthy. He cares for our family and kin. He takes over our responsibilities as we take to doing his task. He takes charge of our lives leading us to experience joy and paradise each moment. That is Agathiyar.

I am grateful for all that he has done for me and provided for me. I am forever indebted to him. I do not know what he has in store for me. I guess next we have to see him in nature, all around us, and in the Prapanjam. I do not know if I can attain that state. Only time will tell. I shall carry him within me as long as there is life in me, for I do not know what to expect beyond death. I can only speak about it if I have lived it.

To sir, with love.

Shanmugam Avadaiyappa.