I have come to believe just now that my current state of doing nothing was spacing out or Tayutau in Japanese. After having me go on a pilgrimage to sort my debts and karma in a past birth in 2003, having me stay in an ashram and venture into the woods, jungles, and caves following Tavayogi and upon returning home having me carry out the ritual of Homam to appease the wrath of Mother Earth and for the good of all of creation in 2005, as Tavayogi and Agathiyar explained respectively, after having me officially come to the fold of Yoga with Tavayogi giving me several techniques in 2007, after coming as a bronze statue and have me and my family conduct the ritual of libation or Abhisegam in 2010, after having the youths whom he send over to my home that took on the name Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM) to watch and participate in the Siddha puja and engaging us in doing charity in 2013, and finally after having me bring down the shutters on all the above activities in 2019, he had me go within. In 2022, Agathiyar opened up the gates at Svadishtana chakra to release the pent-up energy that awakened as a result of the opening of the Muladhara, triggered by the Yoga practice, which resulted in the blooming of the 1000-petaled flower in the Sahasrara. Asking him if there was anything further to do, maybe another practice, Agathiyar replied that there was nothing further to do, and that she would do her work. Since then, I had been idling around, no activity and no practice to take up or follow. I have come to know now that I was spacing out. It is truly beautiful.
It reminds me of Osho asking us to notice the space, the gap or interval between two breaths without effort. Osho, in his "Book of Secrets," says that,
"Breath is the bridge. Not only is the breath a bridge to your body, but it is also a bridge between you and the universe. Breath is also the bridge between you, and space and time."
"Buddha's enlightenment was based on using breath just as a technique to turn inwards - only this. Buddha said, "Be aware of your breath as it is coming in and going out." Eventually, we shall take notice of the gap or interval between two breaths without effort.
Agathiyar told me back then in the Nadi that both Lord Ganesa and Lord Buddha were exponents of Vaasi or breath.
Osho, in his "Book of Secrets," brings us Shiva's first of nine techniques concerned with the breath, from the "Vigyan Bhairav Tantra."
"If you can feel the gap, Shiva says, the beneficence, then nothing else is needed. You are blessed, you have known; the thing has happened."
Osho in "The White Lotus", Jaico Publishing House, 2004, says further.
When people come to me, and they ask, ‘How to meditate?’ I tell them, ‘There is no need to ask how to meditate, just ask how to remain unoccupied. Meditation happens spontaneously. Just ask how to remain unoccupied, that’s all. That’s the whole trick of meditation – how to remain unoccupied. Then you cannot do anything. The meditation will flower. When you are not doing anything, the energy moves towards the center, and it settles down towards the center. When you are doing something, the energy moves out. Doing is a way of moving out. Non-doing is a way of moving in. Occupation is an escape. You can read the Bible, you can make it an occupation. There is no difference between religious occupation and secular occupation: all occupations are occupations, and they help you to cling outside your being. They are excuses to remain outside.