BLESSED TO HAVE THE GURU WITH US 4

I ended the last post by writing,

"So we are obliged to help another attain the bliss that we have come to experience. When Agathiyar kept pushing the rest to follow his dictates, as we saw reluctance on their part, I told him to drop it, but he explained that since I had tasted the bliss others too should know it." 

Agathiyar came on 17.2.2024 and 18.2.2024 over two days and held a discourse with my family speaking solely on Gnanam and the need to spread it.

"Because we have to spread these. You have seen the bliss for generations right? Should not others see this too? It will end with you. Who shall then come? It will die away. This path should stay alive and reach its zenith. Not to praise me (but) for your (the souls') good. It shall end with you. Who next? Do you understand? Should not others too see the bliss that you saw? When an art form or practice is taught to one, his Dharma is to spread it. If he keeps it to himself that is a betrayal of the Guru's trust. You speak about the path, way and Margam again and again. When the Truth is spoken, no one comes (to listen). What (kind of) devotees are these? A guru's job is to pass on Gnanam."

ஏன் என்றால்,  இவை பரப்ப வேண்டும். தலை முறை தலை முறையாக நீ இன்பம் கண்டாய் அல்லவா? பிறர் காண வேண்டாமா? உன்னோடு போய்விடும். பின்னர் யார் வருவார்? அழிந்துவிடும். இந்த வழி தழைத்து ஓங்க வேண்டும். என் புகழ் பாட அல்ல. உங்கள் நன்மைக்கு. உன்னோடு முடிந்துவிடும். பிறகு யார்? புரிகிறதா? நீ கண்ட இன்பம் யாவரும் காண வேண்டாமா? ஒரு கலையை ஒருத்தருக்கு ஒரு குரு கற்பித்த பிறகு, அவனுடைய தர்மம் அக்கலையைப் பரப்ப வேண்டும். அவனுள் தேக்கி வைப்பது குரு துரோகம். மார்க்கம், மார்க்கம் என்கிறீர்கள். உண்மையைக் கூறும் போது, எவரும் வருவதில்லை. என்ன பக்தர்கள்? ஒரு குருவின் பனி ஞானம் தருவது.

Saying thus he describes how a disciple should be. 

"A disciple has to be like a camphor. He should not dispute the guru's speech. He gives no reason. There is humility. There is a manner for even questioning. Open your doors (to your hearts). Look at yourself. That is how it should be. You can talk to God. We listen pretty well. Divide your time wisely between your family, work, and for me. You should come together as couples into worship. You should travel as a couple. You won't end up cuckoo worshiping a Siddha. You shall gain divine and spiritual wisdom or Gnanam. No one needs to go to the jungles (to meditate). You can see all that is to see by merely sitting where you are. God is in all. Once the doors to Gnanam are opened all shall realize this. Pass on the wisdom or Gnanam (to others). And sharing one's wisdom or Gnanam (gained from experiences). Do not keep it within you. You shall lose it eventually. Be greedy for divine wisdom or Gnanam. I shall salute you. They shall keep it (Gnanam) within themselves and take it to their graves. Is this the reason I taught them? If I had not taught them, they would not come this far. Today I come through my devotees. Is there any other better means to convey the message clearly? Does anyone do this? When one reaches God, he shall realize that he is God himself. That is the reason the enlightened ones or Gnani remain in seclusion and silence. A Siddha comes to deliver Gnanam. There is rebirth as long as you do not go within. The cycle of birth shall come to a close when you go within. This is dispensing Gnanam. When you quiet down, Gnanam arises in you. Siddha's path and worship are to be natural in all manners. Experience is Gnanam. You have been in touch with me for crores and crores of births. You have accumulated the bits of Gnanam gained throughout these births. There is much Gnanam to be gained in a married life. Much Gnanam shall dawn. You will understand when you come to experience them. Be an example to others. If you want to do me a favor spread this path in this soil. It would be a big favor. The doors to Gnana shall open. (AVM) This is not a burden. It shows the way to Siddhahood. The reason we are reopening it is to relieve others' burden. A soul that has attained clarity has to help another."

மாணவன் என்பவன் கற்பூரம் போல் இருக்க வேண்டும். குரு பேச்சுக்கு எதிர் பேச்சு இருக்க கூடாது. மறு பேச்சு இல்லை. காரணம் கூற கூடாது. பணிவு உண்டு. அதற்கு என்று முறை உண்டு. கதவை திறங்கள். உங்களையும் பாருங்கள். அது போல் இருக்கனும். என்பாள் அன்பும் பக்தி. அப்படி இருக்க வேண்டும். உரையாடலாம் இறைவனிடம். நாங்கள் நன்றாக கேட்கிறோம். நேரத்தை வகுத்து வைத்துக்கொள். குடும்பம், தொழில், எனக்கு ஒரு நிமிடம். இருவரும் ஒன்று இணைந்து தம்பதிகளாகவே வணங்க வேண்டும். தம்பதிகளாக பயணிக்க வேண்டும். சித்தனை வழிபட்டால் பித்தனாய் ஆகமாடிர். ஞானம்  பெறுவீர். யாரும் வனத்திற்கு செல்ல வேண்டாம். இருந்த இடத்திலே அனைத்தையும் காணலாம். அனைத்துள்ளும் இறைவன் உள்ளான். ஞான கதவுகள் திறந்த பின்னர் யாவரும் உணர்வார். ஞானத்தை அளியுங்கள். மற்றவர்களுக்கு  ஞானம் பயிலுங்கள். உன்னுள் அடக்கிவைத்து கொள்ளாதே. அது வீண் போகி விடும். பேர் ஆசைப் படுகிறீர்கள். ஞானத்திற்குப் பேராசை படுங்கள். கை கூப்பி வணங்குகிறேன். உங்களில் தேக்கிவைத்து மடிந்து விடுகிறீர்கள். இதற்காகவா நான் போதித்தேன் அதை? நான் போதிக்காமலிருந்தால் நீங்கள் இவ்வளவு கடந்து வந்திருக்க மாட்டீர்கள். இன்று நான் உடலிலிருந்து அளிக்கும் தெளிவு விட வேறு உண்டோ? இது போல் யாரும் போதித்தது உண்டோ? இறைவனை அடைந்த பொழுது, தான் இறைவன் என்று உணர்வான். அதனால் தான் ஞானிகள் மௌனத்தில் செல்கிறார்கள். சித்தன் வருவது ஞானத்தைப் போதிப்பதற்கு. உள்நோக்கி பயணிக்கும் வரை, பிறப்பு எடுகிறார்கள். எப்போது உள் நோக்கிப் பயணிக்கிறார்களோ அப்பொழுது முடிவடையும். இதுதான் ஞான போதனை. நீ மௌனம் கொள்ளும் பொழுது உன்னுள் ஞானம் வரும். சித்தன் வழிபாடு என்றால் இந்த இயற்கையோடு ஒன்றோடு கலப்பது. அனுபவம் தான் ஞானம். கோடி கோடி பிறவி நீ என்னுள் தொடர்பு கொண்டு உள்ளாய். (ஒரு கோடி என்பது, எண்ணிக்கையில் நூறு இலட்சங்களுக்கு சமமாகும்) நீ அதில் பெற்ற சிறிது சிறிது ஞானம் பெருகி உள்ளது. மண வாழ்க்கையில் பல ஞானம் உண்டு. அதிக ஞானம் பிறகும். அந்த அனுபவம் வரும் பொழுது உணர்வீர்கள். மக்களுக்கு உதாரணமாக இருங்கள். எனக்கு செய்யும் தொண்டு என்று ஒன்று இருந்தால் இம்மண்ணில் இம் மார்க்கத்தை பரப்புங்கள். இதுவே எனக்கு செய்யும் பெரும் தொண்டு. பெரும் தொண்டு இதுவாகவே இருக்கும். இனிமேல் இங்கே ஞான கதவுகள் திறக்கப்படும். இது சுமை அல்ல. அனைவருக்கும் மார்க்கத்தைக் காட்டுவது. சுமையை இறக்கத் தான் இதைத் திறக்கிறோம். தெளிவு பெற்ற ஆன்மா இன்னொரு ஆன்மாவைத் தெளிவு படுத்துகிறது.

"It is true that Siddhas come to hold talks."

சித்தர்கள் வந்து கலந்து உரையாடுவது அனைத்தும் உண்மை.

When I asked him if my writings were flawed...before I could finish my question Agathiyar like Tavayogi put another question back to me asking "Are you the one writing it?", hinting that it is his work entirely.

எமது எழுத்துக்களில் ஏதும் பிழை இருந்தால்...அது நீயா எழுதுகிறாய்?

But the question is how can we get the horse to drink the water? We can only lead it to the water. I understand the humongous task that lies ahead and before the Siddhas in wanting to bring them back home. I shall assist in whatever little way.

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Just as the course, the scholarship, the job, and the house fell on my lap, and my family life fell into place, the Siddha path came to me without me seeking a path. Tavayogi once told me with amazement and bewilderment that if he had to travel far and wide and go through much hardship to be where he was, I had it the easy way. But even this was seen as difficult for this pampered and spoilt brat for I had asked Agathiyar wasn't there an easier way to reach him. He told me that it was already made pretty easy and accessible. There was no way he could simplify it further. He even told me that it would be painless as he knew I could not withstand pain. Indeed I would react to a simple headache as if it were a migraine. Agathiyar who knew me only too well has charted the path and drawn up the blueprint to suit me well. I am grateful to him forever. I wish that every seeker would have it this easy for I have seen some go through hell in arriving there. 

Going by the spiritual timeline in my relatively short lifespan and seeing how the Siddhas truly came to aid and guide my journey, I wished to give back. I guess this blog is a way to show and throw some light to others keen to embark on this journey. Though this is not a template but only one person's personal journey and experience, it should be a good start just as Yogananda Paramahansa's "An Autobiography of a Yogi" started me off on believing God whom I saw in the temples could come as Godmen, gurus, and masters. 

Sri Sri Daya Mata writes in her preface to "God Talks with Arjuna - The Bhagavad Gita" by Paramahansa Yogananda.

"No Siddha leaves this world without having given some truth to mankind. Every free soul has to shed on others his light of god realization. How generously Paramahansa Yogananda fulfilled this obligation."

Similarly, Aryaan Arora also tells us that he wanted to give back in this video.

"You know like I started off dancing and singing and acting in Musical shows and musical theaters and I was like oh you know I'm just going to entertain the world. That was my purpose. I was like I want to make people happy I want to make people laugh." 

"Then after this event and then after that point, all my complete purpose in life changed. I said, you know I want people to realize at least this 1% of what I realized and hopefully I want to lead them to this ultimate truth and then I realized that maybe I can use whatever skill which isn't even my skill, my throat, whatever it is, my singing, my writing, my composing to spread that message. I started writing music, a spiritual song a kind of Sufi song. It's about my spiritual journey, it's about self-realization, it's about finding the truth within yourself, happiness, and expression of your inner being just like you beautifully said and that's where I am now. Yeah, experiences are very powerful, spiritual experiences mostly."

I share the same too. All the Nayanmars and Siddhas including Ramalinga Adigal gave us their experiences not as statements but in the form of songs too. Maybe as Aryaan Arora says, writing that I never imagined would come to me easily and that I would do later, is a means to show my appreciation to all the Siddhas, my gurus, and upagurus who came along to aid me and to be where I am today.

Agathiyar at the Tamil Sangam presented the 5 tenets for mankind. The fourth states that "There arises then an obligation on our part to "dutifully aid and help, the ongoing evolution of all co-existing human beings." (Vashisht Vaid's post on his blog https://holysageagathiyar.com/)

So we are obliged to help another attain the bliss that we have come to experience. When Agathiyar kept pushing the rest to follow his dictates, as we saw reluctance on their part, I told him to drop it, but he explained that since I had tasted the bliss others too should know it. How can we get the horse to drink the water? We can only lead it to the water. I understand the humongous task that lies ahead and before the Siddhas in wanting to bring them back home. I shall assist in whatever little way.

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It suddenly dawned on me as I am writing this post why Agathiyar ending the puja and charity, keeps me writing and at other times do nothing, instead of like others who continue to chant, recite, meditate, and carry on charity. I understand why the chanting stopped on its own, why the recitation ended abruptly, and why I cannot bring myself to enter a state of meditation as much as I tried. I realized I do not need to chant, recite, or meditate on his name and form for in writing I am thinking and saying his name mentally and writing it out dozens of times, exceeding even the 100,000 times he asked to chant his name to give life to his bronze statue when he arrived at my home in 2010. 

When Tavayogi stepped on our soil he observed that the general public were temple worshippers. None sought Gnanam he told me as he sat listening to their problems and griviences. He told me that these can be overcome by reasoning and finding a solution. But as for the suffering as with poverty and illnesses, one has to seek help in the right places. The Siddhas would help identify the cause and provide remedies. Coming to their worship will to an extent help them face these miseries. 

When Agathiyar came around asking all those gathered what they wanted and turned to me finally I was lost for an answer as I had nothing to ask of him. He has showered me with his blessings. I had food and shelter. I had no debts. I had no enemies. Life was blissful. But as he sat waiting for an answer I wired my brain to come up with something that very instant. Like instant noodles served in 2 minutes, I got the answer that if I were to serve him for life and the many births to come that would be a way of repaying his kindness, love, compassion, and grace. But when he asked me if that was what I wanted, reminding me of Tavayogi's answers to our replies, I knew it was not the "thing" to ask. As I kept quiet he moved on. Later coming another day, he who had eavesdropped on my conversation with Mahindren over the phone about this and our arrival at an answer that we should ask Gnanam as Tavayogi always says, Agathiyar suddenly surprised me by saying that I had asked for Gnanam. He began to speak on it and the days to come, enlightening us on the last phase of our journey after coming out of Sariyai into Kriyai and taking up Yoga.

"You asked of me Gnanam."

நீ என்னிடம் கேட்டது ஞானம். 

Agathiyar on defining Gnanam says,

"Gnanam is not gifted but has to be earned and experienced. When one goes within, as the journey brings upon subtle experiences these shall translate into and become Gnanam. It defers to each person." Just as no one can predict the path the Kundalini takes, Agathiyar too says that of Gnanam that it shall vary among people. "As such I cannot possibly define it. Hence I cannot say exactly what shall take place." 

ஞானம் என்பது நான் தருவதல்ல. நீ கற்பது. ஒருவன் தனக்குள் உள்வாங்கி அவனுள் பயணம் துவங்கும் நேரம் அப்பயணம் தரும் பாதிப்பே ஞானம். அவை ஒவ்வொருவருக்கும் மாற்றம் பெரும். ஆகையால் அவை நான் இதுதான் என்று சொல்ல இயலாது.

Agathiyar says further of Gnanam, "The truth shall dawn when we go within. When the veil is drawn aside the truth is revealed. When the truth is known the veil is shed. That is the moment of Gnanam. It is not hokus pokus. It is beyond that too." 

நீங்கள் உள் பயணிக்கும் போது எல்லாம் தெரிய வரும். எல்லாம் தெளிவாகத் தெரியும் சமயம் திரை விலகியதற்கு அர்த்தம். அதுதான் ஞானம். எல்லாம் தெரிய வந்ததால் திரை விலகியதற்கு அர்த்தம் தானே? இது மந்திர ஜாலம் அல்ல. அதற்கும் அப்பால் பட்டது.

He adds, "Gnanam does not come easy. It's a long journey. It does not come to all. The mind has to settle for Gnanam to dawn." 

ஞானம் அவ்வளவு எளிதல்ல. அது நீண்ட பயணம். எல்லோருக்கும் கிட்டாது. மனம் அடங்கினால் ஞானம் சித்திக்கும். 

"When one brings his awareness to his breath and starts the journey going within, the result is Gnanam." He points out to me saying that it (the breath) is happening in me now. "Nothing (our efforts) goes to waste. The breath that you inhale and exhale now shall go on on its own. Whenever you realize this ride that breath and go within it. Merge with it. That moment of the merger is Gnanam."

இப்பொழுது உன்னில் அது நடக்கிறது. யாவும் பயனற்று போகாது. நீயாய் சுவாசித்த தருவாயில் இனி உன்னை கேட்காமல் உல் ஓடும். எப்போது அவ் ஊடுறுதலை நீ உணர்வாயோ இருக்கும் இடம் அறிந்து அதனுள் பயணம் செய். கலந்து போ. அதனுள் கலக்கும் தருணமே ஞானம்.

Agathiyar reveals "All this while you have gained worldly knowledge or Ulaga Gnanam. Now you shall gain Gnanam that is going to serve you." 

நீ இதுவரையில் கண்ட ஞானம் உலக வாழ்க்கை ஞானம். இனி காணப்போவது உனக்கான ஞானம். 

Tavayogi who defined God as Agathiyar, then as Light, as Lord Siva, and finally as the breath or Vaasi, similarly defines Gnanam in many dimensions. Knowing the source is Gnanam. Gnanam is akin to becoming enlightened. Knowing creation is Gnanam. Knowing the truth of life is Gnanam. Knowing the Atma is Gnanam. Gnanam is God. Holding onto the source of birth brings one to know the end. This is Gnanam. 

பிறப்பின் தொடக்கத்தைப் பிடித்து முடிவையும் அறிவதே ஞானம். ஆதி அந்தக் குறி தெரிவதுதான் ஞானம். ஞானம் அடைதல் என்றால் அறிவின் தெளிந்த நிலை. ஞாலத்தை அறிதல் ஞானம். உயிரானது பெரும் உண்மைத் தெளிவுதான் அறிவு அல்லது ஞானம். ஆத்ம அறிவின் தெளிவே ஞானம். ஞானமே கடவுள்.

After all the years of puja, charity, and Yoga, Agathiyar asked that I share my knowledge of the Atma with those keen to learn. I was tasked to bring those lagging behind to the forefront. I guess he is asking me to fulfill further another of his 5 tenets for mankind, by helping uplift the spiritual lives of others and help them evolve too. He asks to hold monthly sessions and share the results of my personal search to know the Atma with them. He made it clear that I was to only preach and that the results were solely dependent on them.

இனி இங்கு ஆத்ம ஞானம் மட்டுமே நடக்கும். பின்னனிருப்போர் உந்தி தள்ளிக் கொண்டுவா. மாதத்திற்கு ஒரு முறை எமது பக்தர்களுக்கு அழைப்பிடு. ஆன்மஞானத்தை அறிய விரும்புவோருக்குக் கற்பித்து வா. எனது முழு ஆசியினை பெற்ற சீடனப்பா நீ. உன்னில் இருக்கும் ஆன்மாவின் தேடலை மற்றவர்களுக்கும் வரச்செய். அவர் அவர் எண்ணம்போல் உமது போதனை அவர்களை அடையும். போதிப்பது மட்டுமே உனது கடமை. பலன் அவர்களுடையது. 

He tells me since I am a householder he has no intention of pulling me away to take up the role of a guru. 

இல்வாழ்க்கையில் இருப்பதினாலே உன்னை யாம் தனித்து குருவாக்க விரும்பவில்லை. 

Then it all changed one day. He asked me recently if he should make me a guru and immediately dropped that suggestion and told me that he would make me a Siddha instead. 

Now there was the last hurdle to cross. I had to know about Maya and her deceit. The heavenly bodies got together to stage a drama or Lila for this purpose causing chaos and turmoil. Lord Siva, Agathiyar, and Lord Indra began their divine play with the entry of Ramalinga Adigal and in cohesion with Bhogar. They played their game well. Lord Murugan came to disclose their game. It was akin to the mythical episode of churning the ocean by the Devas led by Lord Indra and the Asuras with whom they made a pact. Lord Siva consumes the poison from the depths of the ocean and Dhanvantari brings forth the Amrita or ambrosia, the heavenly nectar of immortality, and "rejuvenated by the Amrita, the Devas emerged victorious and exiled the asuras to the Pataloka, regaining Svarga"1, 

We wondered why Agathiyar was rocking the boat? 

Ramalinga Adigal had sang in his Arutpa,

பொய்யுடையார் விழைகின்ற புணர்ச்சிவிழைந் தேனோ,

பூணவிழைந் தேனோ, வான் காணவிழைந் தேனோ,

மெய்யுடையாய் என்னொடு நீ விளையாட விழைந்தேன்.

விளையாட்டென் பதுஞானம் விளையும்விளை யாட்டே.

பையுடைப்பாம் பனையரொடும் ஆடுகின்றோய் எனது
பண்பறிந்தே நண்புவைத்த பண்புடையோய் இன்னே
செய்யுடைஎன் னொடுகூடி ஆடஎழுந் தருள்வாய்
சித்தசிகா மணியேஎன் திருநடநா யகனே.

Just as Ramalinga Adigal sang he did not seek the pleasures that others sought and went after and neither did he seek to see heaven but instead yearned for the divine's play or Lila, which resulted in Gnanam, I came to realize that at the end of the day, we gained distilled understanding and Gnanam from the whole episode though it was truly chaotic and practically life-shattering. And to think that this was what Ramalinga Adigal had wished for himself that they should play their divine play or game on him so that it would bring on Gnanam, places him above the rest.

Agathiyar had told us much earlier in speaking about Gnanam that we shall come to see it all as their play, "All the worlds are seen. All creation, its sustenance, its destruction, the veiling, and the showering of grace shall be known. Eventually, it will be seen and known that it is all a play of ours." 

எல்லா லோகமும் தெரிய வரும். ஐந்தொழில் தெரிய வரும். அனைத்து தத்துவங்களும் தெரிய வரும். எல்லாம் எங்களின் விளையாட்டு என்று தெரிய வரும்.

It is pretty obvious that they are bringing us to accept everything as their play. It makes me recall the song "Kurai Ondrum Ellai Marai Moorthy Kanna".

If Agathiyar had isolated me in the wake of the pandemic asking me to go within and sleep in his prayer room, and later asked that I observe the breath, now he wants me to observe the silence within the breath. Both he and Lord Muruga have asked me to do nothing else now. 

1. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Samudra_Manthana

BLESSED TO HAVE THE GURU WITH US 1

When my father passed away in 1991, I cried and cried. But when my mother passed away two years back I did not cry. I understood the journey of life and accepted it. My mother too understood for she told us that she was going to "sleep". My father too seemed to know his last moments. He sat in a corner of the living room in the Padmasana pose, his pupils looking up and left his body. They accepted death. Agathiyar told me that death was only a door to another journey which is beautifully explained in the following video. 

He says, "Do not be afraid of death. It is but another door to another journey. One who invites death is a Siddha. 

மரணபயம் வேண்டாம்.  மரணம் ஒன்றும் அல்ல. மற்றொரு பயணத்தின் கதவு.  எவன் ஒருவன் மரணத்தை அன்போடு வரவேற்கின்றானோ அவன் சித்தன் ஆகின்றான். 

Agathiyar tells me "There is much I need to carry out through you. Enough of my praise. Write about your bodily experiences. Let your writings be about the changes taking place in your body. Let your readers know the changes that take place in the body if they come to worship the light and seek to merge with it. My wisdom shall be your experience. Experience first and I shall clarify the experiences later. Experience is knowledge to you. Nothing is beyond experience." 

உன்னில் இருந்து நான் காரியங்கள் செய்வதற்கு இன்னும் நிறைய இருக்கிறது. எனது பெருமை போதும். இனி உன் எழுத்துக்கள் உடல் மாற்றங்கள் உடல் அனுபவம் பற்றியதாக இருக்கட்டும். ஜோதியினை வழிபட்டால் அதில் இணைய வேண்டும் என்றால் உடலில் எவ்வித மாற்றங்கள் ஏற்படும் என்று உன் வாசகர்களுக்குத் தெரிய படுத்து. உனது அனுபவம் எனது அறிவு. அனுபவமே உனக்கு அறிவு. அனுபவத்தைத் தாண்டி ஒன்றுமே இல்லை. நீ அனுபவம் கொண்டுவா, பின்னர் உரைக்கிறேன். 

Hence I share my experiences with readers charting them as a timeline. Agathiyar had casually mentioned that they were amazed to see the Kundalini rise in me in my Nadi reading on 13.10.2007.

உண்டாகும் குண்டலினி சக்தி உனக்கு உயர்வதைக் கண்டு நாங்கள் வியந்தோம் அப்பா. 

Patanjali came on 18.5.2008 in the Nadi reading and had already warned me of what to expect, but I could not understand as I had yet to experience what he said. He said, "As a result of the many practices (taught and shown and put into practice) it shall bring on excessive heat within this moment in time." 

ஒப்பிலா உடல் சூடும் தியானத்தால் உனக்குச் சோர்வு வந்திடும் இக்கணம் தன்னில். 

After listing the diet I was to follow, and his Yoga Sukmam, he said that the awakening would further accentuate the colors of the aura and the Chakras and raise the Kundalini further. 

பதஞ்சலியின் யோக சூட்சம இதுதான் மைந்தா. வளமிருக்கும் வர்ணமும், ஆதாரமும் சித்தி கொண்டதோர் குண்டலினி ஓங்கும் பாரு. 

On 30.9.2008 Agathiyar revealed that as a result of my Tavam, the light from the third eye has begun to shine. 

நேர்மையான தவத்தாலே நெற்றிக் கண் ஒளியும், ஒளி அதுவும் உனக்குமே வெளிப்பட்டது இப்போ. 

On 8.12.2008 Agathiyar said that due to my Vaasi practice or Pranayama, the Suzhimunai and the crown of my head had opened. 

வாசி பயிற்சியாலே சுழி திறந்து உச்சியும் திறக்கக் கண்டாய். 

He assured me that he shall draw all the seven veils aside and have me see the Jothi. 

ஏழுதிரை தன்னை நீக்கி வழுவாது சோதிதனை கான வைப்போம். 

He said that he shall pave the way to reach the state of fulfillment and completeness that comes with the state of Soruba Nilai. 

வையகத்தில் பூர்த்தி நிலை அடையச் செய்வோம். சொரூப நிலை யாவும் பெற வழியும் செய்வோம். 

On 27.8.2009 he gives further practice known as Tava Sukmam to bring further success in my endeavors. He spelled out the practice that was to be carried out for 2 x 48 days. He revealed its benefits saying it would strengthen the state of Gnanam. Besides gaining clarity in thoughts, the Prapanjam shall heed our call.

வெற்றி நிலை மிகுந்து காணத் தவ சூச்சமம் தான் விவரிப்பேன். இரு மண்டலம் செய்வாய் நன்றாய். பக்குவமாய் பயிற்சியும் செய்து  வரப் பலப்படும் ஞான நிலை பலவாறாக. பலவாறு தெளிவு திடம், சிந்தை கீர்த்தி, பிரபஞ்சம் வசிய நிலை திண்ணம். 

The most compassionate guru tells me that he was only sharing the practices that the Siddhas did.

உலகினிலே நாங்கள் செய்த பயிற்சிதான் உவந்து சொன்னோம் உனக்குமே சூச்சம். 

On 26.12.2009 Agathiyar in coming to reiterate that Gnanam has dawned, the crown of my head has opened, and that the third eye shall shine, says that he wanted to gift me treasures and added that I shall receive them through Tavayogi. 

ஞானத்தின் திறவுகோல் திறந்த பிள்ளை. உச்சியும்  திறந்த பிள்ளை. முக்கண்ணும் பிரகாசிக்கும். தர வேண்டும் போக்கிடங்கள் என்று நினைத்தோம். தவறாது யோகி வழி உனக்குக் கிட்டும். 

On 12.7.2010 he told me that I had seen Sadashiva, which I could not make any sense of. 

தரணியிலே சதா சிவதை கண்டவன் நீ. 

On 9.8.2010 Agathiyar revealed that the heat from the tapas or Gnana Kanal (a result of the Yoga Asana and Pranayama techniques shown by Tavayogi that I had practiced since 2007) had risen and was at its peak.

உண்டான ஞான கனல் மிகுந்த காலம் உயர்வான காலம் இது இந்தக் காலம். 

Agathiyar on 17.10.2010 gives me the good news and prepares me for the bad news too. He said that although I would gain the benefits of Hatha yoga through my Tapas and Puja, but cautioned me that my health was declining. He asked to see a physician who could bring it back to its former state. He consoled me saying that with His grace, I shall recover well. 

அடையோகம் தன்னில் கிட்டும் சித்தி அவையனைத்தும் தவமொடு வழிபாட்டில் பெறுவாய். ஆனதொரு ஆரோக்கியம் மட்டும் சோடை. ஒளடதமும் பிடகனை அறிந்து ஏற்க்கவே மாற்றங்கள் ஏற்றம் கிட்டும். என் அருளால் பூரணமாய் பரிசுத்தம் காண்பாய். 

It was later that an excruciating pain struck my lower back and crippled me momentarily while in the shower, its reasons revealed by Agathiyar later.

On 16.1.2011 Agathiyar who continued to monitor my situation, assured me that all would be fine. He asked me to continue taking the prescription for another half a Mandalam or 24 days.

வாகடன்கள் தேகத்திற்கு மட்டும் வளத்துடனே அரை மண்டலாம் எடுத்துக் கொள்ள தேகமத்தில் குறை வாரா. 

On 9.8.2011 he acknowledged the blissful state of Anandham I was in. The graceful light of Arutjothi had increased in its immensity he said. He added that by taking on the Siddhantam Margam or path and holding on to the Siddha way of life, I had reached higher states. 

ஆனந்த நிலை இப்போ அடைந்திருக்கிறாய். அருள் ஜோதி நிலை பெருகி உள்ளத்தப்பா. விளம்பலாம் சித்தாந்தம் மார்க்கம் தொட்டு சுத்தமுடன் சித்தர் வழி சமயம்பற்றி வின்னமில்லா நிலை பலதும் அடைந்துவிட்டாய். 

Though I had these moments of bliss, I was living with the excruciating lower pain too. After the doctors gave me a clean bill of health I consulted the Nadi on 26.11. 2011. He tells me that as I had achieved higher states in diligently taking up the Siddha way and path and carrying out Puja and Tavam, no bodily harm and illness shall come my way. 

 

தரணிதன்னில் எங்கள் வழி மார்க்கத்தில் தப்பாது பூசையும் தவமும் செய்து தான் உயர்வு அடைந்திட்ட பாலகன் உனக்குத் தரணியே உயிர் பிணி ஏது சொல்வோம் உடல் பிணி ஏதுதான் அச்சம்கொள்ள. 

As such he went on to elaborate on the reason for my suffering which he defines as "Parisa Peedai", which I came to find out was external and "superficial, existing or occurring at or on the surface and appearing to be true or real only until examined more closely". Only then did I understand why he took it lightly and brushed aside my agony and pain.

பாரிச (உடலின் ஒரு பக்கம்) பீடைகளும் வந்து நிற்கும். 

Agathiyar revealed that the Muladhara chakra had gained intense heat resulting in the body becoming lethargic. He added that I shall go through misery as the ratio of the three Dosas had gone haywire.

உற்றதொரு மூலாதார சக்கரமும் உயர் விதமாய் உட்டனங்கள் அடைந்ததனாலே உரைக்க வரும் சோர்வும் தேகம் தன்னில். உரைக்கலாம் முக்கூற்று திருப்பும் இப்போ முறையாகச் சம நிலையில் இல்லாதிருக்க சோதனைகள் வந்து நிற்க்கும் அச்சம் மிதந்து. 

On 15. 2. 2013 Agathiyar reiterated that as a result of my crown and Suzhimunai being open, I had gained Mukthi, and there was no longer a need to go out in search and beg. They shall come and deliver their grace. 

உச்சி திறந்த மைந்தன் நீ அறிவாய் இன்றோ. சுழி திறந்து முக்தி கண்டாய். தேடிய நாடிய காலமெல்லாம் போதும். தேடி வந்து அருள் செய்வோம் இனித்தான் உனக்கு. 

On 21.9.2014 Agathiyar speaks about the chakras functioning perfectly. He repeated that the Suzhimunai was opened. 

ஆதாரம் முறையாய் விளங்கி நிற்கும். முனை திறந்து இருக்கிறாய் இப்போ. 

He asked that I write about the Siddha Margam. He shall come in my thoughts and have me write he said. 

தக்கதொரு எழுதிடுவாய் சித்த மார்க்கம் பற்றி. எழுத வைப்போம் சிந்தையிலே கலந்து நாங்கள். 

On 28.3.2015 Agathiyar told me I had received his Light or Jothi and they had opened the Crown Chakra. 

நீ உலகில் என் ஜோதியைப் பெற்று விட்டாய். திறந்தோமே உட்சியும் உனக்கும் மைந்தா. 

He thanked me for bringing others into the path. He says my home which was his Vanam has transited into Gnanakottam. Those arriving at my home shall attain the state of Gnanam he added. He shall shower his grace here. They paved the way for many to receive their Arul, Tavam, and Aasi. 

உண்மையான மார்க்கத்தை உலகிற்கு ஓதி உயர் நிலையைப் பலர் அடைய வைத்தவன். இல்லமதும் ஞான கோட்டமாகி இறை ஞான நிலை அடைவார் வருவோர் எல்லாம். அருள் புரிந்தோம் ஞான கோட்டம் தன்னில். அருள் தவம் ஆசி பெற வழிவகுத்தோம். 

On 28. 8. 2015 Agathiyar mentioned that my writings have reached many who have gained from reading it. 

கருணையுடன் கருத்துகளை உலகிற்குப் பரப்பிக் கருணையான நிலை தன்னை பலர் அடையச் செய்தாய். 

He further noted the changes that have taken place within me. He said that his Jothi had expanded in me and the Suzhimunai remains open. 

தேகத்தில் மாற்றங்கள் பெற்று இருக்காய். அகத்துக்குள் அகத்தின் ஜோதி பெருகி தேகத்தில் பல மாற்றம் பல சக்தி கிட்டி முனை திறந்து இருப்பாயே. 

On 18.11. 2017 Agathiyar pointed out that though I was instrumental in others receiving his grace, he was amused that I chose to maintain a low profile and remain out of the limelight. 

அருள் நிலைகள் பெற்றிருக்கின்றார் பல மாந்தரும். மாற்றங்கள் பலர் அடையக் காரணமாய் இருந்தாய். குவலயத்தில் ஒன்றுமே தெரியாதவன் போல் அமர்ந்திருப்பாய். 

On 8.10.2018 Lord Murugan praised me for keeping a low profile yet spreading the wisdom of Agathiyar. He said that Agathiyar Vanam would evolve into Agathiyar Tapovanam. 

இந்தத் தேசத்தில் சத்தமின்றி அகத்தியரைப் பலருக்கு நீ காட்டினாய் அப்பா. உன் தொண்டை மெச்சுகின்றேன். மெள்ள அகத்தியர் வனம் அகத்தியர் தபோவனம் ஆகும். தவம் செய்யும் வனம் அப்பா தபோவனம் ஆகும். 

On 7.10.2018 the pain in the lower back came back at the same intensity as originally when I sneezed as I was crossing a street. It was only a day earlier on 6.10.2018 that Agathiyar in the Nadi calling it "Nithirai Tava Vaasi Kaalam", said that my breath was entwined and blocked. 

உனக்குத்தான் நித்திரை தவ வாசி காலம் வாசியும் சீர் பிசகி முடங்கித் தான் இருக்கு. 

Lord Murugan came in the Nadi the following day 8.10.2018 and explained in detail. My body was deteriorating. He said that the joint between my spine and hips was tense and tight. The inner gel at these joints had dried up. This was the reason for the acute pain I was having. You shall wriggle in pain.

நின் தேகம் தளருது அப்பா. இந்தக் காலம் உன்னுடைய முதுகு எலும்பும் இடுப்பும் சேரும் எலும்பு சந்திப்பெல்லாம் தானே ஒருவித இறுக்கமாய் இருக்குது அப்பா. அங்கே இருந்திட்ட தைலம் அது உலர்ந்து போனது அப்பா. இதுதான் உண்மை. ஆச்சப்பா மின்னல் போன்று வலி தோன்றும் அங்கே. அப்போது தான் துடிதுடித்து நிற்பாய் அப்பா. 

I have no words to describe the extent of the Guru's love. Lord Muruga had the Nadi reader come over to my home and came through the Nadi as words and came through a devotee to heal me simultaneously so that I could return to my old self and walk. He tells me that he came because my guru Supramania Swami had asked. He says that he shall do a miracle.

இது உன் மேனி திடம் ஆக்குதற்கு சொல்லும் வாக்கு. திறம்படவே நீ நடமாட வேண்டும் அப்பா. தீர்க்கமாய் அதற்குத் தான் நூல் உரைக்க வந்தேன். வந்ததும் சுப்ரமணியன் கட்டளையாக. தெளிவிக்க அகத்தியரும் புறப்பட்டு விட்டார். ஆறுமுகன் சொல்லுகின்றேன் ஷண்முகத்திற்குக் கூறுகின்றேன் உன்னால் எழுந்து நடமாட முடியும். குமரனும் இன்று இரவே அற்புதம் செய்வேன். 

He tells me why I had to go through the suffering. It was to have me sit in a place and do Tapas. 

சாற்றநல்  இது எதற்கென்று கேள். அகத்தில் நீ அமர்ந்து தவம் தியானம் செய்ய. 

The next day on 9.10.2018 Lord Murugan comes in a Nadi reading for another devotee and updates him and me on what transpired the day before.

"I did treat him (Shanmugam Avadaiyappa) yesterday. I have removed his pain. I came alive (Jeevan) in the Jeeva Nool or Nadi and came within him treating him. I spoke (through the Nadi) and came (through the devotee) at the same time. I removed his pain by stroking his body with the peacock feathers. He shall gain much by sitting in meditation."

செய்தித்தேன் மருத்துவம் யான் கூட நேற்று. மெய்யாக அவன் வலியைப் போக்கினேன். ஜீவ நூலாய் ஜீவனாய் இறங்கி பங்காக அவன் உடலைச் சார்ந்திருந்தது அவனுக்குச் சிகிச்சை செய்தோம். ஆறுமுகன் பேசினேன் இறங்கினேன் ஒரு கணத்தில். நன்றாய் மயில் இராகு கொண்டு சண்முகத்தின் தேகத்தை தடவிய அவன் வலியைப் போக்கினேன். மைந்தனவன் தியான வழி சிந்தைகொள்ள அவன் தனக்கு சக்தி பெருகும். 

Fast forward now, awakening from my sleep and making my way to the loo in the middle of the night, I collapsed and fell first in my prayer room where Agathiyar had directed me to sleep. Getting up and taking a few steps I collapsed again in the living room. Picking myself up again and climbing the stairs I collapsed again at the landing of the first floor. I lay sprawled, wriggled in pain like a beaten snake. But it was all too blissful too. While I was slithering in pain, I was laughing away like a madman as it was blissful. Agathiyar pointed out on 5.9.2019 that the slithering was a sign of Kundalini moving. He acknowledged it to be a state of bliss. Agathiyar said that as a result of shedding all three Malam or impurities, Anava, Karma, and Maya, the third eye and the crown having opened, the Kundalini had arisen and brought on extreme heat within and as a result. I was partaking in the ambrosia.  

மும்மலங்கள் அற்றதொரு தேகம் என்பதாலே, முக்கணும் முறை திறந்து உட்சியும் திறந்து, குண்டலினி உயர்ந்து தான் கனல் எழும்பி, அமிர்தத்தை இடை விடாது உண்டு கொண்டு இருக்கிறாய். குண்டலினி சக்தி எல்லாம் எழும்புவது எல்லாம் குவளையத்தில் பாம்பின் போன்று நெளிய நேரும். ஆனால் ஆனந்தம் ஆனந்தம் அதுதான் என்போம்.

Now Ramalinga Adigal came into the picture on 29.11.2019 and hugged all those gathered, asking us to invite Arutjothi within. He announced at the top of his voice, 

"Arutperunjothi has taken possession of you. Open up your Atma. Open up your heart to receive him. The Jothi shall come within and embed in you. We are slaves to this Jothi. I am a slave too."

அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி ... வாரும் ஐயா …  அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி ஆட்கொண்டானப்ப ... மற்றவர்களும் வாரும் ... உங்களையும் ஆட்கொண்டானப்ப … உங்கள் ஆத்மவை திறந்து வையுங்கள் ... உங்கள் இதயத்தைத் திறந்து வையுங்கள்... ஜோதியினை உன்னுள் பதிந்தது. ஜோதியினை நீ இணைந்து விடு.  ஜோதியினை பிரகாசிக்கச்செய். ஆழ்ந்து போ. அனைவரும் ஜோதிக்கு அடிமை. அடியேனும் அடிமை. 

Ramalinga Adigal asked us to use our breath to fan the Jothi. It shall travel through Sushumna and touch Ajna. Then the Jothi is seen. He asked to carry out Nadi Sudhi to raise the Prana. "Now it does not move in both nostrils. When it travels in both nostrils, you shall then rest in completeness or Sudha Paripuranam. Dhyanam will be yours then. You have merged with the Prana. Pay attention to it. The changes in you are but discharges. It shall leave your body. Do not worry. What you are doing is Tavam. Agathiyan has accepted all your efforts. Henceforth we shall continue working on your insides and from within."

பிரணவத்தை கொண்டு ஜோதியை சுடர் விடச்செய். சுஷும்னா வழி சென்று ஆக்கினை தொடும். பின்னர் ஜோதி தெரியும். நாடி சுத்தி செய்து பிரணவத்தை உயர்த்தவும். இப்போது இரு நாசியில் செல்ல வில்லை. இரு நாசியில் செல்லும் கால் பிரணவம் இடகலை பிங்கலையில் சீராகச் செல்லும் தருணம் சுத்த பரிபூரணத்தில் நீ ஆழ்ந்து இருப்பாய். தியானம் என்பது உனது பரிபூரணம் ஆகும். உனது பிராணவத்தில் கலந்திருக்கிறாய். பிரணவத்தில் கவனம் செலுத்து. உன்னுள் ஏற்படும் மாற்றங்கள் யாவும் கழிவுகள். அகன்று போகும். கவலை வேண்டாம். நீ செய்தது யாவும் தவம். முயற்சி யாவும் அகத்தியன் பெற்று விட்டான். உள்ளிருந்து யாவும் நடத்துவோம்.

On 24.12.2019 Agathiyar in this final Nadi reading for me reveals what Gnanam is. The art of transforming the Asudha Degam into a Sudha Degam and later into the Pranava Degam and finally into the Oli Degam is indeed Gnanam. Gnanam then is in knowing this art and making the transformation happen. For this to take place observe the breath he says. I needed to know the Tattvas too he added.

அசுத்த தேகம் சுத்த தேகமாகி, பிரணவ தேகமாகி, ஒளி தேகமாகும் வித்தையே ஞானம். அதற்குத் தியானத்தில் வாசியைக் கவனி. உடல் குறு தத்துவங்களை அறிய வேண்டும். 

This was the start of Agathiyar showering us with lessons on Gnanam. He began to come through devotees as did Ramalinga Adigal surprise us, as the Nadi readers returned to India in the wake of the worsening pandemic. 

On 30.1. 2020 Agathiyar said I had stagnated in worldly affairs. He says, "All this while you saw to your needs in this world. You cannot possibly break the shackle alone. Hence follow the practices that I am to give you." He told me that I shall come to know what is right and what went wrong. Both shall be lessons that I shall learn. "Now you shall undertake an internal journey. This will reveal your purpose in taking birth. I shall relate what needs to be done to realize your purpose in coming here." He reminded us that whatever is initiated immediately and promptly shall bring success. 

நீ உலக வாழ்க்கையில் நீர்தேங்கிறாய். இவ்கடிவாளத்தால் உம்மால் மீண்டு வர இயலாது. ஆகையால் யாம் சொல்லும் வழிமுறைகளைச் செய்து வா. நீ செய்தவையில் எது சரி தவறு என்று நீ கண்டறிவாய். அனைத்தும் உனக்குப் பாடம். குறித்த காலத்தில் நீ செய்த அனைத்தும் உமக்கு நன்மை தந்தது. இது நாள்வரை நீ கடந்து வந்தது இவ்வுலக வாழ்க்கையின் பயணம். இனி நீ கடக்க போவது உமது உள்பயணம். அதாவது நீ பிறந்ததின் நோக்கம் அறிவதற்கு நீ செய்யக்கூடிய வழிமுறைகள் யாம் கூற இருக்கிறோம். இதன் மூலம் உமது பிறவி பலனை அதன் நோக்கம் நீ அறிவாய். 

Agathiyar who had me stop all my Yoga practice in 2011 after the pain in the lower back was at its peak, surprised me by asking me to restart the Vaasi practice. He explained further.

"Currently, your breath is ponded at the Svadhishthana. It is about time it was released. This is the right time to start this practice. Sit before me and meditate. During this moment carry out the cleansing breath as taught by your guru. Just the important ones. You shall sense a coolness within. Remain silent in these moments. Focus on your breath. Your breath shall touch the Suzhimunai and swirl. Travel along your seven chakras. That journey shall awaken your chakras. After traversing these chakras when it touches the seventh you shall know your purpose here." 

"இத்தருணம் மான் மூச்சு குளத்தில் இருக்கிறது. அவை திறக்கும் தருணம் வந்தது. இப்பொழுதுதான் நீ உமது பயிற்சியினை தொடங்க வேண்டும். இந்நிலையில் அச்சக்கரம் முற்றும் திறந்து விடும். தினமும் காலையில் குளித்து வெறும் வேஷ்டி அணிந்து என் முன் அமர்ந்து தியானம் செய்து வா. தியான முறையின் பொது உமது குரு கூறிய சுவாச சுத்திகரிப்பு பயிற்சியினை செய்து வா. அனைத்தும் வேண்டாம். மூல பயிற்சி மட்டும் போதும். அதை நீ செய்து வர உனக்குள் ஒரு தனி குளிர்ச்சி ஏற்படும். அந்நிலையில் நீ அமைதி கோல். உனது மூச்சில் கவனம் கோல். உமது மூச்சு உமது சுழிமுனை தோட்டு சூழும். உமது ஏழு சக்கரங்களில் பயணம் செய். அப்பயணம் உமது சக்கரங்கள் ஒவ்வொன்றாய் பூர்த்தி செய்யும். மூலாதாரம், ஸ்வாதிஷ்டானம், மணிபூரகம், அனாகதம், விசுத்தி, ஆக்கினையென ஏழாவது சக்கரம் தொடும் நிலையில் நீ உனது பிறவிக்கான பலனை அறிவாய்."

Ramalinga Adigal came on 14.5.2020 to explain further. "When you reach my state, energy will come within you without your knowledge. That is Suzhimunai."

"எனது நிலையை நீ தொடும்போது உன்னை அறியாது உன்னை நோக்கி ஒரு சக்தி உன்னுள் இறங்கும். அதுவே சுழிமுனை."

Agathiyar had allayed my fear telling me "You shall witness many changes taking place within you. Do not fear. Due to the activation of the chakras your body shall emit a foul smell. You shall have constipation. You shall urinate often. Take lots of warm water.  The Agathiyar Kuzhambu you took did help in expelling the three dosas. But there is still more filth that shall be expelled in due time. Carry out the said practice." 

"உடலில் பல மாற்றங்கள் கண்டறிவாய். பயம் கொள்ள வேண்டாம். இச்சக்கரங்கள் புணர்ச்சியால் உன் உடலில் ஏற்படும் மாற்றங்கள், துர்நாற்றம் வீசும், மல சிக்கல் ஏற்படும், கழிவு ஆகும், சிறுநீர் அதிகம் வெளியேறும். வெந்நீர் அதிகம் அருந்து. அன்று நீ உண்ட குழம்பினாள் உன் உடலிலிருந்து வாத, பித்த, கபம் சற்றே அகன்றது. இன்னும் இருக்கிறது. அவை அகலும். இப்பயிற்சியினை மேற்கோள்."

On 22.8.2022, shortly after, upon waking up and stretching myself in bed at 6.40am, I felt a pull of a nerve and a tug right below the navel. It brought on a swirling sensation followed by a chillness. My whole body became numb right to the tips. As I lay in bed alone, I was a cool witness to what was happening, taking notes in my head. Soon I felt nauseous and had the urge come on to pee and urine. I collapsed twice on the way to the toilet picking myself up each time. Back from the toilet, all was fine. It was blissful though. 

When I related this to my daughter the next day, she highlighted this to my wife who was away in my elder daughter's house. She rushed over. I had previously on several occasions had a sudden spate of unknown fear come over me where nothing I did to calm myself worked. Finally getting into bed and hugging my wife, ended this mysterious phenomenon. 

The next morning 23.8.2022, it happened again. I woke up at 7.20am, to go to the loo but I could not piss. I fell again. I picked myself up and climbed onto the bed. This time my body was lifeless from the neck down. My body became numb from the shoulders down. I lay like a deadlog on my bed. Although I could not move even an inch of my torso I was able to see, hear, and talk and was aware of what was happening to me.  I began describing what was taking place and what I felt to my wife. I asked myself if this was what a dead body would feel like. Soon the experience went away. 

Agathiyar cleared the air later. He told me not to worry and said that the stagnated water was released. Nevertheless, he gives a warning to all of us. When the chakras are activated late in life it would have some adverse results on our bodies. When the heat of tapas increases in our body, blood flow will be less bringing on numbness. This would result in urinary and excretion problems. 

கவலை கொள்ள ஒன்றுமில்லை. தேங்கி இருந்த நீர் வெளி கொண்டது. ஆனபோதும் முதிர்ந்த நிலையில் சக்கரங்கள் திறப்பதனால் உதிர வாட்டம் கொண்டுள்ளது. ஆகையால் எண்கள் மேரு பெறும். ஆங்கில மருத்துவம் கொண்டு அதனைச் சுத்தம் செய்து கோல். முதிர்ச்சியில் சக்கரங்கள் திறக்கும்போது அவ்வுடல் சில பாதிப்பினை ஏற்றுக்கொள்ளும். ஆகையால் மருத்துவம் உனக்குத் தேவை. உனது உடலில் உஷ்ணம் ஏற ஏற உதிரம் குறையும். உதிரம் குறைந்தால் உடல் மறுத்துப் போகும். உடல் மறுத்துப் போனால் சிறுநீர் கோளாறு கழிவில் கோளாறு. மருத்துவம் கொண்டு அதைச் சீர் படுத்திக் கொள்.

The swirling sensation felt initially in the abdomen just below my navel was regularly felt in the crown of my head but with a lesser intensity. I guess this is what Agathiyar meant when he said I shall feel a magnetic wave arise. A couple of days later, it seemed more like a flowering of petals and was blissful. On 19.10.2022 as I lay on my sofa in the living room with my eyes closed, my finger that was touching the crown of my head could feel a pulse. This is usually observed in small children. The chillness and swirling that is akin to a flowering goes on irrespective of my daily activities these days. It is more intense each time I bring my attention to it. If Tavayogi in bringing me to the abodes of the Siddhas in the jungles pointed to the skies and told me the Siddhas were showering us with flower petals then, in going within the flowering happens in the sky and roof of our torso, the crown. So what Tavayogi said about what was out there was also within us and vice versa prompting him to write his first book, "Andamum Pindamum" is true. Following the flowering in the crown that goes on without my participation or action, I asked Agathiyar what I should do further. His reply was to do nothing and that it shall do its work. 

I guess Agathiyar in bringing me and walking with me through this journey of internal transformation, has given me the strength to face pain, distress, misery, illness, and death. 

MAKING FRIENDS WITH THE PRAPANJAM

The reason I turned down the Nadi, never attempted to build a temple, never engaged in healing, but allowed Agathiyar to use me and my home as a conduit and a sanctum, was I never wanted to continue what others did and do, that is be of service to others and make them dependant on another for all these needs. I wanted them to walk the path of the Siddhas and attain all that came to me. Just as Agathiyar tirelessly worked on me, calling me to the path, revealing the reasons for taking birth and my purpose, gave me practices, the methods, the means, and the way to work towards the goal that was set by them, I expected others not to wait on them to dish out goodies but to work their way up the ladder too. For these rewards and transformation to take place one has to be loyal to the cause and the path. One needs discipline and be diligent in his undertakings. We are basically souls living our lives out as we desired and wished for or as a result of our past Karma. But with all this covering and attire we have begun to believe that we are the clothing and the accessories. This is Maya. One should shed his "Ego" and attire and let the "Self" or Atma run the show. Be assured that you are in good hands, let go and surrender. 

There was a time when Agathiyar came to us quite regularly and furnished us with knowledge beyond our knowing. As it was too much to absorb, I once told him that I could not remember all that he said to which he replied and asked me to connect with the Prapanjam and tap it from there. Ramalinga Adigal came to help connect us with Prapanjam on 21.2.2020. Agathiyar later confirmed this.

வள்ளல் பிரபஞ்சத்திடம் இருந்து சக்தியைப் பெற்றுக் கொள்ள உதவினார்.

On 20.7.2020 Agathiyar revealed that Ramalinga Adigal brought the Prapanjam within us.

வள்ளல் பிரபஞ்சத்தை தருவித்தார்.

On 10.12.2020 Ramalinga Adigal came down with such intense energy and laughter and began chanting the Arutperunjothi mantra, prompting us to do the same. He was totally and fully immersed in bliss throughout his stay where he could hardly hold his ground. He was elevating. We had to hold on to the devotee through whom he came within. He asks us to bring the Prapanjam within us too. He was constantly telling us to bring the Prapanjam within and that it would listen to us and accompany us. The Prapanjam would serve us, he said. It would come along. I guess this is what is meant by the Siddhis that the Siddhas perform at will. 

பிரபஞ்சத்தை உள்ளுக்குள் செலுத்துங்கள். பிரபஞ்சம் உங்களுக்குக் கட்டுப்படும். துணை வரும்.

On 6.5.2021, he had us reach out to her by raising our hands and arms, saying that the Prapanjam shall assist us and he too shall be there for us. 

உன் கைகளை உயர்த்தி பிரபஞ்சத்துடன் தொடர்பு கொள்க. பிரபஞ்சம் உனக்கு உதவி புரியும். நானும் துணை இருப்பேன்.

On 24.12.2021 Ramalinga continued singing his Agaval from where I left, at verse 305 "நாயினுங் கடையே னீயினு மிழிந்தேன் ஆயினு மருளிய வருட்பெருஞ் ஜோதி" as I was overcome by emotion. But the words were different. He coined those words off the cuff at that very moment. 

என்னுள்ளீல் நீ உன்னுள்ளில் நான் அதுவே அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி,
போகமும் அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி,

நீ கடந்து அறிவே நீ அறியும்அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி,
எல்லாம் செய் சித்தம் சிவனடி சேரும் அதுவே அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி,
ஆண்மையும் பெண்மையும் கலந்தன இறுதி வெளிப்படும் வெளிச்சமேஅருட்பெருஞ்சோதி,
இவை எல்லாம் தாண்டிக் கடந்தபின் காண்பது அதுவே அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி,
இளமையில் நீ செய்யும் யோகங்கள் யாவும் முதுமையில் சேர்ந்திடும்அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி,

and ended his composition with the following words,

ஜோதியுள் ஜோதி, அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி, குளிர்ந்தது ஜோதி, வெப்பமும் ஜோதி, நீயும் ஜோதி, நானும் ஜோதி, பிரபஞ்சம் முழுதும் ஜோதி, மின்மினி போல் மின்னும் ஜோதி, பரத்தில் இருக்கும் அருட்பெருஞ்சோதி, இப்பரதேசியில் காண்பதும் ஜோதி.

Once more he tells us in these verses that the whole of Prapanjam was Light or Jothi.

Agathiyar, I come to understand now is telling us that all knowledge is out there for the taking provided we have worked our way up the ladder into the clouds and are ready to gather them. Just as the timeline of our lives is revealed to us in the moments of dying and beyond that, as we are told, one can access all these memories and know even the future by tapping into this storehouse of information, the server in the clouds. Tavayogi told me that he was shown his past life during his meditation which I now have come to know is connecting with the Prapanjam. This means that we need not rely on books written by others, or somebody else to tell us and enlighten us on subjects beyond our understanding, or the Nadi to reveal the mysteries of life. We need not carry all the knowledge in us as we carry the books to school, but can readily access them as and when we want and need. We can put aside all the books. The search stops. What remains is simply the "knowing". This is expressed by Physicist Federico Faggin too in his interview at Top Physicist: “Science & Spirituality Merge in this New Theory of Consciousness” | Federico Faggin

Just as "by analyzing user behavior, preferences, and historical data, algorithms curate content tailored to individual interests, thereby enhancing user engagement and satisfaction"1, before we can access the internet for information, we divulge and give it to the algorithm that later accesses it and returns it to us, before we can take from Prapanjam, we have to give it to her. I remember Agathiyar after he arrived as the bronze statue asked me to give it life by reciting his name 100,000 times. He tells me that he shall fulfill the wishes of all those who light an oil lamp before his statue. Whatever rituals Agathiyar instructed us to do was for the Prapanjam. When Tavayogi asked me to carry out the Homam, just as he did a larger version of the Yagam on the grounds of his Ashram annually after the tsunami of 2004 brought devastation, I did it though I was worried that I had stepped into the domain of the temple priests. But Agathiyar came later in the Nadi and told me that I was not doing it for myself but for the good of all creation in the Prapanjam. When at the peak of the pandemic, when things were not looking good and were bleak, Lord Siva came through a devotee on 15.5.2021 and told us to carry out the Homam to help the Prapanjam recover fast. He addressed our worry seeing the numbers surging during the pandemic, telling us that humanity was the cause of it and Prapanjam used it for its purpose. Man needed to join forces with the Prapanjam and engaged in cleaning the Prapanjam. When it's cleansed the world will be completely rid of the virus explaining the process. "When engaged with the Prapanjam the vibration that takes place in you shall become atoms that cleanse the Prapanjam. The virus will be around till that day (till that is achieved fully). I, Shiva will join you in prayers to heal the Prapanjam. Whenever and wherever possible continue with this Homam. Those who can join do so (in lieu of the lockdown). Those who engage in this prayer will be safe. I have accepted your Puja. Share this with Shanmugam. Let it be known to all through his writings."

இந்த நோய் மனிதனால் உருவாக்கப் பட்டது. பிரபஞ்சம் அதனை உபயோகப் படுத்திக் கொண்டது. மனிதர்கள் பிரபஞ்சத்தோடு இணைந்து பிரபஞ்சத்தைக் கவசமாய் பயன்படுத்தி பிரபஞ்சத்தைச் சுத்தம் செய்ய வேண்டும். பிரபஞ்சம் சுத்தம் அடையும் தருணம் இந்த நோய் முற்றிலும் குணமடையும். பிரபஞ்சத்தோடு இணையும்பொழுது உங்களில் ஏற்படும் அதிர்வுகள் அணுவாய் மாறிப் பிரபஞ்சத்தைத் தூய்மை செய்யும். அதுநாள் வரை இந்த நோய் நீண்டகாலம் இருக்கச் செய்யும். சிவன் நானும் உங்களோடு இணைந்து பிரார்த்தனைகளை முன்வேய்ப்பேன் பிரபஞ்சம் தூய்மை பெற. முடிந்தமட்டிலும் ஒவ்வொருவரும் இந்த ஹோமத்தைச் செய்து வாருங்கள். யாரெல்லாம் கலந்துகொள்ள முடியுமோ கலந்து கொள்ள தும். பூஜையில் இணைவோருக்கு இந்த நோய் பாதிக்காது. உங்களின் பூஜையை நான் ஏற்றுக்கொண்டேன். ஷண்முகனிடம் இவற்றைப் பகிர்ந்துகொள்ளுங்கள். எழுத்து வடிவில் உலக மக்களுக்குக் கொண்டு சேர்க்கத்தும்.

When the dust had settled but as the Prapanjam foresaw a revival of the deadly virus, she came through another devotee asking her to convey the message to me and had me share it asking to carry out the Homam. 

The first time the Prapanjam was mentioned to me was in a Nadi reading on 27.8.2009. Agathiyar who gave me several yogic practices in the reading told me these practices would strengthen the state of Gnana further. It would result in clarity of thought and the power of the Prapanjam for sure.

பக்குவமாய் பயிற்சியும் செய்து வர பலப்படுமே ஞான நிலை பலவாறாக. பல்வாறாய் தெளிவு திடம் சிந்தை கீர்த்தி பிரபஞ்சம் வசிய நிலை திண்ணம் திண்ணம். 

Later on 17.10. 2010 Agathiyar told us that as the Prapanjam was in him, it shall take the form that we desire and pray to.  

என்னுள் பிரபஞ்சம் உள்ளத்தப்ப. அவனியிலே எதை நினைத்து புசித்தாலும் அடுத்த கணம் அது வாய் மாறி ஆசி அதுவும் அளிப்பேன்.

He came again on 29.6.2020 to reiterate that he was the Prapanjam and in us too and as such his powers were in us too. He said that the moment we realize this truth we shall attain emancipation. 

நான் தான் பிரபஞ்சம். நான்தான் நீங்கள். என் சக்தி உங்களிடம் உள்ளது. எப்போது அதை உணர்விகளோ வீடு பேறு கிட்டும்.

On 30.11.2020 saying that he was the Prapanjam, he added that he was all the deities put together. He made me recall the story of his travels to the south to bring balance to the earth that was said to have tilted when all the Gods and Goddesses and heavenly bodies gathered for Lord Shiva and Goddess Parvathy's wedding in Kailash. Logic tells us that only one who was equivalent to all the superpowers and heavyweights gathered at the wedding ceremony could bring a balance by standing at the other end. 

நானே அணைத்து தெய்வங்கள். நானே பிரபஞ்சம்.

On 6.5.2021, Agathiyar spoke again on the Prapanjam coming to our aid and that he too shall be there for us.

பிரபஞ்சம் உனக்கு உதவி புரியும். நானும் துணை இருப்பேன். 

Agathiyar has repeatedly told us that he was Prapanjam and that the Prapanjam was in him. Although being the Prapanjam, he can resolve all our problems and worries, by moving the chess pieces and realigning the course of events taking place and yet to take place, he wants us to actively engage in bringing the desired positive changes as we are part of the Prapanjam too. He wants us to know our true nature and potential and not to forever depend on all things external, not even him for all our needs. He wants us to be self-dependent or in other words a Siddha too. 

1. https://medium.com/@stocktonmattdavies/the-power-of-algorithms-how-they-drive-the-internet-experience

MAYA

I did once ask a devotee of Karupanasamy if the deity was caught in a time web and could not evolve further. It appears that the first half of the question is right. We have caught him in the net of the timeline from the past where for a specific mission he took on eating meat, consuming alcohol, and smoking tobacco to bring a change in his self and being so that he could become at par and combat the Asuras from the south. As for the second question he was already a highly evolved soul, a son of King Rama back then in history. It is sad though that we have trapped him in name and form for our purpose. So too I believe we have trapped many more deities from the Hindu pantheon, snapping a still frame from the timeline and worshiping these forms. So too are we trapped in a world of Maya. I had written in an earlier post the following:

Some time back Agathiyar dropped a bombshell that caused immense distraught, and confusion. Lord Murugan came to forewarn me of impending danger by way of a Leela or game played by the threesome Lord Siva, Agathiyar, and Lord Indra. It was just like in the Puranas and movies. Later they revealed that all that we have read, seen, heard, listened to, touched, smelled, and felt was coated in Maya, a term I heard Tavayogi say to me on his very first visit to my home back in 2005 that I could not understand back then and am learning to comprehend now. I needed to sieve through carefully, I was told. Tavayogi the very first instance he stepped into my home and upon leaving shortly after, told me I was living in Maya. The scriptures speak about it. Buddha had personal encounters with it. Anything that changes is Maya. All of duality is Maya. For instance, why is it that if time is running out for one, another finds it hard to kill time? Time and space and life which hangs from it are indeed subjective and relative. We only know something or someone to be short if another is long. We know daybreak if there was night. We know sorrow after being in a state of happiness. We know we are sick after staying healthy. Though all these seem all too real and true, it is only so in a relative world. How can it be the ultimate truth then? Agathiyar in dropping the bombshell that none of these is real, brought down the very establishment and hold we had on him too. Agathiyar wiped the slate clean. So what is real then? The Oneness with the One or Yegan, the state before creation, that is, was and will be in existence.

I understand how Jesus, Ramalinga Adigal, and Agathiyar feel about humanity and the blunders they make knowingly. They only want to deliver us from the hands of Maya who reaches out and envelops us often drowning us. The hold of Maya is so strong that it even latches onto religious and spiritual icons and drags them into the mud.

The following interview cannot describe it better. Agathiyar too says that death is but another doorway to another journey, merely a transition. Even Siddhas have to put at rest this body and move on. Fear not death he says. In preparing us for death while alive, he has us carry out all things, the good, bad, and ugly and eventually has us drop each one of them and our attachments towards them and finally end even the attachment to him.

In having me come to the path of the Siddhas after my very first Nadi reading in 2002, Agathiyar had me drop my personal pursuits and prepared me to carry out his tasks. Receiving a painting of Agathiyar and a booklet of names of the Siddhas, I began my Siddha puja at home. He had me go on a pilgrimage to India, my very first the following year where I met my very first guru Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai. In 2005, he sent Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal of Kallar Ashram who was in the path of the Siddhas to work on me. Tavayogi the very first time he stepped into my home had me drop my attachment to him, even before it could germinate and grow. Since then our relationship has been very professional. I only took in the messages that came through him and never saw the vehicle or carrier. Arriving at his Ashram months after he returned to India, he had me drop my attachment and hold onto the nine gem-studded ring and Rasamani bead that I wore. He had me drop the desire to wear a Rudraksha bead even before it arose. 

In having us drop our claims over all things Agathiyar began to shower his gifts and claim our rights. He offered the Nadi for my use and to read for others which I turned down. Lord Murugan in 2018, had Agathiyar coax me to build a temple for him, something that Agathiyar himself had asked in 2002. Agathiyar later in 2022 told me that it was all a test to see if I took it up. Bringing several youths to my home in 2013 and having us bring our home puja into other homes and temples, and carry out charity, he had us wind up and close shop in 2019, testing to see if I was willing to let go of my attachment to the AVM group, and the respect and honor that came with it. Later in 2023, he had me pass on his bronze statue which I had commissioned and prayed to since 2010, to a devotee he handpicked, again testing if I was willing to let go of the attachment to his figurine. He returned soon after staying in several homes of devotees accompanied by Loba Ma. Then Agathiyar, Lord Siva, and Lord Indra play yet another game or Divine Lila to shatter our hold on all of creation, exposing how Maya had created, veiled, covered, and infiltrated all things keeping us in an illusion and a deep sleep. After the learning that came with much distress, Agathiyar, brimming with a smile asked me if he should make me a Guru too, but immediately pushed that suggestion aside, and instead offered me that of a Siddha. 

He was preparing us to let go of the ultimate desire, want, and yearning. Him. If all the pilgrimages, puja, and rituals bridged both worlds, bringing him down from the status of God to Guru to Companion, eventually he tells me that I have to let go of my attachment even to him, bridging the final gap that separated us, so that we are one he says. From Dvaita he brought us to Advaita. From the many, he brought us to the One or Yegan and embraced us to become one. As we are told in the interview above about awareness and analyzing one's existential experience, finally in living in a world of Maya and learning to sieve through it, and learning from these experiences, Agathiyar and Lord Muruga told me that I had arrived and that there was nothing further to do. To be Still and Doing Nothing is to Watch as a Jeevan Mukta and a Siddha. They asked me to watch the breath and watch the silence that prevails in it, which again amounts to existential awareness of the moment. 

LIFE JOURNEY

Life journeys can generally be mapped using the following markers: When tragedy strikes, we are abruptly awakened from our dream state. We want to know, "Why me? " We begin to look for answers. We learn that every action is a result of a previous one. We come to know Karma. It pacifies us to know the reason though we might question why now and not settle it there and then in the previous birth. One who chooses to believe, listen, and accept begins a journey of unwinding his past life's mistakes by carrying out remedies and taking measures. During this journey, he sees the world around him, learns that there are many others worse off than him, and comes to terms with and accepts his fate. He returns having surrendered to the will of the Almighty who watches and governs us. His faith is strengthened. His spirit is strengthened. He learns to wade off making similar mistakes. He is a renewed soul in the old body. The soul begins to guide him henceforth, paving the path for him to travel. He makes his destiny now, with the help of the Atma within him, the JeevAtma that is a part of the larger ParamAtma.

ARRIVING THERE

At times I surprise myself with how fast and immediate I could drop a thing and just as equally take up another. If I bought a shoe or a pair of slippers I would walk out of the store wearing it. If I bought a shirt or pants I would immediately wear them upon reaching home. I would place every bit of a holy item given to me on my altar and start praying to it immediately. I dropped all questions the moment Lord Siva asked me to in a dream in 1988. So too did I drop taking meat, fish, and eggs immediately one fine day in 1998. I immediately started on the Vasudeva mantra given by my nephew who was but a tool delivering it back then in 2001 without questioning its source. I blindly repeated it. I took up the worship of the Siddhas immediately upon reaching home after seeing the Nadi the following year. I worshiped the Yantra and recited the mantra given by Dr Krishnan the moment I received them. I took up the mantra that Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai gave me just as I bid farewell to him on our very first meeting in 2003. I took to chanting the mantra given during initiation by Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal of Kallar Ashram the moment I returned home in 2005. Though I was hesitant to engage in rituals that I saw as the domain of the priestly group, I did carry them out after Tavayogi asked me to. Agathiyar came to relieve the fear in me telling me that I was not doing it for myself but for the Prapanjam and all of creation. I began to practice the Yoga and Pranayama techniques that Tavayogi taught me and several others in 2007. I took up the mantra that Agathiyar gave me in the Nadi in 2009. I did not doubt its efficacy to do wonders, alas I did not even want to know what it does, although Agathiyar listed out a long list of its benefits in the Nadi reading. I had his bronze statue commissioned in Swamimalai according to his wish, and that of Loba Ma and Lord Murugan's wish too which I came to know later, and worshipped him in 2010. 

Over the years I saw the benefit of these Yantras, Mantras, and Yoga practice. The Siddhas came through the Nadi to guide me often what Tavayogi left out or chose not to disclose. I was drawn deeper and deeper into the path and its methods, ways, and practices. Agathiyar began healing many. Then Agathiyar sent many to my home in 2013 to watch, participate, and learn Siddha puja. He brought the love in us out as we gathered together in the name of Agathiyar. He brought out the compassion in us when he sent us to pass on food and aid to the hungry and unfortunate. In 2018 Lord Muruga asked for a temple for him too, something Agathiyar had asked in my first Nadi reading. This was a test I came to know later as Agathiyar revealed that the temple they meant was my home and my heart. Having equipped us with the methods, ways, and means to connect with the Siddhas and bring forth love and compassion for others, he had me dive within, in 2019, yet another test to see if I held on to the AVM group that grew and flourished, taking up puja and charity. Then the final test came to see if I was attached to his figurine. He had me part with it which I readily did as in its place he promised that he would bring down the Prapanjam in 2023. Later he comes back home after spending some months with devotees accompanied by Loba Ma in the form of another bronze statue. Lord Muruga, Dhanvanthri, Lord Siva, Bhogar, Bhagawan Ramana, Yogi Ramsuratkumar, Supramania Swami, Tavayogi, Hanuman, Kali Ma, and Karupanasamy came to bless us often. Just as the mountain is back to being a mountain my home is back being a home.

Today he has me do nothing. Throughout these years he had shed so much light and had me shed so many things. He revamped me and my thoughts, nourished me, nurtured me, and molded me. Where would I be without him and my gurus? I am indebted to them. How do we repay them? They do not want our food or prasad, nor our money or a temple. They want us to allow them within. They want us to prepare an abode for them in our homes and later within. They want to live in us, breathe through us, dine with us, and spend time with us. And so did Agathiyar spent two days with us sharing his feelings and aspirations for his devotees, with Loba Ma, Sri Krishna, and Ramalinga Adigal, coming to us briefly. They want to bring us to new frontiers that the physical body is incapable of. They want us to become Siddhas too.

If life is basically about pain and pleasure, there is this tiny moment that sits snugly between these two. It is bliss. This is what Tavayogi asked me to prolong the feeling if possible. This is what Agathiyar defined as bliss within the pain in my lower back that crippled me for some 2 1/2 years after the Muladhara was activated. This is the bliss that Agathiyar mentioned, revealing to me years later, the first sign of the movement of Kundalini having taken place as I lay sprawled on the floor of the bathroom landing and moved as does a snake, both in bliss and joy running concurrently. Finding this space is having arrived there. 

LOOKING FOR A SUITABLE CANDIDATE

I had wanted to make movies as a school-going kid. I would head for the theatres and watch Tamil movies. I picked up learning the Tamil language in the Pupil's Own Language (POL) classes in school and strengthened my command of it by reading movie magazines like the Indian Movie News and Pesumpadam. But one fine day I dropped that desire figuring it would be difficult to summon the actors and crew together and have to wait for the right lighting and weather. You have to understand that those were the days when even my college lecturer in our engineering school lectured us about the dangers of putting up buildings and structures on ex-mining areas, along riverbanks and railway tracks. With technology and its advancements, all these are history and myth now. Anything is possible these days. 

But I guess Agathiyar seeing the seed of my desire still in me, introduced me to my gurus around whom I began to make videos, hence exhausting it. I guess that I must have carried a desire to build a temple too, something that my father's clan the Chettiars are fond of doing, for he and Lord Murugan asked me to put one up telling me that I shall do it differently. I finally came to find out that the temple they mentioned was my home Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM) that housed them since 2002. Taking notes on my maiden journey to India and returning home I posted my adventure on several websites that I created back then in 2003. Later traveling with Tavayogi in 2005, watching me note the day's events as we drove to our next destination he enquired and appreciated what I did. He became my star and hero in all my videos until his passing away and still continues to be. Since I too like Agathiyar and Tavayogi desired to pass on whatever little I understood to other seekers and onlookers and as I'm camera shy and have stage fright, I opted to write as Agathiyar asked of me. Agathiyar came to give my writings a boost by giving me the subject, the words, and the sentences to write too. I guess I must have carried this desire too, that of writing, for Dr. Krishnan told me it was in my horoscope. My wife candidly tells me that I am currently living out my desire as she has been away looking after her aged and ill parents for the past few months.

With all these expectations from me, I think I have failed my bosses. If the virtual readership numbers say otherwise, the actual following on the ground is not inspiring or impressive. I guess this is the reason sensing my sadness Lord Muruga told me to leave that to him and again reminded me there was nothing else for me waiting to be done. Surely Lord Muruga, like Agathiyar, Ramalinga Adigal, and Tavayogi has a huge task in convincing and bringing these seekers to the fold. I remember the day some years back when he had to lure us, just as we lure children telling them that we have a surprise for them, telling us exactly the same that he has something in his hands to give us and that all he asks of us is total surrender.

The setback with people is that while they will beat the traffic and face the parking woes to reach the temple to pray, seekers cannot bring themselves to sit in the comfort of their homes and conduct rituals on their own. Neither can they sit to try and meditate. They always give the reason that they have no time. It only shows that other things have taken importance and priority above and beyond allocating some 24 minutes in singing the praise of the Siddhas or sitting alone with one's thoughts. Or everything for them has to be done in the company of fellow seekers and followers. They fail to realize that it is in these moments of sitting alone that solutions dawn from within us. Instead, we chose to go searching for gurus and masters to tell us what to do regarding our personal lives. How can we expect a solution from someone who has broken all ties with work and family? Arriving at their door, the battering we receive in our everyday life would in fact prompt us to take up the robes just like these gurus.

What is your closest and most precious possession? Is it your bike, car, house, or family? It is this body. What is even closer is this breath. But yet we take this breath for granted. We do not give it its due attention until the moment we feel difficulty breathing and gasping for air. Once we get medical attention, we go back to ignoring it. Tavayogi showed us Agathiyar with a form, that is a 6 feet-talk fiber statue, giving us a mantra, Aum Agatheesaya Nama, that could summon him, and later equated him to Lord Siva, and finally pointing out to us that God was breath, equated the breath to God. We are as long as the breath moves in us. Even as the house crumbles, the breath lives on until the lungs fail us or rather the breath chooses to stay out upon our last exhale. If we could retain this last breath within that would be the state of Samadhi. We are to build this fortress strong and let it go too eventually. The Siddhas who experimented with life and the many possibilities in extending it, are willing to share and teach us but are there any takers or listeners out there?

If Lord Siva came in a dream asking me to keep my doubts and questions regarding the sufferings of others, to a later date and had me drop my visits to the temples, have me drop all my readings, thoughts, and questions, after some 14 years of staying away, Agathiyar called me in for a Nadi reading that explained it all. I stepped into existing Peedhams and organizations seeking to learn the worship of the Siddhas. But was disappointed. Upon letting go of my personal search and desires, Agathiyar had me take on his task. After pursuing the path, taking up prayers and rituals, learning and practicing Yoga, and conducting charity, for some 17 years, Agathiyar had me drop it all and he had us leave those too behind and do nothing. Just as I had all the pounding going on in my head seeking answers back then in the eighties, and Lord Siva brought instant relief from this torture, Lord Muruga and Agathiyar came along to have me just sit doing nothing productive as I learn is part of the Dutch culture called Niksen. 

So my day is filled with wake-up calls that come not from the alarm clock or phone but from within that stir me to wake up in the early hours of dawn at times at 2am, 3am, 4am, or 5am. If I wake up with a subject I begin to write a new piece or if I wake up with more information, I work on my existing draft. After the morning shower, I head for one of the six regular parks that I had earmarked and feel comfortable walking. I have my breakfast in the shops, as my wife is away caring for her elderly parents. I return home to catch up on my writing or develop further the updates or notes I took in the event ideas, words, and sentences had come to me during my walks. Having done that I watch anything of interest to me. I return to the fields and outdoors in the evening again or take a brief walk around my neighborhood. During my evening walk at the park yesterday, two girls I presume to be 4 and 3 were in the playground with their grandpa. Whenever I walked by them, the younger child would jump onto my path smiling and gesturing with both her hands as if blocking my way. When I bowed and asked to give way she would step aside laughing. This went on for some time until they were taken home. But before she left she walked up to me and touched me with her finger as if curious to know what stuff I was made of. A youth who carried a tiny toddler walked by me during my evening walk in the neighborhood last evening. Although he did not give eye contact the child did. When I raised my hand and waved at her she did the same. When I pointed to her she pointed back to me. When I did the high 5 hand gesture she copied that too. I had written in an earlier post of how a young boy walked up to me and touched my beard as if wondering what it was. Children are innocent and full of curiosity. Children just want to connect with things and people around them. It is adults who prejudge and choose not to interact with fellow humans. What we have of the past is only memories. But we are in control of the present. We make the present and future, though the latter might not always be entirely up to our expectations. We leave our footprints on the net, which keeps track of all our moves. Thinking no one knows, we leave our tracks on this face of the earth, which comes to haunt us later in life or in the next birth. I have made numerous blunders in life but the most compassionate father stomached them and let it be for the sake of my needing to acquire experiences, knowing that one fine day in one of the many births I shall learn and atone from it and find reprieve and solace. The recent Tamil movie Meiyazhagan is one such story of learning to forgive another. 

Some time back Agathiyar dropped a bombshell that caused immense distraught, and confusion. Lord Murugan came to forewarn me of impending danger by way of a Leela or game played by the threesome Lord Siva, Agathiyar, and Lord Indra. It was just like in the Puranas and movies. Later they revealed that all that we have read, seen, heard, listened to, touched, smelled, and felt was coated in Maya, that I need to sieve through carefully, a term I heard Tavayogi say to me on his very first visit to my home back in 2005 that I could not understand back then and am learning to comprehend now. Tavayogi the very first instance he stepped into my home and upon leaving shortly after, told me I was living in Maya. The scriptures speak about it. Buddha had personal encounters with it. Anything that changes is Maya. All of duality is Maya. For instance, why is it that if time is running out for one, another finds it hard to kill time? Time and space and life which hangs from it are indeed subjective and relative. We only know something or someone to be short if another is long. We know daybreak if there was night. We know sorrow after being in a state of happiness. We know we are sick after staying healthy. Though all these seem all too real and true, it is only so in a relative world. How can it be the ultimate truth then? 

If Lord Siva by coming through a dream in 1988, had made me stop questioning the happenings around me between the years 1980 and 1988, where seeing people suffer, I was confused if God really was compassionate and loving, he wiped out all the data that I had come to gather and store on customs, traditions, and religion that I had gathered in those years, in the 14 years that followed.

Agathiyar in bringing me to the worship of Siddhas in 2002, Tavayogi in bringing my wife and family to it later in 2005, and Agathiyar bringing several youths to my home in 2013, to engage in numerous activities, puja, rituals, and charity, in late 2019, had me close shop and bring the shutters down, clearing all these data too during the next 2 1/2 years. Just as he cleared the data on my schooling from 1966 to 1976, college life from 1977 to 1979, and my office from 1980 to 2016, he did the same with the AVM family. 

Agathiyar in dropping the bombshell that none of these is real, brought down the very establishment and hold we had on him too. Agathiyar wiped the slate clean. So what is real then? The Oneness with the One or Yegan, the state before creation, that is, was and will be in existence. When is each man and woman going to transform himself or herself into a divine person, a divine being, into a godman or woman, and reach this state? When I told a man who worshipped the deity Karupanasamy that Karupanasamy told someone else to offer just a tender coconut instead of meat, liquor, and tobacco, and asked him to follow suit, he replied that he would turn vegetarian the day Karupanasamy asked him for vegetarian offerings instead of meat. But it doesn't work that way, does it? Agathiyar has told many to take up Yoga. How many do it? We keep giving reasons to postpone good things. When disaster strikes as a result of our negligence and postponement, we turn to him to save us. Should he give a damn then? It seems now that we deserve all that takes place in our lives, either because we have desired them through our wishes and likes or if we had ignored the warnings of the impending dangers. We cannot claim ignorance for we are educated and knowledgeable. It hurts to see fellow souls drown. But what can we do if they do not set aside their ego and begin to listen and follow the Lord's way? Is there even a spark of the divine light in us? If yes it should have turned into a burning furnace by the coming of the Siddhas in their lives. For many the fire died down. I sympathize with the Siddhas. I understand how Jesus, Ramalinga Adigal, and Agathiyar feel about humanity and the blunders they make knowingly. They only want to deliver us from the hands of Maya who reaches out and envelops us often drowning us. The hold of Maya is so strong that it even latches onto religious and spiritual icons and drags them into the mud.

It is truly suffocating to live in present times. The noise and air pollution on the one hand. The tons of trash dumped on the face of the earth, in the rivers and seas, and in space too. None of the five elements is spared. Then there is the trash that goes into our body and blood turning it toxic and killing it before its time is up. Then we have the trash that fills our minds through the sensory organs that give rise to further dreadful Asuric thoughts. Love and compassion have taken a back seat with the demonic nature in us behind the wheels. Anger and hatred are eating us up and plunging the earth into darkness respectively. When previously the Gods took the reins now it is demons and Asuras. Where would they take us if not to plunge into darkness further? I understand from the deity Karupanasamy's life why Agathiyar has been reminding me not to lose my temper since day one, especially now as the energies are dwelling in the crown Chakra, for anger will bring its downfall falling back into the lower regions again. As for Karupanasamy who had to take on the Asuras creating havoc in the south, he had to transform into one of them to defeat them and return to his original state. But we took on the form taken for the mission and began to worship him in this state till this day. Just as there is so much trash in the material and physical world and in space, there is much trash in the spiritual world too, left behind by fraud gurus. I can understand the state of the Siddhas now, desperately looking for a soul to nurture, groom, and deliver salvation. Are you one of these souls? Then sign up with the Siddhas today to deliver you. Take up reciting their names. They shall hear you and shall bridge both worlds coming to you in the least expected ways and leading you on. 

The Siddha Marga is comprehensive. You have astrology. What astrology cannot reveal the Siddhas' Nadi reveals. What the Nadi doesn't reveal the Siddha comes in person through men, be they ordinary devotees or gurus. They bring us to understand birth and the reasons why one enjoys life while another suffers. These are tools of communication for the layman on the path of Sariyai. To those keen to pursue the course and know more about the Siddhas they are given rituals and worship to take up as in Kriyai. The Siddhas come to guide them similarly. One begins to connect with them, their thoughts, teachings, paths, ways, methods, and means. Soon they send someone to teach them Yoga moving them to know Pranayama, their breath or Uyir, the Satvic diet for their body or Udal, and practices that build internal heat or Tava Kanal needed to raise the Kundalini lying dormant within. Once it has arisen our efforts end. We live the rest of our lives as a Siddha, not as in giving magical performances and exhibiting magical capabilities as in doing Siddhi, or healing, etc that are much publicized, but going within, working on the Self or Atman, and exploring and coming to get to know it. Gnanam dawns from beyond once when we start going within and the Chakras open up and simultaneously dawns when we recognize the Self or Soul or Atma. A Gnani is born. 

Even after Agathiyar personally took up promoting my appearance, stroking my hair, and pointing out to the rest that it was turning black, many were amused by it but stopped there. All the years of carrying out Siddha puja with seekers who turned up at the door of our home that became AVM sadly did not moot them to do the same and invite new seekers to join them in worship in their homes. Agathiyar and Tavayogi wanted each home to become AVM. It was their dream. Everybody coming to the path stops short of speaking about the greatness of the Siddhas. Nobody wants to become one of them. Mahindren, Rajah, and my daughter took the lead and were the first to take up the call and conduct puja with family and friends. 

Agathiyar who called me to the path asked that I include the worship of the Siddhas besides the other deities. After some 20 years in 2022, he told me enough of speaking and singing their praise and instead share the transformation and changes taking place within. If I had carried stories of my pilgrimages and worship in websites, blogs, and YouTube earlier, he had me share the transformation taking place within with those keen to follow and transform themselves too. Sadly none came forward except for Mahindran. But as he was raising a young family, Agathiyar had him pull the brakes. Only recently did Agathiyar ask that he continue Yoga which was put on hold. His home has become the new AVM. As for me, I am given nothing to do. There is nothing to accomplish. Nowhere to go. If back then the singing of the praises to Siddhas and devotional hymns stopped on its own, now the breathing exercises stop, getting me to pause my breath automatically after each move.

God comes as a statue in general to those who come to believe it. He then comes as a guru in physical form for those fated to move up the ladder. For those who put in the effort and practice what is taught, he comes as the awakening of the subtle form of the creative energy within, Kundalini. He then awakens from within as the Atma within, the moment we let go of our ego. We and he are then one. The JeevAtma merges back into the larger ParamAtma, just as the river reaches the sea. But sadly like streams that begin to pond, many stall on this journey and never make it to the ocean. I am glad that Agathiyar broke the bunds and released the stagnated waters in me helping these energies to reach the ocean. 

If Swami Sivananda fell at the feet of the seeker who would become Swami Vishnudevananda later, as the latter's ego did not permit him to do so, and broke it, Tavayogi did not even allow ideas to manifest and common beliefs to take hold in me, shattering my joy at receiving him to pieces on his very first visit to my home. Agathiyar on the other hand had me engage in several facets of life and its activities and before it became an empire tore the house down and broke all ties with it, leaving me lonely. Lord Muruga told me there was nothing to do further. So should I continue writing? But seeing the all-time readership figures I do not want to let them down.

 

They want us to find God for ourselves. God need not be defined by another and for us to follow. No two Gods might be the same. Take the plunge and discover for yourself.

COPIES OF SIDDHA HEARTBEAT 2.0

Between 25 January 2022 and 20 October 2022, I was moved to create another blog Siddha Heartbeat 2.0. Here is the PDF version of the postings for your reading if you were not aware of this move.

A NEW NORM

As we step into the twentieth year of worship to the Siddhas in following their path, we begin to get insights and new perspectives and understanding of many subjects taught and followed by the Siddhas over those years. Our understanding, approach, practices, and even the tools have changed. Much of what was written except the biographies has been corrected, modified, or made to drop by Agathiyar. Looking at the readership pattern very few follow the current postings keeping up to date with these changes. Many go back to review previous postings or might have dropped in on these past postings in their search for answers on the net. I fear that they then shall read and understand and believe and adopt that as the gist and substance of the matter when it has gone through and adopted many changes. Hence there is a need to bury the earlier and past understanding and arise anew. So it is necessary to bury my Siddha Heartbeat blog and continue the journey with this blog Siddha Heartbeat 2.0. I await an opening number from Agathiyar to post shortly. Thank you for following us all these years.

Read Further at SIDDHA HEARTBEAT 2.0