In planning to go to India in 2003 after reading my first Nadi reading a year earlier, I drafted out a detailed itinerary of my maiden pilgrimage back then. I guess this was to be the start of my documentation for arriving at each temple, and after leaving, I noted whatever took place in this journey and my travels. Returning home, I posted these on my now defunct website "indianheartbeat". The knowledge gained from self-study and the availability of the latest hardware and software paved the way for me to try my hand at creating websites. I picked up HTML. I purchased my first laptop, and the "indianheartbeat" came to be. Later, in 2005, traveling along with Tavayogi in India, I did the same. I kept a journal of my travels in India.
I compiled the Siddhas hymns that I had been singing during prayers into a book of praise to Siddhas, SIDDHARGAL POTRI THOGUPPU. As I came across more hymns, I included them too, and the volume later expanded to become AGATHIYAR PUSAI or THE COMPLETE BOOK OF PRAISE TO AGATHIYAR. I documented the life and times of my Gurus. Initially, these notes and jottings were for my personal reference only, but as I wanted to give back something in return, these notes and jottings saw the light of day through the numerous websites and blogs that I created:
http://www.indianheartbeat.fws1.com,
http://www.indianheartbeat.20m.com,
http://www.tavayogi.webs.com,
http://www.wix.com/tavayogi/agathiyan
When I received positive reviews from readers, through their emails, phone calls, and in person, I realized that what started as a means of gratification for my Gurus and the Siddhas had, in fact, helped and benefited others too. The idea to compile these writings into a book took shape then. These books were available online at http://www.scribd.com/indianheartbeat.
Then in 2013, I began blogging because the tools were made available to add audio, video, and photos easily compared to websites. This gave birth to this blog, "Siddha Heartbeat". I took to creating content and uploading videos on YouTube.
I kept a spiritual diary too to monitor my progress. I compiled the Nadi readings. I compiled the conversations I had with Agathiyar coming through devotees.
You will not find doctrines and practices here. You will not find translations of scriptures and sacred texts, myths and mythologies here, for I am not an academician nor a well-read person. I am an ordinary man in the street, finding the home of Agathiyar. After the call to come to the worship of the Siddhas, which was something new, in the Nadi, I began to knock on several doors of the homes carrying Agathiyar's name. But I did not find worship done within these walls. I then took up worship of the Siddhas with whatever I had on my hands. Soon, the Siddhas guided me continuously through these Nadi readings. They brought me to two wonderful gurus. They taught me in the Nadi and through my gurus, giving me several practices and practical lessons. I learned from them. I experimented and was given the freedom to explore and adapt what came easily and was practical to modern times and needs. There was no tradition to uphold and follow. There was no Guru Kulam or strict and disciplined following. I could start doing something and drop it the very next moment. There was no right or wrong in doing things. It was all a gathering of knowledge, know-how, and wisdom from a practical means and way of living. It was all about gaining numerous experiences. The greatest joy came in doing them and not in mere reading or listening about them.
Then Agathiyar sent many youths over beginning in 2013 to watch and follow, bringing them easy access to the worship of Siddhas. My home took on the name Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM). The books I compiled on the songs of praise to these Siddhas and on my travels and journey served as guides to many. These books made available online came within the reach of many whom I had not met before.
Agathiyar, after having me drop the desire to build a temple for him that he mooted in my very first Nadi reading in 2002 and another similar request from Lord Muruga in 2018, was brought to a halt when Lord Muruga told me he had tested me and that my home was now a temple, after having me bring the shutters down on AVM and its charity arm, Amudha Surabhi, in 2019, after bringing the Yoga practices initiated and shown by Tavayogi in 2007, to a halt when pain and agony began to set in, as a result of the Kundalini rising, has me do nothing but watch the energies at play in my body now. Agathiyar had me drop my attachment to even his statue, asking that we part in 2023 when he had me send him over to the homes of other devotees. But he returned home to AVM after several months, having tested me to see if I was willing to do so. Some time back, he even asked that I drop my attachment towards him, asking how else we could become one? When, later, I thanked him profusely for all he had done for me to date, he asked me who I was thanking and for what when we were one. He had brought me from Dvaita to Advaita.
Today, Agathiyar has accredited my home and worship through a recent Jeeva Nadi reading. I guess my work is done. I have fulfilled my purpose in coming here. I have turned a family home into his temple. He who, in the initial years, would drop by on his way to Kailai or Pothigai, is here to stay, just as his bronze statue that he had me commission and made in Swamimalai in 2010 to grace the Sri Raghavendra Mritiga Brindavanam Kinta in Ipoh that was being constructed by my brother-in-law back then, chose to stay put in my home.
Just as we were told that the act of lighting the sacrificial fire or Homam or Yagna is an act of Dharma that sustains the world and all its creation; Just as we are told that the act of feeding the hungry is an act of Dharma that is lauded as the highest service one could give of himself to man and beast; Agathiyar, in a message for us through Suren's Nadi reading in 2018, said that there is indeed a higher act of Dharma beyond the rest. He says, besides the above acts of Dharma, singing the praise of the divine, eyeing his Holy feet, showing the way of the guru, and standing by it is the highest Dharma.
இது காலம் மாந்தர்களின் சிரம் பொருட்டு எடுத்துரைப்போம் பல தர்மம் நீதிக்கு ஒப்பாம் மங்கல துதிகளும் கதி உணர்ந்து மகிழ்வுடன் ஏற்றுக் கொண்டோம். உத்தமமாய் தர்மங்களில் சிறந்தது உயர்வான குரு வழியைக் காட்டி நிற்பது.
Now we are told that showing the way of the guru and standing by it supersedes all other Dharma. Ramalinga Adigal crows, asking us to wake up to the reality that was possible, which he had seen and experienced. Imagine if he had chosen to keep mum about it. We would not have the Arutpa to refer to and confirm our own experiences. So too did the 63 Nayanmars do justice in sharing their songs of experience. Imagine if the Siddhas had not provided us with an avenue to communicate with them through the Nadi, we would still be lost and struggling to find our way home. Imagine if Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal had chosen not to come into our midst, we would still be in the dark after the demise of our physical guru.
Just as the unschooled Hanna Schmitz seeks to have someone read her a story in the movie, "The Reader", and Captain Jefferson Kyle Kidd goes from town to town reading the news in the movie, "News of the World" it makes me happy and brings on a sense of immense satisfaction and contentment that just like my gurus in physical form and Agathiyar have helped me, we have helped at least one soul to see the light too.
Man has to share knowledge, an option that is not available to animals. Man has so many avenues available to better his lot, while animals have to abide by certain natural laws in place. Man is privileged to know himself and move up the evolution ladder by his effort and at his own pace. We have total freedom to free ourselves from the grip of nature. The saints commanded nature. Prapanjam aided them in their quest and venture.
I never dreamt that all this was possible. No astrologer told me about the advent of the Siddhas coming into my life back then. It just happened. The Siddhas, on their part, changed my fate and drew up a new destiny for me, one that they desired. Today I am living a life that they desire for me. I am both in good hands and at their mercy. As G.Vanmikanathan writes, "Here ends our Swaamikal’s journey on the Pathway to God. He has arrived. He has become a Jeevan Muktha, a seeker who has gained what he sought, who has reached the end of his quest." I guess I have arrived too, thanks to Agathiyar and my gurus.
G.Vanmikanathan, in tracing Ramalinga Adigal's life in his book, "Pathway to God Trod by Saint Ramalingar, Bharatiya Vidya Bhavan, Bombay, writes,
The point of utmost importance in Advaita is that every seeker after deliverance may hopefully aim at the goal of jeevanmukthi … The term ‘jeevanmukthi’ is used to describe this state of continued life in the body on the part of a knower of Brahman. A jeevanmuktha does not act on his own volition. God acts through him, speaks through him.The jeevanmuktha has imprisoned God in his heart, in every fiber of his body.
G.Vanmikanathan continues,
Swaamikal had indeed arrived at his goal, at his journey’s end, and he has nothing more to do on earth than to spend the remaining years prescribed for him by praarabdha-karma in adoring contemplation of the Godhead and in loving service to all creatures.
G.Vanmikanathan writes further,
Liable as it is to disease and decay, to pain and putrefaction, the Jeevan-muktha now longs for release from the body, longs for death. The body which was an asset for so long has become a liability as soon as the Jeevan-muktha state has been attained, as soon as the mystic union with God has been achieved. The mystic lives with dread for his companion, the dread of losing the bliss, the ecstatic union with God. So the Jeevan-muktha now longs for death, for release from the human body, for eternal bliss and union everlasting. He has obtained, it is true, supreme bliss, but still not evanescent bliss; he has obtained union with God, but still not eternal union. On having these beatific visions, wisdom and peace descend on the mutinously impatient Jeevan-muktha, impatient for death, impatient to shed the human body, impatient to gain videha mukthi - disembodied release from the cycle of death and birth.