SIDDHA HEARTBEAT

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Siddha Heartbeat

The concept of "Siddha heartbeat" relates to the spiritual teachings and practices within Siddha philosophy, emphasizing self-realization, connection with the soul, and the significance of silence in spiritual growth.

Spiritual Connection and Self-Realization

In Siddha philosophy, the heartbeat can symbolize the connection between the individual soul and the universal consciousness. Agathiyar, a revered figure in Siddha traditions, teaches that true understanding comes from engaging with the soul and listening to its wisdom. This process involves quieting the mind and being receptive to inner guidance, which is often described as a "heartbeat" of spiritual awareness. 

The Role of Silence

Silence plays a crucial role in Siddha practices. It is believed that in moments of silence, one can connect deeply with their true self and the divine. This state of being allows individuals to transcend the distractions of the external world and tap into the profound wisdom that resides within. The heartbeat, in this context, can be seen as a metaphor for the rhythm of life and the pulse of spiritual energy that flows through all beings. 

Yearning for Connection

The Siddha teachings often express a deep yearning for connection with the divine. This longing is likened to the heartbeat's rhythm, which reflects the desire to merge with the higher self and attain spiritual bliss. The metaphorical "thief" mentioned in Siddha literature represents the divine presence that captivates the heart and leads one on a path of spiritual awakening. 

Conclusion

The "Siddha heartbeat" encapsulates the essence of Siddha philosophy, where the heartbeat symbolizes the connection to the soul, the importance of silence, and the journey towards self-realization. Engaging with these teachings can lead to a deeper understanding of oneself and the universe, fostering a sense of unity and spiritual fulfillment. Through practices that emphasize listening to the heartbeat of life, individuals can cultivate a profound connection with their inner selves and the divine. 

BLISS, PATIENCE & HOPE

Agathiyar, coming through a devotee some time back, had asked that I stop writing, which I did, and which readers would have observed seeing the absence of new posts. I am pushed to write again from within. As I gave in to these strong drives, hence, readers would have seen an occasional post or two. Some things have to be shared. It is in sharing that true bliss is derived. My sharing is not to be taken as blowing one's horn or bragging about how special I am to have gone through these experiences. Ramalinga Adigal did call out to others citing the grace of God and his subsequent attainment. But I know I am not special, for I had received blows throughout this journey whenever the thought of being special arose. To recap, when Agathiyar asked that I build a temple for him, and I was floating in the air for thinking that I was special to be given this task, I was put down the very next moment when the young Sivabalan, who accompanied my Nadi reading, told me that Agathiyar had made this request to fifty others. Again, I was brought down to earth after Tavayogi practically "slapped" me on my cheek when he told me that I was living in Maya, thinking that he was a holy man in a holy garb. When in the midst of all the disbelief in the eyes of many that arose with the arrival of the Siddhas amidst us, Lord Muruga, who came to caution me of Lord Siva's play that Agathiyar and Indran were executing, asked me again not to fall for the play of Maya.

I am no preacher. Neither am I a guru. I am just like readers trying to comprehend and understand life. This blog and my writings, though it is titled Siddha Heartbeat, are not to be interpreted as preaching a particular path. Neither will readers come across profound truths in these pages, for the truth is far from our reach, I have come to understand. What we derive each moment, arriving at these moments, is a realization that holds water only for that moment. With the test of time, and arriving at newer discoveries, we tend to revise our earlier findings and understanding with the passing of time. Only one who has stepped out of this time-space would know the truth. And the truth is that we are all one, and life is all a dream. Just as we watch hours and hours of streaming, life too is a continuous churning of the sea, bringing forth events that in turn bring out the good and bad in us, the hatred and compassion in us, the anger and love in us, etc. I do not have all the answers. I, too, am trying to comprehend this rather complex and unfathomable creation and all the stories that came out of it.

When there was a moment when all the reading of religious books, listening to religious talks, and discussions on it, showed God as all-loving and compassionate, seeing friends and relatives suffer, had me question if God was truly what he was described and made out to be, Lord Siva appeared in a dream and told me to put aside all these questions, doubts, etc, to a later date. I took the cue, and for the next 14 years, I was wiped clean of all my earlier readings, comprehension, and understanding. I focused on my career and raising my family. When the time was ripe for me to understand God's play, he sent over my nephew, who brought me a message wrapped in a gift box from Agathiyar, which was conveyed to Gopal Pillai, who had gone into Samadhi earlier, to a devotee through whom he came, and assigned my nephew to bring it over to me. I was given the Vasudeva Mantra that was to pave the way for me to meet my gurus. Subsequently, I came to read the Nadi the following year, where Agathiyar came as my Moola Guru, giving me his Moola Mantra in the Nadi. 

He brought me to my first guru, Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai, whom I met on the last leg of my pilgrimage to India, which was initiated by Agathiyar and later brought Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal of Kallar ashram to our shores, where he took in my family and me as disciples. These wonderful gurus changed our lives for good. 

If, in coming to read the Nadi, I understood the reason why my friends and relatives had suffered in the hands of the very deities and Gods whom they worshipped, as the individual Karma patterns that they had brought onto themselves, looking back at the Puranas and divine stories surrounding the Gods and Goddesses, deities, Siddhas, and Rishis, I was confused again as to why they go around cursing souls, bringing them to take multiple rebirths to settle unfinished businesses or scores. Though it is very unsettling to know that all the former were there to execute and see these take place, today I understand that underlying all these sufferings was the compassion and love that shadowed them closely without their knowing. For those who broke down and left, never to return, all hope was lost. For those who took it positively and battled those moments, the deities come forward once this phase was over. Patience and hope, continuous faith and belief can do wonders. 

Back then, in the eighties, as a bachelor, I would conduct puja in my room at dawn and dusk and visit the temples in the vicinity of my rented home. I used to have many dreams then. One was of me at a temple grounds, which I knew to be in India, having seen the similarity to the layout and its architecture to movies that I had watched. I was standing on the banks of the temple pond, or Teppa Kolam, watching people carry a deity on their shoulders on the opposite bank. Suddenly, the palanquin or litter, or Pallakku, shook violently left and right. The figure of Lord Ganesa took flight and approached me with much speed and agility. When Lord Ganesa sat on my lap, it made me cry out in bliss and tears, telling and asking those around, who could possibly get the privilege of the Lord sitting on one's lap? Soon, a man in white walked up to me, picked a mango from a tree, and threw it at me. In trying to catch it, I dropped the fruit. But I picked it up. I was awakened from this dream at this juncture and saw myself "feeling" the pillow to see if it was wet from the tears I had shed in the dream. But it was dry. So it was only a dream, I concluded. Today I tend to say and ask the same, that which I asked in this dream, who could possibly get the privilege of the Lord sitting on one's lap? It was all possible only by the grace of my gurus, Agathiyar, for saving me from drowning in the river, and showering his love and compassion, Supramania Swami, for gifting me the merits of his forty years of austerities, or Tavam and Tavayogi, besides the many rituals shown, who gave me the Yogic practices that Agathiyar says are a treasure. 

Beginning with my maiden pilgrimage to India to satisfy the requirements of the Nadi that I read, I was overcome by tears, cries, and bliss during these unexplained moments of coming before the deities in these temples. I had no idea what was going on and why I went into these modes of devotion. Returning home, these moments of blissful encounters arose regularly both while at their abodes and during home puja too. Coming to worship the Siddhas after taking up the call in the Nadi, and carrying out rituals, we made headway in connecting with these Siddhas and Rishis, deities and Gods and Goddesses, bringing them now into our very own living rooms. When he came to grace my home as a bronze statue, Agathiyar had mentioned that my soul would temporarily be in his statue while he walks in me during the duration of the puja. Today, I can safely say that by the grace of the Siddhas and Rishis, they have linked us with the source or ParamAtma, originally made available and present by the Siddhas in the temples for the sake of people, to us in our individual homes. Agathiyar and the Siddhas made these images and gave us the tools to come into direct contact with them. But soon others came in between and reigned, placing hurdles and obstacles between God and his devotees, and took over the role of middlemen. Blessed are we to have Agathiyar initiate us in having his statue made and come to teach us the rituals to connect with them again at Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM). When I was told to go within refraining from carrying out further puja, beginning in 2019, once I saw a libation or Abhisegam, performed to the Siva Linga of Lord Siva. I was not sure if I had seen this vision, in a state of meditation that I had slipped into then, or if I had dozed off and had this dream, as I sat with my eyes shut, before the idol of Agathiyar in my home. Though he stopped the rituals, he showed me this with my eyes shut.

When Tavayogi showed us the Asanas and Pranayama techniques, and I put them into practice, there was a surge of Pranic current that would enter and be felt right till the pores and cells, bringing on instant bliss. Then there were times when I used to go into these moments of further bliss, initially when in the midst of nature, taking in the breeze and air that blew over my face, stepping on the ground as in grounding, and touching the plants and trees. Soon, it was felt in the presence of children. Then it came on as and when a smile draws on the face of a person I come by, or with a wave of his or her hand, or in the brief moments of contact and talk with others, or just in standing and looking around, watching life go by. I understand now that just as Agathiyar had said, and Ramalinga Adigal had helped us in connecting, we were connected with the very Prapanjam in these moments. 

Agathiyar tells me that pain was bliss, too, when I went through the initial years of the opening of the Muladhara in 2007 and later the activation and further travel of the Kundalini. Though I was in pain, but would laugh and cry in bliss. As said, the journey to the final destination, that of the Sahasrara in 2023, brought on immense bliss and joy as the flower petals opened up. If I had to have a reason for joy and bliss to come on back then, lately, I used to enter these brief moments of bliss for no reason at all. There was now no reason or catalyst to initiate or bring on the bliss within. I understand that I had connected with the very nature of man that is bliss and its inherent state. It was always and has always been there. The Siddhas just needed to draw the veil or curtain aside and have us see and realize it. As Tavayogi says that one should learn to prolong these moments, and Ramalinga Adigal longed for many more such moments, I pray that I am blessed too.

Yesterday morning, I was continuously reminded of the bliss that came over me as I slept through the night. But I am not sure if it was a dream state, for I did not wake up or come out of the state as in dreams. But I knew I was crying out in bliss as the intense bliss crept through every pore in me in the state of sleep. 

This morning, as I was in the arms of my wife, the bliss that came on so powerfully made me ask who Agathiyar was. I am brought back to the lyrics that Gowri Arumugam wrote with Tavayogi for our joint production of the audio CD "Agathiyar Geetham" in 2018, where they ask the same too.

Agathiyar tells us that he is the Prapanjam and the very vibrations that are prevalent in and around us, and that prevail through our efforts, and those of others, and in our every act. 

• When a neighbor of my childhood home, a Chinese medium, healed me, chanting some verses and hitting himself with the blunt end of a sword and writing Chinese characters on a strip of yellow rice paper with red ink, and burned it, collecting its ashes in a glass of water and having me drink it; 
• When, as a child, we were brought to Hindu temples, local mosques, and Buddhist temples for some relief to all sorts of ailments, disorders, and suffering;
• When the doctors who applied a fiberglass cast on my elder daughter's fractured leg told us that it would heal on its own accord, given her young age, but as she fell into the 5 % who fall in the class known as non-union, did not see speedy recovery, and needed assistance in the form of the Autologous Conditioned Plasma therapy or ACP procedure;
• When Agathiyar told my younger daughter that the Prapanjam would heal her eyes after she went through a procedure too; 

• When the chief priest at the Buddhist Vihara healed her throat with his touch, placing his palm on her head and chanting the sound "Mmmm"; 
• When an academian at a local university and healer placed her palms at her throat and did further Chakra and energy healing; 
• When after initial efforts made by a couple of masters in Energy healing and Varma, and a gym instructor and a medical doctor helped bring some relief, Lord Muruga simultaneously came through the Nadi and a devotee and healed my back by stroking it with a peacock feather and placing a glass of water before me and have the others chant the Arutperunjothi Mantra and have me drink it, it is pretty obvious what Siddha physician Dr. Krishnan said of our body as having the gift of healing itself. That healing is done by Prapanjam using light, sound, and vibration, taking over after man does his part in carrying out the aforesaid procedures. We only need to place our faith in their efforts and belief in our prayers. 

If the deity Karupanasamy told us that Agathiyar was a female and not a male as we are made to believe by having us encounter him or rather her on several instances right from our arrival in India in 2016 affirming that he is beyond form and gender, Agathiyar tells us who he is in a written message delivered on the occasion of my 66th birthday cum 60th wedding day that was carried in a previous posts.

Agathiyar, in his "Shanmuga Nayagan Thotram", explains the many moments and occasions when his guru Lord Muruga is felt and known. A verse from this song, அவன் பக்தர் நுழைந்திடும் வீட்டினிலே, reveals that he follows into the homes where his devotees step. I understand why our elders and ancestors were so steeped in tradition back then, for they saw through the physical self and addressed the soul as the Siddhas did. In inviting a visitor at the door, we welcome the deity too, who follows them. Indeed, Agathiyar has identified to us deities who follow devotees to our home, AVM. In serving food to these visitors, we serve the deities that live and move with them, too. Agathiyar has said that in cooking and serving food, he feeds the "elementals" residing in the body of his devotees. 

Agathiyar reveals Lord Muruga further, 

• as seen through the eyes as a vision, 
• in the flower fields, 
• when the mind settles, 
• in the breeze that delivers Gnanam, 
• in the chant of his name, 
• in the untouched forest, 
• in the places his devotees are, 
• in the hill fortresses, 
• amidst the crowd of devotees and their dance, 
• in the places of worship, 
• in the silence where the Atma attains bliss, 
• in reaching out to the poor and in giving to them, 
• in forgetting one's body in devotion and bakti, 
• in those who have known the truth, in the gist of Vedanta, 
• at Tiruchendur, where the waves break, 
• in Kundalini Yoga, 
• in the merger of Paramatma and Jeevatma, 
• in the service rendered by devotees, 
• in showering him with flowers, 
• in the waters that fall, 
• in seeing all as one, 
• in seeing nature, 
• in the winking stars, 
• in seeing him on a peacock, 
• in forgetting the body and watching the Jeevatma, 
• in carrying out Sariyai, 
• in Poigai, where the Ganges merges, 
• in letting go of opinions and ego, 
• in a couple coming together,
• in the rows of light, 
• when Gnanam dawns, and he goes on. It is clear that God's presence is very much in nature, all around us, and in all our activities.

Yes, it is indeed love at first sight with God. How could we fall in love with God whom we have not seen, nor spoken to? When we fall in love with our Self, we go within and stop seeking love outside. When gurus preach about the path, for those whom they see in them the potential and willingness to submit and listen, the guru takes them under their wings and tutors them personally, not by holding classes, but have them walk first in following behind them and later walk abreast and along, and eventually they carry them on their shoulders, leaving no marks or footprints. They are then one - Yegan, the Yegan that became Anegan in the course of time, return to become Yegan again. 

THE TOUCH OF THE GURU THAT TRANSFORMS

I had a wonderful childhood, a good career, a good family life, and a religious upbringing that brought on a smooth transition into the spiritual world, too. Whatever obstacles and knots were cleared with the coming of Agathiyar into my life, or rather with his calling me back to the path that he says I was on, having known each other for crores of years. So why is it that I cannot remember the good times we had earlier in my past lives?  Why have I forgotten him, only to have him come by again to remind me through a Nadi reading that came quite late in life, when I was 43 years of age? 

Swami Muktananda mentions in his book SECRET OF THE SIDDHAS, Siddha Yoga Publication, 1980, "Forgetfulness of one’s true nature is the moss of ignorance that muddies the experience of the self" and that "The Guru is the means of removing it." 

Why did he wait that long to bring me back home?

Ramakrishna is said to have lamented that Naren, who came to be known as Swami Vivekananda later had come late. Richard Schiffman in ‘SRI RAMAKRISHNA – A PROPHET FOR THE NEW AGE’, Paragon House, 1989, shares Naren’s own account of his first meeting with the master.

To my great surprise, he (Ramakrishna) began to weep with joy. He held me by the hand and addressed me very tenderly, as if I were long familiar to him. He said, “You’ve come so late! Was that right? Couldn’t you have guessed how I’ve been waiting for you? My ears are nearly burnt off listening to the talk of these worldly people. I thought I would burst not having anyone to tell how I really felt!”

I guess, as Mahindren told me yesterday, just as a child is attracted and explores life before settling into a comfort zone and a rhythm and pattern, comfortably, we had to explore life for ourselves. 

But I am saddened by the many who have yet to settle down, be it in a good job, a good and trouble-free life. However, I still continue to help them in whatever little way I can. But besides living as a family, in the community and society, there seems to be a greater purpose in us coming down. This is only made known when the Siddhas begin to stir the soul in us to rethink our purpose. The soul then becomes the guru that shows us the way. If initially, the Siddhas bring us to a guru in the physical form to have us start questioning ourselves, soon the soul fills the void that is left behind with the passing of the guru. The soul takes the place of our previous guru, as we take his form, image, ideology, etc. A couple who came by to my home after reading my blog, and who were initially saddened to read that Tavayogi had passed away, rejoiced in telling me later that Tavayogi still lives, after seeing me. I was brought to tears by this observation and acknowledgement of theirs. Lately, Agathiyar told me that I should live as him and not Shanmugam Avadaiyappa. When he asked me if he should make me a guru, after I had dismissed all the offerings and gifts he had laid before me to take up, feeling guilty for refusing him all these years, I finally submitted to accept this wish of his. But surprisingly, he immediately retracted it, saying that he would make me a Siddha instead. That is the magic of these gurus. Blessed are those who come close to these amazing souls that uplift us to become on par with them. 

Srinath Raghavan had posted a beautiful piece many years back, mentioning that "Freedom is breaking the bubble and seeing and feeling the reality beyond your own," which "We can very well break its brittle wall from inside, But we choose not to, for the fear of being exposed to uncertainty," and happens "When, with the touch of the Master from outside, the bubble breaks, That's when we will finally realize, how foolish and limited we were, To have accepted the truth that's known to us, as the Final Truth..."

If Swami Muktananda says that, "all scriptures and Sadhana are simply means of washing away the filth of ignorance." and that "They have no ability of their own to reveal the wisdom of the self because that principle is self-existent, perfect, and always manifest", Ramana Maharishi says that the master comes to transform us, "... the spiritual energy of a master transforms the consciousness of men." Ramana Maharishi strongly believed that the spiritual energy of a master could transform man’s consciousness, as Truman Caylor Wadlington writes in his book YOGI RAMSURATKUMAR - THE GODCHILD OF TIRUVANNAMALAI. 

Ramana Maharishi seldom wrote, but in his prose and verse, he laid great emphasis upon the age-old verity which asserts that the spiritual energy of a master transforms the consciousness of men. He claimed that nothing was equivalent to association with adepts as a means to attaining the supreme state.

Swami Muktananda says, "Just as the wind disperses the clouds but does not create another blazing sun, so the grace of a Siddha simply removes the veil of ignorance so that one realizes that one is already perfect." He is said to have mentioned that the moment he met his guru Bhagawan Nithyananda, "In a flash of self-understanding, he knew that he had found his other half; that now he was whole again." (Source: Paul Zweig in the introduction to Swami Muktananda’s ‘THE PERFECT RELATIONSHIP’, SYDA Foundation, 1985)

Ramalinga Adigal sang that, "Only the guru can know that delight and taste the elixir that arises in every pore of the body." 

ஆணிப்பொன் னம்பலத் தேகண்ட காட்சிகள்
அற்புதக் காட்சிய டி - அம்மா
அற்புதக் காட்சிய டி.

சந்நிதி யில்சென்று நான்பெற்ற பேறது
சாமி அறிவார டி - அம்மா
சாமி அறிவார டி.

Swami Muktananda echoes the above phrase of Ramalinga Adigal, too. 

THE MANY BRANCHES OF THE SAME TREE

Many come to the path of the Siddhas out of curiosity. Some stay. Some leave. Of those who stay some see it as an extension of temple worship, exploring this time the many abodes and shrines and Samadhis of the Siddhas. Though initially, it might seem to some as a substitute for temple worship, in reality, the Siddha path is one of traveling within to explore the many untold mysteries. Very few stay till the end to explore this unknown and uncharted world and its terrain. While some are trapped in Sariyai for life, others keep doing Kriyai all their lives. If Sariyai disciplines us, through rigid do's and don'ts, Kriyai brings us to focus on rituals. It is only after coming to Yogam that spontaneous meditation sets in. In observing Sariyai or Taatamaargam, we live in the world of Siva as his servants. In carrying out Kriyai or Sarputramaargam, we, as children of his, take up the rituals of worship to Siva. Coming to Yogam or Sagamaargam, we become a companion to him, attaining the form of Siva. We step into Jnana or Sanmaargam finally. These four Neri or Maargam or path or ways bring their own state of Mukti or spiritual liberation (Moksha or Nirvana). Sariyai or Taatamaargam brings us to Salopam or the rare gift of living in the world of the God; Kriyai or Sarputramaargam brings us to the state of Sameepam or the great honor of living close to God; Yogam or Sagamaargam brings us to the state of Sarupam or the exalted state of taking the form of God; Jnana or Sanmaargam brings us to Sayujyam or the ultimate state of merging with God. 

Sariyai is a good start, living in his world and taking care of temples and altars at home. By performing Kriyai, it takes us a long way, connecting us to him personally. By taking up Yoga, it enhances the true home and abode of him that is within us, making it suitable for him to reside. Gaining Jnana brings the understanding that we were never separate in the first place. 

Ramalinga Adigal divides each stage into four further stages. There is Sariyai in Sariyai, Kriyai in Sariyai, Yogam in Sariyai, and Jnana in Sariyai. Similarly, it goes for the other stages too: Sariyai in Kriyai, Kriyai in Kriyai, Yogam in Kriyai, Jnana in Kriyai; Sariyai in Yogam, Kriyai in Yogam, Yogam in Yogam, and Jnana in Yogam; and Sariyai in Jnana, Kriyai in Jnana, Yogam in Jnana, and finally Jnana in Jnana. 

I thought that I had failed Agathiyar, who had high hopes for me to bring this path to the youths of present times. It was time for the Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM) family members to carry out Kriyai in their own small ways in their homes on the advent of the pandemic in 2019. On Tuesday, 30 July 2019, I put up a notice and brought the shutters down on AVM and its charity arm, Amudha Surabhi (AS). I carried a post, "SAYONARA". 

As I have written in my last post Agathiyar has revealed the way and showed us the escape route from the cycle of birth and death. The truth has been revealed. The theory is over. He is asking us to move on to practice what he has preached all these while, now. Or you can take it the other way too, after putting into practice all his tiny bits of advice, he has revealed the theory behind it. For those yet to come on board it is now up to them to place the effort and comply with the 5 tenets of life. For the others, I pray that we can all continue with the task. Now he is moving us to another platform from the physical to that of the soul that takes place within. He shall guide further from within each one of us, individually, customized, and just made for each. So it is time to say Sayonara for this group AVM too. Let us meet up sometime in the future and exchange notes on how we are faring in our spiritual journey. Thank you very much for being with us all this while.

Passing the baton to Mahindren in 2024 to bring this path to the kids now, except for his siblings and my family, as he too, saw no response from the other parents, he too dissolved the New AVM group shortly after. I realized that Mahindren and I had fared well in comparison after hearing a young man who took up the helm and post of a temple secretary some twenty years back lament on his position and state of affairs too. He said that he had to run the management of the temple alone, although there was a committee. A patron and head of an ashram in India told me the same that she had to run around sourcing funds for the temple, although there were temple trustees in place. He voiced out his sadness that, although there were some 150 families living in the vicinity of his temple, no one turned out to pray. Those who come are from afar. This was a similar complaint from the head of a Brindavanam setting smack in the middle of an Indian community in another state. There, they prefer to go to the temple rather than pray at the guru Peedham. People prefer to pay, pray, and move on rather than serve the temple or Peedham in many ways. Sariyai by the people and for the people is rare these days, with the gardeners, cooks, watchmen, and priests coming under the payroll and having to be paid a salary, lamented a Peedham head to me. People do not come to Kriyai, preferring to engage the temple priests for their religious needs during all their auspicious and inauspicious events. Yoga is a choice that a select few venture to come to, and those who stay on and practice are few. Jnana is rare. It has been replaced by people vomiting bookish knowledge. But although this is indeed a sad state of things, I am assured from all directions these days that all is well and fine and right. A neighbor of mine, Selvarani, amazed me when she could take everything as Jesus's doing and grace. Postponements, disappointments, pain, and suffering were all seen as positive by her. Mrs Kogie Pillai wrote me the piece about "Sowing the Seeds" that we had spoken about earlier, some time ago. 

Sometimes, living our life purpose and executing the tasks associated with it can become a little blurry.  We may have spent much of our life fulfilling a role in a corporate or similar environment characteristic perhaps of self-imposed high standards, lofty expectations, driven by results, immense motivation, sincere commitment, unwavering determination and more.  These personal standards and traits can sometimes unintentionally be expected of others as well and more importantly they can filter into our spiritual roles.  Spiritual roles however tend to be designed and structured somewhat differently from corporate roles, particularly around  job specifications, performance management and measurement.  

Although there may be some similarities between the two roles the spiritual one is distinct for it’s unique, individualised path aligned to the personal journey of each person. The manager navigating the spiritual team is also on his/her personal journey hence he/she is only required to perform their specified task and move on.  Members of the team accept responsibility for their tasks and are accountable for their performance.  It is pretty much a transformational, self-managing system.

There are however some spiritual pathways where the leader walks the path and members follow.  The leader navigates, guides and steers based on his personal experiences, acquired knowledge, wisdom and spiritual accomplishments.  The leader leads and members follow hence members inevitably traverse the  journey of their leader as opposed to their own.  There is no judgement in this if one is fully aware of their choice and is happy in pursuing it.  

The siddha path however offers the opportunity to learn from experiences of others, translate it into personal knowledge, formulate wisdom and use discernment in discovering the self and one’s purpose.  It encourages spiritual independence, self-management and the pursuit of  bespoke relevant outcomes to advance one’s unique journey.  To this end the spiritual leader will disseminate various different seeds and continue with his/her own journey.  Each individual will respond to the seed/s that resonate with them.

Therefore in my novice opinion your concern relative to failing in carrying out your tasks and in meeting siddha expectations and the sense of disappointment in not seeing growth and advancement in many individuals is unnecessarily  self-punitive.  The task was to sow the seeds, which was accomplished.  One cannot make them germinate.  Each individual will respond to the seed relevant to their unique journey and the time taken for each seed to germinate  will vary.  For example apple seeds take 2-3 weeks to germinate and 2 to 8 years to bear fruit, mango seeds typically germinate within 1 to 3 weeks and can take 5-8 years to bear fruit , cocoa seeds take 12 to 18 months to germinate and 3-5 years to produce beans and the buccaneer palm can take 18 months to germinate and  reportedly  decades to reach maturity.

The spiritual journey is incredibly arduous, often soul stretching, mind bending and life wrenching hence one may come to the fold, fall off the spiritual wagon, leave to re-learn lessons, acquire more knowledge, shed baggage, encounter more challenges, take time out to heal or seek to understand themself or life better.  This takes time.  It takes as long as it takes and differs from person to person.  Their seed germinates and grows only when they are ready.  It cannot be hurried.  When they return to the spiritual path they are more inclined to stay, grow and thrive.

Disappointment relative to not seeing them grow and germinate before your eyes stems from measuring growth within our linear time frame.  There is only the present, no past, no future.  Your task was done, seeds were sown and they will germinate, we just don’t know when.  Regardless, at some point you will see the fruits of your labour from wherever you are and hopefully you will ready for a bountiful harvest, owed to you.

Mahindren shared the above quote and his comment recently. During the end credits of the short movie "Thavvai," we are told விதைத்தவன் உறங்கினாலும் விதைகள் உறங்குவதில்லை, which goes to say even if the one who sows is gone, the seeds do still live. Even if we are not around, our work here remains and is remembered. It also means that while the one who sows the seed is asleep, the seed grows (unknowing to him) just as Mahindren had written.

Frank Alexander, in his book "In the Hours of Meditation", Advaita Ashrama, Calcutta, 1993, writes,

"Having done thy task, stand aside. Work to thine utmost, and then to thine utmost be resigned. Know that wherever there is worry and expectations in work, there is also the blindest form of attachment."

When I thanked a reader, telling him that his email came in a timely manner as an assurance for me to continue writing, he messaged me yesterday, "It was truly a fantastic decision, and it will be helpful for beginner seekers," and commented on a recent post.

Saint Ramanuja who defying his guru, Gosthipurna to share a secret mantra teaches is really shows his compassionate action for universal good is a higher duty than blind obedience. By publicly proclaiming the mantra for all to hear, he demonstrated that true spirituality isn't about hoarding sacred knowledge for personal salvation, but about selflessly working for the liberation of others, regardless of their status. Finally, you are doing it for the liberation of others. 

LESSONS LEARNED

This journey of mine that began with my very first Nadi reading in 2002 and taking up the call to come to the worship of the Siddhas, culminated with the coming of my gurus in physical form who through Kriya helped me reach out to the Siddhas and tap into their energies and through Yoga helped me reach within tapping into the very creative energy in all of us. Today, I see myself and others as light, energy, and vibration, in various degrees of intensity. The Siddhas have made me shed seeing form and image, beginning with themselves and now with others. 

This Atma or soul is basically vibration. The intensity of this vibration varies from person to person. Man or Manithan, in working towards dropping his "I" moves to become Punithan, a state that Ramalinga Adigal mentions he attained, and that which Agathiyar recently told me I have reached, too. Man then progressively makes his way up to higher states of being. In doing so, his Atma's state of vibration intensifies. It is said that the whole village could sense the arrival of Gautama Buddha. Such was the intensity of his Atma. When the Siddhas came down to be present with us during our Homam, only Mataji Sarojini Ammaiyar sensed an intense vibration akin to the ground shaking under her seat. She shared this with us, not knowing what it was. Agathiyar confirmed a couple of days later in a  Jeeva Nadi reading for a devotee read by Tavayogi that the Siddhas did arrive in our home that day. That vibration was shown and felt only by Mataji. When a devotee asked Agathiyar what his true form was, he questioned her back, asking what she felt during puja and while doing charity. She told him it was a feeling of vibration or Unarvu. Agathiyar acknowledged himself as the very vibration that they felt in chanting his name, the vibration that everything around was emitting. 

We come to understand that Life itself is a dance. In the documentary series "Inner Worlds, Outer Worlds - Part 1 - Akasha," we are told that,

"The ancient Vedic teachers taught Nada Brahma, the universe is vibration. The word Nada means sound or vibration. The vibratory field is at the root of all true spiritual experiences and scientific investigations. It is the same field of energy that saints, Buddhas, yogis, mystics, priests, shamans, and seers have observed by looking within themselves. It has been called Akasha, the Primordial Om, .. and a thousand other names throughout history...... In the ancient traditions of the East, it has been understood for thousands of years that all is vibration....You never see anything in its totality because it is made up of layer upon layer of vibration and it is constantly changing, exchanging information with Akasha.... everything is connected to the one vibratory source. ..."

Space resonates. The whole of nature resonates in wonder and beauty and sings a song and a tune, with the breeze blowing gently as in a Bansuri flute, the rustle of the leaves as in tapping a Kanjira, the flowing waters trying to keep up with the tala or rhythmic cycle. Even when it rains, it is the sound of music, with the thunderclaps in the distance adding drum beats to the melodious music of the rain. Temples and places of worship are spaces with a certain resonating vibration. I heard the walls of Agathiyar's sanctum at Agasthiyampalli resonate with the Pranavam AUM as I chanted the mantra. I felt the walls of Dhakshanamurthy's shrine at the top of the flight of small steps at the Big temple in Tanjore resonate as I sat in the tight space before him, chanting the Pranavam AUM. I felt these intense vibrations that overcame me, fell me, leaving me crying in ecstasy at the Dhakshanamurthy shrine in the corridors of the Madurai Meenakshi temple and again at his sannadhi at the Ekambareswarar temple. The woods, forest, and jungles, too, must have resonated to a different tune for the 69-year-old Tavayogi, for it drove him to take big steps and walk ahead as if he was possessed, never turning back to see if I was keeping up. The beat of drums, musical notes, and Kavadi Chindhu songs can bring those who are susceptible to the drum beats and vibrations to dance spontaneously, while in others, its vibrations could open up heaven and bring deities down to vocalize and bless those gathered.  Underlying all these are vibrations. 

A man seeking spiritual elevation and emancipation would first have to begin to work on dissolving his past karma and build positive merits and virtues to free himself from the grip of the gross and slowly bring his vibration to a state of purity, subtleness, and fineness. Annie Besant, in her talks on "The Laws of the Higher Life", Theosophical Publishing House, 1903, draws two distinct divisions of people and their brains. 

The coarser vibrations of the lower world and those adapted to it are one. The others are those who are in the front of evolution and of a subtler nature...The brain has to be changed, refined, improved, its connecting links fashioned and manufactured for the purposes of the expression of the higher consciousness... Here we see a consciousness that shapes bodies according to its needs, gradually refining them and bringing them under the control of the higher. Now making the mind steady, holding quiet the powers of the mind, the mind ceases to vibrate, and it becomes still - able to answer the vibrations coming from above".

It is in stillness that God speaks. It is the stillness that is the ultimate goal.  

The many excerpts that I had shared of great authors and spiritual personalities in this blog that were only information learned and picked up from the various sources, until now, after experiencing these words, have given a new life and meaning, and interpretation since then. What were the experiences of my gurus and others that were shown, shared, narrated, and told to me as I traveled holding their hands have now taken a new dimension as I gathered my own experiences walking the journey on my own. As Mahindren told me just moments ago when he came over, it is time we explored the path on our own. Indeed, the Nadi readings have come to a halt; the frequency of Agathiyar coming through devotees is rare and apart. It is now time I told my story. Agathiyar too told me once to halt referring to others and begin to share my experiences henceforth, referring to the changes and transformation that went on internally. I guess this is what and where Ramalinga Adigal arrived at, too, and told his story through the collection of songs that came to be known as the Thiru Arutpa. 

AMAZING MOMENTS

A friend from Delhi in sharing his trip down south to Tamil Nadu some years back, last night over the phone told me of an occurrence when he was at a Siva temple. He had bought some lotus flowers, and as someone helped him put them together as a garland, up walked a couple and a child and asked for some flowers, mentioning that they would pay for them. Without any hesitation, my friend asked them to take whatever they needed and told them that they did not need to pay for it. They took only two pieces and thanked him before walking away. Once the garland was made and placed on the Sivalinga, what surprised my friend was that it was an exact fit, not too short nor too long. How does one decipher this happening? Why should they appear then and ask for the lotus? I told him that it could only be Lord Siva and Parvathy coming before him and getting what was theirs, even before he offered it to them. 

As the bodily aches increased in their intensity over the past few days, I put forth a prayer to Agathiyar a.k.a Prapanjam to help bring me some immediate relief. This morning, after sending my daughter to her office, I stopped over for petrol and to withdraw some cash. Taking a walk along the morning market, suddenly someone caught my head and neck from behind and held it, preventing me from turning to look. He placed his hands on my shoulder and gave me a rub and massage that brought instant relief. Upon turning around, I saw that it was a friend of mine from Tanjavur, India. I asked him to continue the massage. We sat on the bench at the park adjacent to the site of the morning market, and he gave me a good rub. Not satisfied, I brought him home to give me a thorough and full-body oil massage. He had previously done it three times, and it was soothing. He learned this from both his parents back home. When I had a much severe pain that crippled me back then between the years 2011 and 2012, and again in 2016 and 2018, many came to my aid upon hearing of my condition. I had a friend work on my energy vortexes by doing energy healing. Another master and a student worked on my Varma points while a friend and gym instructor gave me several exercises to ease my pain. A doctor gave me an injection. Lord Dhavanthri applied the holy ash and gave me tips to care for my back, while Tavayogi, who was in Malaysia to attend my daughter's wedding, passed me some herbal preparations. Agathiyar, on his part, gave me further herbal preparations to consume and apply through the frequent Nadi readings of mine and others. Finally, Lord Muruga came simultaneously through the Nadi reading, and a devotee helped bring relief. 

Now, as Agathiyar said that the subtle energy movements in the body that were taking place on their own at my age of 66 would result in some discomfort and medical conditions, he had asked that I consult the doctors too. As the pain returned but with less intensity, Agathiyar pointed me to Pulipani Siddhar Ashram at the foothill of Palani much earlier for some Kaya Karpam or herbal medicines that would strengthen my body and internals. But after contacting the ashram and failing to make any headway, miraculously, a local Siddha physician, astrologer, and friend who was in India then and who agreed to bring over the prescriptions when ready, consoled me that once back, he would prepare them for me instead. Back home, he tells me that Agathiyar had directed him to prepare certain herbal medicines earlier, but he was not told to whom to pass them on until I turned up at his door. I am truly grateful to Agathiyar for his love, kindness, and compassion. I have since then been taking them. I am amazed by how Prapanjam answers and meets our needs these days. Ramalinga Adigal had spoken to us about how she would respond to us once we get connected with her. He helped us connect with her, too. Then Agathiyar, who left my home briefly, asking that I hand over his bronze statue to another devotee some time back, mentioned that henceforth Prapanjam shall take his place in my home. A couple who dropped by my home for the very first time could not help but acknowledge Agathiyar's presence. I just wonder what he has in store and up his sleeve? 

So a question crops up now. If I look towards Agathiyar to send someone who can bring me relief, so should I, or should I not, bring some cheer in others' lives by opening up to all the many avenues that were made available to me by Agathiyar in the past, as I have highlighted in the last post? 

APPROVAL TO CONTINUE?

I have been in a dilemma for some time now. Agathiyar, in coming last time, told me to quit writing. I did as told, as I had followed every dictate of his till now, except for some that I refused to comply with, like his asking, and that of Lord Muruga too, to build a temple for them. Later, they said to me that they had tested me and that my home itself was a temple. Another instance was when I rejected their offers to pass me a Nadi to be read for myself and others, too. This, too, I turned down because I did not want people to line up at my home seeking to read their Nadi. He understood and never gifted me the Nadi. When he came and healed many using me and my home in the past, just after he arrived at my home in the form of the bronze statue in 2010, my wife and I voiced our concern as we did not want the word to go around and have strangers queue at our home expecting to be cured, as I was working then and my children were schooling. Though before that, Agathiyar had already told me that whoever stood at my door was sent by him, but he listened to our concern and stopped the influx of strangers coming over for some time. Then one day, as I stood before his statue and spoke to him as I always do, he hit me so hard, asking me where I would go if he were to shut his ears, implying that I should listen to their grievances. We backed down on our request and had him do his will since he told us that he was only using me and my home to save them and that we shall not be harmed in any way. Later, my daughter tells me that Agathiyar was listening to people's problems through me, as whatever she had shared about her former classmate's illness was subsequently looked into, diagnosed, and cured by the doctors. Just last night, speaking to a friend, devotee, and reader from Delhi, he told me that speaking to me was meditative to him and added that henceforth he shall call me more often to listen to all the stories about Agathiyar and his presence among us. In asking me if he should make me a guru recently, though I finally gave in to his love and compassion, Agathiyar immediately backed down on his offer and told me instead that he would make me someone else. 

So when he told me to stop writing this blog, something that Tavayogi and Agathiyar themselves favored and encouraged, though I stopped writing but much information and enlightenment kept dawning within. Previously, whenever I have these moments, I would immediately note them either on my phone or laptop, trying desperately to catch the subject, sentences, and words that appear less, they should drift away just as they had come. I would work on these drafts later. These were too good to let them go by, for I too was learning at the same time. Each time I posted a piece, I would read and reread it and stand before him, thanking him for the good piece of work that he had written. I was only the tool. 

So I went back to writing, telling, and consoling myself with the story of the disciple Ramanujam, who was forbidden by his guru Gosthipurna to share the mantra given to him with others, but the former defied his guru's instructions and shared the mantra with all those passing and gathered standing atop the temple platform. His guru later applauded him for his unselfish act. The story goes as follows.

The gracious Guru, seeing the sincerity and earnestness of Ramanuja, now gave him the mantra, warning him,

“Do not disclose the Mantra to anyone else, else you shall suffer the agonies of Hell.”

“And what will happen to those who hear the Mantra, Sir,” asked Ramanuja innocently.

“Why, my son, the power of the Mantra would lead all those to salvation!”

His Guru, Gosthipurna, instructed him, “This is the param-pavan mantra; whoever merely listens to it is freed from all sinful reactions, and whoever chants it is certain to go to Vaikuntha at the time of death. This mantra is the purest of the purest and should not be revealed to anyone who’s not qualified to receive it. Therefore, you must refrain from sharing this with anybody else.” 

“What is more desirable than thousands of people attaining heaven even if I alone be damned,” thus thought the kind-hearted Ramanuja, and climbing up the platform in a temple, shouted – “Come, O my brothers, come! Listen to this Mantra that will open floodgates of liberation for you.” And in front of all, he repeated the Mantra aloud.

Although he was instructed otherwise, when Ramanujacharya heard how this mantra bestows liberation and devotion unto the chanter, he climbed up on the tower of the Vishnu temple, promising everyone that he had a priceless jewel to give them. 

As compassion for all the living entities swelled in his heart, he then proceeded to loudly chant the mantra given to him, with the desire to help liberate everyone from the pangs of life and death. 

Upon seeing this, his enraged Guru cursed him to suffer in hell for countless lifetimes. 

Sri Ramanujacharya humbly replied, “If an insignificant person like me has gone to hell, just so many others can obtain the shelter of Lord Narayana and thus be freed from their suffering, I see no greater gain.” 

His Guru was left greatly stunned and pleased with his disciple upon hearing this. 

(Source:  https://www.indiadivine.org/ and https://iskcondwarka.or)

As Agathiyar was silent, I was thinking that deciding to continue to write must be acceptable to Agathiyar, and wondering if he was just testing me, just as Gosthipurna had tested Ramanujam, when just moments ago I received an e-mail from a reader. Upon reading it, I took it as an assurance from Agathiyar to carry on writing and sharing.

Vanakkam Aiyya, I hope this message finds you well and at peace. I first discovered your blog, Siddha Heart Beat, in 2018, at the dawn of my seeking journey. It quickly became a trusted companion, and I recently found myself drawn back to it while exploring the possibility of a Nadi reading. This led me to immerse myself once again in your writings, which have always felt like a guiding light. I felt a sincere urge to reach out and express how deeply your posts have resonated with me. The compassion and dedication that flow through your words are truly inspiring. Your gift for weaving personal experience with the greater, divine narrative of the Siddha path is remarkable. It elevates your blog from a mere chronicle to a precious resource—one that helps seekers like me find clarity and connection in our own journeys. Reading your work has often felt like discovering missing pieces of a puzzle, providing context I hadn’t realized I was longing for. I also wanted to especially thank you for your sincerity. In a world where spiritual guidance can sometimes feel distant, your writing remains genuine and accessible. You are not merely sharing knowledge—you are nurturing a community, illuminating the path for your readers with a rare and generous spirit. Please know that your work makes a tangible difference. It offers clarity, fosters a deep sense of connection, and helps keep the Siddha Parambara and its sacred stories alive. On this auspicious day of Deepam, I wish for you and your loved ones a celebration filled with divine light and grace. May the radiant flame of Annamalaiyar and Unnamulaiamman illuminate your path with increased wisdom, joy, and the boundless blessings of the Siddhas.

Someone seeking to know further about Swami Jeganathar and his Samadhi temple in Tapah landed on this blog and knocked on my door when I was away. A neighbor, spotting the couple outside my home, reached out to me on my phone, and we met during the puja that Agathiyar asked to host on 26 October. He, too, told me he seemed to find the missing pieces of the puzzle in coming over. 

MAKING LIFE HOLY

In calling me to worship the Siddhas through my Nadi reading in 2002, which I did immediately and carried out diligently, Agathiyar brought me to two wonderful gurus in 2003 and 2005, and brought the entire pantheon of Hindu Gods and Goddesses and the Siddhas into my home with his coming as a bronze statue in 2010. Subsequently, he brought several youths to my home, which took on the name Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM). Along with participating in my home pujas, which we executed together, we brought these pujas into the homes of other devotees and the temple corridors. Through our charity arm, Amudha Surabhi (AS), we brought charity into the children's homes, old folks' homes, the poor and unfortunate, and the streets. A friend then asked me why we need to praise the Siddhas? To all those who came before Tavayogi and poured their hearts out, he would listen and, finding a tiny space of pause during these outpourings, would simply say and imply that all their sufferings and misery were due to Vinai or past Karma. If they paused then and were interested to know further, on the means to overcome or subdue its effects, only then shall he open up and mention the Siddhas and their ability to guide us safely and away from the hold of Karma on us. He would then go on and ask that they praise the Siddhas. போற்றினால் உனது வினை அகலும் அப்பா.

Man, since discovering fire, has lit the fire throughout the ages to keep himself warm, keep away wild animals, and to cook his food. When did he start to worship fire? What is the significance of Light and lighting a lamp? 

Supramania Swami was visibly disturbed when the flame from the oil lamp at his altar went out while I was with him back then in 2005. I asked myself what the big deal was, for we could always light it again. I did not understand its significance back then.

The deity, Karupanasamy, after stumbling upon my colleague's cousin and taking a ride in him, asked my colleague to give him a ride back to his home, apparently pointing to the flame in a far-off temple, which stood out as a beacon to head towards. 

Supramania Swami, wanting to forever have a view of the Holy hill Arunachala from his kudil, had left an opening and a window in his kudil that we built for him. But surprisingly, he had the opening closed with a gunny sack when I visited him again in 2005. Upon enquiring, he told me that he could not see the Holy hill, as it was fiery. He could see Siddhas and Rishis go about their work on the hill. 

A flame is lit atop Tiruvannamalai hill during Karthigai Deepam. 

Devotees carry lit candles at the annual Saint Anne's feast in Bukit Mertajam, which I was privileged to attend many years back with a colleague and his family. 

What then is the significance of lighting a light or a flame? Just as the airport runways are lit to aid the plane in landing, we come across many signages, beacons, and lighthouses while finding our way back home. 

Betty J Eadie recalls Christ showing her around heaven after she came back from a coma, in her book "Embraced by the Light". Writing about her near-death experience, she says that she watched the world from the heavens. She saw beacons of light shoot up into the sky. Some were broad and large, while others were akin to penlights and mere sparks. These were supposedly the prayers emitted by individuals. She saw angels rushing to answer these prayers, responding to the brighter lights or prayers first. Insincere prayers were not heard, while those in dire straits and immediate need of help are responded to immediately. Jesus explains to her that a mother's prayers are seen as light beams on the face of the earth from heaven. She was also told that there is no greater prayer than that of a mother for her children. These were the purest of prayers with no self-interest in them. The mother gives herself to the children; hence, her prayers are intense. The mother's prayer is always heard. 

Betty J Eadie, in revealing the secrets and mysteries of life in her book, adds that whatever we become here is meaningless unless it has brought benefit to others. In serving others, we grow spiritually. She understood the earth to be a place where we are schooled. If Betty says that we are here to school, Neale Donald Walsch, in his series of books, "Conversation with God" and "Awaken the Species," says that we are already well equipped with sufficient knowledge and have only to apply it here, giving life a purpose and making it holy. 

Betty has several pieces of advice for us, too. She reminds us that in praying for someone at his deathbed, one should ask for God's will to be done, rather than insist on our desire, otherwise we could end up frustrating and or delaying the transition that the person was undertaking. Avoid a conflict from arising at these times. It would help to just let the soul go. She adds that God, who is fully able to see the past and future, knows best. The outcome is always perfect, although we see it otherwise. Then she says that there was no need to repeat a prayer or requests. With a single prayer said, then comes faith and lots of patience. Pray for whatever you desire and let go. Let God do his will. If and when his will becomes ours too, we see the prayer answered. Finally, she reminds us not to forget to thank him when he has granted our wishes. Betty says it beautifully, "In humility, we must ask, and in gratitude, we must receive." Prayers bring God to us. With constant prayers, we will come to know that he lives among us.

THE TRAVELS THUS FAR

Taking me by the hand, Agathiyar charted my journey and summarized it for me to share with those gathered on my 66th wedding day. In asking us who Agathiyan is, he explains the journey of transformation into him, or rather, to rediscover him in us. He poses the questions to us and answers them, too.

"Who is Agathiyan? You are. I am. True. We are all Agathiyan. The Jothi or flame in us is Agathiyan. He resides as the fire, flame, heat, and warmth in us. He is Esan. He is the Esan who resides within. Why is it that we do not realize or feel him? It is because we have not attained the state of preparedness or readiness to realize him. Once our soul attains this state, we shall begin to realize him. How can we attain this state of preparedness? First, we have to travel this path. We need to travel to the places and abodes of the Siddhas, witness their miracles, enter the states of bliss, and bring back these feelings and work on them, nurturing them. The Siddha shall come down. When we follow their directives, they shall walk with us, holding our hands. This travel then shall not be that of an external but of an internal journey. Yoga is the key to this travel within. From Sariyai arriving at Kriyai, now they shall teach Yogam. The journey within shall begin. You shall witness happenings. You shall see many things. It would be puzzling to you. It would be new to you, too. Continuing this internal journey, you shall arrive at each Chakra and eventually see the cosmic dance of Thillai in Sahasrara. A 1000-petaled flower will keep on opening up continuously. Arutjothi will come to reside here. Then its effulgence enters within, and just as the Kundalini upon awakening traverses each Chakra purifying them, this effulgence brings on the shine and luminosity in them. Jothi Darisanam takes place where one sees the light or effulgence. The body takes on the same. Vibrations begin to emit within and around us and are felt by those tuned to receive and feel us. They shall follow you. You become a Jeevamukta, having attained Mukti while living in the flesh. Henceforth, you are no different from Agathiyan, and Agathiyan is no different from you. You are me, and I am you."

I am grateful to Agathiyar for bringing me this far. It can be deemed as sailing effortlessly over the waters, with him taking care of the tide and times, the rapids ahead, and the whirlpools too. Just as a devotee had dreamt after Tavayogi's demise, seeing him with several others taken towards an island and hill where Siddhas and Rishis were going about their work, with Lord Siva at the oars of the boat, and the same was mentioned by Ramalinga Adigal in his song, Supramania Swami too shared a vision he had of me on the hill slopes of the Holy mountain Arunachalam, with Siddhas and Rishis going about their work. Agathiyar told us that as Tavayogi was doing his work in his realm, Agathiyar had to come and assist us to further this journey. I am truly blessed. 

Agathiyar presented the 5 tenets to mankind at the Tamil Sangam, so that mankind shall gain salvation. According to ancient literary records of the Tamils, the Sangam was an organization of 4449 poets in total: of whom Gods (Siva, Kumaran, Kubera), immortals (Agathiyar, Mudinaagaraayar), and mortals (kings, poets, and prominent people) were 549 in number, and the rest of them were members of their literary assembly. The common law that Agathiyar gave mankind, presenting it before the gathered assembly, was five dictates or tenets that mankind had to follow. The Siddhas strove to elevate the human species to the nature and status of the Gods. 

Pon. Govindaswamy in his book "The Occult Hierarchy and Spiritual Dynasty - The Inner Government of the World" or "திருச்சிற்றம்பலம் என்ற சிற்சபையும் பொற்சபையும்", Bharath Book Bureau, Chennai, 1970, writes, Spirit or Pasu is one. When seen as matter, it is called an atom; when subtle, it is known as the soul. Souls evolve from the elemental kingdom to the mineral kingdom. From the mineral kingdom, it evolves to that of the vegetable kingdom. It further evolves into the animal kingdom. Then it stands at the threshold of the human kingdom. The man then evolves into Jeevamukta. The Jeevanmukta proceeds to become Devas. The Devas eventually reach the state of the Divine. The souls evolve accordingly to the law of evolution. 

This is true of the Siddhas, for till this day they have never given up on us, although we tend to give up on them in the face of adversities. Agathiyar is said to have initiated human societies of that era into the age-old cultural order known as the Siddhar Neri. He imparted wisdom to his people and passed on the knowledge of medicine to many. 

P. Karthigayan, in his book "The History of Medical and Spiritual Sciences of Siddhas of Tamil Nadu", Notion Press, 2016, points out that the Siddhas could achieve much during their time as they were bestowed with the gift of "performing spiritual, medical, and scientific marvels". "They claimed their presence in all locations, interacting with people over various periods of time", made possible due to their long life spans, and a result of attaining immortality. He says that the Gods, immortals, long-lived kings, and scholars "had chiseled and shaped the society then." We now understand Agathiyar's disappointment on seeing the present society and lamenting to us that no one follows the Siddha way of living. 

As it progresses, the soul's consciousness expands, taking in its experiences at each juncture of the evolution. This was clearly stated by Saint Manickavasagar in his Sivapuranam. So the idea is to merge the individual spirit or Pasu with the Pati or the divine spirit, the individual soul or Jeevatma with the Paramatma. The soul gains this knowledge as it achieves the state of a Jeevanmukta. 

From https://www.thehindu.com/society/faith/siva-the-supreme-lord/article34320911.ece, we learn,

In Samsara, the awareness of Atma is restricted, but it attains fullness in the Mukti state. Ignorance is caused by the sorrow of birth, and Jnana can remove this. This is gained by Vedanta knowledge that points out Siva as the goal to be attained. 

From the "Metaphysics of Saiva Siddhantam - Sivagnana Boodham" by Thiruvilankar Canagarayar, l96l, we learn further,

Jivanmukta is one who has attained Pati Jnanam, the Divine Knowledge. In order to achieve complete purity, the Jivanmukta should become one with the Lord, just as He is one with him. Jivanmukta is one with Siva. Further, he should do all acts in obedience to His orders, and whatever he does should be reckoned as the acts of God, and not of his own. This is called “Erai Pany” (Service to God).

It states the means the Jeevamukta merges with the Paramatma.

If the Jeevanmukta meditates on these five letters for a long time, Kundalini will be stimulated and will pass through the Atharas, the centers in the nervous system, and reach Sahasrara in the forehead. By this meditation, all the Malams will be destroyed by the Sakti of Siva, and Siva will appear to him in the form of a light. The soul becomes united with Siva. Then he recognises that “Siva is He". 

This was what was decreed to Arjuna on the battlefield by Lord Krishna, too. The discourse was between the individual soul and that of Paramatma. From https://www.newworldencyclopedia.org/entry/Arjuna, we are given an insight into the relationship between Arjuna and Lord Krishna. 

Together, the inseparable friendship between Krishna and Arjuna represents the cosmic inseparability of Brahman and atman, or the essence of the universe and the soul, one of the fundamental ideas of Hinduism. 

Of the seven stages of evolution as revealed by Pon. Govindaswamy, before the soul attains the divine state, the Jeevamukta evolves further, progressing along Margas or paths and attaining a further seven advanced states or portfolios. Of the seven, one of them is membership in the Occult Hierarchy and Spiritual Dynasty. Joining this lineage of spiritual masters, while still remaining on the face of the earth, the Jeevanmukta takes up the post and the task of bringing others to their fold. This is what the Siddhas do, trying their very best to bring us into their fold, their path, and the way, helping to erase past Karma through numerous means, escaping from its clutches, so that we break the cycle of birth and death, and permanently join these spiritual masters in carrying out the divine will. For one who carries out the divine will, no Karma attaches. He is freed. And so, as we progress on this path of evolution, it is expected of us and our responsibility too to help those souls in the lower stages of evolution to attain the higher states too, as clearly mentioned in the Tenets for Mankind presented by Agathiyar at the Tamil Sangam of the past era.

Would sharing the details of my spiritual journey amount to inflating my ego? Would writing about myself and my journey be tantamount to blowing one's horn? I pray that it is not so. Just as Agathiyar and Tavayogi encouraged me to write and upload videos, respectively, Agathiyar later asked that I share the internal changes and transformation I was seeing and going through with readers so that they, too, would get an idea of what was in store on this journey.

P. Karthigayan writes that the immortals guided the kings in uplifting their subjects. He says, 

The immortals formed the folklore, while the long-lived preserved them in the form of stones, clay tablets, papyrus, palm leaves, and these were later rewritten in modern scripts by bards and priests, as literature and epics, that became a history of the respective civilizations. The Gods, immortals, and long-lived were, in due course, included in the religions of their respective societies.

This tradition of documentation seems to have been continued by the Chola king who reigned from 985–1014 CE, where he had numerous sacred texts collected and compiled, and kept them away, save for generations to come.

Just as Agathiyar, the Siddhas, and my gurus, being the Jeevanmukta that they were, showed me the way and the means, I guess I, too, have to bring others along, or at least leave behind my tracks for them to follow later. But this journey is not over yet. Just as Tavayogi, a soul who lived in the times of Agathiyar, told me, he has to come back again; Ramalinga Adigal, standing on the 15th rung of the ladder, in charting his journey, mentioned 23 stages or rungs, and that there was more that words could not describe; Buddha mentioned seeing a thousand heads before and another thousand births waiting to be taken, after his enlightenment, and as in the Puranas it is said that both Lord Brahma and Lord Vishnu could not fathom Lord Siva, I have to track solo and alone and explore the rest of the journey. Ramalinga Adigal and Agathiyar and who helped us reach out and gave us a taste of the Prapanjam, respectively, say that I now need to know, realize, and feel Sivam. We cannot possibly save ourselves from drowning, much less save the ship, without assistance. This hand is that of God. I sought the Divine's hand in traveling further into the uncharted territories. 

THE NADI

Who needs a Nadi reading? If you want answers, as in why something tragic happened to you and not to another, or if you are wondering why something predicted or promised was not taking place as told, while it was happening with others, then the Nadi would give you the answers. But for one like my neighbor who sees everything positive and leaves it to Jesus and accepts everything, the pain and suffering, the postponement and delays, and the disappointments that follow, she does not need any further assurance. Mahans and saints like Bhagawan Ramana and Yogi Ramsuratkumar, too, would never have had the need to know what was in store for them. Though Tavayogi, too, was guided by the Nadi at the beginning of his seeking, once he took hold of Agathiyar, he stopped consulting the Nadi. He opted not to read it himself, even though he had the Jeeva Nadi in his possession, which he used to read for others. He used to tell us, too, that we do not need to consult the Nadi, since he noticed that we were very much bonded to Agathiyar. 

As a bachelor in the eighties, I used to find colleagues and relatives going through "hell," and when they were told that the very deities they worshipped were causing these mischiefs, I was confused since all the readings of religious texts tell us that God is all-loving, kind, and compassionate. How could they harm their children? On the verge of dropping everything, Lord Siva came in a dream and saved me, asking me to put on hold all my questions, queries, and doubts to a later date. That day came after 14 years. 

I came to see the Nadi after I questioned myself why the predictions in my horoscope by the learned late Dr. Krishnan, astrologer, Siddha physician, and friend, were not working in my favor, while sitting in the waiting area of his office and sharing notes with others who seemed to be happy that everything was working for them as predicted. When I put the question to him, Dr. Krishnan replied that if one had curses from his or her past lives, it would jeopardize the present. Asking him if he could tell from my horoscope if I was cursed, he told me that it was not possible to look into the chart and the stars, but a Siddha could tell. That was the very first time I came to know about the Siddhas and their predictions through the Nadi. I left it at that as I knew not whom to approach for a reading. That was in the nineties.

In 2002, a colleague out of the blue began to speak about his Nadi reading in 2000. I remembered Dr. Krishnan's words and asked my colleague to fix me an appointment. After checking around, he got me a date, and I stood before the Nadi reader and listened intently to Agathiyar reveal my past, present, and future. True to what the dear doctor had guessed, I had curses that I carried from previous births that stood in my way of achieving the benefits of all my practice be it puja, yoga, reading etc. Agathiyar after revealing them showed me the means and the way to address them, sending me on a pilgrimage of temples and to carry out several rituals beginning with a Siddha puja or worship of the Siddhas. Taking up his call to come to the Siddha path, I took up the worship of the Siddhas further, which brought me to meet my very first guru in the physical form, Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai in 2003, and Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal of Kallar Ashram in 2005. Before meeting my guru, Agathiyar, in invoking Gopal Pillai, the Paramaguru of my nephew, to come through a devotee, had my nephew pass me the Vasudeva mantra that was to pierce and untie all the knots that were a deterrent to my spiritual progress. He told me that the mantra would facilitate and pave to way for me to meet my guru. Hence, if Agathiyar, in having me invoke the mantra and chant it religiously, helped me remove all the internal blockages within me so that I could land at the feet of my gurus, he helped me rid my past Karma and curses, by having me work it out in the external world, through taking the pain and effort to go on the said pilgrimages and conducting rituals, and taking on the pain and bearing them, all so that I could put it to rest. 

My gurus took me to greater heights. After their demise in 2007 and 2018, respectively, Agathiyar began to reach out to us through devotees. Bringing both the word and the act together, he came as the word and as the energy of Lord Muruga through the Nadi and a devotee simultaneously in 2018, bringing relief to the pain and agony in me that was triggered by the opening of the Muladhara chakra in 2007 and the subsequent arousal of Kundalini energy traveling and ponding at Svadishtana in 2018. And with the coming of the pandemic, which saw the Nadi readers return to India, he often came bringing me messages through devotees. When things returned to normal post-pandemic, occasionally, he would have a message for me coming in others' Nadi readings.

In 2022, Agathiyar broke the bund, allowing this energy to make its way to higher chakras and, in a couple of days, to pool at the Sahasrara, bringing on the flowering of petals, ambrosia, and immense bliss that was the nature of Sat, Chit, and Anandam.

ENTERING THE LAST PHASE

Everything that Tavayogi said, showed, and gave me makes sense now. If he had stung me like a bee the very first time he stepped into my home upon receiving my invitation, telling me that I was living in Maya and that he was a nobody and I was disillusioned that he had something hidden beneath his cloth, after taking up his invitation to visit his ashram that Agathiyar too asked that I stay for a couple of days and learn a thing or two from him, Tavayogi brought me to a master whom he tagged as a Gnani, sitting alone in silence in a house all by himself with his own thoughts except when a kind soul drops in to look into his basic daily needs. He insisted we visit another two masters too. The first was obsessed with the desire to take up the running of his departed master's mission, and the other was shackled to the daily routine of running a temple he had built. Back at his ashram, Tavayogi taught me to let go of my attachment to the amulets and precious stones that I wore on me, and even any desire I might have later of wearing the Rudraksha. Bringing me into the jungles, to the caves and the abodes, temples and shrines of the Siddhas, he showed me that nothing was carved in stone literally when he pointed out to me that Agathiyar was opening and closing his eyes in the granite statue of him at Agasthiyampalli, something that I had not shared with him and which Agathiyar had promised to do so earlier in my Nadi reading. Eight years later, in 2013, when Jnana Jothiamma visited us, Agathiyar opens his eyes in his bronze statue at my home too.

Agathiyar, after having me drop the desire to build a temple for him that he mooted in my very first Nadi reading in 2002 and another similar request from Lord Muruga in 2018, after having me bring the shutters down on the Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM) and its charity arm, Amudha Surabhi, in 2019, after bringing the Yoga practices initiated and shown by Tavayogi in 2007, to a halt when pain and agony began to set in, as a result of the Kundalini rising, has me do nothing but watch the energies at play in my body now. Agathiyar had me drop my attachment to even his statue, asking that we part in 2023 when he had me send him over to the homes of other devotees. But he returned home to AVM after several months, having tested me to see if I was willing to part with his idol. Some time back, he even asked that I drop my attachment towards him, asking how else we could become one? When later I thanked him profusely for all he had done for me to date, he asked me who I was thanking and for what when we were one. He had brought me from Dvaita to Advaita. 

G.Vanmikanathan, in tracing Ramalinga Adigal's life in his book, "Pathway to God Trod by Saint Ramalingar, Bharatiya Vidya Bhavan, Bombay, writes,

The point of utmost importance in Advaita is that every seeker after deliverance may hopefully aim at the goal of jeevanmukthi … The term ‘jeevanmukthi’ is used to describe this state of continued life in the body on the part of a knower of Brahman. A jeevanmuktha does not act on his own volition. God acts through him, speaks through him.The jeevanmuktha has imprisoned God in his heart, in every fiber of his body. 

As G.Vanmikanathan writes, "Here ends our Swaamikal’s journey on the Pathway to God. He has arrived. He has become a Jeevan Muktha, a seeker who has gained what he sought, who has reached the end of his quest", I guess I have arrived too, thanks to Agathiyar and my gurus. G.Vanmikanathan writes further, 

Swaamikal had indeed arrived at his goal, at his journey’s end, and he has nothing more to do on earth than to spend the remaining years prescribed for him by praarabdha-karma in adoring contemplation of the Godhead and in loving service to all creatures.

We learn further that, 

For a self realized person, a Jivan mukta, there is no Ichha-Prarabdha (personally desired), but the other two, Anichha (without desire) and Parechha (due to others' desire), remain, which even a jivan mukta has to undergo.

Finally, he tells me to be ready to return to him, asking me to hand over my responsibilities to my daughter. And so I came to have a lawyer write out my will, too. Agathiyar told me to live life henceforth not as Shanmugam but as Agathiyar and to realize Sivam. Just as Tavayogi had me let go of him even before my love for him could germinate, initiating me and having me start carrying out various tasks that he gave me and others, Agathiyar later asked me to drop them, teaching me to let go too. In letting go even of him, and living as Agathiyar, he brought me from Dvaita to Advaita. In asking me to realize Sivam, just as Tavayogi did, he is telling me to drop my hold on Maya and its illusions by negating all else. He is bringing us to being the source. This next phase, too, shall be challenging, he added. He asked that I keep my emotions in check and not enter any debate. This is when he asked that I revive the Puja on a day of rest, which we did on 26 October. Was this to be the last puja I did?

தாயாராக இரு. உன்னை நான் அழைத்துக்கொள்வேன். இன்று முதல் நீ புனிதன் ஆனாய். சண்முகமாக அல்ல. அகத்தியனாக வாழ். சிவத்தை உணர். இனி இந்த அடுத்த பயணம் உனக்குச் சவாலாக இருக்கும். உணர்ச்சியைக் கவனி. வாதம்வேண்டாம். பொதுவிடுமுறைஅன்று பூசையைத்தொடங்கு.

G.Vanmikanathan continues,

Liable as it is to disease and decay, to pain and putrefaction, the Jeevan-muktha now longs for release from the body, longs for death. The body which was an asset for so long has become a liability as soon as the Jeevan-muktha state has been attained, as soon as the mystic union with God has been achieved. The mystic lives with dread for his companion, the dread of losing the bliss, the ecstatic union with God. So the Jeevan-muktha now longs for death, for release from the human body, for eternal bliss and union everlasting. He has obtained, it is true, supreme bliss, but still not evanescent bliss; he has obtained union with God, but still not eternal union. On having these beatific visions, wisdom and peace descend on the mutinously impatient Jeevan-muktha, impatient for death, impatient to shed the human body, impatient to gain videha mukthi - disembodied release from the cycle of death and birth.

What started as a personal documentation of my travels in India after I took up the call by Agathiyar to go on a pilgrimage to India and settle my past scores and Karma in 2003, and later in 2005, as I traveled with Tavayogi to places he brought me to, took the form of a website, indianheartbeat, and later this blog, Siddha Heartbeat. I took a turn from narrating the external happenings to what was taking place internally and within the body when Agathiyar told me to share with readers so that anyone who desires to venture on this path shall get an idea of what to expect. I am glad that he has used me to do his work. 

Just as Supramania Swami knew and had noted his last day in his diary, Agathiyar tells me that I, too, shall come to know. Just as my mother said that I shall reign from a place out of reach to others; just as Agathiyar had taken Tavayogi to do his work in their realm; just as Yogi Ramsuratkumar told his devotees at his deathbed that he could do a better job, and without any limitations in the other world; just as Supramania Swami had shared a vision he had of me walking with other Siddhas on the slopes of Tiruvannamalai hill; and after Agathiyar dropped his offer to make me a guru but instead offered to make me a Siddha, I believe that I too shall one day make my parents proud by joining my gurus, helping out with the chores in their world, walking through Sariyai, Kriyai, Yogam and Gnanam on another level, plane and dimension. As Agathiyar said, I owe this to my family, and I thank them too.

Having said it all, if Agathiyar predicted that I shall live to my eighties, our fate and destiny are in their hands. Indeed, Lord Muruga came in a Nadi reading in 2018, told me that he had changed my fate that day. We have read that Sankara's mother wanted to know how long her son would live. Agathiyar replied that though her son was destined to live only sixteen years, it was decided to extend by another sixteen years. As the most compassionate Agathiyar began to reveal Sankara's future, the other rishis, fearing that Agathiyar would disclose too much, got up to depart. Hence Agathiyar stopped at that, and the rishis left Sankara's dwelling. Could it be the reason too that Agathiyar had me stop writing further, for I hold no bar about revealing everything? Although I am all set to leave, I guess it is all written in the stars.

STEPPING INTO THE NEXT PHASE

After making the call to come to the worship of the Siddhas in the Nadi reading in 2002, in having me carry out the ritual of lighting the fire or Homam in 2005, teaching me certain Asanas and Pranayama techniques in 2007, moving me to carry out libation to his bronze statue in 2010 that he had me commissioned and made in Swamimalai, bringing over several youths to my home beginning in 2013 to join in these puja and carry out charity, he had us wind up the company of others in 2019. He had them go their way, bringing these tools with them to venture on their own. As for me, he had me go within, sleeping in the Puja room, and gave me herbal preparations to start cleansing my body. That phase was challenging. Soon, the internal transformations began reaching their peak in 2022. He had me do nothing further, but instead witness the energies work in me. Finally, he told me to let go of him, asking how else we can become one. Later, in thanking him, he asked who I was thanking and for what when we were one. Lately, he asked me to hand over my responsibilities to my daughter. He asked that I be ready, for he would take me. He told me to live life not as Shanmugam but as Agathiyar and to realize Sivam. Initiating me and having me start carrying out various tasks that he gave me and others, he later asked us to drop them, teaching us to let go. In letting go even of him, and living as Agathiyar, he brought us from Dvaita to Advaita. In asking us to realize Sivam, he is telling us to drop our hold on Maya and its illusions by negating all else. He is bringing us to being the source. This next phase, too, shall be challenging, he added. He asked that I keep my emotions in check and not enter into any debate. This is when he asked that I revive the Puja on a day of rest, which we did on 26 October.

தாயாராக இரு. உன்னை நான் அழைத்துக்கொள்வேன். இன்று முதல் நீ புனிதன் ஆனாய். சண்முகமாக அல்ல. அகத்தியனாக வாழ். சிவத்தை உணர். இனி இந்த அடுத்த பயணம் உனக்குச் சவாலாக இருக்கும். உணர்ச்சியைக் கவனி. வாதம்வேண்டாம். பொதுவிடுமுறைஅன்று பூசையைத்தொடங்கு.

If our ancestors, village deities, and angels look over our shoulders, the Siddhas go beyond this, taking our hands and leading us on their path to salvation or Mukti.

CS Murugesan explains in detail the various states of mukti in his "Sithargalin Saaga Kalai", Azhagu Pathigam, 1998.

ஆன்ம வளர்ச்சி என்பது மனித உடலைச் சாதனமாகக் கொண்டு ஆன்மா  திருவருளில் கலந்து பரிபூரண நிலையை அடைதலாம். கிடைத்தற் கரியது மானிட யாக்கை. இதனை அவமே கழிக்காமல் மனித வாழ்வினும் மேம்பட்ட ஒரு வாழ்க்கையினை (அமர வாழ்வு) அடையப் பயன் படுத்திக் கொண்டனர் சித்தர்கள். இறைவனால் அளிக்கப்பட்ட இந்த உடலைக் சாதனமாகக் கொண்டு சரியை கிரியைகளைச் சாதித்து யோகப் பயிற்சியினால் கந்த, நித்திய, மங்களமான திவ்ய சரீரத்தைப் பெற்று சிவ லோகத்தில் சித்தராயிருப்பதை சித்தர்கள் முத்தி என்று கூறுகின்றனர். 

The Siddhas speak of a high state, that which brings utmost "joy" or Perinbam, called Mukti, that all beings should strive to achieve and attain. The Siddhas used the rare opportunity of taking human birth, rather than waste it, thrived to advance to a higher state or Amara Vazhvu. It is natural for man to seek bigger attainments, be it in achieving pleasure, riches, comfort, etc. What we are told is to replace these desires with those of Erai. The pleasures of the senses, when fully experienced, will make a man ask what is there beyond it and search for that something more lasting and permanent in nature. Then he moves to seek the uncharted territories. From Sittrinbam, that which is transitional, he moves to achieve Perinbam or mukti, that which is permanent and lasting. CS Murugesan writes that using this body given by Erai as a vehicle, taking up the path of Sariyai, Kriyai, Yogam, transforming and bringing changes to the vehicle, as an automobile is modified or innovated further, and finally attaining a Divya body, the Siddhas reside in the world of Siva in the state of mukti.

He quotes the eleven states of mukti as listed in "Sivaprakasam", song 50.

அரிவையரின் புறு முத்தி1, கந்த மைந்தும் அனு  முத்தி2, திரிகுணமும் அடங்கு  முத்தி3, விரிவு வினை கெடு  முத்தி4, மலம்போம்  முத்தி5, விக்கிரக நித்தி  முத்தி6, விவேக  முத்தி7, பரவுமுயிர் கெடு  முத்தி8, சித்தி  முத்தி9, பாடாண  முத்தி10, இவை பழிசேர்  முத்தி11, திரி மலமும் அகலவுயிர் அருள் சேர்  முத்தி திகழ்  முத்தி யிது  முத்தித் திறந்த தாமே. இந்த பத்து முத்திகள் பழிசேர்  முத்தி என்றும், பதினொன்றாவது முத்தி மும்மலம் நீக்கம் பெற்று அருளோடு கூடிச் சிவானுபவமாய் நிற்க்கும் நிலையான சுத்த முத்தி என்றும் சொல்லப்படுகிறது. திருவருளால் கற்பூரம் போன்று உடல் நுண் மயமாய்ப் பிரிந்து நுட்பப் பட்டு தத்துவங்களில் அடங்க ஆருயிரானது திருவருளில் கலக்கும் என திருமூலர் கூறு கின்றார்.

He explains that while the first 10 mukti(s) constitute பழிசேர்  முத்தி, the 11th mukti results when the 3 malam (மும்மலம்) is eradicated and merging with Erai's grace, stands as Sivanubhavam or experience of Siva (சிவானுபவம்), a permanent state of Suddha mukti (சுத்த முத்தி).

What would be the final state then? Tirumular compares the body to that of the camphor that is lit, where the body and its elements return to their source, while the soul migrates and merges with the Grace of Erai.

திருவருளால் கற்பூரம் போன்று உடல் நுண் மயமாய்ப் பிரிந்து நுட்பப் பட்டு தத்துவங்களில் அடங்க ஆருயிரானது திருவருளில் கலக்கும் என திருமூலர் கூறு கின்றார்.

If in the past autobiographies and biographies had to wait to be published later in life, with the Internet and blogging, it is possible to share one's stories in real time. If these writings end abruptly without me giving any notice, know that I have left.