Life is a play, and we are acting out our roles. I had lived out all my desires and carried out that of Agathiyar's too. Though Agathiyar told me to stop writing, I continue to do so only because this blog serves as a diary, a spiritual one in particular, and is something that I can go back to as my memory fails me in the days and years to come. Agathiyar too has not refrained me from doing so. I believe he understands. If in the past he dictated to me what to write and gave me the words and sentences, henceforth it will be my words and opinions.
What do I have to look out for further? I can't think of anything. Maybe I just need to fulfill others' wishes too, as in the family that was asking when I would do another puja so that they could participate too. Though I had told him let us end that too, Agathiyar had asked me to do it just for them.
This journey has been a beautiful one. The journey of devotion or Bhakti runs parallel with the Hindu deities. Growing up in the Siva family, as did Lord Muruga battle the Asuras, we went to war with the enemy within us. Attaining spiritual maturity, we settle down in silence as Lord Dhakshanamurthy. We begin to rejoice, seeing the world and all within it as Lord Krishna, and begin to taste the divine nectar. Bringing me to the Siddha path from the mainstream temple-going majority, Agathiyar and Tavayogi had me take up rituals and Yoga. Soon, it was passed on to others whom Agathiyar sent to my home. Agathiyar showed me the difference between Sidhantham and Vedantham. Then he led me to the teachings of Bhagawan Ramana and the Self. Eventually, he brought me to the teachings of Adi Sankara and Advaita. Today I rest in peace, even before the final end and rest comes. Or is that the day of final rest? For we learn from Agathiyar that Tavayogi is doing Agathiyar's work in their realm. We are told that Yogi Ramsuratkumar comforted his followers, telling them that he could do a better job in the subtle realm. Agathiyar himself told me that death was not the end. Will we live through "death" to come back and reveal what is in store beyond death?