I just finished watching the movie "CTRL". It is unnerving and scary to think about the extent of Artificial Intelligence or AI and what it can do. Earlier we were shown in a news commentary how AI was used to find and target civilians in an ongoing war. It was horrendous. My daughter tells me that AI can assemble our faces and create new portraits and pieces of art showing off its artistic abilities too. Currently, we are seeing an onslaught of videos and comments on many current issues on social media that have turned and become ugly.
I had to deactivate all my accounts after a photo of my first guru Supramania Swami that I posted on my websites in the beginning years of my search and journey, was uploaded on social media by a friend which invited an ugly remark, that made me take this decision. When I conveyed this to Tavayogi he asked me, "Why son? Let it be". I took his remark positively, reactivated these accounts, and began to post and upload afresh whatever I had brought down.
As I was going about my home puja, Agathiyar brought strangers to my door. Soon they opened up cans of worms. In our willingness to listen and eagerness to help, this brought me and my family hardship, as at times Agathiyar took things into his own hands. Begging him to spare us as we were not keen to become healers or soothsayers, he did stop for some time. But one day as I stood before him, he asked me where would I go if he shut his ears? He told me that they were there for a reason and that it was his duty to help, heal, and bring solace to their hurt souls. He told us that he was only using us and our venue and that no harm would come to us. We gave in and strangers walked in and the healing continued. In 2018 Lord Muruga too said the same asking us to step aside and watch their play or lila. We did as told and all "heaven" broke loose.
In later years Agathiyar began to send several youths over and my home became Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM). We began to bring our home puja into the temples. We began charity. In the wake of the pandemic in 2019, Agathiyar had us wind up and call it a day. He had me go within giving certain practices. In 2022 he told me that an internal journey of awakening had begun in 2007, after I put into practice the Asana and Pranayama practices that Tavayogi taught us, and that there was no further need for any effort on my part. The energies would do their work he said. Lord Muruga came to tell me to be still and do nothing. Recently he asks that I observe the silence that prevails in the breath.
If in carrying out the worship of the Siddhas we bridged both worlds and began to have visitations from the deities and the Siddhas through devotees; in carrying out the many charity programs, the compassion in us arose. If many consider compassion leading to action, here the move to carry out charity brought on compassion in us. It shows how self-centered we were before Agathiyar gave us these tasks. In practicing Pranayama, we began to connect with our breath and the Prapanjam; when the energies awakened in the Muladhara, it brought much pain and suffering. In the dam bursting and the ponded and stagnated waters gushing and making their way to the Sahasrara, the thousand-petalled lotus bloomed. With these inner transformations taking place, the soul hurts to see much suffering and at the same time rejoices in seeing happy souls and connecting with nature. I seem to connect with others feeling their joy and their pain too but remain truly helpless for Agathiyar and Lord Muruga tell me to do nothing. Lord Shiva tells us to let it be as it is all fated. The body and its components have an expiry date and a shelf life often associated with the number of breaths used up or an underlying Vasanas or Karma. I guess we have to sit and watch the divine play that is least understood. Only they know the game.