Each of us has a Dharma or purpose to fulfill, in coming here. I have come to learn that mine was to bring others into the worship of the Siddhas, as I wrote earlier,
"Agathiyar and the other Siddhas only spoke about Puja and Yoga to me in all the fifty-plus Nadi readings I had. I guess I am supposed to only do puja. In my very first Nadi reading itself, he had asked that I worship the Siddhas. Taking heed, I went around to existing movements and organizations run in the name of Agathiyar back then in 2002. But while they were doing charity and holding talks, no one was doing Siddha puja. In disappointment, I turn to the
books and the net. I began to compile suitable songs that I thought were appropriate to sing during my home puja. Agathiyar then sent Tavayogi over to our shores in 2005, where he showed me rituals, pujas, and Yoga. Coming as a bronze statue that he had me commissioned and made in Swamimalai in 2010, he had me open my doors to others, too. If it was family and friends initially, in 2013, he sent several youths over to my house to watch and participate in the
pujas, after their respective Nadi readings. We brought these pujas into the homes of others and the temples too. Just before the pandemic began in 2019, he had me roll down the shutters and go within. It all came to an end, or so we thought. But Agathiyar later told me that it was halted momentarily. Post pandemic, moving to others' homes upon their invitation, he finally decides not to leave my home ever again. He reminded me that even though pujas and charity
were halted, not to stop carrying out his annual Puja that falls on Thaipusam day. This year, I told him that I was going to drop that. That is when he began sending a family that came again and again, asking when the next puja was. Agathiyar told me to do it since they had asked. I guess this is my purpose here".
Another role he wants me to take up is to listen to others. If in the initial years of his arrival as the bronze statue, I saw it as a burden and troublesome, Agathiyar lambasted me, asking where I would go or to whom I would turn if he were to shut his ears too. I realized back then in 2010 that he wanted me to listen to others' outpourings and problems. Only some years back, my daughter pointed out that he was listening through me and did what had to be done to bring relief to others. Again, he was using me and my home for his purpose.
Many come with unfulfilled desires and continue working on them in this birth. The desire drives and moves us and consumes us. I did not know that I, who had rejected all his gifts, that of having me build a temple for him and Lord Muruga, a Nadi to read for myself and others, and become a medium to heal others, had secretly harbored the wish to become a guru until Agathiyar surprised me. I asked myself whether I really had desired that and when. In those brief moments of finally wanting to surrender to his wishes after having brushed aside all the gifts he had wanted to shower on me, he turns around on his offer and tells me, "No, No. I shall not make you a guru but instead a 743342." I am grateful to him, for this is the best gift that a man could ever wish for. I guess patience has its rewards.