When Tavayogi asked me to carry out the ritual of lighting the fire pit or Homam in my home back then, I told him that that was the domain of the temple priests. I feared that I would err and earn the wrath of the Gods. But he assured me over the phone that I could do it. Although I carried it out, I needed some convincing. It came by way of Agathiyar through the Nadi. He told me that I was not doing it for my individual benefit but for the good of the Prapanjam. Only then did I pour my heart and soul into it.
At the height of the pandemic, Lord Siva came through a devotee during meditation and had him take notes. The message was for me. I was to organise the lighting of the Homam to help Prapanjam heal and recover during that ordeal. I passed the word around, and we gathered in every individual's home, carrying out the ritual at the same time, chanting the Maha Mriyunjaya Mantra and Dhanvantri Mantra.
Post pandemic, Prapanjam herself came through another devotee asking her to pass the message. I was to organize another Homam as she feared a recurrence of the virus. Again, we did as told.
I guess I became a conduit for them since I carry out whatever they say. Even when Agathiyar asked me to build a temple for him in my very first Nadi reading in 2002, I proceeded with glee. But the response was cold from the temple committees I approached. I dropped it.
Then, when Lord Murugan, in a Nadi reading in 2018, asked for a temple too, I kept mum. As my mind raced, asking why the need for another, as he already had many temples to himself, he read my mind and heart and answered immediately in the Jeeva Nadi. He told me that I would do it differently. I asked myself, how different can I show Lord Muruga, or how different can I carry out the task? What did he mean? As I did not move, he had Agathiyar come through a devotee and convince me. Still, I kept mum for by this time I had seen many build temples and struggle to maintain them, besides the infighting within committees. I did not want to get burned, either. Agathiyar told me that he shall do it in the next 18 months. When the time was up, he told me in the Nadi that they were testing me. Lord Murugan told me that my home was his temple now.
Just before the pandemic, Agathiyar brought all visitations, puja, and charity to a standstill. Post-pandemic, he visited the homes of those who invited him, asking me to bring his bronze statue over. Then he said that he was not moving anywhere. Today, he sees his devotees, whom he brings over, reminding me that everyone knocking on my door was someone he had sent. These days, I send them to him to voice their grievances and pray for a solution.
Through the coming of a family recently, he had me carry out the annual puja that I had voiced out to him, I shall stop doing too. Lord Muruga, who came to bless us, told us that he was grateful to us for carrying it out. Now I have a reason to continue these puja, not for me but for those who turn up at Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM), just as Tavayogi told me the temple he built was not for him but for others.
This is how we have been guided all these years. We are blessed indeed to gain their trust, guidance, blessing, and grace.