Here is an update on my health. The body aches have completely gone away. The expulsion of bile, phlegm, the bloating, and wind has stopped, too. What a relief. I guess my body is cleansed now. I'm having a ferocious appetite. The transformation, both external and internal, has all ended well with the guidance and continuous monitoring of Agathiyar.
When I started this journey, traveling with the Siddhas, apparently, I had unknowingly started a journey of writing too. Though my brother was a journalist, I was never able to write until I began taking notes on my pilgrimage. Tavayogi, who turned to look at what I was doing as we were driven to the many abodes and temples, when he volunteered to bring me there in 2005, seeing me taking notes, asked what I was doing. I replied that I was taking into account all the places we went to and the things that took place. Once back home, I created websites and I posted them to share the cake with others. But when someone gave a negative comment on the photo of Supramania Swami, which another had picked up from my website and posted on his social media, I deactivated all the websites and the YouTube channel. When I informed Tavayogi about it, he asked, "Why, son, let it be." And so I began to create all these anew. When he came to Malaysia last in 2016 before passing away in 2018, Tavayogi gave due credit to me for making him known to the world at large when he addressed the small group of AVM family members who had gathered in another devotee's house. I felt that I had carried out my duty to my gurus. It was so fulfilling and satisfying.
Messaging Roshan upon his return from Bengaluru to Malaysia last night, I felt the same joy and bliss come over me knowing that another guru had listened to my recent post at https://agathiyarvanam.blogspot.com/2026/03/do-choose-to-believe.html, read to her, and that she had complimented me.
Hi roshan. R u back. What did Devi amma say about the writing? Would love to know what she thought, coming from someone so close to appa. Thank u for reading it out to her, taking up your precious time with her just for me. Already I feel so blessed.
He replied,
She was the one told me to read, she will hear. She said he writes very well and well explain also. She was very happy that you wrote about Appa and spread His name.
Speaking about the interview that she gave for a channel on YouTube, he wrote,
Appa has never allowed her to be on social media and all. And YouTube and all. But this interview Appa gave permission.
She always wanted to spread the name of Appa and she said the world should know about Appa. Appa long back said, the time will come, and you will write books and spread it. And now the time has come.
This was enough for me. It came as an accreditation from Agathiyar himself. To cap off this journey, a verse from the good book was mentioned in the short movie, 'The Mailbox," that sums it up: "You only get to keep what you give away."
In Matthew 10:39, he that findeth his life shall lose it and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it."
Ramalinga Adigal, too, had told me that when you turn down the gifts, Prapanjam shall begin to shower us with more goodness." I guess in hoarding things and being selfish, we shall never grow, for I have begun to realize that the more I share, or rather "give away" on this blog, the more I "receive."