This blog is about an individual's experiences and lessons learned from them. Nothing further. Nothing more. It does not showcase practices or methods. Neither does it preach or advise, although many have written or called to say that they have learned much, and to one reader, this blog is a lighthouse, she says. I am happy that they have benefited from my experiences. I certainly have. All the experiences that I have gained, though nothing much to shout about, have brought me to keep quiet and still, and most recently to just do what I came for. But it amuses me that I had to travel the distance to arrive at this state. When the call came to read my Nadi in 2002, Agathiyar called me to worship the Siddhas, which I did externally in the form of rituals, chanting of the names, and singing their praises. Seeing the transformation in my life, I sang the glory of Agathiyar and my gurus in physical form. The practices given and the blessings of my gurus skyrocketed my spiritual journey, which I am truly grateful for. If my sharing began with my maiden pilgrimage to India in 2003, wanting to share the journey, and later wanting to share the many miracles that came packaged with my gurus in physical form, when the internal transformations began to take place in 2022, a result of the Asana and Pranayama techniques shown to me by Tavayogi in 2007, Agathiyar asked that I share them too so that those keen to reach the state of Light will have an idea what was instore for them. I have learned a lot from this blog too, as Agathiyar came post-pandemic through devotees and continued guiding me step by step just as he did previously through the Nadi readings.
Many come to the Siddhas for a Nadi reading, hoping for a solution to their problems, miseries, illnesses, and sufferings after having been through the flight path that everyone else has taken and seeing no results, delays, hiccups, or obstacles. This affair with the Siddhas is basically touch-and-go and a one-time affair, or one-night stand. Then there are others who become convinced that the Siddhas are here to help and take up reading about them and worshipping them. Those who stayed long enough to see transformations in their lives begin to take the lead now and bring and show the Siddhas to others. If William Shakespeare wrote the play Hamlet, where Hamlet asked the question "To be, or not to be, that is the question", we too, in knowing Agathiyar, need to ask the same. I guess I am in this category now, for after knowing him, he told me to even let him go. But how could I, I exclaimed. Then he asks me, "How else can we be One?" Instead of dressing up like him, speaking on his doctrines, and preaching his path, he now wants us to become him, become the Yegan or the One or Sivam. Just as Tavayogi asks us to come out of Bakti or devotion to Gnanam or the realization that we are One, he brings us to the teachings of Adi Sankara. He brings us out of Dvaita into Advaita.
But if someone were to ask me, "Who is Agathiyar?", believing, thinking, or assuming that I know, since I have been on this path for some 24 years now, to tell you the truth, I do not know that man (or is he a lady?) or something else.
- Agathiyar came in 2001, as the Vasudeva Mantra, in a mysterious way and manner to me, who had taken a break of some 14 years from visiting temples, praying at home, and reading, after Lord Siva came in a dream in 1988 and had me put it all off to another date.
- Agathiyar came as the written word in the Nadi readings that I went for. From 2002 to 2019, he was the Word that came through these Nadi readings. From 2020 till now, he continues to come as the Word coming through his devotees. He came even last evening to check on my family and their health concerns.
- After addressing my past Karma through the Nadi, he called me to the worship of the Siddhas. To start me off on the worship of the Siddhas, Nadi reader Sentilkumar conducted a Siddha Puja called Nadiku Dhanam, stipulated by Agathiyar as an appreciation to the Siddhas for recording and documenting my life's story, past, present, and future in the palm leaves. I was given a booklet of the names of the Siddhas from Sentil and a painting of Agathiyar that I received from Sivabalan, who brought the reader in from India. Agathiyar now had a Form and Name.
- Knocking on the doors of numerous centers, movements, and societies associated with Agathiyar, I only faced disappointment as no one could appease my hunger to know more about the Siddhas and their worship. Speaking to Dr. Krishnan, astrologer, Siddha physician, and friend, about my dispointment he gave me a Yantra on a copper foil that he prepared, and surprisingly, passed me Agathiyar's Mantra over the phone as I sat in Puja at my home in 2003. Agathiyar was the Yantra and Mantra.
- Agathiyar came through my Gurus in physical form, first in 2003, as Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai, who showed me how a disciple should conduct himself in the presence of his guru, and as Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal of Kallar Ashram later in 2005, who guided me on the Siddha path. While Supramania Swami initiated me into the Siva Mantra, Tavayogi officially gave my wife, me, and others the Agathiyar Mantra to recite in 2005. Agathiyar was both the Guru and the Mantra.
- Days later, Agathiyar officially accepted me into the fold, having me get another initiation from Tavayogi the same night he came in the Nadi reading. Tavayogi just touched my shoulders, giving me Parisa Teechai and sending me off. Agathiyar came as the Touch.
- If he came as a Light to Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal previously in 2004 in the jungles of the Kallar hills, where Tavayogi later installed a granite statue of him to be worshipped, the night I stepped into his Kallar Ashram, Agathiyar came again as the Light to Tavayogi, asking what he was going to give me. He was the Light.
- Taking me into the jungles, Tavayogi pointed me to the gentle breeze that was blowing, the aroma of wild flowers and sandalwood in the air, telling me that the Siddhas were ushering us. He came as the Breeze and Aroma. He was the Nature or Prapanjam around us.
- After showing me his presence in nature, he then showed himself in a granite statue of himself at Agasthiyampalli, where he opened his left eye to see Tavayogi and me. Later, he showed the same at Papanasam, where he opened both his eyes in his granite statue before Tavayogi, my brother, and me. He was the Rock.
- Reciting the Pranava Mantra in his chambers, he came as the Sound and the Vibration that resonated, bouncing off the granite walls.
- Just before leaving his ashram and him, Tavayogi gave me a Vaasi Mantra telling me that Agathiyar was Vaasi, or the Breath.
- Coming into my family home in 2010 as a bronze statue or as a Uru or Form, an exact replica of his granite statue at Agasthiyampalli, he has me give the piece of metal Life and Breath (Uyir). He was Uru and Uyir, Form and Breath.
- Coming down the steps of the Nattadreswar temple in Erode with my family in 2013, Tavayogi turned to me, saying that Agathiyar and Siva were One. He was Siva.
- In 2013, he opened both his eyes in his bronze statue just as he did at Agasthiyampalli and Papanasam in 2005, to see us. He was the Metal.
- In 2016, just before our entourage from Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM) left for the Kumbha Abhisegam or inauguration of Tavayogi's new Ashram, the deity Karupanasamy, coming through a devotee at a temple, blessed us, saying that we shall meet Agathiyar and that we should be aware of his presence. True to what he said, we saw Agathiyar at the very first temple we stepped into upon our arrival. It was in Sri Rangam, but what came as a surprise was that Agathiyar came as an elderly woman wrapped in a saree that had all the hues and colors of a peacock. We saw him again at Palamutircholai and at the Nattradeshwar temple, again as a woman dressed in the same colors. Returning home, Karupanasamy candidly asked us, "What did you think Agathiyar was a male? He is a female!" This took me back to the day we held the groundbreaking ceremony for the new yet-to-be-built Sri Raghavendra Mritiga Brindavanam Kinta in Ipoh in 2013. A lady dressed the same walked into the grounds and right up to me when everyone else was leaving the grounds, telling me that she wanted to donate towards the cost of a brick to build the temple. She circumambulated the spot where the ritual was done and left, accepting the parcel of food that I had packed for her. Was this Agathiyar too? Is Agathiyar a Woman, too?
- When a couple questioned Agathiyar about his true form, having heard so many stories, he asked what they felt in conducting Puja and Charity. They replied that they had an Unarvu or Feeling. That is me, he replied, saying that he was the Joy, Happiness, and Bliss, and Fulfilment and Contentment that they felt during these moments. He was the Unarvu or Feelings we have.
- In testing me to gauge if I had dropped my attachment, Agathiyar asked me to send him away to another devotee's home, which I readily followed and did. In his place, he brought down the Prapanjam, telling us that she was him too. He was now the Space in my tiny, humble home AVM.
- If I had only come to know him in the past 24 years, he tells me that he has known me for crores of years. He remembers me, but I forgot him. He is beyond Time.
If all the above revelations came by in astounding ways as I walked the path with my gurus, Tavayogi shared the many findings he came across on Agathiyar during his days of search, research, and learning. The learned historians, academicians, archeologist say that he had lived and walked the face of the earth in the past, placing him in numerous Time Eras and mentioning numerous Agathiyar. The Puranas, the Siddha texts, myths, and legends, gurus and masters mention his feats, and Siddhis performed, pointing out his abodes and trails. So, tell me, can we possibly contain Agathiyar in any form, image, name, space, or time?
Agathiyar, who was and is the Light, came as the Little Soul or Atma in us, the JeevAtma, to supervise the making of yet another being. Coming as the breath, he saw to the conception and making of the Zygote, forming into the Embryo, becoming a Fetus, and a Child. He then stepped back and began to watch the Lila or game that he had put into motion, and that was to unfold. At the end of the battle for life and the battle of life, when we surrendered, admitting that it is all his play and doing, he shows himself first as the Guru in physical form, the many Upagurus, the Way, the Path, the Tools, the Practices, the Method, the Journey, the Experiences, and the Lessons gained or learned. Finally, coming as the Guru Within, he shows himself as One with us, Yegan.