When Agathiyar came through the Kaanda Nadi reading in 2002, he facilitated my pilgrimage to carry out remedies for my past wrongs. When he had me carry out Brahma Harti, he had a temple priest show me what needed to be done by having him accompany me to the particular temple that he had directed me to. When I was at the many temples as directed by him, he had a priest come by to open the grills and doors to the shrines of these deities, which were at times closed upon my arrival.
Agathiyar was always around, giving me the experiences that showed me his presence in all things and all moments. No amount of reading about him brings him before us. We need to make the journey to his abodes and temples for a start. We need to engage in rituals where he and the other Siddhas and deities come down to join us. We need to feed others to see him among these crowds. When Agathiyar told me to feed a specific bird, Pulligal, many years back, he had them waiting in my home after I returned home from the Nadi reading. I later found out that they were Anthus Richardi, or locally known as burung Pipit Tanah. Then one day, after many months, they left mysteriously just as they appeared mysteriously. I suppose there was no longer a need to continue feeding this particular species henceforth.
When Agathiyar had me carry out the ritual of lighting the homam in 2010 that Tavayogi suggested I do simultaneously as he did at his ashram grounds, telling me that it was for the good of the universe at large, Agathiyar had me stop doing it and all other rituals in late 2019. But at the height of the pandemic, Lord Shiva came and asked to carry it out. Fearing a revival of the virus in 2020, Mother Prapanjam asked us to do it too. I understood that we could take it up as and when required.
In bringing several youths to join my home puja in 2010 and 2013, my home became Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM). He engaged us in doing charity, too. These, too, were dropped under his orders in the wake of the pandemic.
The Siddhas want us to learn the tricks of the trade and gain these experiences before asking us to let go, even the guru too, for when Agathiyar asked me to let go of him too, and I replied, "How could I do so?", he replied me with a question just as Tavayogi always does, "How else can we become one?"
When a devotee asked Bhagawan Ramana if there was an absolute necessity of a guru for self-realization, he replied to him, saying that the guru does not bring self-realization but simply removes the obstacles to it. The self is then realized. Bhagawan continues, "So long as you seek self-realization, the guru is necessary. So long as duality persists in you, the guru is necessary. Because you identify yourself with the body, you think the guru too is some body. You are not the body, nor is the guru. You are the self, and so is the guru."
"The disappearance of this sense of duality is the removal of ignorance." This is self-realization, according to Bhagawan. (Source: "Talks with Sri Ramana Maharshi", Sri Ramanasramam, Tiruvannamalai, 1989)
Likewise, Agathiyar was helping me remove my ignorance that day.