Life is full of choices and even Agathiyar leaves us to decide for ourselves. Life is a series of events, and we tend to determine it right from the moment we begin to make decisions. Although the Nadi was mentioned to me way back in 1996 by Dr. Krishnan when I used to visit him, it did not move me enough to want to see it back then. I did not look up for any Nadi reader. It was not important back then. Nor did it arose my curiousity. But when my friend Muralitaran Saminathan spoke about his experience to me in 2002, in reading the Kaanda Nadi for himself in 2000, I became excited to know my past, present, and future that the Siddhas could reveal. When he made an appointment for me, I came face to face with several choices.
Agathiyar, giving a painting of his and a small booklet of hymns to start the journey, called me to worship the Siddhas, which I did immediately upon returning home. I could have kept them aside and gone on with my routine. But when I adjusted my life to include puja to the Siddhas and allocated some time to it, a whole new world opened up. I had access to their world. I had their grace. They began to guide me henceforth through subsequent Aasi Nadi readings, some 56 times.
Agathiyar asked me to go to India on a pilgrimage, which I embarked on in 2003. I could have opted not to. But when I did as asked the pilgrimage ended in my meeting my first guru, Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai.
Agathiyar moved me to meet my second guru, Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal of Kallar Ashram, when he stepped on our soil two years later.
My gurus molded me further.
I opened up to the many opportunities that knocked on my door, not knowing what I was stepping into. I did not ponder nor think, or hesitate to carry out what was asked of me.
Agathiyar sent several youths to join my family and me in puja, and when I accepted them, my home evolved into Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM). He introduced us to carrying out charity that gave rise to the group Amudha Surabhi. We brought the Siddha puja into the corridors of the temples after our Paramaguru Chitramuthu Adigal, coming in a Jeeva Nadi reading, asked us to begin it at the Taiping Taneermalai temple where he had spent years in meditation. Agathiyar had me write this blog, which has reached out to many worldwide.
Putting me through the test to see if I was ready to let go, he now began to work on me. In the wake of the pandemic, he decided that it was all enough and brought the shutters down, asking me to stay indoors, in solitude, and to go within. He left the others to either take up the cause or go about their lives. They opted for the second. He worked on the energies that had arisen after picking up the Yoga techniques learned from Tavayogi in 2007. Today I am trying to manage these energies with his help.
Life is full of opportunities that come knocking on our doors. We should learn to recognize them and take up the call. We should pursue it till it is decided that we let go of it too. We are not here to bring along the results of these opportunities but only the experiences gained. This would one day become Gnanam and release us for good from the hold that this birth has on us.
Imagine my life if I had not taken up any of those opportunities. Where would I be today?
Then there were moments when I had refused to take up certain tasks asked of me, for instance be a medium for them to heal and a guru, and to build a temple. I am glad that I refused the many gifts that they were prepared to confer on me. Imagine my life caught up in carrying out healing, reading the Nadi, managing the temple and preaching for life . Today I am left alone to do whatever I please. There is no puja, rituals, charity, satsangs, preaching, talks, practice, etc. My home is back being a home. A mountain is back being a mountain. I am at peace with myself, contended and full. I spent time with my grandchildren living in their world of fantasy.