After the restrictions that followed the discovery of the COVID-19 virus in 2019 were lifted, I wondered why Agathiyar did not come through the Nadi, as the Nadi readers had slowly made their comeback into Malaysia. Agathiyar, who came through his devotees in their absence, seemed to have taken a break too. As I pondered over this, he came through a devotee asking me to go for a Nadi reading. In that reading and coming immediately after through a devotee, he made me realize the extent of Maya infiltrating all aspects of life, including religious and spiritual circles and their tools, mediums, practitioners, etc. He told me to carefully sift through them to arrive at the truth. As to the long absence in coming to us, he answered our question with another question, as Tavayogi always does. He asked us what the need was for him coming through the Nadi and others when he was with us and within us. He made us understand that all the answers were within us. He encouraged us to hold healthy discussions and bring out these answers. True enough, talking to my wife this morning, I received the answer to a question I had posed in my last post. Since I had mentioned that I felt my purpose here was done, I had asked why Agathiyar, through Kumarasamy Aiya, requested me and my wife to spearhead and carry out a Siddha Velvi after Agathiyar had brought all forms of rituals, puja, charity, and Yogam to a halt in 2019, and if he was resurrecting AVM back to its past glory? I also asked Kumarasamy Aiya why me when there were many "Giants" or "Jambavan" heading and running establishments and preaching the path and worship of the Siddhas. It reminded me of the moment when Agathiyar asked me to build a temple in my very first Nadi reading, in 2002, which got me excited for the moment, only to be trashed by the 24-year-old Sivabalan who brought in the readers and accompanied me during the reading the very next moment. He revealed that Agathiyar had asked fifty others in their readings too. But as he told me to fulfill Agathiyar's asking as none did it, I went around looking for any small space in existing temples to install his statue. None of the temple management obliged me, though they had the space. I left it at that. In 2018, Lord Muruga asked for one too. Since I did not move, Agathiyar in 2019 told me that they had tested me. So was this another test?
When Tavayogi came out of his years of living in solitude in the Sathuragiri hills, he wanted a place to go into Samadhi. Agathiyar pointed him to a place known back then as Agathiyar Vanam, which he came to know was in the foothills of Kallar. Just when he thought that his purpose here was done with, his wish was put on hold, and he was instructed by Agathiyar to reach out to seekers in Malaysia. And so he began visiting Malaysia numerous times, beginning from 2004, 2005, 2007, 2008, 2010, and 2016. Asking Tavayogi why he was building the new Kallar ashram some 2kms away, which he officiated in 2016, he replied that it was for others. Veeramanidasan Aiya explains why he decided to build a temple for Agathiyar. He, too, wanted to repay the lord's kindness.
I had for some time contemplated how I was going to repay the kindness shown by Agathiyar. When he came many years back asking each and every one gathered around him what they wanted and stood before me waiting to hear my wish too, and as I had nothing to ask for but since he was waiting, I replied that I would like to take several more births and serve him as I did now. Just as Tavayogi does, he asked me if that was what I wanted, which struck me as the wrong thing to ask. As I kept silent, he moved on to another. Later, he eavesdrops on my telephone conversation with Mahinderan on this subject and brings it up on his next visit. He told me that I had wanted Gnana, that Tavayogi always stresses. He tells me that Gnana was not gifted, but I had to earn it by traveling within and exploring all the centers within and learning from the experiences gained in traveling the Chakras. Later, he had me share all these experiences felt within and the bodily changes that are still taking place. It is not enough to announce that I was shown everything. We have to pass it on to others. Otherwise, it would be rather selfish of us. Ramalinga Adigal, who initially sang the glory of the Gods and Goddesses, went on to share his experiences and called upon all to follow the path and the way and experience it for themselves too. Supramania Swami told me that we have to even leave behind the merits gained from our Tapas, Tavam, and austerities. We should not carry anything back from here. Now I have entered another phase where whatever I do is for others, just as Tavayogi mentioned. Hence, I believe this is the reason he wants me to initiate and carry out the Siddha Velvi. It reminds me of the moment when I hesitated to carry out a Homam that Tavayogi initiated me to do, Agathiyar told me that I was not doing it for myself but for the well being of the universe and similarly when Lord Siva asked us to assist the universe to heal at the peak of the pandemic by lighting a Yagam.