In having me do nothing, Agathiyar has given me time to reflect on myself, my past, and my deeds, and given me time to make good and right the wrong here itself without having to take another birth to correct them. He is getting me to tie the loose ends and not leave any unfinished work. However, I try, and I do not find anything left hanging that needed to be taken care of.
He is giving me all the time to watch nature and connect with it. When I shed tears watching others go hungry, suffer, and in pain and agony, I know it to be a sign of compassion arising within me. I know that I have begun to connect with other souls.
Many come to me in their moments of struggle with their lives for a solution, but only give me half the story or picture. How can I help them when I only have a few pieces of the puzzle to go by? This is exactly what happens when they go to others too, including the Siddhas. They choose to hide their faults, or stupidity, or error, or mistakes, or greed that have led them to their present state. They should be brave enough to own up to their mistakes and take responsibility for them. Agathiyar, in revealing my past karma, told me to own up to it and gave me remedies to soften its harsh effects. He reminded me to walk with caution and not add on to them in this life. He also told me that some of the things I did were not of my choice, but to have me experience them too, though they were shameful in nature. He told me to forgive myself and others, and he shall forgive me. He never spoke about karma again. Once I came under their shadow, or rather, I came to him, he swept them all under the carpet. Only then can we chart a new course together, he said. He spoke about positive things and a bright future.
Nobody shares the good times they have had or the huge chunks of profit they made, but when sorrow and sufferings rain on them, they seek answers and reasons for the mess that they are in.
As I was drafting this piece, a reader messaged me the following,
I have answers but now..I think they are tutored answers...something that I heard or read at some point of time. Something which has been fed by external sources. The answers are not from within.
I replied to him that that was true and that we have to reach out to the cosmos by going within. She has all the answers in her bosom. We just have to milk it, and we will be fed with Gnana or divine wisdom that transcends the mind and logical thinking.