Agathiyar called me to the path through the Nadi. Calling me over to India he left me to venture further under the tutelage of two wonderful gurus in physical form. My first guru Supramania Swami accelerated my journey by passing me his merits gathered over 40 years. Tavayogi picked me up from there and left me to venture further without shadowing me or shackling me. When many took the opportunity to have Tavayogi officiate Peedhams or organizations affiliated to his parent Ashram in Kallar I was never mooted to start and head one. I preferred to continue with my home puja. But Agathiyar opted to send potential candidates on the Siddha path over to my home to learn the worship of the Siddhas. Agathiyar brought together potential souls to work his miracle in 2013. Soon the group grew in numbers. For the sake of identifying and sharing its location, I named my home Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia that was endorsed by Agathiyar on many occasions. Soon we started a WhatsApp group to share the times of Puja. Later as we engaged in charity we started another group dedicated to the cause and named it Amudha Surabhi. Initially, bringing us to Kriyai from Sariyai that was the foundation of all of us on the religious path, he slowly groomed us under the watchful eyes of Tavayogi. After accomplishing the given tasks in Kriyai, he put a stop to it asking us only to hold his annual vizha or celebrations. Today we understand that he had us carry out Sariyai and Kriyai to gain the grace of the divine and the trust of the guru. If we had only taken up Yogam we would not have had their grace. Their grace comes with devotion from the heart. With devotion and their grace, compassion arises, blooms, and fruits in us. With them showering their grace the next leg of the journey into Yogam would be a smooth transition. With Yogam, Gnana shall then come easy. If we had not engaged in Kriyai we would be devotees all lifelong dependent on others for our religious needs. Similarly, if we were not switched to Yogam we would have remained as priests, shaman, or medicine man, for the rest of our lives. If we had only taken up Yogam we would only remain excellent teachers. Hence, all four stages are required to make it into a Siddha. Can we possibly achieve the goal set by Agathiyar?
With the passing of both my gurus in physical form, these days Agathiyar and Ramalinga Adigal with the rest of the Siddhas come to continue the guru-disciple tradition.
Agathiyar's objective is to make each of us a Siddha like him nothing less. He had been kind and gentle with us for some 6 years waiting for us to pick up his teachings. With whatever tools and knowledge gained over the years he expected us to bring them into our homes and family. He expected us to bring one and all to live the life that he wants of us and envisions for us. Then late last year, he brought a stop to the congregation and ended the honeymoon years. As all good things have to end if we are to move higher on the spiritual ladder Agathiyar made me push the detonator and end the groups. In early 2020 he let them be free to explore the inner frontiers. He had us go our own way with Yogam. If Sariyai and Kriyai needed us to come together, Yogam was a solo effort that needed discipline on the part of its adherents.
Those who understand what Agathiyar is trying to do here will appreciate his every move. Many have yet to make the move into Yogam. Sadly many still are dependent on the congregation and feel lost after it was dissolved. Many are pining for the group to be revived again. If the group was in existence it would have made them all the more dependent and perhaps forever dependent on the support that is provided. They would never venture on their own. It would have made them spectators to the many events held and never nudge them to start heading the enterprise in their homes and altars.
Betty J Eadie who came back from a near-death experience to reveal the secrets of heaven in her book "The Awakening Heart - My Continuing Journey to Love", a Pocket Star Book, 1996 wrote that just as we have choices here, we are also given choices in our father's kingdom. While some souls respond to God's call, volunteering and choose to listen and accept his will before coming to earth, others receive a calling after they arrive, when their hearts open to God, through intense sufferings or through miracles, and eventually, they become vessels of God themselves. There are instances though where the soul cannot make a decision to come down, the wise men up there shall give them a gentle push.
So did Agathiyar give a gentle push to his devotee who then had a fall. But as he promised his devotee is recovering fast. The Siddhas work in mysterious ways. They shall push us till we achieve. If they had shown one and all the magic externally by ways of miracles in days of past, to those few who are committed to their cause, they are pushing them hard these days to go within and witness the magic within. Suddenly there seems to be an urgency to get us to evolve on the spiritual ladder. Let us take the cue from them and persist on the path. There is no time to linger around, take a rest, or deviate from the cause. Let us be focused and the journey ahead. Those who resist are left to venture on their way with the Siddhas knowing pretty well that they shall come by one day.