What is God's game? We are told that all this is a play and that we are puppets in God's hands. On the other hand, we are told about Karma and how we picked it up during all our previous births. Then we are told that we had indeed a choice in picking our births to experience and live the lives we wanted. Coming here, we receive further blows to the face. If we think it is the general public that is beaten up, even the saints, gurus, and masters have been physically beaten up. They have had their fair share of troubles with troublemakers and authorities, too. If only we could see through this veil that covers our insight and intelligence and prevents us from comprehending the truth behind it all. To seek to know the truth, we have to turn to God, too. Will he be honest and reveal his play to us? Lord Muruga did. Yes, he asked me to beware of the play that Lord Siva, Agathiyar, and Indran had put into place.
There were numerous warning signs of warring factions, even as I questioned why all the movements and establishments initiated under Agathiyar's name could not come under an umbrella during my initial years of search on this path. I then understood that the Ego stood between them. I figured out that God's play was to rout out the Ego. For the Ego to leave, humility has to come. I have yet to see humble masters like my own gurus Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai and Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal of Kallar Ashram. After I met Tavayogi on our shores and Agathiyar in a Nadi reading told me to spend some days with Tavayogi whom he pointed to me as my guru, at his ashram, I told Supramania Swami what Agathiyar had told me. He gladly sent me off to meet Tavayogi, asking me to send his regards to him. Upon my return, he asked how my guru fared. When masters and gurus tend to claim ownership of their disciples, forbidding them to seek elsewhere, even questioning their intent, once they come under their fold, here was one man who sent me off happily. Tavayogi too never laid any rules. In fact, he wanted us to be free to fly, telling us that we should not be caged. Guhai Namasivayar sent his disciple, Guru Namasivayar, away once he knew that his student had progressed well. A story is told of a young monk sent away to see the world after years at the monastery. Agathiyar too told us that as parents our responsibility is only until they grow up and can take care of their needs.
Agathiyar revealed the nature of the Soul or Atma in his memo to us some years back. He spoke first about creation, beginning with what is closest to us and visible, the body or the Udal, and how the Pancha Butham, the five elements, namely water, earth, sky, air, and fire, derived from both the parents' bodies, coming together as the Nun Uyir in certain proportions, Earth 1/3, Water 4/3, Fire 5/6, Air 8/2, Sky 1/8, to take a form and shape in the womb, become the embryo. We understood it as deriving 1 portion of Earth from the mother and 3 from the father, 4 portions of Water from the mother and 3 from the father, and so on and so forth, coming together to take the form of an embryo in the womb.
As these proportions are determined by Lord Brahma, he is considered the creator. I guess so that we do not influence his decisions with our asking, Lord Brahma is not worshipped. When the proportions differ, there appear to be defects in the baby.
The Atma keeps both the Udal and Uyir under its control in a secretive, subtle manner. This subtlety stays from 1 to 5 Varagai with the child before it's veiled. Agathiyar told us that he could not reveal the reason for it to be veiled back then. Nevertheless, he told us that the Atma will return unto us depending on our actions. The Soul that devises and engineers this body is held captive by our Ego. It is time we freed our souls. It is time we listened to our souls.