As I sat and reflected on the many recent happenings related to Prapanjam, seeing her magnificence at work, and realizing that she had a hand in every thought, action, and outcome, I had to share these moments with everybody. In doing so, I shot myself in the foot recently.
I had watched the movie "Pearl Harbor" on DVD countless times. It is the story of "American boyhood friends Rafe McCawley (Ben Affleck) and Danny Walker (Josh Hartnett) as they enter World War II as pilots". As just like "Rafe and Danny play together in the back of a biplane in Tennessee in 1923, pretending to be combat airmen", I used to play police and thieves and cowboys and indians with my childood friends back then. When Rafe returns after being a volunteer for "the Eagle Squadron (an RAF unit for American volunteer pilots during the Battle of Britain)", Pearl Harbor is shelled and bombed. As they try to drive away evading the Japanese planes attacking from the air, Rafe would ask Danny to bring him to an airplane so that he could fly it and counter the enemy several times. Similarly whenever I get sore with others, thinking about their stupidity, I would ask for a pistol to shoot them down. Then one day I received a shocking email that was pretty obvious a scam. It was a fake invoice and payment request for one. Oh my goodness me. Seriously. Was Prapanjam truly listening, eavesdropping, and replying, I asked myself? I immediately deleted the mail. Wanting to know more about these scammers I searched the net and came across numerous similar invoices on the net and a warning that the email does not come from a PayPal email address.
I shared the above incident with my second daughter while driving her to work and asked if Prapanjam had truly listened in on me. My daughter jokingly quipped, dropping yet another bombshell. She shared something she had seen posted on social media.
Jokes aside, now let us turn to serious matters. Seeing those who are mysteriously sent over to AVM by Agathiyar, I could see that these poor souls, uptight and tense at having to do a hundred and one things, and their heads jampacked with thoughts seeking solutions and answers to life and lifes problems, are never able to bring themselves to settle down, even for a moment. I feel sad for them, for even if the soul has brought them to Agathiyar, I wonder what prevents them from reaching out and grabbing his hands.
Where do we then begin as Andy Williams asked? For a start, let us settle down in a quiet place and be alone at least for once. To those who can afford to take a moment from life's daily hassles, sit back and try to relate to everything that has happened in your life and everybody you have met. You shall see a certain pattern forming. You will come to know that it was all meant to be. You could not have avoided them. What appeared as choices we made were in fact destined. They were events and people who brought on an experience that served as a lesson. All these events and people then chiseled our lives. Watch the past go by and become the judge of your past actions. When we begin to atone for our actions here and now, the cycle of birth ends. There is no Karma to bring on another birth. Console yourself and move on with life.
Cherish these silent moments and the thoughts that come on. Eventually, you shall slip into the state of silence. The soul then comes to the forefront and begins to guide us personally. When we drop our ego, the doer in us dies a natural death. We meet our soul face to face then. It speaks to us. When many are trying to fathom the mysteries of god or ParamAtma, Agathiyar asks us to know the soul within or JeevAtma first. This should be our journey and not that of exploring god. Once the soul is known god is known.
