Swami Tapasyananda's transliteration, translation, and notes based on Laksmidhara's commentary on "Saundarya Lahiri of Sri Sankaracarya", published by Sri Ramakrishna Math, Mylapore, with cross-reference to Swami Vivekananda and Sri Ramakrishna's works, give added clarity to what Agathiyar said was taking place in me since as early as 2007, after I began to put into practice the techniques Tavayogi gave me. According to Agathiyar, the practice activated the Muladhara and aroused the Kundalini in me as early as 2007. But the energy had ponded at Svadishtana, and as Tavayogi had said that our effort was only till this Chakra and the guru has to come to lead us further, Agathiyar in 2022 came to help burst the bank and release her to travel to the Sahasrara, where the divine Siva-Sakti union and dance took place.
We are told that as the Kundalini, that is Sakti of the individual Jiva, lying dormant in the Muladhara, is awakened and made to pass through the 6 plexuses (Cakras), different subtle dimensions of reality become open to the Jiva, and finally, upon reaching the Sahasrara, the 1000-petalled lotus within which is the Sri Cakra, perfect Samadhi ensues. The center of the Sri Cakra, the Bindu, is the place of Devi in union with Siva. The shower of nectar emerging from her feet saturates the whole body and mind of the Sadhaka with bliss. We are told that in continuously remaining here in this state of Samadhi for some 21 days, the Jiva in us leaves the body. This is true Samadhi.
But I understood that since Agathiyar had a task awaiting me, he had me go back to my old ways, tending to my plants, listening to songs, watching documentaries, catching up, and living my dreams and desires, until I was ready to take the leap. When one has yet to complete his responsibilities or has a task awaiting, the divine decides not to prolong his temporary stay in this state for the said number of days, but drags him down to worldly matters again. Agathiyar held me back, reviving all my past desires and having me engage in my past hobbies and likes. I know now why I went back to setting up my home sound system, why he provided me a player to listen to the cassettes that were collecting dust. I went back to tending to my plants, watching documentaries, listening to songs to keep me occupied, but the fact was to pull me and bring me away from slipping into the continuous state of Samadhi. He made me attend to these things while awaiting the moment of departure, postponing it for the time being. For Agathiyar said he had yet a task for me. But he had given me a glimpse of Samadhi for now.
Contrary to the common belief that Samadhi is passing away and being laid to rest with a structure built and erected around them, it is going into a state of mind and spirit where the mind and breath settle, watching Siva Saktis' union and dance in the Bindu of the Sahasrara that goes on continuously for 21 days, after which the Jiva leaves the body. I understand now when Agathiyar said I would choose the date I wish to leave.