I have to thank Swami Chinmayananda Saraswati, for he had mentioned somewhere asking spiritual aspirants to maintain a spiritual diary. Hence, I began to take note and write down. As Tavayogi and I were traveling across India, he asked me what I was writing. I told him that I was taking notes and keeping track of where we went. When Dr.Krishnan, astrologer, Siddha physician, and friend, looking at my horoscope in the nineties, told me that I would write, it never crossed my mind that one day I would do just that, for I was not a writer. I was trained in the technical field. Then Agathiyar asked me to write, and lately asked that I share the internal transformation and changes with readers, stating that we should all know what to expect if we walk this path.
Born into a family that prayed to all the Gods and Goddesses both at the home altar and in the numerous and various temples we visited, prayer and puja were not alien to me. As a kid, I would join the Sunday classes at the Buddhist Vihara and chant mantras and listen to stories revolving around Buddha. I would attend the Thevaram classes conducted by a teacher of Ceylonese origin at his home. I enrolled in a distance learning course on Christianity based in Singapore, where I received paper-based course materials, and submitted my work through the mail. I was filled in on Islam by a co-traveler of Pakistani origin who was a gardener at our college while traveling by bus to college. In my youth, as I was good at art, I used to draw murals depicting stories from the Puranas on the walls of temples that my brother-in-law, Sundara Arumugam, built in places and towns he was posted to while working with the Public Works Department, namely the Macha Muneeswarar Temple in Simpang Empat, Bagai Serai, and the Raja Rajeshwari temple in Menglembu. After becoming a devotee of Sri Raghavendra, he built the Sri Raghavendra Mritiga Brindavanam in Buntong. When I joined work, I used to carry out puja at dawn and dusk in my bachelor's home and visit the local temples. Then it all stopped after Lord Siva came in a dream and told me to keep my questions to a later date. All the reading about God being compassionate and loving did not tally with what I saw in real life. Friends and relatives were suffering, at times, said to be the work of the deities themselves. I took heed of the dream and took a long break for some 13 years.
Then Agathiyar came into my life. But I did not know it was his doing then. I only came to know some time later. He sent my nephew to my home to pass on a message from him passed on to my nephews, Paramaguru, who had passed on. The spirit of his Paramaguru came through a fellow university student at a temple that they frequented in Penang during their college days. Together with the message came a mantra delivered through my nephew, who went into a state of trance briefly. It was the Vasudeva Mantra. I began to repeat it as I was told that it would pave the way for me to meet my guru. This was in 2001. The following year, I read the Nadi and Agathiyar came as my Moola Guru. Since then, he has charted my life. Lord Muruga came in a Nadi reading in 2018 and stated that he had changed my fate and destiny. The Siddhas took my family into their arms and care. Agathiyar showed me two wonderful gurus in human form, Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai and Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal of Kallar Ashram. Asking me to come to worship the Siddhas, he sent others to my home to jointly carry out puja and charity and bring on love and compassion towards others. If my parents brought me to Sariyai, my gurus brought me to Kriyai and Yogam. Agathiyar soon sent me to meet Supramania Swami of Tiruvannamalai and Tavayogi Thangarasan of Kallar Ashram to show me Guru Bakthi and Yogam, respectively. The rituals and devotion brought the Siddhas and gurus down, while Yogam triggered and activated the dormant energies within. Now it was a journey within, towards Gnanam, which I had to walk alone. He ended my association with all things and had me go within. Agathiyar monitored and guided the energy within and brought me to sample the state of Samadhi briefly, something that I came to know from the teachings of Sri Ramakrishna only days ago. After giving a taste of this ambrosia, he pulled me down, having me tend to the little things that I loved doing, keeping me rooted here until my responsibilities, purpose, and task are seen through.