Tuesday 2 November 2021

LOSING THE "I"DENTITY

It is all about losing the "I"dentity. If one can lose his "I" nothing shall bother him. That is what we are being taught to do too. Then we do not have enemies or foes, we are not perturbed by what others say or think about us, nothing can make us lose our calm, differences do not bother us, etc. A classic example of this state would be that of the merchant who turned mendicant the very instant he read a koan left by his son for him. The merchant was Thiruvenkadar of Kaveri Poombathinam who later became to be known as Pattinathar. Such is the nature of Lord Dakshinamurti too says Bhagawan Ramana in reply to queries from devotees.
Such is Dakshinamurti. What did he do? He was silent; the disciples appeared before him. He maintained silence; the doubts of the disciples were dispelled, which means that they lost their individual identities. (Source: https://www.sriramanamaharshi.org)
Indeed "The work proceeding within is not apparent" as Bhagawan Ramana says. Suren sent me the following, its source is unknown.
God is faithful. Don’t let the lack of evidence convince you that nothing is happening. In the unseen realm, things are changing in your favor. Forces that have stopped you in the past have been broken. The roots have been cut off of that depression, that addiction, that sickness. It may look like it’s alive—nothing has changed—but stay in faith. It’s just a matter of time and you’re going to see what God promised.

Both Bhagawan Nithyananda and Yogi Ramsuratkumar on their deathbed told their disciples that they could do more work in the other realm. Similarly, Dhanvanthri told us that Tavayogi was monitoring our progress and trying hard to save us even after his demise. 

As I held my newborn grandson, my third grandchild, in my arms today, I went into a state of wonder thinking how this small wonder that is a bundle of joy came to be? How many see this as a miracle that is closest to us and happening every moment all around us? How many would-be parents take the trouble to know the process of human conception, development, and birth? Most only know when their female counterparts have signs of conceiving a child after some time. These days we are blessed to look inside and capture the process and the miracle taking place with high-end technology. For instance, "The Miracle of Life (abbreviated Life) (https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x3623rs) employs the most current developments (that was in 1983) in endoscopic and microscopic technology to capture the intricacies of human development. Narrated by Anita Sangiolo and vividly illustrating the most minute and hard-to-reach parts and processes of living systems, this film truly flexes the muscles of the newest photographic technology of its time, with esteemed photographer Lennart Nilsson behind the camera. Aired in 1983, Life was the first documentary of its kind, clearly explaining, in under an hour, biological systems that many people had never seen before." (Source: https://embryo.asu.edu/pages/miracle-life-1983-nova)

Right from the beginning where the sperms, only given between twenty-eight to forty-eight hours to fertilize the egg, travel the fallopian tube seeking the egg in the womb, to the survival of one that makes it inside, where is our participation? We understand that "Upon combination of the mother’s and father’s genetic material, a new cell is made." This composition is described in detail by Agathiyar. The Pindam made of the elements derived from the Pancha Maha Bhutam in a specific proportion takes a form that begins to reside in the womb. The 5 elements are taken from each parent's body to shape the body of the fetus. One portion of earth from the female and three portions from the male; Four portions of water from the female and three from the male; Five portions of fire from the female and six from the male; Eight portions of air from the female and two from the male and finally One portion of Ether from the female and eight from the male go towards making a healthy constitution. 

The Param (Paramatma) comes within as the Atma (Jeevatma) to supervise the Lila or play. Where is our participation henceforth in the divisions of this cell, now called a zygote, the mass of cells becoming a blastocyst, and an embryo, and a fetus? Where is our participation in the embryo growing into a fully developed baby? When we are told that "The sound of fetal respiration, a kind of cyclic sucking, is heard as the fetus takes in amniotic fluid through its mouth and then releases it" we understand the Uyir or breath has come into the Pindam indicating the start of new life. Thinking that she was caring for her third child in pregnancy, Agathiyar tells my daughter that her job was only to carry the child, he would take care of the rest. As Agathiyar says we are only carriers we should never claim ownership over our children as they are all God's children. Indeed where is our participation in the process? We only provide the vehicle for these new Atmas to realize that they are the Paramatma. 

Similarly, do we actually get out the manual on an automotive to study how it was manufactured and works before we drive off in one each time? Do we sit to understand how the digestive and alimentary canal works before we gobble in food? This aptly applies to the working of the Siddhas and the eradication of our past karma too. When we do not understand the nature of pregnancy but desire a child, and when we do not understand how an automobile works before purchasing one, how is it we want to know how a remedy given by Agathiyar works before setting out to comply doing it? Why can't we just follow the instructions without question? This is a classic case of how the "I" comes to the forefront and even stops something good from happening. People when they come to Agathiyar they expect a one-time panacea that can "cure" all their past karma. They fail to acknowledge that they have come with baggage full. It takes time to empty it. Then there is no standard formula that can rid all the karma altogether. They fail to understand or realize that karma continues over several births too. What they are witnessing and going through is an accumulation of karma from several births. In the event having done all the remedies, and yet we do not see the results, there might be the intervention of other's karma that needs to be cleared too. The parents have to take on the child's karma too at least until they reach puberty. One might have to pay for the wrongs of their past ancestors too. All these could be reasons why we do not see results. 

Agathiyar in giving a remedy will propose or suggest a solution looking into one thing at a time. Our karma is like many knots on a string of "Life". He helps us unknot one at a time. Having released the knot as we go back to him or he comes to aid us further, provided we have listened to and fulfilled the earlier directives, he goes on to reveal another remedy for another fault that we did in maybe another birth. And so the process goes on. It is just like how Tavayogi dishes out the same lecture when he takes the stage over and over again. When I took notice of the similarity in content and even the words used in all his speeches as I received video recordings of his speeches that I edited and uploaded to my YouTube Channel, I asked him why does not move on to explain other new things? He replied with a question as usual asking me if I was doing what he told me? It is only when we listen and comply with their instructions that they lead us on to the next stage or phase. Similarly, when one takes the initiative to correct his karma Agathiyar reveals more. 

Above and beyond seeking a solution to their problems, delays, obstacles, sickness, sufferings, miseries, or apart from those seeking material joy, a good career, and business, children, etc, how many truly come to him asking for Gnanam? Now I understand why Tavayogi turned round to me as we embarked on a journey of discovery of the abodes of the Siddhas for me and a revisitation for him, telling me "Only now the true journey begins, my son." The Atma that had me seek the Nadi, and had us worship the Siddhas, had me drop the "I" too. If all this while the "I" that was caught in the tentacles of our past karma, had dictated the course of our lives journey, now the Atma sets us off on a discovery of the Self within us. In surrendering the "I" and taking heed of the words of the Siddhas, the Atma took the initiative to help us wipe the slate clean. Now a clean slate, the Siddhas began to write on it a new journey, a new fate, and a new destiny. They had Tavayogi lead us on this journey of discovery of the mystical world of the Siddhas. If through the Nadi we became acquainted with karma and its hold on us, through Tavayogi's guidance on the rituals we connected with the Siddhas. Through his books, we became acquainted with the Tattvas a prerequisite to understanding the Atma. Soon the Siddhas came into our homes and within and drew the veil of ignorance aside. Having the "I" go into exile forever, the Atma shall bring us to a realization that we were never two but one, Yegan and absolute. From Dvaitam we move to Advaitam. The Atma reclaims its rightful place and it reinstates itself to its original seat of authority. The realization that I am Paramatma dawns.  Gnanam is attained that instant.