Mataji Sarojini Ammaiyar of Kallar Ashram will end her brief visit to Malaysia and return to India on 27 June. We had her come over to AVM and spend some quality time with us on Sunday, 19 June. She shared some bits from her life with Tavayogi as a student and disciple of his with us.
Just as Agathiyar had graced and blessed us with his Jeeva Nadi reading for those gathered at AVM during her last visit in 2016 with Tavayogi and again when she traveled alone in 2019 after the demise of Tavayogi, Agathiyar in this reading cleared the doubts and questions raised by devotees during the Sunday morning meet. One pertinent point he made was that henceforth his Jeeva Nadi at Kallar was to be referred to only for those who sought Gnanam. Those seeking solutions to their daily problems and sufferings and advice on career decisions etc should seek elsewhere for a reading or perform Sariyai and Kriyai that he said shall relieve them of their misery or help them make wise decisions respectively. I personally think that is a very wise move. After Tavayogi's demise, I too was lost just as Mataji was for we both were his students. I needed him now more than ever for now I was going through many experiences that I could not validate nor have someone explain them. If back in those days Tavayogi always asked us to ask him questions, we were lost as to what to ask him then for we were new to the path or Marga. Many turned up with questions based on what they had read or listened to at other talks and placed those questions related to what they had consumed elsewhere, now vomiting them before Tavayogi and waiting for his reaction or opinion on what was read or what others had said. These question-answer sessions would stretch on for hours often ending in debates. I would sit silently and watch the show in disgust. I had nothing to ask him though I had heard and read many a thing. As I had no personal experience in this subject and in the field I zipped up. Today having seen and experienced the things that Tavayogi had randomly mentioned as he walked by us, or on our long walks and visits, I truly yearned for him to be with me physically so that I could verify these experiences with him. But Agathiyar had relieved him of his duties on this earth and had him perform other duties in his world. Nevertheless, Agathiyar in the Nadi reading addressed my yearning and told me that he would come to my aid. This has given me hope and a new direction. Earlier when he came through another devotee some days back he had asked me not to be sidetracked by things and responsibilities that will be added on. Instead, he asked that I be focused on knowing the Atma. In the Nadi reading too, he mentioned the same. He did the same for others gathered around that Sunday morning, asking them to take time from their daily routine and focus on going within.
He gave a practice to those gathered and to those who were adhering to it to continue it. He added that Tavayogi shall guide us in the subtle form.
Agathiyar went on to reveal the mantra to him.
Addressing all gathered he asked us to stay and remain strong in the face of adversities. He is with us he assured.
If Agathiyar has brought us, the adults, out of Sariyai and Kriyai and has us engage in Yogam that would eventually lead to the dawn of Gnanam, the former two initial stages need to be done for the sake of the children growing up around us so that they too can travel the two initial stages and leave them behind when they are ready to take a further step into Yogam. I have begun to initiate my grandchildren to drop their fear of God and address him as a buddy.