It is difficult being God I have come to realize. I sympathize with him. Poor God. Imagine he has to sit and watch all the stupid things we do, watch us miss our foot and fall, watch us fall for dubious characters and their words of promise, watch us miss the bus for an important appointment, etc, and yet not able to move or act. For how can he be in so many places at one time or can he? Then there are those who want it to rain while others want the sun to shine. Then there are those who decide on their love and life partner, decide on their businesses and investments having signed the contracts, and stand before him for his blessings. Of course, he blesses all our ventures. What else could we expect him to do at that juncture. Though he is all-knowing and not telling, we would never know if that was going to be good or bad for us. We have to understand that we have to face the consequences of all our actions.
Life is a butterfly effect where everything we do creates a ripple effect. Though he is a good listener don't expect him to grant our wishes for then he would have to change the whole course of events just to accommodate our wish. This is the understanding we had prior to believing in the Siddhas. If once we thought that life was rigid and fate and destiny were written in stone, coming to the Siddhas we have come to understand that it need not be the case. Fate can be rewritten. A new destiny can be charted together. While only the Siddha can change our fate we have an equal share in charting a new destiny with the Siddhas. It is as simple as following their dictates. Life then begins to flourish. Finally, we arrive at an acceptance of things knowing that "I am not this body. I am this expanse."
The relationship with Agathiyar which started in awe, fear, and devotion, and that turned to respect and honor accepting him as a guru, and later seeing him as a fatherly and motherly figure and often quite unexpectedly turning into that of a friend and buddy soon blossomed into love as in lovers. Sharing this with Acharya Gurudasan from Bangalore last night, he messaged me the following.
"Beautifully put, uncle. They're very playful...And they are happy to play any role in any kind of relationship with sincere disciples...And not just as a formal guru figure.
தாயாகி தந்தையாகி நண்பனாகி காதலராகி ஊணாகி உணர்வுமாகி நானுமாகிய பராபரமே!!"
How true. Today he stands before us or rather is in us as the feeling and vibration that is in the Prapanjam.