The daily routine of home puja that I did twice at dawn and dusk, and the daily temple visits, together with all the reading and debating with senior friends in my bachelor days beginning in 1980, was brought to an end by Lord Siva appearing in a dream back then in 1988. God, who resided in the skies, brought into the temples and homes, is now seen as the Prapanjam and realized within and in all of her creation.
Then, the many rituals I conducted after coming to worship the Siddhas in 2002, on full moon and new moon nights, as well as other auspicious days, together with the charity programs I participated in with Agathiyar bringing several other followers to my home in 2013, were brought to an end back then in 2019 by Agathiyar, who moved me to dissolve the group. For one who used to check the Hindu almanac, now needs to be told or reminded of auspicious days.
When Agathiyar told me that I did right in seeing him and adorned him as Lord Ganapathy during his Sathurthi many years back, a reader mocked me, in the comments section, saying that these deities are different and cannot be the same, sharing a long passage he picked from the sacred texts. I told him if he had so much bookish knowledge, to start his own blog and educate others, and not comment on others' blogs. I deactivated the comments section since then. Today, Agathiyar shows us that he is the Prapanjam and all of it.
So too do many seekers join movements and societies only to become dissatisfied for various reasons and speak ill or write about them without addressing these issues. Instead, it would be noble to leave these movements to start one on their own, where they can do it the way they want. During my days of search to learn about the worship of the Siddhas, I never found any movement engaged in doing it. They only did charity. I opted to stop my search and stay home to carry out my own home puja to the Siddhas with whatever material I had gathered. Soon, Agathiyar sent me Tavayogi to officially guide me. Tavayogi introduced rituals and initiated me officially into Yoga. The Asanas and Pranayama techniques I adopted and practiced that Agathiyar refers to as a treasure have lifted me and given me immense bliss, though it was painful at the very same time. Since then, Agathiyar had me move into the next phase of abstaining from doing anything and instead do nothing. Internal changes began to take place, bringing on body aches and discomfort. Agathiyar consoled me, equating pain with bliss. These have disappeared just as mysteriously as they came on. I am at peace doing nothing.
There are so many lies being told both in the material world and the spiritual. Everything gets adulterated over time. Just as the best recipes and tastes are lost over time, and in preparing and serving the masses, so too in the religious and spiritual field, sermons and rituals become less authentic, irrelevant, and pointless over time, and at times dangerous when given to the masses. Agathiyar tells us to carefully sieve through them, asking us to question them and not to accept blindly.
Religion is personal. Spirituality is even more personal. One drops the association with others when he reaches the higher rungs of the ladder. Agathiyar told me it was now a solo journey, each man for himself, when he brought the shutters down on Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM).