As I am watching the movie "Songs of Paradise", moments into its opening, the young Zeba Akhtar sings, asking if her beloved would accept her despite her imperfections, and adds that "My glass cracked and my vessel lost its tune," likewise Agathiyar accepted me with all my imperfections, flaws, weaknesses, and cracks. Agathiyar is trying to string this instrument and tune me up so that he can play a beautiful tune. I am but only a musical instrument in his hands for him to tune, use, and play his song. Just as her guru pushed her to perform publicly in a male-oriented society back then in Kashmir, Tavayogi pushed me to the forefront to speak, while Agathiyar in not wanting to attract attention to me, is pushing me to write. I shall submit to his wishes as I am a pawn in his hands. I know that whatever he does is for the greater good, as he did mention in the past about the reason to light the Homam was for the good of the Prapanjam and Lord Siva, pointing out the same, telling us that it shall heal her wounds at the height of the pandemic. I guess the reason we are put here, besides granting us our desires and to exhaust our past karma, is to do some good for others' well-being and the world at large. Generally, we take on a task thinking that it is our purpose. Agathiyar says that we shall come to know our true purpose when we travel within and transcend the chakras, and finally arrive at the Sahasrara.
இதுநாள் வரையில் நீ கடந்து வந்தது இவ்வுலக வாழ்க்கையின் பயணம். இனி நீ கடக்க போவது உமது உல் பயணம். ஆதாவது நீ பிறந்ததன் நோக்கம் அறிவாய். உமது மூச்சி உனது சுழுமுனை தொட்டு உமது ஏழு சக்கரங்களில் பயணம் செய்யும் கால் ஏழாவது சக்கரம் தொடும் நிலையில் நீ உனது பிறவிக்கான பலனை அறிவாய். உனது நிலையை நீ தொடும்போது அக்கணம் உன்னை அறியாமல் உன்னை நோக்கி ஒரு சக்தி உன்னுள் இறங்கும் - அதுவே சுழிமுனை. நீங்கள் உள் பயணிக்கும்போது எல்லாம் தெளிவாகத் தெரியும் சமயம் திரை விலகியத்திற்கு அர்த்தம். அதுதான் ஞானம்.
What would mine be, I wonder?
Life itself is a story that is written in real time, or is it? One wonders at times if we are just fulfilling the roles of a movie already scripted by some divine hand. We can relate life to a movie that is orchestrated by the divine. We might as actors suggest some changes, but the decision lies with the directors. Then there is the producer who keeps tabs on the progress of the movie, for he has invested heavily in it. So will the telling of our life story be a blockbuster? Does our life have all the elements of a blockbuster? Who would come to watch it, or in this case, read? I guess man looks for answers and solutions in books, movies, and places. Hence, the reason for a following, be it a blog, a director who delivers a message, or a pilgrimage. All that we read, watch and listen, will not make any sense until we relive it; otherwise, it would just remain mere words.
Two individuals raised in different backgrounds coming together to live under the same roof is a challenge. Then there is the extended family to handle too. Marriages give us the experience to deal with our emotions, either to be patient and calm or otherwise, walk through all struggles or crumble, and many more. Then the experiences gained elsewhere add some spice to life. Watching the movie "Thalaivan Thalaivi" makes us ask what keeps a marriage alive and intact. The Siddhas have predicted that marriages shall crumble. Looking around, it does seem so. Agathiyar, a year ago, asked my children to carry out our 60th wedding, though I was already 65 then. He came to carry out our wedding too, telling me and my wife that it would set an example as to how each couple should honor the other and live together amongst all differences. If there is one thread or element that is positive in both the couple, work on it to strengthen it so that it shall overshadow the other and other's weaknesses.