In the movie "The Lucky One" the lead character in the opening scene walks us through his journey in life.
"You know the smallest thing can change your life. In the blink of an eye, something happens by chance when you least expect it. It sets you on a course that you never planned, into a future you never imagined. Where will it take you? That is the journey of our lives. Our search for the light. But sometimes finding the light means you must pass through the deepest darkness, at least that is how it was for me" and in closing at the end of the movie he says, "Everyone has their own destiny. Not everyone makes the choice to follow it and I am lucky I did."
So am I. I am happy I took heed of Lord Shiva's words in a dream. I am happy I took up the mantra passed on by my nephew's lineage of gurus. I am happy I took heed of the "calling" in me to see the Nadi. I am happy I took up the calling to come to the worship of the Siddhas by Agathiyar in the Nadi. I am happy I listened and carried out the remedies given. I am happy I made my maiden journey to India. I am happy that my wife as she bid me farewell at the door asked me to chart our daughter's horoscope in India. I am happy the tour agent switched the driver and had Deva come pick me up instead. I am happy that Deva's brother-in-law read horoscopes. I am happy it brought me to him, my guru Supramania Swami.
I am happy Nadi Nool Aasan handed me a pamphlet asking for donations. I am happy I kept it with me. I am happy that four years later I recalled seeing the name of the visiting Swami Thangarasan Adigal on the pamphlet. I am happy Mr. Appana Nagappan invited Tavayogi Thangarasan Adigal to Malaysia. I am happy he allowed me an audience with Tavayogi. I am happy Tavayogi took me under his wings.
I am happy Agathiyar had orchestrated all these happenings. It is like watching a movie. Everything fell into place as I took them in my stride without questioning and without making any changes to their plan. As Lao Tzu said so did I go with the flow. It has been a wonderful journey indeed. My family was supportive of my venture and adventure. They joined me later. I am happy that we got to be together again in this birth too after our last at Papanasam. I am happy Agathiyar sent the young seekers to my home to join me in the Pornami puja. The family grew and became Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM). Today armed with the tools, charity, and puja they lead their lives with the Siddhas keeping them company. As we saw in the movie, "Everyone has their own destiny. Not everyone makes the choice to follow it ... ", I am happy for those who still journey with Agathiyar.
As for me, I have journeyed far with Agathiyar. How could I repay his kindness, his compassion, and his love? Here we are in love with someone whom we have not met in person. He is in the paintings, he is in the murti or statue at AVM, he is present in our pujas, he stands by us, he walks with us, he lives in us, he breaths in us, he takes the food through us, he is in our thoughts and the thoughts are his too, he speaks through us, he writes through us, and he keeps watch even after we have retired to bed. He keeps us alive and breathing. He keeps our bodies warm. He keeps us hale and healthy. He cares for our family and kin. He takes over our responsibilities as we take to doing his task. He takes charge of our lives leading us to experience joy and paradise each moment. That is Agathiyar.
I am grateful for all that he has done for me and provided for me. I am forever indebted to him. I do not know what he has in store for me. I guess next we have to see him in nature, all around us, and in the Prapanjam. I do not know if I can attain that state. Only time will tell. I shall carry him within me as long as there is life in me, for I do not know what to expect beyond death. I can only speak about it if I have lived it.
To sir, with love.
Shanmugam Avadaiyappa.