I realize that the messages that dawn in writing a post is always a letter to myself. Seeing those close and those around the world caught amidst wars, in poverty, suffer and grieve brings tears to my eyes. I feel so helpless. What can I do? Should I step away telling myself it is their karma to be endured? I know I cannot possibly wipe their tears much less remove their grieve. I look up towards Agathiyar for answers. Then I realize I have come one circle. I was exactly in this state back then in the eighties. Then Lord Shiva coming in a dream asked me to take a break. I guess I have to take another break.
In speaking to a devotee over the phone Agathiyar asked her to reach out to songs that would bring some solace telling her that I knew them. Indeed these days I keep listening to these songs that are a balm for the soul. I have shared several in this blog.
On another note I am having bodily pain and a terrible headache. But Agathiyar has taught me to ignore them. It is not an energy crisis but rather and excess of it, again a result of the internal changes taking place. I threw up bile and phelgm. Vata too is being expelled. The body periodically clears the excess Dosas. I guess I have to bear with it for some time more.