Going over to meet my friendly neighborhood Siddha physician yesterday to collect my second installment of herbal medicine that Agathiyar had asked me to take in liew of the changes that according to him was taking place within, and speaking to the former, I learned a lesson that we are here only to sow and move on without looking back to see if the seeds have germinate. Pondering over what we had talked for an hour or so later, I came to realize that I, who had all this while carried no ambition, desire or wishes, and pushed away all the gifts that Agathiyar wanted to confer on me, had been carrying the desires and wishes of Agathiyar and Tavayogi to see many come to the fold and flourish too, all this while.
Most of us need someone to organize an event, whether a puja or running charity programs. We prefer to attend rather than spearhead these tasks, which would need our time, effort, and money. Those truly dedicated to the cause who do not wait for another but initiate these are the beacons that shine forever. Seeing many come and go, I had initially carried anger and frustration as they opted to leave the path. I started taking the blame for my failure to lure and keep them on track. But after reading J. Krishnamurthi's thoughts and speeches and talks, I understood that it was a pathless path, that there was no path. Indeed, each is a unique journey that does not have a parallel to compare notes with. I fully understand now why Agathiyar wound up AVM and had me walk solo. Krishnamurthi did the same, too. As long as we are engaged in work, be it for our earthly existence or others, or work in the spiritual sphere, we are feeding our Ego. As my wife said, we were getting high on it; it is in letting go and doing nothing that the ego is shed, and we "arrive" home.
From https://awakentheworld.com/the_pathless_path/, we come across these beautiful statements and truths.
- The ancient mystics, yogis and seers have said that everything is primordial awareness, or non-dual consciousness which is simultaneously emptiness and form (all that is)....
- In Vedanta it is called turiya, the fourth state, the ground of your existence. It is always aware and yet is not separate from what is observed....
- Do not seek enlightenment or extraordinary states of being, since all seeking is the activity of the ego.
- The path is a stripping away of illusion, a letting go of identification with a limited self, so that one wakes up exactly where one is....
Agathiyar, as usual, has steered us away from the numerous traps laid out there. It was time I let go of my purpose, and that, that both Agathiyar and Tavayogi envisioned, as I did all the rest too. If I had learned to drop many things in my life, now I need to drop even the purpose. Only then would I truly exist in awareness, not doing something nor interfering. I think I have understood life, at least for now, for we know Agathiyar is fond of throwing surprises.